Embroidered Pillows and Paper Tigers

After waiting for an unknown amount of time, Li Shi'an was almost numb from the cold in the wind and snow. He wanted to light another cigarette, but he couldn't even hold the cigarette case firmly, so he simply stuffed it back.

When the people in the theater began to go out in twos and threes, Li Shi'an began to stare at the backstage exit. However, until more than ten minutes later, almost all the audience in front had left, and no one was seen coming out of this exit.

Could theater have changed the landscape?This is no longer an exit?

Li Shi'an was very flustered. He wanted to go around the theater to inquire again, but he was afraid that he would miss Shen Yan when he left. Just as he was hesitating, a group of people came out from the exit, talking and laughing. They were all foreign faces with high noses and deep eyes. , did not speak English, and Li Shi'an couldn't understand.

He had imagined the scene of Shen Yan walking towards him through the turbulent crowd countless times, thinking that this time it would come true, but he still didn't see it.

Li Shi'an was a little depressed, and walked towards the exit with the flowers in his arms, wanting to see for himself whether all the people inside were gone, but he was stopped by the security guard as soon as he entered.

No one, empty.

He even began to wonder if he had read it wrong, the person on that poster was not Shen Yan at all.

Li Shi'an stood on the small platform outside the theater, almost lost consciousness from the cold, the phone in his pocket rang over and over again, and it wasn't until the fifth time that he regained his soul and answered the phone.

"Didn't you come back? Why didn't you come?" Zhu He's voice was on the other end of the phone.

Li Shi'an didn't know that after Zhu He sent Tang Doudou back that night, he made up his mind to never see him and Tang Doudou again. The two hadn't seen each other for a long time. , Zhu He always called him without saying a word.

Hearing the voice of an old friend whom he hadn't seen for several years, Li Shi'an said, "Let's find a place to have a drink, I want to drink."

Tang Doudou was getting married, and Zhu He was in a bad mood, so he agreed simply: "Okay."

After hanging up the phone, Li Shi'an looked at the bouquet of birds of paradise in his hand, then looked up at the XX Theater in front of him, walked over and put the flowers on the snow-covered steps.

He took a few steps back, like a solemn and polite farewell, intending to leave here, and then bumped into a strong and warm chest, the phone in his hand fell with a sound, and the screen shattered.

Li Shi'an turned his head and saw the person behind him wearing a large and soft brown sweater and a red scarf that almost covered his face. Under the dim yellow streetlights, he looked very warm.

A burst of uncontrollable sourness filled his eyes, and he said, "Long time no see."

It's not long time no see, it's sorry, I miss you so much, please forgive me, please hug me, and please don't leave again.

It's just that at this moment, Li Shi'an couldn't say anything, he just stared at Shen Yan blankly, even his heart was trembling.

Shen Yan frowned with a faint line between his brows. He looked at Li Shi'an quietly. He had come out with the actors more than ten minutes ago. I saw Li Shi'an, so I left aside my colleagues and hid at the corner of the exit passage.

When Li Shi'an rushed past the security guards to enter the backstage, he passed by him at that corner, and he saw all the actions of this fool in the dark.

Watching him searching, seeing him lost, watching him put the bouquet of flowers on the steps of the theater, the grievance and unwillingness accumulated in his heart for so many years seemed to be a little comforted.

"Long time no see, are you coming to the show?" Shen Yan said the first words between the two after eight years.

"Correct."

In the few seconds before Shen Yan answered, Li Shi'an felt as if it had gone through a century, so he answered hastily, and after a brief affirmation, he explained embarrassingly, "But I missed it."

It's not that I missed it, but I bought a fake ticket and was stopped outside.

"Oh." Shen Yan nodded regretfully, the man who had been thinking about it day and night for eight years was standing in front of him, his calm surface had a turbulent heart.

Li Shi'an was wearing formal attire, which is the standard attire for entering the theater. It seemed that he came prepared, but why did he miss it?He wanted to ask, but didn't know how to ask.

"Can we find a place to talk?" Li Shi'an was anxious about the progress of the conversation between the two. He was afraid that Shen Yan would suddenly say goodbye to him, so he wanted to find an excuse to keep the other party.

Shen Yan glanced at his flimsy attire, before he could speak, Li Shi'an said as if he was very afraid of his rejection: "Xiao Qian has been following me all these years, don't you want to know how she is?"

"Xiao Qian?" Shen Yan was puzzled.

Li Shi'an rubbed his forehead, feeling confused: "Xiaotong, I changed his name."

Shen Yan was taken aback for a moment, then nodded.

The two came to the side of the road to hail a car one after the other. Li Shi'an opened the door and let Shen Yan get in the car first. He also sat in the back seat. After telling the driver the address, the car fell into silence.

For some reason, within 10 minutes after getting in the car, Li Shi'an felt drowsy, top-heavy, and his eyelids were so heavy that he couldn't lift them.

Why are you sleepy again after sleeping until the afternoon?He struggled not to let himself fall asleep at this time, but when the taxi turned two streets, he fell on Shen Yan's shoulder.

When he woke up, Li Shi'an found that he was back in the hotel room, and Shen Yan was beside the bed, with his hands folded, one index finger tapping the beat.

Seeing Li Shi'an woke up, Shen Yan said: "You have a fever, I can't wake you up no matter what, I found a room card in your clothes, so I brought you up."

At this moment, Li Shi'an's mind is full of thoughts: He didn't leave while I was sleeping, can it be redeemed?

Shen Yan's next words extinguished his fantasy: "I see that your mobile phone is broken, and I was afraid that you would need help and could not find anyone, so I decided to guard you for a while, and it is time to go back now."

Li Shi'an turned his head to look at the window, it was still dark, he stretched out his hand to hold Shen Yan: "It's so late, and it's still snowing outside, are you sure you want to go?"

Shen Yan said, "It's been less than an hour since we came up."

The scene was embarrassing for a while, Li Shi'an struggled whether to let go of Shen Yan's hand, but finally he decided to show his face: "Didn't you say you want to talk about Xiaoqian?"

Shen Yan finally sat back down again, and he asked: "Didn't your father say that he would find him a home? Why did he follow you?"

Seeing that Shen Yan was finally willing to talk, Li Shi'an sat up from the bed, leaned against the head of the bed and said, "I was looking for a client, but Xiaoqian has a physical defect, so he returned it."

"What defect?" Shen Yan frowned.

Li Shi'an said: "She can't hear. The family had raised him for more than a year before they found out that Xiaoqian was going to have a cochlear implant. They wanted me to help pay for the operation. I saw that they were not very sincere. Xiaoqian Qian followed them, and there are still many unknowns in the future, so I was afraid that she would suffer, so I took her back."

Shen Yan asked: "Then has she had the surgery?"

"I did it." Li Shi'an replied, "It was a success."

"Where did you get the money?" Shen Yan asked suddenly, he knew that Li Qishan hated him to death, Li Shi'an wanted to raise Xiaoqian, Li Qishan would probably not agree.

"Borrowed." Meeting Shen Yan's questioning eyes, Li Shi'an said again, "I borrowed 50 from Tang Doudou."

Then he saw Shen Yan's expressionless face, which became even more indifferent.

"I have already paid it back," Li Shi'an said hastily, "I came back this time to attend her wedding."

Shen Yan's complexion was still ugly, but it was no longer because of Tang Doudou.

He understood that Li Shi'an would ask Tang Doudou to borrow money, and he must have been cornered. All these years, he had to raise a child and pay back the money. What kind of life did he live?He is obviously a young master who can't do anything, and can't do anything, but he raises children for others?

Shen Yan's nose suddenly became a little sore, he was a little emotional, and softly called out: "Li Shi'an."

Li Shi'an could no longer suppress his emotions in this soft call, he took Shen Yan's hand and said, "I'm sorry Shen Yan, I'm sorry, I'm sorry I didn't believe you."

Shen Yan froze his fingers and did not respond, he only asked: "Do you believe it now?"

Li Shi'an was silent.

Shen Yan asked again: "Why?"

Li Shi'an said: "I found her medicine, Paxil, in your mother's backpack. She didn't stop taking the medicine after she had Xiaoqian. What she said to you about being sorry for Xiaoqian should be referring to this."

Shen Yan's fingers curled up slightly, and his vision became hazy.

At that time, he was so sure that Qu Ya wasn't overwhelmed by the two of them, but as time went by, many memories were mixed together, and he began to doubt again, suspecting that what Li Shi'an said was right, doubting what Qu Ya said before she was alive. What he said was purely his imagination.

In countless dreams in foreign countries, he never dreamed of Qu Ya or Li Shi'an, but he could dream of Fu Youcheng time and time again. In the dream, Fu Youcheng grabbed him with grim facial features and said, "You are a vampire. You survived by sucking your mother's blood, you dragged your mother down, she would have lived well without you."

He once broke down and almost dropped out of school. Then, with the help of a teacher, he went to see a psychiatrist. The doctor suggested that he start taking medicine, and the name of the medicine was Paxil.

However, taking medicine didn't help, and his condition was getting worse and worse. Later, he couldn't remember whether Li Shi'an was crying when he chased the car on the day he left, and he couldn't even remember whether Li Shi'an went to see him off.

At the most serious time, he even thought that "Li Shi'an" was just his imaginary lover. Those years spent together, studying together, going to grandparents' house together, traveling together, cooking together, swimming together, taking care of Zhu Hyuk together, Arriving late to the ballet, snuggling days and nights...all fake.

He was walking on the edge of madness, until one day his dancing shoes broke, and when he was looking for spare dancing shoes in a box in the closet, he found a pair of dancing shoes with paintings on them, and the drawing showed two cartoon characters leaning together , when he saw the little black dot on the ear of one of the villains, he hugged the dancing shoes in his arms and screamed frantically in the empty room.

Everything was true, but it made his heart hurt even more.

If it wasn't for signing a contract with the dance troupe, Shen Yan probably would never want to return to City D in his life.After he came back, apart from performing, he only went to visit Qu Ya's tomb, and almost stayed at home.However, God made him meet Li Shi'an again.

Li Shi'an watched Shen Yan sitting on the edge of the bed, saw his elbows resting on his knees, saw his hands hang down limply, and his heart twitched fiercely, his fingers separated Shen Yan's long fingers, trying to interlock with Shen Yan's. grip.

"Forgive me." Li Shi'an said, "forgive me for hurting you so much, forgive me for always being cowardly, I will never disbelieve you in the future, never drive you away, never let you be so far away from me again, forgive me I……"

Shen Yan forgave the moment he heard the word "I'm sorry", how could he really hate this person?He looked up at Li Shi'an, because of his illness, Li Shi'an's face was extremely pale.

The person in front of him is real, Shen Yan is very sure, he still loves this person, he is also very sure, otherwise why did he not turn around and leave when they met in the theater, but quietly observe what Li Shi'an is doing?

Otherwise, why would you not be able to resist going out to meet Li Shi'an when you saw Li Shi'an looking around for him and putting the bouquet of flowers on the steps of the theater?

God knows how much joy this reunion made him.

Seeing the thick eyelashes glued together by the moisture of tears, and seeing the red lips opening and closing, Shen Yan could no longer hear what Li Shi'an was saying. The desire to hug and kiss rose in his heart. go up.