Embroidered Pillows and Paper Tigers

The last words were drowned in the approaching kiss, Li Shi'an was crushed by Shen Yan in the middle of the soft quilt, he froze for a moment, then tried his best to cater to him.

Because of the daily practice of lifting, Shen Yan's strength in his hands was astonishingly great, and he lost his measure under the urgent impulse, until he gradually felt the stiffness of Li Shi'an's limbs, only then did he remember that he was still sick.

He tried his best to restrain his gushing desire/desire, pushed the person in his arms away a little bit, panting and said: "Wait a minute, you are still sick..."

"Don't wait," Li Shi'an panted and stretched out one hand to hook Shen Yan's neck, brought him closer, looked at him, and then used the other hand to unbutton Shen Yan's clothes, "Don't wait, just Now."

He said, right now.

With crazy eyes, Shen Yan leaned over and kissed Li Shi'an.

The fine snow flutters gently outside the window, the world is cold, and only intimate hugs can comfort a lonely soul. Shen Yan's strong arms supported Li Shi'an's thin back, making him stick tightly to his strong chest.

Li Shi'an's arm rested on Shen Yan's shoulder, the pain and high fever made him weak, he rubbed his fingers into Shen Yan's thick hair, and looked into Shen Yan's eyes from such an intimate distance.

These eyes have cried for him, and he doesn't mind falling into them from now on.

"I'm sorry," he said.

"Don't say sorry," Shen Yan licked his ear, "Say you love me."

Li Shi'an was shuddered by the heat in his ears, tremblingly said: "I love you."

"Say you never leave me again."

"I will never leave you again."

"Say you're mine."

"I'm yours."

If these words can soothe the wounded soul, Li Shi'an doesn't mind repeating them ten thousand times.

Not knowing whether it was due to the pain in the body or the great sadness in his heart, a tear fell from the corner of Li Shi'an's eye, Shen Yan held him tightly in his arms, and kissed the tear away.

It was late at night, and a snowflake accidentally fell on the glass window, which was instantly melted by the scalding temperature inside the house.

Li Shi'an broke out in sweat and fell into a deep sleep. Shen Yan gently stroked his sweaty hair, touched his forehead, confirmed that the fever was gone, and then closed his eyes and fell asleep.

The next morning Li Shi'an woke up with sore body, looked at Shen Yan who was still sleeping beside him, and gently held his face with one hand.

Shen Yan never sleeps deeply, and he wakes up as soon as he touches her.

"Are you ready?" he asked, opening his eyes.

Li Shi'an nodded, the fever was gone, but his throat was very sore.

"I'll get up and wash up." He said hoarsely and got up from the bed.

"I'll wash it for you." Shen Yan said as if to get up.

"Don't..." Li Shi'an pursed his lips in embarrassment. He felt that he must be in a terrible mess, and he didn't want Shen Yan to see him.

When the bathroom heard the sound of water, Shen Yan sat up leaning against the head of the bed. He took the mobile phone on the bedside table and sent a message to his colleague. Yesterday was their last performance, and he was afraid that he would have to go back at night for the originally scheduled return flight. a few days.

Just after sending the message, there was a knock on the door, and then he heard someone shout: "Li Shi'an? Are you there? Open the door!"

Who is looking for someone at this time?Shen Yan was puzzled, after talking so much with Li Shi'an last night, he didn't even figure out why Li Shi'an stayed in the hotel, so he had to get up and open the door.

It was only when he got up that he remembered that he was wearing a pair of underwear. After dancing last night, he had another exercise with Li Shian. One set of bathrobes on the body.

The door opened, and the two people inside and outside the door were all taken aback.

In the end, it was Old Xie who called out first: "Shen Yan?! When did you come back?"

Li Shi'an asked Zhu He for a drink last night, Zhu He went to the bar, got drunk and didn't wait for Li Shi'an, and no one answered the phone. If young people of this age disappear after playing, it's probably a romantic incident, Zhu He express understanding.

Today is Tang Doudou's wedding. Brothers, who are Tang Doudou's "natal family", blocked the door when the groom snatched the marriage, but Li Shi'an was missing.

Lao Xie and Zhu He hurriedly called Li Shi'an, but they still couldn't get through, so they panicked, and hurried to the hotel to see, who knew they would run into Shen Yan.

"Where's Shi An?"

Before Shen Yan could answer, Lao Xie was about to lean in while asking, but Zhu He grabbed him.

"Why are you pulling me?" Old Xie patted Zhu He's hand away, and went inside ignorantly.

Then the door of the bathroom in the room opened, and a man wearing a bathrobe walked out, with a bruised scar on his collarbone and pale blue eyes.

Both of them were taken aback, Zhu He covered his eyes outside the door.

"Did I come at the wrong time?" Lao Xie also covered his eyes belatedly, he quickly folded out, pushed Zhu He outside and said, "Let's go, let's go!".

Li Shi'an: "..."

Li Shi'an's original plan was to rush back to Luozhi Lake immediately after Tang Doudou's wedding, but the reality is that he has already stayed in City D for two more days.

On the second night, he finally bought a new mobile phone. As soon as the card was replaced, he received a call from Li Qishan. Li Qishan said over there: "It's snowing in the lake area, when are you coming back?"

Xiaoqian also shouted over there: "Dad, Dad, when are you coming back?"

Shen Yan didn't know who made the call before, but he guessed it as soon as he heard this immature voice.

Li Shi'an said to the other end of the phone: "...I don't know yet."

Li Qishan seemed to have noticed something, he asked: "Is there something wrong?"

Li Shi'an and Shen Yan looked at each other, shook Shen Yan's hand and said to Li Qishan, "I found Shen Yan, do you still want me to come back?"

There was a sudden silence on the other end of the phone. Li Shi'an glanced at the phone, made sure that Li Qishan hadn't hung up, and said "Hello" softly.

Just when he was desperately waiting for a series of blind voices, he heard Li Qishan say: "You are all fathers, haven't you been able to make decisions for yourself a long time ago? The hotel is yours and not mine. I just show you two things. It's just a Tiandian... If you don't come back, who cares?"

After Li Qishan finished speaking, he hung up the phone.

Li Shi'an stood there blankly, he thought that Li Qishan would scold him, and even if he didn't scold him, he would hang up the phone directly, but this change was too sudden.

***

The night at Luozhi Lake was very dark, Li Qishan sat in front of the hotel and watched the snowflakes falling outside the floor-to-ceiling windows of the lobby.

At this time yesterday, a guest was standing in front of a painting in this hall.

The painting depicts a woman with disheveled hair like dry grass, eyes like cracked earth, lightning marks painted on her stomach, twisted limbs, drooping chest, and her mouth is wide open, as if she wants to shout something, but it seems to be blocked by something Stop, can't make a sound.

In Li Qishan's eyes, this painting is very scary, because the things expressed in the painting are dark and obscure, and it always reminds him of someone.

Li Shi'an is very talented in painting. Most of his paintings can make people think and stop to watch, as if there is a story behind each painting. However, Li Qishan has not seen a single person who has looked directly at this painting in the past few days. Draw, this man is the first.

He said to the guest whose back was turned to him: "The name of this painting is "Mom."

When the guest turned his head, Li Qishan saw the person that the painting often reminded him of, and almost thought he was hallucinating.

After nearly 30 years, this woman is still as young as when she left, and her temperament is more elegant and capable. There is no trace of cellulite in the close-fitting sweater, and she does not wear makeup, but her face shows no signs of aging. Li Qishan almost suspects that time is only for He did it alone.

"I didn't come back to fight for your son. In fact, until now, I can't accept the fact that I am another person's mother."

The two were sitting and talking in front of the large French windows in the front hall. Liang Jing held a cigarette between her slender and soft fingers, and slowly shook the ash into the ashtray on the table.

Li Qishan asked: "Then why are you coming back?"

Li Qishan once thought that after Liang Jing left, he would come back one day because he missed the child so much, but the fact that he had been away for many years only proved that he underestimated the cold-bloodedness of this woman.

Liang Jing's answer was beyond his expectation. She said, "I came back for you."

"For me?" Li Qishan seemed to hear something funny.

Liang Jing didn't feel embarrassed at all: "You are one of the most traditional people who pursue stability. You should find someone who pursues stability like you to marry and have children. Shi'an and I have harmed you."

Li Qishan narrowed his eyes slightly: "You know about Shi'an? How do you know?"

Liang Jing took a shallow puff of cigarette, and slowly exhaled the smoke circle before saying: "I teach in a dance academy abroad, and one day I found your name while reviewing a student's application materials. I was a little confused and thought He is Shi'an, but he felt that even if you changed his name, he would not let him change his surname, so I paid more attention to this child, and later I found out that he has problems, he is very withdrawn, autistic, and very abnormal."

Li Shi'an said, "You mean Shen Yan."

"Yes." Liang Jing nodded, put out the cigarette in the ashtray, "He is in the dance troupe with me now, and he is the student I am most proud of."

Li Qishan thought she was here to be Shen Yan's lobbyist, so he slapped the table angrily and stood up, "It's been almost 30 years, and you have ignored your own son, yet you came here to speak for someone else's son?"

Liang Jing looked at his sudden impulsiveness and acted very calmly, she asked: "Li Qishan, do you still hate me?"

Li Qishan was stunned as if someone poked his mind, and then sat back on the sofa.

Liang Jing smiled slightly: "You shouldn't hate me. Before I married you, you and I both knew that we didn't like each other, but it was because of children's obedience to their parents."

"At least I am willing to marry you, and I am willing to give everything for the family, how about you?" Li Qishan couldn't help asking, he had been wronged a lot these years, in all fairness, he thought he was a good man and a good father, but he was there are not recognized.

The woman left, the child rebelled, and he had to sell his property when he was old, because the son was unwilling to inherit it.

There were so many grievances, but when he thought of the depressed days when Liang Jing gave birth to Li Shi'an, he couldn't bear to blame him. He said: "I hate you all these years, but your parents. If I knew that your mother forced you to die If you get married, I will not marry you, and Shi'an will not become what it is now."

Liang Jing asked: "So what are you going to do with Shi'an? Let him marry a girl. When they get divorced in middle age, will that girl hate you like you hate my parents?"

Li Qishan became angry again: "This is different!"

"You know it's the same. I choose to dedicate my whole life to the cause I like. It's no different from young people choosing who to die with." Liang Jing's voice is still very calm. She hasn't been with Li Qishan for long, but she knows enough This man, she went on to say, "Didn't you realize that you have become the kind of parents you hate and hate the most these years? If you continue to insist, you will lose Shi'an, just like my parents lost me."

"Shi'an is not as selfish as you! He won't leave me." Li Qishan retorted righteously, but he didn't dare to look into Liang Jing's eyes.

Faced with Li Qishan's accusation, Liang Jing was not angry. She said: "I am indeed a selfish person. I never deny that Shi'an is not like me. So you want to use the so-called filial piety to ruin your son's life? As a parent How are you better than me and my parents? Li Qishan, you can't just ask him for obedience just because you raised him."

Li Qishan fell into silence.

Liang Jing felt that she had said everything she could say and did everything she could do. She took the coat on the sofa and put it on, wrapped her scarf around her, and got up to say goodbye.

"That's it." She said, before pushing open the glass door of the hall, "I owe you an apology these years, please forgive me."

As the door opened and closed, Liang Jing disappeared into the night's wind and snow. If it wasn't for the faint smell of women's cigarettes in the room, Li Qishan almost felt that she had never been here at all.

The sudden wind blowing in from the room made Li Qishan's nose sore, he realized that he had already compromised, and he just needed someone to convince him.Li Shi'an couldn't, because he had absolute "paternal power" in front of him. Liang Jing was right, this absolute "paternal power" always forced him to ask his children to obey.

Li Qishan was very afraid that Li Shian would leave him, so he always wanted to keep Xiaoqian by his side, because he knew that keeping Xiaoqian was keeping Li Shian.

But is this really the way?In fact, he had doubted more than once.

Before Li Shi'an left Luozhi Lake to attend the wedding, they quarreled fiercely. The determination and persistence in Li Shi'an's eyes made Li Qishan realize that this child had never obeyed him, since he was with Shen Yan, since he intended to adopt Xiaoqian, and since he I quit my job and came here to start this hotel.

Li Shi'an's rebellion is exactly the same as Liang Jing's.

He will indeed leave him, even if he does not leave, there is no possibility of reconciliation between the father and son, only poor Xiaoqian will carefully deal with them.

Li Qishan was shaken, that's why he acquiesced in that phone call.