My three roommates are not human

Although there are countermeasures, it doesn't mean that I can take my time with peace of mind - mama can't attack me now because he doesn't control the world.If there is no one in the study room, that's fine, but it's a pity that the three of abc are still in ta's hands.

TA can completely use the method of hurting ABC to force them to tell where the information of this world is hidden.And the simple and stubborn temperament of the three of ABC directly determined that they would suffer some hardships at the hands of Mama.

And just now, the reason mama is so hesitant must be that he has begun to suspect that I can control my own thinking.It's just that he didn't expect that my current level of control of thinking can be so superb that I can't hide it from him who trusts me so much.

I have to hurry.

Some people had gathered around the roadside. There was an old man and a middle school student. They looked at me worriedly and asked if I needed help.I know I'm going to look pretty bad (maybe more suspicious, since I'm literally on weed right now), but this isn't the time for extra drama.I stood up quickly, raised my hand to show them that there was nothing wrong with me, and then ran away in a hurry, leaving a distance.

With one-tenth of my power, I can feel "time" intuitively.The time now is like the progress bar on a movie or the number of pages in a book to me.It has changed from an unpredictable and mysterious thing to a toy that can be held in the palm of your hand.

The time point where I am now is the same as the time point in another world.Although I don't think Deng Qi in this world can live to the present, but just to be on the safe side, I still went downstairs to their house and wandered around.

Even though I have gained power, even though I feel like I have become a superhuman existence, when I see familiar scenes and familiar people, I still feel in a trance for a moment.When I first knew that there might be such a normal world where "only I don't exist", I did have this thought -- in this case, then I will live in this peaceful world peacefully and ordinaryly, no okay?

There is abc on the other side who can take the blame for me, as long as they die and don't open their mouths, mama can't find me.In this world, the meaning of Deng Qi's life has not changed, and I can live happily with him.Even if I know everything is false, as long as I don't speak out, doubt, or think, wouldn't the false become true?

But in barely a few seconds, I vetoed my own thoughts.This is not necessarily a righteous heart, and I don't think I am a completely righteous person.But as long as I know that in that world, there is still the dead Deng Qi and the living ABC waiting for me, it is impossible for me to really abandon that world.

When I was walking around the door of Deng Qi's house, I suddenly saw a familiar figure drifting by - it was Xiaoshou.

I could feel that I was immediately hit by a sense of guilt—Xiaoshou here didn't know that his current life was exchanged for his own painful death in another world.

And his death has a certain relationship with me.

I am one of the murderers.

Now, the dead victim suddenly appeared in front of my eyes.

"Ah..." I accidentally made a sound.

Xiaoshou quickly turned his head, a look of confusion flashed in his eyes.

I went forward and fooled around, and finally convinced him that I was a distant relative Deng Qi hadn't seen for many years.When he mentioned "they haven't seen each other for many years", there was a flash of dodge in his eyes, as if he was avoiding some painful facts.

I'm already sure that Deng Qi here probably doesn't exist anymore at this point in time.

Sure enough, Xiaoshou told me that one day in college, he suddenly returned to his home, cut his wrists and committed suicide. The death was extremely strange, and he even died laughing.And the cause of death... Speaking of which, the usually good-tempered Xiaoshou actually took a deep breath. He told me that the cause of Deng Qi's death was extremely unworthy.

Of course I understand the cause of his death, but at this moment, I have more important things to do.

I pretended to be taken aback, and then even squeezed out two tears, and questioned Xiaoshou about when Deng Qi passed away.

How far has it been since I was away from him.

In the midst of Xiaoshou's hesitation, I finally knew the exact time of Deng Qi's death - I can know this exact time, thanks to Deng Qi in this world, who happened to choose the day when there was a campus event, and started his suicide Behavior.

After saying goodbye to Xiaoshuai, I let out a deep breath, used this power for the first time, and started the transformation of time and space.

It is not as difficult as I imagined. Time and space are moving in my illusory hands like a progress bar that is easy to push.I felt that the real world just now suddenly became as light as a piece of paper, and everything was blurred, folded and kneaded by me, and soon came to the time and place I wanted.

Just one tenth of the power can hold a world in the palm of your hand. It is self-evident how powerful mama is.I couldn't help but think, it's a good thing I didn't confront that guy head-on, otherwise, I'm afraid I wouldn't even have a chance of surviving.

Now I can temporarily escape the suppression of 100% of his power, so I must cherish this opportunity.

I chose to appear in Deng Qi's room in the form of a ghost. According to Xiaoshou, he committed suicide by cutting his wrists alone in his room that night.

For the resurrection of the first Dengzi, I have to witness Dengzi's death again.This seems cruel to me, but things have come to the point where I don't think there is anything unacceptable.

One dead man is better than two dead men.If I can save one person, I am willing to step on another person's corpse.

My gradually indifferent attitude made me a little scared. This seems to be the attitude of "God" to "man", and it is hard not to let me feel that this is a side effect of this power.

In the future, after stripping off this power, can I really... survive as an ordinary person?

I appeared above the beams, Xiaoshou really remembered correctly, I saw that Deng Qi appearing in this room.

At ten o'clock in the evening, he went out, said good night to his parents, and then closed the door.

He sat down and began to write his diary for today calmly.

I slowly flew down from the beam, he couldn't feel the existence of the ghost, and continued to do what he was doing.

Without Deng Qi's knowledge, I watched his face carefully.It is indeed exactly the same face as the Deng Qi I know well, but at first glance, it is quite different.

I don't even have any doubts, put the two Deng Qis in front of my eyes, and I can instantly recognize which one is the Deng Qi I know.

Deng Qi here, although he looks the same, is... completely lifeless.

He was lifeless, his eyes seemed to have no focus, and he just stared blankly at the diary, including when writing the diary, I didn't feel the emotional outburst that ordinary people would have, I just felt that his pen was in his hand Dancing naturally.

This is... a person who has lost the meaning of life.

What's more, he didn't know that he had lost the meaning of life, he only felt that he seemed to have lost something very important somewhere, that he couldn't see the road ahead, and couldn't find the meaning of his existence.

I couldn't help but look down at his diary, and my eyes burned almost instantly - this is really not something that ordinary people would write, and the pages are full of "meaning of life" and "living" tangled pain.

Writing these things repeatedly in his diary, his mental state is actually very wrong.But at the same time, this world has copied Deng Qigao's IQ setting. He must be very clear that his mental state is undergoing bad changes.

However, he could only watch helplessly as he continued to fall towards the bottom of the cliff.

I leaned over and looked at his newly written content. This Deng Qi made me feel familiar and unfamiliar. A person who looked exactly like the Deng Qi I knew was using this pair of leather cases to do actions that I was completely unfamiliar with.

Some writing gradually fell on the diary.

"Everyone has some vague goals. Fatty wants to make money and marry a wife; thin wants to study hard and transcend his own class. What do I want to do? I don't know. But I don't know what I want There are many people who do what they do, and I am different from them. They have no goals, and they can vaguely follow everyone's requirements and follow the torrent of society to live, but I clearly know that every second of my life is waste time."

"I definitely have some purpose, some meaning to live, but I haven't found it yet."

"Before I went to college, I always felt that the meaning might be hidden there, and I just tried my best to discover it. But when I really crossed that high mountain, I realized that there is no Taoyuan I imagined behind the high mountain. Only new mountains."

"The mountain will not become my meaning. To live is nothingness. Death is my equivalent exchange with nothingness. It will not become a meaningless thing. It will be the only handover between me and meaning."

"Mom and Dad don't have to be sad for me. Death may be the end, but my life has never had a beginning."

After writing this passage that I couldn't understand at all, Deng Qi suddenly sneered. It was the first time he said something in front of me, and even the way of speaking was different.

Deng Qi here is like a small animal muttering to himself: "Even death...is it meaningless..."

He chose to commit suicide by cutting his pulse, one of the most painful and lengthy ways of death, probably as he said, he has been searching for the meaning that does not know where it is, and he has tried every means and exhausted his energy.

There are thousands of meanings. For him, it is like finding a needle in a haystack, but he never gives up.

Even death is a way for him to pursue meaning.