My three roommates are not human

I was so startled that I forgot to do anything, even where I was, but for the other "I", all he could see was a black shadow standing in the darkness, I can't see my distorted face in surprise.

Just now, in addition to the detail of "Deng Qi typed this line", I also noticed a very important detail - when he typed that line, there was no "believe in yourself" juxtaposed in the diary.

This is really easy to find out, because when I was in the diary, the large paragraphs of "believe in yourself" all appeared in the diary with majestic momentum.

Then, when he typed this line, the reason why there was no other similar words in the diary was already obvious—Deng Qi was the first person to type this line in the diary.

My hand trembled slightly, and the blood that just flowed from the palm also dripped on the floor twisted and twisted with my shaking. I tried to repair my palm with the strength I had just gained, and it worked immediately.

It only took a few seconds for the wound to shrink little by little until it disappeared completely, and even the drops of blood that hadn't had time to drip were still hanging on his hand.

...Since this power is so powerful, why don't Deng Qi use it to repair his body?

My thoughts became confused, and many things I was sure of in the past, because of this memory I discovered today, have undergone earth-shaking subversion in my mind.

The words "believe in yourself" have had a huge impact on me.Even if I don't know how other "I"s are soothed by this statement, for this me alone, this statement has a lot of meaning.

From the time I woke up until now, I have been driven to action by this statement.Without these words, I would never have dared to go up to the second floor, enter that strange room, and discover everything that happened afterwards.After knowing this sentence, I will have the determination to become a corpse under the pagoda, and I will use my life to build a future of escape.When I was in a panic, once I read this sentence in my heart, I felt like a spring breeze blowing on my face, and a hot current rushed through my heart, and I calmed down all of a sudden.

...In a word, will it really have such a big effect?

If the previous ones were not enough to make me realize the unusualness of this sentence, then just now, at the moment when I wanted to kill "me", this sentence that suddenly appeared in my heart eliminated my killing intention, which is enough to show that This sentence works.

It is simply a... safe word, a spiritual suggestion, a... spell to protect me.

As long as I read this sentence, my spirit will stabilize; as long as I face "I" myself, I will not be able to kill the killer.

Before that, no matter how unstable my mind is, no matter how much my nerve fluctuates, when I say this sentence, I will become a normal person again.

And it suddenly appeared at the moment when I saw "my" face.At that moment, this sentence suddenly popped into my heart.

Deng Qi... I knew at all that I would face "me" myself one day! !This safe word, this spell, was set up to avoid the ending of me killing myself! ! !

He even...maybe even predicted that I would go insane because of controlling this world! ! !

If this statement is correct, then...my previous conjectures will have to be overthrown and restarted.

I loosened the palm I had inadvertently clenched so as not to hurt myself again.For the "I" on the opposite side, it was just a black shadow standing blankly in the dark for a few seconds, but for me, this shadow, it was a silent avalanche of logic that belonged to me.

I'm trying to sort out this mess.

The private diary that I thought I escaped because of the password has actually been under the surveillance of Deng Qi. Not only did he not expose me, but he also allowed me to keep recording like this.If it stops here, I can completely accept it, which perfectly fits the image of Deng Qi in my eyes-a cruel hunter who likes to watch his prey struggle under his hands.

But no.

Not only did he allow me to record everything, but he even took the initiative to guide my thoughts.Before that, I did think about it for a second, the first "I" who wrote "Believe in myself", how did he think of this sentence, but because I couldn't think of an answer, I had to give up.

And now the answer is in front of my eyes - the first person to write this key sentence is not me at all, but Deng Qi, who I have been fearing, fearing, and hating.

With the guidance of this sentence, there will be the next, repeated repetitions one after another.

And... I'm afraid, it's more than that.

When I heard this sentence and thought of it, my reaction was too abnormal.In addition to this superficial guidance, would Deng Qi... secretly guide me spiritually?Could it have hypnotized me before I knew it, and embedded this spell into my soul?

This is too easy for him who has strength.

And all this, all this complexity, is just so that when I see "me", it will not kill me-in short, to help me survive.

It's the complete opposite of what I've always felt.

I always thought that Deng Qi wanted me to die, just to enjoy the fun of playing with prey before killing me, but the fact that appeared in front of me now made it impossible for me to deceive myself——Deng Qi, It's really helping me survive.

According to this logic, I continued to move forward in the long corridor of memory.Then, it was Deng Qi who helped me come to this point in the past, and it was Deng Qi who deliberately pretended to hurt "me" and forced me to kill him at the very moment.

Now, all the things that confuse me, all the contradictory things, have a reason that can be connected together - he asked me to come here to let me kill him, let me kill him, to let I live, let me live, so that... let me take over the world.

Although there are still many details that I don't understand in these things: why he didn't tell everything directly, why he always deliberately pretended to be a persecutor, for example, but this is not important anymore.

The important thing is that Deng Qi is definitely not an enemy.

For me, my safe word is "believe in yourself", which helps me to trust my instincts when I act, and, when time jumps to meet another self, I will not be killed by insanity.

So, what about Deng Qi?

Now I understand that this world is a Pandora's box, on the surface it gives you unparalleled power, but in fact, it will sneak into your spiritual world, replace yours with its will, and force you to kill other people living in this world.I have just received this world for less than an hour, and I almost did such a stupid thing as killing myself. Then, the former owner of this world, Deng Qi, how long has he endured such mental pollution?

If it is really according to what he said, the days that I wandered here with him are counted in thousands, then, during these thousands of days when I did not die, how the will of the world tortured his head, with constant Flashing scarlet letters and silent spiritual pollution, to force him to kill me?

But I'm not dead, I'm still standing here intact, which shows that Deng Qi's torment... even a few hours ago, was still going on.

But he didn't kill me, obviously as long as he kills me, he can avoid all these unbearable tortures.This is not a normal world. Killing a person would not violate the laws in real life, and for him who had power, killing someone would certainly not be difficult.

But he just didn't.

He even preserved a very rare sanity.When I woke up, I was able to have a normal conversation with me, and even what I thought was "crazy", it wasn't really crazy, it was just emotional excess within the range of normal people.

I have "believe in yourself" as a mantra, a safety word, and he?

A glimpse of the spiritual world has given me the answer.

it's me.

I couldn't help but clenched my fists.

His safe word, his heart-purifying mantra, his source of sanity... are all me.

I stood there blankly, and the time for thinking was actually quite short. Objectively speaking, it was only a few seconds, but to me, it seemed as long as centuries.

I know how hard it is to resist the will of this world, and how strong it is.I can wake up because of the "believe in myself" that Deng Qi keeps weaving in my heart, but Deng Qi, he just uses...his feelings for me to resist all this.

This is really... too difficult.

It's hard to imagine that during such a long period of time, while resisting the manipulation of the will of the world, he listened to my desire to kill him.Under the torment of this internal and external attack, is it difficult for normal people not to go crazy?

...but it turns out that he wasn't crazy at all.

He even succeeded, and now I am standing in the "past" is the best proof.

Although I don't know what his ultimate purpose is, but he did it. On the basis of violating this world, he reversed time, violated common sense, betrayed ethics, and brought me to "I", and he was so thoughtful that he didn't forget Keep me and "me" safe.

I have already realized that when people are truly ruled by the will of this world and are close to going crazy, people have almost no feelings of their own, and they only have the idea of ​​killing in their minds.

But Deng Qi... He threatened me repeatedly, filling my diary with words like "Be careful with Deng Qi", but never really killed me once.

This is simply impossible when the mind is taken away by the will of the world.

He is not crazy at all, he has been relying on his own feelings for me to resist stubbornly, retaining a rare reason.All his "crazy" looks are for my protection, and he...

And in his plan, the only insecure... is himself.

Who is the person trapped in the so-called reincarnation...? !