My three roommates are not human

Right now, I am in a very tangled situation.

If I want to justify the existence of the two of us, then I have to get out of this world.But no matter what the truth is, the way to get out of this world will not change...

That is to kill Deng Qi, and I must kill Deng Qi voluntarily and with my own hands.

...As for who sets the rules of this world, I have to say that this "person" is really ruthless.

"No," Deng Qi shook his forehead and smiled wantonly, "I have always said that the other party is not human, and the other party just happened to tell me from these details—it, or they, are really not human."

"Obviously, they have a strong hatred for me. In order to carry out this hatred, they thought of a way to make me have to be killed by my lover."

"They think it's cruel, it's cruel, and they think I'm going to cry and stay up all night because of this rule."

"Unfortunately, they guessed wrong."

Deng Qi's eyes started to stare at me like that again, his eyes were dark and deep-rimmed, and I felt that everything in my mind was emptied, only his voice was echoing.It's like staying in an empty cave, and in this cave, only this voice is constantly echoing.

Dark, empty, echoing.

"If I die in your hands, you will never forget me for the rest of your life."

"Whenever you see someone killing a chicken, or a cow, or someone else gently crushing an ant with their toes, you can't help but think of that day, that moment, and the time you used your Killed a man with two hands."

"You will think of the feeling of his heart being slowly crushed into mud in your hands, you will think of his eyebrows and eyes before he died, you will think of the moment that killed him, and then—"

"You'll be reminded of everything that happened in this world."

"You'll think about the years you struggled, how you promised him you wouldn't forget him."

"Then you will keep this memory forever, no matter what invades your brain, you will always remember it."

Um.Um.

He was right.

I will remember.

Deng Qi's eyes slowly returned to their original positions, and I felt that the valley was gradually returning to its original appearance. The bright sky came in, and the singing of birds and the fragrance of flowers gradually sounded in the valley. Everything returned to its original position, and my consciousness also ——

What the fuck? !

My consciousness, what just happened? !

Just now, what happened? !

Deng Qi, did you just... hypnotize me? !

I looked at Deng Qi in surprise.

After hearing my heartfelt voice, Deng Qi quickly nodded his jaw towards me. Obviously, he didn't want to hide it from me.

"Why...?" I was quite surprised. It's not something I don't listen to when I make a good reason. Why do I have to use such a forceful method to stuff it into my mind.

I know I'm a little too sensitive, but in this world, anyone would be ptsd by the concept of "manipulating consciousness".

"It's not that I have to manipulate you, and it's not that I don't believe you." Deng Qi was very patient and explained to me bit by bit, "What I don't believe in has always been world awareness."

"Although I have found a way to get out, the ghost knows what will happen after I get out."

As Deng Qi talked, he rolled his eyes. If it was a day ago, I saw eyeballs without eyelids rolling their eyes in front of me, I'm afraid I would have fainted on the spot.But now, when I saw his posture, I just thought it was cute—the movement with a human demeanor attached to the current Deng Qi made me feel a sense of long-lost familiarity.

"According to the degree of ruthlessness of the will of the world, I think it will definitely wash away all your memories here," Deng Qi thought for a while, and then added, "Oh, maybe it will leave a shadow on you, making you think that you did something I had a strange and realistic dream, and there was a terrifying monster named Deng Qi in the dream."

At the end, Deng Qi started to gnash his teeth. I saw his teeth biting the air, it was... so cute.

...can this be cute?I asked myself in my heart.

"All in all, we haven't tried to go out from here, so we must be fully prepared," Deng Qi's attitude became serious again, "It doesn't matter if your memory is really erased after you go out."

"As long as you see any action related to 'killing', you will immediately think of everything."

"This is the last protective net I have laid for you."

I began to understand slowly, and then my thinking began to diverge.

"Is the previous 'believe in yourself' a protective net like this?" I asked.

"Well." Deng Qi nodded his forehead, "I was also troubled before, and I didn't know where to put this hint. I have to make you worry about me, so this hint must not appear on me—until I thought of it The method of traveling through time and space, I came up with this method."

I see……

"Okay, it's almost time." While thinking, I suddenly heard Deng Qi's voice above my head.

What's almost?

"Send me on my way, Ozawa." Deng Qi's vines began to recede, only one of them suddenly rushed to the front, filling my sight.

It's red, "plop plop" keeps jumping.

... This is his heart.

The relaxed atmosphere suddenly became tense again. I raised my eyes to Deng Qi who retreated into the distance. He was looking at me with a smile on his face.I know that for him now, death is definitely the best destination. If he is awake, then the will of the world will oppress his will every minute and every second, constantly making troubles in his brain, trying to force him to kill me .

Behind each of his seemingly relaxed movements and demeanor, there is a battle with the will of the world, as if an endless fire has been raging on his body, burning his skin and burning his cells.In this state of excruciating pain, indeed, only death could bring him relief.

He is also a selfish person. Up to now, I already know this Deng Qi very well. The reason why I use "this" is because he has hidden too much from me before, so that the two Deng Qi seem to be not the same person. .

I know his selfishness.His worldview is different from that of ordinary people, or in other words, after thinking in this boring place for several years, and only thinking about this one thing for several years, his thinking is no longer within the scope of ordinary humans—— Or, he may not be human in the first place, and it is normal to have such otherworldly views.

In his eyes, death is not the end, but oblivion is.He has experienced the disintegration of the body once (perhaps several times), so that when facing real death, the only thing he needs to weigh is the disappearance of the soul and the disappearance of memory-in the end, he chose memory.

Transferring the existence of self-awareness to my memory, and letting him live forever in my memory, this love is really unbelievably heavy-looking at it this way, it is not wrong for him to say that he is selfish, if I really If you kill him like this, you are destined to never forget him in this life.

Not only will he never forget, but he will have to carry on with this burden for the rest of his life.After I go out like this, no matter who I fall in love with in the future, or live together, and see the other party kill a cockroach at home, I will always recall the image of me killing him with my own hands, sleeping with someone else, and they will kill a cockroach casually Mosquito, immediately began to call back Deng Qi's death declaration in his mind.

Can this fucking still fall in love normally?

Maybe that's what he wanted - to be an immortal, undefeated dead man in my memory.

It's a pity that he is considered transcendent, but I am not.Also, I'm selfish - I don't want to be charged with murder.

I spread my hands, squeezed out a smile, faced the heart in front of me, and said loudly.

"Deng Qi, don't play this game with me. You are selfish, so you are not allowed to be selfish?"

"I won't kill you, I won't let myself bear a human life - I know, you will say that you may not be human at all, but even if it is a false human life, I don't want to bear it."

"I figured it out—" I sighed. In the memories that appear in me now, since the dormitory world, I have been, and have been, trying to find a truth, a truth, but now, I want to do it myself Send the truth away, "True and false are just the judgment of our own subjective thinking. If we regard the false as true, then it will become true."

"There are only two of us in this world. Our judgments determine whether it is true or false. We are the masters of 'truth'."

"Let's not go."

"Let's stay here together for the rest of our lives."