Mecha and God

I froze for a moment.

"The man has gold under his knees, understandable." Lu Qi said hypocritically, and then gestured, "Take Xilou away."

"No need."

I did some mental construction and knelt down.

"Mino..." Xilou called me softly.

"There's nothing wrong with you here, cute little beauty, you just need to look at it, and it will give you insight." Lu Qi said softly to Xilou, and Xilou was pressed hard and sat on the chair immediately, furry The little head was facing the black muzzle of the gun.He was shivering under the hands of the two soldiers and I gave him a reassuring look and told him it would all be over soon.

Lu Qi walked across from me, grabbed my hair, and then he undid the military belt, and then, the pants chain.

My eyelids twitched.

What is he going to do in such a large crowd?Could it be that he wants me to give him a mouth?No, that's not in line with Daedalus' order to give up any attempt at me, especially sexually.Lu Qi wouldn't be stupid enough to do that.What is he going to do?

I soon found out.

He pissed on me.

Then, all of them, pissed on me.

……

"What else do you want to say?" Lu Qi complacently pulled up his trouser chain.

I was silent for a long time, wiped my face, stood up and said to them, "What you want from me, you will never get."

Lu Qi sneered: "I don't care, Mino, I don't care about your so-called love. It's just that you don't give me something, and you don't want to give it to Long Yin. Don't think that if you have him, your waist will be hard No, it’s useless. In this military academy, he stands, and I stand, but you are always the one kneeling. If you are a pariah, just clamp your tail and be a man. Don’t try to ride on my neck, and you can live smoothly .”

I slowly close my eyes.

Then open it.

"Lu Qi, if I don't fight back this time, it won't be the case next time."

******

After Lu Qi and his party left, the laughter in the ward still didn't stop and intensified.Xilou fell off the chair with a pale face.I watched him crawl towards me, but didn't take his hand.

"Go to bed."

If I was clean, I would carry him to bed, but not now.

"Nu Nuo..."

He wanted to come over and hug me or do something, but I avoided it.

"I'm dirty."

Then I ran away, and Xilou cried so much that I didn't know how to coax him.

Everyone in the corridor avoided me, and I heard whispers and pointed fingers, so I ducked into the nearest toilet, locked the door, and turned on the tap.I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw the clear water coming out of the faucet, and stuck my head into the sink.

For a long time after I woke up in this future, I couldn't accept that there was a race, or rather, a small group of people, who were inherently superior to us, superior enough to treat us like dogs.I know that not everyone in this world is kind, but I don't believe that this kind of unkindness is justified. I still believe so firmly, but it seems that my firm belief is not worth mentioning.I stand up for my dignity as a human being, but Lucy thinks I'm committing a crime, he wants me to bow my head and realize I'm just a dog, they've got a thousand ways to trample my dignity underfoot and take it for granted, and I can't even Fight back.

I took off all my clothes and threw them into the trash can, and I couldn't wear my shoes anymore, because they were soaked in water, so I had to throw them away together.I washed myself with the water from the tap, but there was a faint smell of ammonia anyway. I don't know if it was a psychological effect or because I was in the toilet.Then I realized that I didn't have a change of clothes, and I couldn't walk across the school in my underwear to pick them up in the dormitory. I would really go to jail, and I ended up sitting helplessly on the tiles, looking at my bare feet.

Although I have not been doing very well in my two lifetimes, at least I have something to eat and a place to live, so this is the first time in my life that I feel cold and hungry.I was very tired and didn't know what to do, so I sat in the toilet and hugged myself for a long time, feeling the body temperature loss little by little, and feeling that I was wrapped in the smell of ammonia water again.I figured that at night, when no one could see me, I could sneak back to the dorm to take a hot shower and get dressed.

Like a dog that can't see the light.

But before it was dark, the toilet door was opened.During this period, many people wanted to come to the toilet, and none of them tried so persistently to open the door.I think this buddy must be in a hurry.He is very persistent and will open the door after all. I have thought about moving to the toilet cubicle, after all, I still don't want to be seen like this.But I didn't really want to move, so I compromised and hid under the sink, squatting in a ball next to the water pipe.Normal people probably wouldn't notice a person wearing only underwear under the sink, especially if he didn't have any sense of existence.

But I think that person should have seen me, he stopped in front of the sink, did not turn on the tap, just stood there relentlessly.He must have found out that I am a pervert.

I think it is still necessary to explain to him: "I'm just squatting here for a while, you can use it..."

Then I found that the silhouette against the light was Long Yin.

I'm afraid of whatever, I don't want him to see me like this.I have a very bad image in front of him, and now I’m even huddling under the sink in my underwear, how can I love in the future?

"Have you finished squatting?" He asked me seriously.

I don't know how to answer him.

He took off the windbreaker and handed it to me, then walked outside the door.

Most places in the military academy have constant temperature, Long Yin lives in that kind of place, I don't know why he put on a windbreaker today.But the windbreaker is indeed what I need. Once I zip it up, who knows that I only wear a pair of underwear underneath.

When I opened the door and walked out of the toilet, Long Yin was talking to Dr. Nian. I honestly avoided the secret conversations with the high-level military officials, but after they finished talking, Dr. Nian handed Long Yin a pair of slippers. in front of me.

I dragged on my slippers and walked through most of the college in a military uniform and windbreaker. It was so cool that I turned my head back [-]%. Long Yin beside me kept silent all the time.I saw that he seemed to want to go back to the dormitory, so I said goodbye to him in time, "I'll go back to my own side."

Long Yin was a little surprised, and said something inexplicable, "I have ten chicken legs."

"But I have to go back today, something happened in the warehouse..."

"Fifteen chicken legs." Long Yin said seriously.

"Let's go." Resigned to my fate, I turned up the stand-up collar of my windbreaker, and buried my face in his smell.

******

That night I ate fifteen chicken drumsticks because of a blessing in disguise. The erhu egg laughed at me at the dinner table, and Long Yin locked it in the small black room again.The erhu egg made a big fuss, and I heard Long Yin say, "Not today...you are not allowed to quarrel with him today, Tosca."

He must have known about that, it's too bad, even if the chicken leg made by the male god is in my mouth, I can't taste it.

After eating, I took a shower, rubbed myself up and down several times, and put on yesterday's pajamas cautiously.Then I picked up his windbreaker and kissed him, and found that I was completely in a state where I couldn't smell it. In order to avoid unnecessary trouble, I threw the windbreaker into the bathtub.

While I was doing laundry, Long Yin knocked on the door, "Mino, can you open the door?"

I opened the door.

He glanced at the clock on the wall, "You have been in for two hours."

Of course he knew why I went in for so long, but I didn't want to talk about it, so I didn't answer the call.

His eyes fell on the bathtub behind me, "Are you washing your windbreaker?"

Of course he knows why I wash the windbreaker, but I still don't want to talk about it, I keep silent.

He bypassed me and picked up the drenched windbreaker, "The windbreaker needs to be dry-cleaned."

"..."

"If you don't know how to do housework, let me do it."

"What's so funny..."

Long Yin repeated: "Leave me alone. Now, you can go to sleep."

I shook my head, looked down at my toes, "I'm going back to the dormitory."

"Do you want to trouble me again?"

"I didn't think about..." I jumped up in panic, "I never wanted to bother you. I didn't want to involve you."

For me, as long as you are willing to pass there regularly at noon every day, it is enough.

If there is anyone in this world who can make me give up my dignity, let me be satisfied with a little bit of hopeless status quo and even jump for joy, it is you, my most precious thought.

"I never thought about..."

I just couldn't help crying.

I don't know why, maybe it's because I'm ashamed.

I have the courage to face the malice of the whole world, but I don't have the courage to walk into Long Yin's life.I firmly believe that I am worthy of all the power in this world, the only thing I am not worthy of is the power to approach him.In front of him, all the identities, status, and abilities suddenly turned into substantive and meaningful gaps.

For me, the best and truest things I have are not worthy of him.

What would Luckey call that?

A dog's delusion, a whore's innocence.

Lu Qi is very smart, he knows that humiliating me won't work, he knows how to humiliate my heart for Long Yin, so much so that I feel ashamed to even love him.

So I couldn't stay in front of him for a second longer.

******

"Don't you think it's too late to say these words now?" Long Yin stopped me. "Things have been messed up since yesterday, but you were very kind last night. Did anything change today?"

"Don't force me!" I have realized the consequences of my selfishness, don't force me to speak out...

"It's useless to escape." He stood between me and the door. "Yesterday you were joking around happily, and what happened today is not important enough for you to run away from here in desperation. You have been insulted, So what? He's a bastard, he doesn't matter, and here I am, and I even made you fifteen drumsticks, fifteen, why can't you see me? Or are you blind?"

I was crying so hard that I couldn't even open my mouth, and he sat me on the sofa and pushed the tissue in front of me.I used half a pack to blow my nose and my face sure looks wrinkled and red.

My male god was silent for a while, and said to me, "Listen, he is lying. Birth, status, and ability are not reasons for one person to step on another person's feet, let alone the left and right like this kind of mood. If If you don't have the courage to do what you feel is right, to love the people you love, then you're not who you are."

"But I've always... been stepped on by people... I will be disgusted..."

"If the person you love will take you lightly because you were insulted by a jerk, then he doesn't deserve your love at all."

He looked me straight in the eyes and asked me, "Is he like that?"

Then more tears welled up in my eyes and I couldn't stop them.

"I actually... don't know what kind of person he is..." I said, wiping my tears.

He was silent for a while, "Maybe you can try."

"I do not understand what you are saying……"

"Is he a Lacedaemonian officer?"

I pursed my lips: "Yes, Colonel."

"Integrity, a sense of honor, and a sense of responsibility."

"... yes, Colonel."

"Maybe I'm not as good as the person you love, but at least you can give it a try and try me as that person. Pretend I don't know anything yet and you tell me what happened to you and see See what kind of real reaction I will give, maybe you won't feel so dark."

Without waiting for my answer, he looked at his watch, "Three, two, one, let's go."

I looked at Long Yin who was sitting across from me with a sincere face, and couldn't say a word at all, so I just said the word "Lu Qi", and almost fainted from crying.

"What's the matter, Nuo Nuo?" He leaned over and held my face gently.

"Lu Qi..." I burst into tears.

"Shh, shh, don't cry, come into my husband's arms..." He stretched out his hands towards me.

I resisted very much, but he was very strong, and I was pressed into his arms by him, so I smelled good on him.

In his embrace, I was finally released from the tense feeling, "Lu Qi, Lu Qi he... good or bad..."

"Why is that idiot again." Long Yin's angry voice came from his chest to my ears.

"...he asked me to kneel..."

"Fuck it," Long Yin swears, "In our family, I am the only one who kneels. Where did he have the guts to make you kneel?"

"He still... he still..."

"Shh, shh, don't cry, my husband will hack him to death tomorrow, okay?"

"Husband... means to wait!"

"Well, okay, hubby means to wait."

I grabbed his shoulder and cried like any gangster who was bullied.

When the mood calmed down a bit, and the crying turned into choking, Long Yin stroked my back and whispered in my ear, "So, you see, it's not some impassable hurdle, right? If he says you are a dog, are you really a dog? What kind of person you are and how far you will go have nothing to do with him, and it is not up to him to decide. But the person who loves you will be with you Let's go together. He loves you when you smile, and he will naturally cheer you up when you cry."

I leaned on his shoulder and nodded awkwardly.

"So, don't feel like you can't lift your head up just because an insignificant bastard did something to you, my husband loves you." He rubbed my cheeks, "Can you lift your face up?"

I raised my head amidst his gentle but strong gestures, tears and snot all over my face, and he wiped it off bit by bit.

"You know, I hate you very much, so what I can give you, the person you love must be able to do it too. The premise is that he is really handsome, upright and decent, with a sense of responsibility and honor, as you said. senior military officer."

That damn is what you said!

"Then... is the acting over now?"

He froze for two seconds, then opened his hands: "No, come quickly to my husband's arms."

I groaned and buried myself in his chest, thinking that if I had a tail, I would wriggle so much that I would twist my ass.

"Can I go to bed obediently now?"

"I think I'm going to join Tosca today..."

"You washed very cleanly, and secretly poured at least half a bottle of perfume on your body. The fragrance is so fragrant that you can even smell it in the sand next door. And you have been nestled in my arms all night, although I don't like this kind of rich and colorful perfume." It tastes bad, but it’s not unbearable. So if you keep whining about it, I’ll take you to Cavendish for psychoanalysis.”

He solemnly pushed open the bedroom door and watched me go in with a prisoner's staring eyes.

When I passed by him, I mustered up the courage to grab the corner of his clothes: "The person I like..."

"Ok?"

"I want to spend my whole life with him~"

My male god looked at me quietly and smiled for a while, then turned his head and walked away with a straight face, "What's the use of telling me, go and confess to him."

"roll."

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