The male god on the other side looks over

When the man's palms easily penetrated into his clothes, Wang Zesheng struggled hard, and soon he found that any of his actions were useless. He didn't know when the man had already folded his two wrists Imprisoned tightly behind him, the whole person was pressed against the wall by the man behind him and couldn't move.

"let me go."

The hand covering his mouth was already loosened, Wang Zesheng stepped back viciously, the man grunted in pain but still did not let him go.The sound of the man's breathing was right behind his ears, and the man's strong chest was pressed against his back, forming an inescapable shackle.

"Come on," he said, in a tone that was eerily pampering a child who got angry for no reason, "you know what I'm going to do, don't you?"

Wang Zesheng was not stupid enough to ask the other party what he would do, and felt a little hopeless in his heart.

"What do you want to do?" Wang Zesheng asked, "I don't know you at all."

The other party didn't speak, and his cold fingertips brushed the skin around his navel, and the vague and free touch made Wang Ze get goose bumps all over his body.

"If possible, I don't want to do it." He sighed and said, "I just..."

There are still a few words behind but gradually blurred, Wang Zesheng didn't hear clearly, but this is not important anymore, for him, the man behind him has become his nightmare existence.

Realizing his own powerlessness, Wang Zesheng didn't put in any extra effort to resist, he gave up struggling, and froze his body without saying a word.When the man was surprised at his quietness, he suddenly noticed the bleeding lips that were bitten tightly, his heart sank, and he stretched out his hand from behind to pinch his chin.

"What are you doing?!"

The other party's tone was filled with a hint of tension apart from embarrassment and anger. He squeezed Wang Zesheng's chin so tightly that it was difficult for him to close his lips again. The force was a bit strong but he didn't feel any pain.

"You've made a mess of my life," Wang Zesheng said without noticing the flustered movement of the other party, his voice was very soft but every word hit the heart of the man behind him like a heavy blow, "Whether it's you The touch or your voice make me sick."

The man's hands froze, and Wang Zesheng could clearly feel the inexplicably heavy breathing of the other party. He subconsciously tightened his shoulders and closed his eyes, but he didn't feel the expected rage.

Wang Zesheng, who had his back turned to him, couldn't see the other person's expression because he couldn't turn his head. He could only faintly see a vague silhouette reflected on the white tile wall in front of him.

The man behind him was silent for a long time without opening his mouth, but Wang Zesheng obviously felt that the other party's strength to suppress him had relaxed a bit. He tried to move his body, but the other party quickly noticed and grabbed him tightly.

"I'm just uneasy." The man said vaguely, his low and thin voice was hard to hear clearly, but it seemed to be filled with suppressed pain, "I didn't want to appear like this, really..."

"..."

"Do you think I'm disgusting? Rather than disgusting, I think being crazy is more suitable for me... I can't stand another man saying a word to you. I like you so much that I'm almost driving myself crazy."

The other party's voice was somewhat self-deprecating, but his casual tone made it hard to relax. He lowered his head and gently kissed the nape of Wang Zesheng's neck that he had just bitten, as if treating the most cherished treasure.

"You know, every time I dream of you, I dream of you. Sometimes I press you hard, but most of the time, it is you who smiles and throws yourself into my arms. I don't care about the ugly me, the vicious me, or the It's... the jealous me."

While kissing, the man gently stroked his hair with his palms, his murmured voice was a little hoarse, as if he was comforting him or crying.

"I can't wait to watch you all the time, tie you up so that you can only look at me. Baby, I never thought of hurting you, no one loves you more than me, I just want to Let you rely on me even more... Only in this way can I suppress the uneasiness in my heart, do you understand?"

The man's voice was intermittent like fragments, and the touch of the nape of his neck and hair diverted his attention. Until the end, Wang Zesheng couldn't understand what the other party was saying.

Wang Zesheng always felt that there was something wrong with him at this time, but when he spoke again, he still bluntly expressed his disgust: "I just ask you not to disturb my life again."

The man behind him stopped murmuring suddenly, and even the hands around his waist seemed to slip down weakly. Wang Zesheng only heard the other party sneer like a taunt, and uttered a word dryly.

"...love cannot be controlled."

As soon as his words fell to the ground, before Wang Zesheng could react, he felt a sharp blow on the back of his neck, and before his eyes fell into darkness, he heard only a faintly familiar voice, sighing but extremely tender.

"How could I...let you go."

Wang Zesheng was woken up by being photographed, and when he opened his eyes in a daze, Zhou Shuo's magnified face came into view.

"You are awake."

Zhou Shuo lifted him up from the ground with one hand, but Wang Zesheng still felt dizzy. He sat on the toilet seat, rubbed the back of his neck and looked at him with frown.

"Why are you here?"

"I should be the one who asked you this question." Zhou Shuo looked a little dumbfounded, and stretched out his hand to punch Wang Zesheng on the shoulder, "We waited for a long time and you didn't come back. When I came to see you, I found you sitting in the cubicle. fell asleep."

Wang Zesheng: "..."

Do normal people fall asleep in toilet stalls?

Wang Zesheng was also powerless to wake up the other party's nerves, as if thinking of something, he pursed his lips and suddenly stood up, looking around with a tense expression.

"How long have you been here, have you seen anything suspicious?"

Zhou Shuo raised his hand and looked at his watch, thought for a while before saying: "It's not long, about 5 minutes. When I came, I happened to see two junior high school students secretly filming you sleeping with their mobile phones. It seems that they are planning to post Weibo, right?"

Wang Zesheng: "..."

Seeing Wang Zesheng's face suddenly froze, Zhou Shuo let out a "puchi" laugh and patted him on the shoulder cheerfully.

"Just kidding, there was no one else in the toilet when I came here. What's wrong?"

Wang Zesheng shook his head, and leaned against the door of the cubicle with a dazed expression, only feeling pain in his head.

"My brother didn't come with me?" Wang Zesheng asked vaguely.

"No, he's still in the box." Shaking his head, Zhou Shuo seemed to sense something was wrong with him, and after a pause, he put the back of his hand against his forehead, "Zesheng, what's the matter with you, why do you feel so ugly? Are you sick?"

Wang Zesheng took his hand away and shook his head without saying anything. He just stood there for a while and walked out of the bathroom.Zhou Shuo behind him was still yelling, "Why don't you wash your hands after shitting?" and so on, but Wang Zesheng was in no mood to explain anything to him.

There was still some soreness in the nape of the neck. It seemed that what happened just now was not a dream—that man had indeed appeared.

After passing the restroom to the box, Wang Zesheng stood at the door of the box and took a deep breath, making the next worst decision - if he encounters any misbehavior from the other party next time, he will call the police. He couldn't stand having his private life wantonly invaded by that strange man.

Wang Zesheng calmed down his emotions, took out his phone to check the time, slid open the call log and glanced at the familiar number, after hesitating for a while, he put the phone back.

When he entered the box again, the atmosphere was much better than before he left. Xue Chenyi seemed to have calmed down, and his expression was as calm as if nothing had happened just now.

"The steak has been served, let's start eating," Xue Chenyi said, "Go back to class after eating, no class in the afternoon, right? I'll take you home."

Wang Zesheng glanced at him, pretended to be relaxed and said "En", and sat down in the seat inside.

The steak in front of the table has been carefully cut, and the meat has an attractive luster in the heat of the iron plate.

Wang Zesheng didn't need to think about who did it. He raised his head and glanced at Xue Chenyi who was opposite him, said "Thank you" in a low voice, and got a nod in response from the other party.

The meal was very quiet, with only the sound of knives and forks clashing for a moment. Just as Wang Zesheng stuffed a piece of beef into his mouth, the phone in his pocket suddenly vibrated.

Wang Zesheng took out his mobile phone, and a new short message was displayed on the screen. When his eyes fell on the famous part of the text message, his chewing movements slowed down—it was a text message from the senior.

Wang Zesheng subconsciously glanced at Xue Chenyi who was opposite, and quickly opened the message after finding that the other party had no strange expression.

[Zesheng, I'm sorry. ]

Wang Zesheng was stunned for a while looking at this text message, but Xue Chenyi who was on the opposite side quickly noticed his posture of lowering his head, and asked with a frown: "What are you looking at?"

Wang Zesheng said vaguely "nothing" and put the mobile phone in his pocket, but he was at a loss.

sorry?sorry for what?Is it an apology for neglecting him today?

For a moment, Wang Zesheng didn't even think about eating, and his mind was full of the content of Yu Shihang's text message. When Xue Chenyi got up after the meal and wanted to send him home together, Wang Zesheng refused almost without thinking. .

"Why don't you go home?" Xue Chenyi frowned and asked him, "Aren't you missing classes this afternoon?"

"I..." Wang Zesheng pursed his lips forcefully, held back his lips for a while before saying, "I have something to do at school this afternoon."

Xue Chenyi glanced at him dubiously, and after a moment of silence, he said: "Okay, then I'll take you to the school gate."

"No need," Wang Zesheng tugged at Zhou Shuo's arm next to him, giving him a suggestive glance, "I'll just go back to school with Zhou Shuo."

Xue Chenyi turned his attention to Zhou Shuo, who naturally agreed quickly after receiving Wang Zesheng's cold stare.

"That's right, old Xue, you can go back first, and Zesheng and I can walk all the way back."

Xue Chenyi didn't say anything, but nodded after staring at Wang Zesheng for a while: "Alright, then I'll go home first."

The two of them breathed a sigh of relief after watching Xue Chenyi walk out of sight.

On the way back to school, Wang Zesheng planned to send Yu Shihang a text message, but he didn't know what to say. After pondering for a long time, he sent a few words, and attached a cute emoji.

[It's okay~~(≧▽≦)~]

Zhou Shuo next to him accidentally caught a glimpse of his reply and grinned cheerfully.

"I said, Zesheng, you are really interesting. How can you be so easy to be cute with text messages with a face that no one else should approach?"

Wang Zesheng just glanced at him and ignored him. He opened the call history and pressed the familiar number before waiting for a reply to the text message.

"Beep beep——" After a few beeps, the other end was finally connected. Wang Ze moved his lips vividly and finally just called out "senior" dryly.

The other end responded, and then asked, "What's wrong?"

The other party's voice seemed a little tired, and Wang Zesheng felt stuck in his heart when he wanted to question for a moment, and he clenched his phone tightly, not knowing how to respond.

"Senior... are you okay?"

Wang Zesheng didn't know why he asked such a sentence, but after he finished speaking, the other end of the phone fell into silence for a few seconds.

After a while, Yu Shihang's smiling voice rang through the phone.

"I'm very good."

Then he paused, and asked again, "Do you want to... come to me?"

Wang Zesheng was stunned for a moment before he realized it, and gave a soft "En".

After bidding farewell to Zhou Shuo in a hurry, Wang Zesheng hurried to the big playground in front of the Academy of Fine Arts. When he passed, he saw Yu Shihang leaning against the huge and strong locust tree with his head lowered, his eyelids lowered. I don't know what to think.

After Wang Zesheng walked over, he quickly caught Yu Shihang's attention. He showed a relaxed expression as if he was relieved, and before Wang Zesheng could open his mouth, he stretched out his arms and hugged him.

"Zesheng..."

Wang Zesheng let the other party hold him obediently, and his hanging heart fell steadily.

There is no need for any explanation. All the questioning and doubts before seemed to be unimportant under this hug. Hearing the steady breathing of the other party, I felt the heartbeat of the two clinging to the chest, and the faint gap before Feelings are like snowflakes that melt into water and disappear without a trace.

Yu Shihang seemed to be nostalgic for the feeling of holding him, he rubbed the side of his face affectionately with the corner of his lips before letting go of his embrace.

"Zesheng, shall I take you to a place?" Yu Shihang took a deep breath as if he had made up his mind, and squeezed his hand tightly, "I want to take you to meet someone."

Wang Zesheng looked at his eyes full of tenderness, and nodded meekly.

The place Yu Shihang took Wang Zesheng seemed to be far away. The two waited for the bus at the back gate of the school for a while, and then walked for a while after arriving at the destination stop. During this period, Yu Shihang held his hand tightly. Without letting go of their hands, the two bought a bouquet of lilies on the side of the road, and then walked towards a small hillside.

In fact, Wang Zesheng had vaguely guessed where the other party wanted to take him, so when Yu Shihang took his hand into the cemetery and stopped in front of a tombstone, his expression was not much surprised.

The photo on the tombstone in front of me is a woman with long fluffy curly hair, gentle eyebrows and a friendly smile at the corners of her mouth, which complement her virtuous and generous temperament.

"She's my mother." Yu Shihang asked, "Is she pretty?"

"Pretty," Wang Zesheng nodded while looking at the photo, "You both look alike."

Yu Shihang didn't speak any more, just put the bouquet of lilies in front of the stele, walked a few steps towards Wang Zesheng, and hugged him into his arms.

"Everyone who has met her said so," Yu Shihang raised the corners of his lips slightly, looking at the woman on the tombstone with soft eyebrows, "She is the most beautiful woman in my heart."

Wang Zesheng looked up at Yu Shihang's profile, then at the tombstone in front of him, and fell silent.

"It's a pity...she is beautiful but she did the biggest stupid thing in her life." Yu Shihang hugged his shoulders tightly, his tone was a little low, his eyes were fixed on the tombstone with a vague expression, "She didn't recognize herself at all. Blindly dedicate your life to whatever love you want to pursue.”

Wang Zesheng still didn't interrupt, he knew more clearly than ever that the man holding his arm just needed someone to listen to.

"When the man became rich, he often didn't go home, and he even took care of the woman openly. All that was left to our mother and son was money. She used her so-called love as an excuse to live cowardly all her life, and let her go with her compassion in the car accident. I lost my beloved, but in the end let myself fall into the gate of hell."

When Yu Shihang said these words, he unknowingly increased the strength in his hand. Wang Zesheng's shoulder was painfully pressed by his palm but he never cried out. My heart seems to be seized.

"So, like her, I won't regret it until I die," Yu Shihang turned his head, squinted his eyes and stretched out his hand to slowly caress his eyebrows, lips, collarbone and even the place where his heart was beating, and sighed and easily moved him. Locked in my arms, "For the person I love, I will only hold on tightly and never let go."

Wang Zesheng's heartbeat suddenly accelerated because of his embrace and straightforward confession. He let the other party lift his chin in a daze, feeling that the other party kissed his lips tremblingly like a dragonfly.

"I'm really afraid of losing you, even if it's just a turning back of you, it will make me feel panic."

Wang Zesheng stared blankly at the obsession and uneasiness on the face of the man in front of him for the first time, and felt that his brain had a sudden lack of oxygen.Just when he was stunned and didn't know how to react, Yu Shihang slowly raised the corners of his lips and smiled, softened his brows, cupped his face and kissed his lips vigorously, the strength of hugging him made Wang Zesheng feel a little bit Pain, and even a little hard to breathe.

"I will never allow you to leave my side, even with the most despicable means."

He murmured vaguely in Wang Zesheng's ear, with a faint morbid possessiveness and crazy tone that made him a little dazed, and a trace of uneasiness flashed across his heart.

Is it an illusion?The senior in front of me... had a surprisingly similar tone to the man who appeared today.

This kind of thought just passed by in a flash, but was soon dazzled by the other party's overwhelming kisses.

Perhaps the happiest thing in the world is that the person you like also loves you deeply.Wang Zesheng's nose was a little acidic, he couldn't help but hugged him tightly, and began to kiss back lightly, which made Yu Shihang's eyes red.

This is a delicate long kiss, just the overlap and little touch of the lips, which makes people feel a little subtle, but it feels sweet as a matter of course.Listening to the steady and powerful heartbeat of the other party, Wang Zesheng felt that the invisible barrier between the two gradually melted at this moment.

The two hugged each other so tightly, breathing lingeringly, their positions in each other's hearts were already clear at a glance.

It was still early, and after passing Yu Shihang's confession in the cemetery, he planned to leave. The two of them rubbed each other's ears along the way. In the bungalow.

After putting on the panda slippers they bought together, Wang Zesheng looked very relaxed and natural, leaning lazily on the sofa, even the cold and hard facial lines were a little softer than usual.Yu Shihang took two cups of boiled water and put them on the tea table in front of him, then turned around and sat on the sofa, stretching out his arms and pulling him into his arms.

Wang Zesheng didn't lie obediently in the opponent's arms, but moved his butt down, put his head on Yu Shihang's lap, and lay down comfortably. Doting means.

After further confirming the relationship between each other, the relationship between the two people became closer and more relaxed than before. Realizing this, Wang Zesheng was very satisfied. He even really began to feel the sense of steadfastness from this relationship that he did not have before. He felt that he had touched the most authentic Yu Shihang, not the senior who he thought was so perfect that he couldn't get close to him.

There is no anxiety, no confusion, Wang Zesheng has never understood his position in the other party's heart so clearly like now, and now the confession before coming to the cemetery is like a dream, and it can still make his heart beat faster.

"How about picking your ears?" Yu Shihang stroked his hair and said, "Are you ticklish?"

Wang Zesheng rubbed the other's palm attached, nodded and then shook his head.

Yu Shihang bowed his head and kissed his forehead, leaned forward slightly and took out a box of cotton swabs from under the coffee table in front of him.

"Tell me if it hurts, huh?"

Wang Zesheng turned his ear and said "Yes" obediently, and closed his eyes.

Yu Shihang's movements were very gentle, the sound of his delicate breathing hovering above his ears, and the warm breath he sprayed on his face from time to time made people feel extremely reassured.

"I told Brother Chen Yi," Wang Zesheng said, "about our relationship."

Yu Shihang's hand holding the cotton swab paused, gently squeezed his earlobe and said, "It's better if he knew earlier."

Wang Zesheng responded vaguely, and did not speak further.

"Zesheng, I want to meet your brother alone."

As Yu Shihang said this, he waited for a while but didn't hear the other party's reply. Subconsciously lowered his head, he found that he was already asleep. The sound of his steady breathing fluctuated up and down. The faint face was very different, but it still melted his heart.

Yu Shihang stopped his movements, stroked his cheek lightly, kissed his lips softly, and let out a satisfied sigh between his lips and teeth.

"Zesheng, you are my life."

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#Crazy Diary#

2015. 3, 17

Maybe jealousy and anger can really make a person lose his mind. The greedy ambition and desire in my heart are fully displayed in my paranoid actions.

He is afraid of me, even loathes me. Although I understand why he thinks this way, I still feel that I have been hit by an incurable blow.

The more I like it, the more I am afraid of losing it. I am afraid that he just likes my tenderness. I am afraid that he will dodge my further demands. I dare not expose my true temperament in front of him. This sense of panic grows with the time I spend with him. It's getting worse and worse.

Today I mustered up the courage to take him to visit my mother. I tried my best to speak normally, but I always thought of his disgust and rejection of my other identity.

What should I do, while wanting to possess him completely in a distorted way, at the same time afraid that he will really leave me when he realizes my identity.

If I am disgusted by him, I will die.