fierce god

There are not many things in the box, but they are scattered. It has been a long time since the past, and the color is grayish yellow. Li Yinglan looked at it carefully. There are awards Gao Kun received in the first grade, as well as the draft paper he left in class on weekdays. , used extremely frugally, pile after pile, all are well preserved.

At the bottom is an old-fashioned hard-shell notebook, the corners are a little wrinkled, Li Yinglan gently brushed the dust on the face, and turned it over.

The first few pages can be seen to be some class notes, the handwriting is still quite green, but the style of writing is chic, and you can already get a glimpse of the owner's character, but after a third of the page, it starts to be missing pages frequently, it should be It was torn, and it was torn very roughly, and the binding was ripped out.

In the middle part, there are no notes, and instead some earthwork-like transcriptions, all kinds of things: radish water, thin slices, put in water...remove the heat, clear the fire; tangerine peel, hawthorn, boil... Chuanbei...

It took up dozens of pages, but it stopped abruptly at the end.

Afterwards, there was a large area of ​​blank space. Li Yinglan simply turned the book to the end, and something fell off immediately after "patta". When she picked it up, it was a photo.

The photo is black and white, and there are only two people on it, a child about five or six years old, and a woman in her 20s who is holding him.The child has handsome eyebrows, and the familiar outline is faintly discernible, while the woman beside her is slightly shabby, but she can still see her beautiful appearance clearly. Even though there is a circular scar the size of a lychee on her forehead, it still has not erased that kind of scar. Gentle and friendly temperament.

Li Yinglan looked at the photos for a while, and then turned her attention to the book again. On the last few pages, there were no longer any words, but a series of numbers.

11/2—4：30、11/3—3：41……11/26——2：07、9：12……12/9—5：12……12/31—3：33……1/14—5：02

Li Yinglan didn't understand what this was at first, but then he gradually realized that this should be a record of the date, but the time recorded immediately after it was probably in the middle of the night. Was this written by Gao Kun?What does this mean?

Li Yinglan looked at the book in doubt for a long time, then looked at the photo again, her eyes fell on the scar on his mother's forehead again, and then slowly moved down, staring at the boy beside her, suddenly Li Yinglan's eyes froze .

At that time, Xiao Gaokun seemed to be wearing a string of pendants around his neck, and the black-and-white photos made it somewhat unclear what kind of material it was, but that appearance somehow made Li Yinglan feel indescribably familiar...

Li Yinglan frowned, thinking carefully, where did she see it?

……

In the silent darkness, the moonlight gradually hid in the clouds, and the whole Moran Village fell into boundless silence.

In the huge courtyard, the sound of light footsteps slowly sounded, coming from far to near, coming here, the door was pushed open with a babble, and a figure slowly came to the bedside.

At the moment when he approached, Li Yinglan suddenly opened her eyes in a jerk. In the darkness, she moved her nose slightly and stared at the person. A sudden fear overflowed from those black and white eyes.

With a "snap", the light in the room was turned on, Gao Kun's face appeared in Li Yinglan's field of vision, the halo above his head was dim, but it was too glaring for Li Yinglan at this moment, he had no choice but to fall in love with it Eye.

"Yinglan? I'm back..." Gao Kun approached Li Yinglan, but seeing that his head was covered in sweat, he couldn't help asking nervously, "Is it uncomfortable?"

Li Yinglan's eyes were wide open, and the tip of his nose seemed to be able to smell the smell that made him sick. It was brought in with Gao Kun when he pushed the door. He opened his mouth and asked hoarsely, "Where did you go?"

It was only after I uttered this sentence that I realized that this sentence was also so familiar. When did I ask him that too.

Gao Kun didn't feel anything wrong, he only thought that Li Yinglan had returned to his hometown, and his mood was fluctuating again, so he comforted him in a low voice: "I went to a few villagers' homes, sorry, I'm late."

"What's your smell?" Li Yinglan asked again.

Gao Kun was startled, lowered his head and smelled it by himself: "It doesn't smell much."

Li Yinglan stared straight at the other party, with a look of emptiness and disgust in her eyes.

Gao Kun was startled by his gaze, and hurriedly said: "Don't... don't be angry, I'll go take a shower and come back, I don't know what happened, I'll go take a shower, don't worry."

After finishing speaking, Gao Kun was about to get up, but he was grabbed by someone just as soon as he took a step.

Li Yinglan's heart was beating like a drum, but he still took a deep breath, and the smell that was still spreading in the air just now disappeared.

"No need to wash...it's gone, the smell is gone." Li Yinglan said, "I'm sorry..."

Gao Kun sat back on the bed again, reached out and touched his forehead: "Have you had a nightmare again?"

Li Yinglan gritted her teeth: "I remembered some things from the past." Immediately afterwards, she also had an illusion.

"We're leaving tomorrow." Gao Kun said.

Li Yinglan stretched out her arms, hugged Gao Kun's neck, and buried her head in his shoulder: "Akun, do you have nightmares?"

In the same place, in the same environment, Li Yinglan also asked Gao Kun this sentence. He remembered Gao Kun's answer at that time, and he said no, but nothing seemed to happen at that time. Trapped in a nightmare and unable to extricate himself, Gao Kun, who has experienced all of this with him, has always remained calm. Li Yinglan didn't want Gao Kun to empathize with her, he just wanted to know whether this was Gao Kun's real state, or whether the other party also They are also suppressing, enduring, enduring pain just like themselves.

However, Gao Kun's answer was the same as before.

He said: "No..." There was no hesitation, no hesitation, even his eyes and expression did not change an inch.

So, Li Yinglan believed it.

"I really want to be like you..." Li Yinglan said, "I'm not afraid of anything."

Gao Kun lay down next to Li Yinglan, hugged him tightly, and let him stick to his chest.

"Are you... still afraid?" Gao Kun asked.

"So I thought I wasn't afraid anymore..." Li Yinglan raised her eyes, and her eyes fell on the iron box next to the bed, "But now..." A coldness slowly rose from her back.

"Don't be afraid." Sensing Li Yinglan's trembling, Gao Kun kissed his forehead, then slowly moved his lips down to his eyes, nose, and finally placed a kiss on the corner of his mouth, "I'm..."

Li Yinglan raised her eyes and looked at Gao Kun in a daze, her eyelashes flickered like tears.

"I believe you... I have always believed you, Akun, as long as you say it..."

Li Yinglan seemed to be very fragile tonight, Gao Kun's heart trembled as every look and every word provoked him, he couldn't help but lowered his head and kissed her.

Li Yinglan's lips were cold, and her teeth were trembling slightly, but when she noticed Gao Kun's kiss, she couldn't help opening her mouth enthusiastically, and actively stuck out her tongue to entangle with him.

The kiss was deep, but soft and long. It wasn't until Li Yinglan's breathing slowed to the point that she slowly calmed down again, and then the whole person quieted down, that Gao Kun let go of her.

The person under him seemed to have fallen asleep, but he still felt uneasy frowning. Gao Kun looked at him and said softly, "I'm sorry..."

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The next day, it was rare for Li Yinglan not to stay in bed, and Gao Kun woke up, so he got up with him.Li Yinglan had thick dark circles under her eyes, she had slept for more than ten hours, but her face was still tired.

Li Yinglan watched Gao Kun tidy up the place again, put all the bedding back in place, and then dropped a big lock again, locking all the traces.

When they left, no one looked back. They followed the path all the way up the back mountain and came to Zhang Heqiao's grave.

Li Yinglan looked at the small wooden sign in front of her that was used as a tombstone, she didn't know what to think, and her expression was a little dazed, until she heard Gao Kun whispering from the side: "... this time I will probably be away for a long time, I will come to pick you up when I see you next time ..."

Then he slowly stepped forward, dug a small hole beside the grave, and buried the bunch of keys in his hand in it...

On the way back, Li Yinglan handed the iron box from yesterday to Gao Kun. Gao Kun didn't say anything after reading it, but just put the things away.

Li Yinglan didn't ask, and the two flew back to U City together.

Gao Kun is not yet sure whether this trip has solved Li Yinglan's knots, but it is certain that the other party has suffered from exhaustion and illness.Although it was just a small cold, Li Yinglan was really tossed and tossed. After the illness recovered, she lost a lot of weight. Gao Kun was trying to take care of him, but at this moment, Li Yinglan started to work again.

Gao Kun's persuasion was of course fruitless. Li Yinglan said that he had accumulated a lot of work before, and at least he had to pay off some of the debts before he could continue to be free, and what Gao Kun could do was to take good care of him in different ways.

It's just that Li Yinglan is mostly working out of town recently. Although he stays for a few days, the frequent travels consume his energy. Even Wanhe asked him to arrange two more days off next month, and Li Yinglan's answer is to wait for this Let's talk after the announcement is over.

His new announcement is an advertisement for the three southeastern provinces. He has to travel to six places a week, and he has to change places almost as soon as he lands. He often misses the fixed one-day call with Gao Kun every time he goes out because he is on the plane. Gao Kun Kun was always worried that it would affect Li Yinglan's work, so he rarely took the initiative to call him. Li Yinglan always called him when he was free. However, this time Li Yinglan didn't call, so the two hadn't been in touch for two or three days.

Wan He looked at Li Yinglan who was sitting in the car staring blankly at the phone, and really wanted to ask something, but in the end he didn't overstep. Seeing that Li Yinglan finally closed her eyes, Wan He was about to ask the driver to close the window slightly. , suddenly heard Li Yinglan say: "Go to the place last time..."

They are now in L City, which is also the last stop of this advertisement, and it is not far from where Li Yinglan is going.

Half an hour later, the car stopped outside Heqing Nursing Home.

Li Yinglan got out of the car, Wan He wanted to follow, but he stopped him outside, and he walked in alone.

This nursing home is quite old, the walls are gray and white, and most of the floors are covered with dense vines. It looks quite dilapidated, but occasionally you can see a few people wearing clothes of the same color, accompanied or supported by a special person Walking by, the environment is quite peaceful.

Li Yinglan was standing right in the middle, naturally attracting attention, and after a while someone came over and asked him who he was looking for.Just as Li Yinglan was about to ask, her eyes suddenly fell on a person in the distance, and it happened that the other person also saw him, and both of them had expressions of surprise on their faces, but what Li Yinglan didn't expect was that the other person was stunned. Afterwards, she gave him a friendly smile.

Li Yinglan once thought about what he would do if he saw her again. He had only fantasized about such a scene to two people in his life, one was Gao Kun, and the other was Gao Hui.

But Li Yinglan is obsessed with Gao Kun only to meet again, as long as we meet again, no matter what, but facing Gao Hui, Li Yinglan has repeatedly practiced more carefully, once they meet, how to speak and what to say.However, the facts proved that Li Yinglan, who never loses her aura no matter in front of anyone, is rarely able to hold her head up in front of this girl.

In the end, Gao Hui spoke first: "How are you?"

I haven't seen her for a few years, but Gao Hui has grown taller and fatter. If it wasn't for the fact that her facial features haven't changed much, she can hardly find the shadow of the timid and introverted girl back then.

Li Yinglan felt sour in her heart, she nodded and asked, "What about you?"

Gao Hui smiled: "You can see it too, I'm fine."

Li Yinglan looked around, "Why do you..."

"Why am I here? It's a long story...but I should thank you."

Gao Hui's words made Li Yinglan's face change. If there is one person in the world who makes Li Yinglan feel guilty the most, it is the person in front of her. How about a "thank you"?

Gao Hui met his expression and shook her head helplessly: "Didn't your cousin tell you?"

Li Yinglan was stunned: "He told me that he found a doctor for you..." After the incident happened, Li Yinglan was too busy to take care of herself, but he never forgot the girl who was in trouble with him, but when she mentioned it to Zhuo Yao However, Zhuo Yao told the other party that he had settled Gao Hui in a new place and found the best doctor, and that Li Yinglan was not suitable to visit her, and they should all forget about the past and start over.

"I did start again. I have a new life. I work in a nursing home. The former Gao Hui is dead. Without this catastrophe, I don't think I would be where I am now."

Li Yinglan was dazzled by the calm light in her eyes, and thousands of thoughts floated in her heart for a moment.

Seeing his complicated expression, Gao Hui said again: "And I'm not here alone, I'm really fine now."

Li Yinglan was puzzled, but when he followed Gao Hui to the inner garden of the nursing home and saw Gao Juan sitting in a wheelchair, Li Yinglan was even more surprised.

Gao Hui went over to comb Gao Juan's hair. Compared with Gao Hui's changes, Gao Juan still looked the same, but she was much cleaner and more energetic than before.

Gao Hui pushed her mother forward, seeming to have guessed Li Yinglan's thoughts, she said directly: "My father ran away, so I naturally had to take my mother over to take care of her, but fortunately we can live well without him. Gao Hui's tone was very flat, as if he was talking about other people's affairs, "Anyway, he didn't let me take his surname back then, so it's easy to change my name now."

There were rare times when Li Yinglan couldn't answer, she just listened quietly, when someone called Gao Hui's name on the other end, Gao Hui made an apologetic gesture to Li Yinglan, and asked her mother to leave for now I went to work, but only Li Yinglan and Gao Juan were left in place.

Li Yinglan looked at the woman in front of her, she didn't know what to think, and suddenly stepped forward slowly, and squatted down in front of her.

"Auntie Gao, Auntie Gao..." Li Yinglan called out twice, but there was no response from the other party. He paused, then changed his address, "Sister..."

This soft sound made Gao Juan, who had been wandering in the sky, look over at once.

"Sister..." Li Yinglan yelled again, and seeing Gao Juan's eyes widen slightly, Li Yinglan swallowed, and asked, "Do you still remember Gao Kun?"

"Gao, Kun..." Gao Juan muttered, frowning slightly.

"Yes, Gao Kun...he is your nephew, do you remember him?"

Gao Juan was at a loss, just when Li Yinglan thought she would not say anything, Gao Juan nodded seriously.

"Remember, Gao Kun, remember..."

"That……"

Just as Li Yinglan was about to continue, Gao Juan interrupted him with a harsh voice: "Gao Kun is an evil star, a little beast... a evil star..."

Li Yinglan's throat tightened, and she tried her best to ask, "Why? Why did you say that about him? What did he do wrong?" After so many years, she still couldn't forget her mistakes.

Gao Juan was still grumbling: "He's a little beast...he's an evil star...Gao Kun is a beast...he's not a human, he's not a human..."

Seeing that she seemed to be getting more and more excited, her voice became louder: "Gao Kun is not human! He, he... died, and he... died!"

"What did you say?!"

Li Yinglan grabbed Gao Juan, as if she wanted to hear her clearly, but Gao Hui had already run back from afar.

"I'm sorry, my mother is not very conscious yet, don't mind what she said."

"Gao Kun...why does she hate Gao Kun so much?" Li Yinglan also stared, "Why do you only hate Gao Kun?"

"Probably because... she mistaken Gao Kun and my uncle," Gao Hui sighed, "She was not far away when my uncle died, and she was probably scared."

Li Yinglan was startled, and looked at Gao Hui blankly.

"Uncle Gao... When did Gao Kun's father die?"

Gao Hui said, "Many years ago."

"When exactly?"

Gao Hui thought for a while: "When Gao Kun was 11 years old, it was winter, before New Year's Eve...it seemed to be midnight."

Li Yinglan was silent, but Gao Hui's next sentence made him turn pale all of a sudden.

"...What?" Li Yinglan asked in surprise.

Gao Hui reassured the agitated Gao Juan and said, "I said, in fact, I have always wanted to thank Gao Kun. Thanks to the fact that I told him about meeting you, he was able to arrive in time."

Li Yinglan was stunned for a long time, then said in a low voice, "When did you tell him?"

Gao Hui's memory is still fresh: "On the day I was arrested."