fierce god

After Li Yinglan yelled at Gao Kun, it seemed that she was also frightened by the excited voice. He looked blankly at the broken fish tank at his feet, and several goldfish were dying on the ground. He desperately wanted to scoop all those fish into the palm of his hand.But the fish was very slippery, and she couldn't hold it at all. Li Yinglan tried several times, but only got a hand full of broken glass, and the bright red that overflowed immediately stung Gao Kun's eyes.

Gao Kun wanted to come to help, but was knocked away by Li Yinglan. He held the fish in his hands and ran into the kitchen. He brought a sea bowl and filled it with water. He watched the fish tumbling a few times. Swimming slowly again, Li Yinglan finally let go of her pent-up breath.

He just stood by the sink and stared blankly, letting the blood in his palm flow down slowly between his fingers.

The next moment her hand was carefully held, Li Yinglan trembled, and turned her face to look at Gao Kun beside her.

Gao Kun turned on the faucet, put his injured hand under it and slowly washed away the blood stains on his fingertips, then turned off the water, and led Li Yinglan to the room.

Li Yinglan's footsteps froze for a while, but she followed him obediently.

After entering the room, Gao Kun asked him to sit by the bed, took the medicine box from a side drawer, and took out alcohol cotton to carefully clean the wound for him.

There was a lot of broken glass, and Li Yinglan didn't show any mercy when she struck. Several small blood holes were pierced in the whole palm. Gao Kun only touched a little, and Li Yinglan twitched back reflexively.

Gao Kun asked nervously, "Does it hurt?"

Li Yinglan suddenly felt a scorching heat rushing up from his chest and abdomen, burning his heart, burning all the way to his face, to his eye sockets.

He blinked and nodded slightly.

It hurts, it hurts, it hurts so much.

Obviously at that time, I used my fingers to pull off the blades of the blender. The blood flowed back much more than this time, but it was far less painful.

why……

Li Yinglan was puzzled, so she asked the same question.

He said, "Why..."

Gao Kun lowered his head, his movements were very gentle, a little too cautious, he asked Li Yinglan: "Do you want to know?"

Li Yinglan turned her head and stared blankly at the iron box in the corner of the drawer. Gao Kun should have guessed that he had already opened it before handing it to him, but he didn't ask, maybe he was waiting for himself to speak first.

Gao Kun picked out the broken glass stuck in his palm one by one, applied medicine to Li Yinglan, and wrapped his hand with a bandage.Looking up and noticing Li Yinglan's gaze, Gao Kun reached out and took out the iron box.

Li Yinglan watched him open it, and turned out the contents one by one for herself to see.

"This is the first time I have won an award. My mother was very happy and posted it on the wall. In fact, she didn't know that everyone in the class got an award. The award is still a defective product eliminated by the county. At this point, I haven’t seen him again for a few years.”

Gao Kun used to say very little in the past. He almost answered when Li Yinglan asked, or he obviously wanted to say something but didn't know how to say it.

Because of this, Li Yinglan listened very carefully and clasped her hands tightly, as if she had completely forgotten about the wound.

Gao Kun pulled his two hands apart, and gently held the bandaged one in his hand, but his palm was very hot, which made Li Yinglan's wound burn and hurt.

Li Yinglan didn't move, Gao Kun took out the stack of drafts again and said, "These were used for my exams when I was in junior high school. In fact, compared with pencil erasers, we have the least amount of paper here. One sheet can be used over and over again for a long time. If it can be saved, it will be saved." , but practiced mental arithmetic well."

Gao Kun smiled as he talked, his smile was always sincere and a little bit simple and honest, it was completely different from his stern facial features, the smile was condensed on his lips at this moment, as if he still had a little bit of embarrassment Shy.

Li Yinglan looked at Gao Kun and wanted to smile with him, but he tried several times, but he still couldn't raise the corners of his mouth.He lowered his eyes, and his eyes fell on the notebook and the photos beside him.

Qingjun, the child and the beautiful woman are still smiling beautifully there. If you only look at this photo, you will really think that their life is not so hard.

Gao Kun stretched out his hand and gently touched the person in the photo. His fingertips rested on the side of the woman's face, and then stroked the scar on her forehead. His movements were so careful, with infinite nostalgia.

"Is it because of this that I recognized it?" Gao Kun moved his finger down, tapped the pendant on his neck, and asked.

Li Yinglan was startled and nodded.

"You really remember..." Gao Kun laughed.

Li Yinglan moved her injured hand, but was held even tighter by Gao Kun. He replied, "I had forgotten it, but I remembered it after thinking about it for a long time." Be calm.

I saw that hanging at the end of the rope was a small stone Buddha, the size of a coin, and the workmanship was relatively rough, but it was the same as that scum surnamed Chen when they returned to U City from Moran Village for the first time a few years ago. The pendant seen on the pickup truck is exactly the same.

And the words about the woman who told Gao Kun's fortune mentioned at the time coincided with the whispers of the aunts and aunts in front of Gao's ancestor's grave, which must have made Li Yinglan remember deeply.But he really wanted to say that maybe it was just a coincidence, but Li Yinglan knew in her heart that it wasn't.

He asked Gao Kun: "Is this... yours?"

Gao Kun nodded readily.

"When did you know him?"

Gao Kun narrowed his eyes and thought for a while: "It's very early, I was seven... or eight years old, I can't remember clearly, it should be my dad... It was the two creditors before Gao Boshan who were unwilling to lend him money, so he changed it." This new creditor started."

Hearing Gao Boshan's name, Li Yinglan's eyes flickered darkly, she turned her head to look at the notebook next to the photo, and said, "I saw Gao Hui."

Gao Kun raised his eyebrows: "How is she now?"

Li Yinglan nodded.

Gao Kun sighed, as if relieved, and seemed to understand what Li Yinglan would learn from Gao Hui.He reached out to open the notebook and tore off the last two pages.

Gao Kun looked at the date line above and said: "Gao Boshan loves two things most in his life. One is drinking, the other is gambling. If he drinks too much, he will beat people. If he loses the money, he will still beat people. My mother is from another village. There are many brothers and sisters in the family, but none of them dare to come out and fart when they are robbing people in Gaobo Mountain."

Gao Boshan was originally a tyrannical bandit. Back then, he fell in love with Zhang Heqiao, who was in the same impoverished village far away, so he swaggered straight to the door.The Zhang family is even poorer than the Gao family, and there is no one who can do anything in the family. The daughter has been taken by the scum, and the scum still speaks cruelly. If they don't go with him, the family will not have a good life in the future.

In a dilapidated mountain village in the wilderness, it takes several miles to report to the police. If the village cadres are effective, it will be the turn of those villains to dominate for many years.

When Gao Boshan came to the door, he naturally brought a large number of so-called brothers, a lot of good things and 1 yuan.

On one side is a beautiful daughter, and on the other side is a big family who can't get away with it. If you choose, you will leave. If you don't choose, you will still leave. The result is naturally predictable.

Just two years after they got married, the Zhang family still tried to interfere, but Gao Boxan used rogue methods, and became annoyed that his six relatives refused to recognize him, so they cleaned up together. As time passed, no one dared to continue to contact Zhang Heqiao.Zhang Heqiao knew it herself, so except for Gao Kun who was born later, no one knew what kind of life their mother and child lived.

"My mother had already been beaten to the point of losing two children before. She said that he thought I would not be able to give birth either. In the end...the fate was pretty hard in the end, and the fortune teller was right."

Gao Kun's tone was calm, and he didn't elaborate on this point. He just said: "Actually, I secretly thought many times, if I hadn't been born, would she have had more time and opportunities to escape. But I I also thought, if she never succeeds, who else can save her?"

"Did you save her..." Li Yinglan asked sadly.

Gao Kun shook his head: "It's too late."

He took the piece of paper again, and slowly slid his finger along the date and time line by line: "His schedule is difficult to grasp, it depends on the changes of his gambling friends and drinking friends, but the most stable time is From November to January of that year, he got up in the afternoon, went to the casino in the evening, and drank in the early morning, usually for two to three hours, and half an hour later, which was the time when he was most drunk. I have disappeared. The weather in Moran Village is the worst in January, and it often rains heavily. The road is slippery in rainy days, and the mountains are muddy. It is really difficult to walk..."

So a fall, a broken head, or a sprained foot is no big deal.And if the fall is even more unfortunate, everyone can only sigh about the bad luck...

Li Yinglan listened quietly, as if in a trance, back to the days when Gao Kun was tutoring himself at his home, he slowly calculated the exercises and numbers in such a calm and careful tone, It seems to be talking about what is the best way to solve problems, and how to break through them one by one.

Li Yinglan shivered, feeling a little cold.

"What about my sister..."

Gao Kun understood what he meant, he buttoned up the paper and pulled the neckline for Li Yinglan.

"Sister-in-law was an accident. She was afraid of thunder and would run around every time there was thunder. I missed her by mistake."

"But it's okay, she's a lunatic..." Li Yinglan received it.

Gao Kun nodded: "Yes." So no matter how much she saw, no matter how much she spread it around, others would just think she was talking nonsense.

It's just that Gao Kun missed Gao Juan by mistake, but also missed someone.

"Gaoboshan's strength is very strong. When I got home, I found that my clothes were torn and the most important thing was missing..." Gao Kun recalled, "My mother believes in Buddhism, and she always said that would bless me. I ended up throwing it away."

Li Yinglan recalled Gao Juan's scolding of Gao Kun, and recalled that day when Gao Kun rushed in to confront that scumbag, the other party also scolded him.

Rebel...

"12 years old...you don't even need to go to the juvenile education center." Li Yinglan said, Gao Kun actually doesn't need to be afraid of that scumbag.

Gao Kun shook his head helplessly after hearing this: "Do you know? That mountain road is under construction, and it was finally approved by the province."

Li Yinglan was startled, only to feel the chill gradually rising again.

Therefore, no matter the province, the county, or the upper and lower levels, they are unwilling to have an accident there. Once it is identified as an accident...you can get compensation!

Gao Kun, who was only a child at the time, had already made up his mind.

Li Yinglan suddenly remembered that day Gao Kun was accidentally stabbed in order to catch the father who gave the racing car model to his son. That person also bought insurance, presumably because of this, he was in a trance and was taken advantage of by the other party.

Li Yinglan's throat tightened, and she swallowed hard.

"So he picked up your stuff and threatened you?"

Gao Kun frowned, and raised the corners of his mouth coldly.

The answer is self-evident.

It was just a bargaining chip for exchange, but Li Yinglan didn't dare to think about it.

Gao Kun said: "I didn't go to school for a few days, because my mother had been ill for a long time. She had a fever, a cold, and no medicines worked. I collected earthworks everywhere, but no matter what kind of medicines didn't work, I I can only pin my hopes on that money, I always think that as soon as I get it, I will take her to see a doctor immediately."

But that day, he picked a lot of herbs and various fruits and went home, only to see Chen Haiyun walking out of his fucking room with an IOU in his hand.

Gao Kun looked through the man's thick back, and saw the woman on the bed lying there without making a sound, while Chen Haiyun's clothes were bright red.

At that moment, Gao Kun went crazy.

When he got angry, even Gao Boshan felt a little guilty, not to mention that his fighting power was not as good as his Chen Haiyun.It's just that Chen Haiyun is a cunning person, and he was prepared. He shook the IOU in his hand and said, "Don't quarrel with me. I still have a lot of things that your father asked your mother to sign before. Those who came to ask for debts before It's already considered polite, if I really get on with you, do you think you can still live in this shabby hut?"

After Chen Haiyun finished speaking, he looked at Gao Kun who was gnashing his teeth and his eyes were red, and couldn't help but patted his face: "Don't look like this, I'm not interested in that half-dead sick woman, I just vomited all over me when I touched it Blood, even if you want to, it's better..."

It was only half of what he said, and then he looked at the boy who was obviously only eleven or twelve, but his height was already close to his own, and his interest was greatly reduced.

"I'll come to see you when uncle is free..."

After finishing speaking, Chen Haiyun swaggered away.

And Gao Kun rushed into the room to have a look, and saw that his mother was purple all over, she had already exhaled more qi and less inhaled.

Li Yinglan looked at the notebook not far away, and seemed to see a young man in a trance collecting pharmacies that could cure diseases in the flickering lights, and buried his head to copy them down word by word, as if copying hope.

"Is... what disease?"

"Acute leukemia." Gao Kun closed his eyes, and he took Li Yinglan's hand and tightened it slightly, "I asked everyone to borrow money, including Zhang's family in the next village, and I borrowed 1000 yuan. But these, too Just enough to pay the hospital bill..."

Li Yinglan held Gao Kun's hand back, and couldn't help but redden her eyes.

Gao Kun let him go: "In the end we came back. My mother wanted me to live a good life, so I agreed to her."

"But you haven't forgotten," Li Yinglan said. He thought of the time when he booked Gao Kun's ticket on his own initiative. What if he didn't come back at that time?Will everything change?

"It's not because of you," Gao Kun seemed to guess Yinglan's self-blame, and gently patted his head, "I can't pass my own test."

That's right, Gao Kun seems to have no desires or desires, and let everything go his own way, under the control of the other party, but once he makes a decision, he will definitely achieve his goal despite all difficulties.

"Then why didn't you do anything the night we first came back?" Li Yinglan asked.

Gao Kun was taken aback, he didn't expect him to find out so early: "I woke you up?"

Li Yinglan shook her head: "It's the smell you brought back..." The faint grassy smell was exactly the same as the smell in the feed room where Chen Haiyun imprisoned herself.

The horrible memory of those seven days is enough to firmly engrave this in Li Yinglan's soul. The reason why the two have not been connected may be due to the rejection in Li Yinglan's subconscious. bearable.

Gao Kun understood, then nodded with a wry smile.

Where is there a perfect plan, as long as there is concealment and deception, it will be exposed one day.

The reason why he didn't answer Li Yinglan's question...

"Because the timing wasn't right."

After a little thought, Li Yinglan knew what timing Gao Kun was talking about. Chen Haiyun hadn't committed a crime. If he did something, it would be intentional murder. That's why Gao Kun left and returned.

Li Yinglan lowered her eyes and nodded heavily.

"Yes, yes...the second time is the best chance." Chen Haiyun arrested someone, and Gao Kun went to rescue him. Even if the method is too extreme, there is a great possibility that he will retreat completely. What a clever arrangement, what a good plan patience.

Looking at Li Yinglan in front of him, his face was hidden in the darkness, Gao Kun stood up, walked in front of him, and suddenly stretched out his hand to pinch his chin, but what he felt was wet.

Gao Kun's heart twitched violently, and then his knuckles hurt, and Li Yinglan bit his hand hard.Gao Kun didn't move, but his eyes were full of distress.

Gao Kun used some strength, and Li Yinglan followed suit, but Gao Kun still insisted on raising his hand, and even raised Li Yinglan's face.

Li Yinglan bit her mercilessly, but maybe he didn't know how earnestly he looked at Gao Kun, almost begging.

He said that he has always believed in Gao Kun, as long as Gao Kun said it, he would believe it...

Ever since the two met, Gao Kun has been Li Yinglan's most trusted person. No matter what other people think, no matter how cruel the reality is, Li Yinglan has never doubted Gao Kun at all. It is this kind of trust that has supported him through countless days. Every night, he was afraid, lonely, and desperate, but he never gave up. If there is a feeling that can surpass the love between him and Gao Kun, it is trust, which almost occupies the entire relationship between Li Yinglan and Gao Kun. , Into every bit of every bit.

So one day, if even this trust starts to shake, then what is he insisting on all this time?What else is worth leaving between them?

Li Yinglan can't imagine...

So he was afraid, even if Gao Kun lied to him, maybe he would firmly believe it without hesitation.

Under such gaze, Gao Kun felt like a knife was twisting his heart.

"The second time is indeed better than the first time," Gao Kun said, and couldn't help but raise his other hand to wipe the tears on Li Yinglan's face, but the tears fell down his cheeks line by line. Like endlessness, Gao Kun couldn't help but red eyes, "But I won't take you to risk, Yinglan, I only wish you well..."

forever……

This sentence completely made Li Yinglan burst into tears. He let go of Gao Kun's mouth in a daze, and then whimpered like a child, and Gao Kun opened his arms and hugged him tightly. arms.

Feeling his gradually wet front, Gao Kun patted Li Yinglan's back, and waited until the other party's mood gradually stabilized before explaining to him: "After I received the news that my uncle had a stroke, I returned to Moran Village. To get the money back for him, at least find a way to cure the disease, so I have been looking for Chen Haiyun. But he is very cunning, besides here, there are several hiding places, I roughly figured out his location, but at that time I didn't know you were following me."

Tired of crying, Li Yinglan just leaned against Gao Kun's chest.

"Until you met Gao Hui..." Li Yinglan said hoarsely.

According to Gao Hui, three days after Li Yinglan was arrested, Gao Hui told Gao Kun what he had seen her. After being locked up for another four days, Gao Kun arrived.

Where has Gao Kun been these four days?

Gao Kun said "um", and carefully wiped Li Yinglan's tears: "I... was caught by someone."

Li Yinglan frowned: "Who is it?"

Gao Kun hesitated for a moment: "Jia Jiangang, Gao Hui's father." He is also Gao Juan's husband, Gao Kun's uncle.

A fat man flashed in Li Yinglan's mind, he didn't have much impression of this man, most of it was the ruthlessness when he hit Gao Juan.

"Didn't he do business with your uncle?"

"Yes, he invested a lot of money in it," Gao Kun said, "but what my uncle didn't know was that Jia Jiangang had an agreement with Chen Haiyun in private. Without his persuasion, my uncle would not have agreed, but Jia Jiangang did not I don't know exactly what Chen Haiyun is doing. The man only told him that the feed business is indeed illegal, but now that something happened, he can either listen to his own and get paid, or push him out, not only to lose money , My uncle is sick and can't go to jail, so he has to replace him."

"So... what did the surnamed Jia do?" Li Yinglan seemed to realize something, and slowly turned pale.

Gao Kun gritted his teeth and said, "Gao Hui was not caught by Chen Haiyun, but Jia Jiangang sold it to him."

Li Yinglan was shocked.

As a biological father, Jia Jiangang was naturally not too mad on the surface. Chen Haiyun only told him that he knew someone who was in business. Although he was a bit older, Gao Hui would not suffer too much from following him.

Jia Jiangang originally thought that this daughter was a debt collector, and now that he was able to save himself from danger, it was not a waste of life, so he agreed even though his conscience was disturbed, and he got 2 yuan in the end.

Chen Haiyun asked Jia Jiangang to take a small pick-up truck to another small village hundreds of miles away, saying that he wanted to meet the wealthy businessman. At that time, Gao Kun had already discovered that Gao Hui was gone, so he naturally chased after him. When I got there, I realized that it was empty.

The girl Jia Jiangang brought was not Gao Hui at all, he must have known it long ago, but there was no turning back, so he could only bite the bullet and make a detour with Gao Kun. Gao Kun spent two days there when he realized the problem, and then turned back It took another two days.

Li Yinglan didn't ask what happened to Jia Jiangang in the end, he just hugged Gao Kun's waist tightly and buried his face in his chest.

"Actually, your cousin is right. This matter has nothing to do with you from the beginning to the end." Gao Kun patted Li Yinglan on the back, and said slowly, he has said the same to Li Yinglan from the beginning. , I can do it myself, but Li Yinglan has been burdened with guilt for so many years.

"But you pleaded guilty." Li Yinglan said.

Gao Kun paused: "That's my choice."

"But you pleaded guilty!" Li Yinglan repeated, "You even dismembered the body, you know there is no way to turn back after this."

Gao Kun was silent for a moment.

Li Yinglan raised her head and looked straight into Gao Kun's eyes, but the sadness in her eyes was as sharp as a sharp edge.

Gao Kun finally said: "I took it lightly...and I will go with Jia Jiangang because I can get rid of the police."

Li Yinglan was stunned for a moment, then suddenly realized.

At that time, Gao Boshan and others had already reported to the police, and the Gao family was naturally under police surveillance, but this was not what Gao Kun wanted. He never thought of bringing Chen Haiyun to justice, he just wanted to take revenge. So he had to be ahead of the police, he didn't want Chen Haiyun to be arrested, he just wanted him to die...

"I'm sorry Yinglan, I have selfish intentions." Gao Kun frowned, with pain in his eyes.And it was his selfishness that caused Li Yinglan to suffer for those few days, and also caused Gao Hui to suffer because of it. Gao Kun had to pay the price for what he had done.

So, he pleaded guilty.

There was boundless bitterness in Li Yinglan's mouth and heart, he stretched out his hand across the corner of Gao Kun's eyes, and his fingertips were wet.

"You clearly promised your mother to live a good life..." Li Yinglan choked up.

Gao Kun nodded: "Yes, so I actually failed. I promised her that I didn't do it, and I promised that I would take good care of you...but I didn't do it."

In his life, Gao Kun had failed the hopes of the two most important people in his life.