When an actor meets a male god

"What do you think will happen if I go out now and tell those outside that I love Yan Chang'an?"

While arranging the collar of his shirt in front of the mirror, Lu Ran looked at himself in the mirror, and asked a little casually.

There is less than half an hour left.

It was the premiere of the third movie that Lu Ran collaborated with Chen Kairui.

Ding Dang was busy confirming various matters and couldn't stop. He almost didn't think about it and replied: "Don't you think you have become a professional contractor for Toutiao?"

Looking at himself in the mirror, Lu Ran raised his eyebrows and nodded thoughtfully.

"Headline..."

Ding Dang was about to nod, but before he could say anything, he froze suddenly, and all the movements of his hands stopped.

At this moment, she suddenly realized what Lu Ran had just said.

Putting down the work in his hands, his expression couldn't help becoming a little dignified. Ding Dang turned his head and looked deeply at Lu Ran, "Are you kidding me, or are you serious?"

Lu Ran smiled softly.

He met Ding Dang's gaze without hesitation, still with a relaxed and casual look, as if he was discussing with her whether the weather is good today, and what to eat at night, as plain and natural, but those bright black eyes, But there is a little bit of determination to go all out.

Watching Ding Dang's heart skip a beat.

she knows.

When Lu Ran showed this expression, he was serious.

Taking a deep breath, Ding Dang walked up to Lu Ran and shook his head slowly.

"No, you absolutely can't do that now."

"You're destroying yourself by doing this. Do you know that the movie hasn't been released yet? If you suddenly announce that you are gay, do you know that you will be blocked?"

Before Ding Dang finished speaking, he was interrupted by Lu Ran.

He looked into Ding Dang's eyes, his eyes were dark, almost looking into her heart, but there was still a calm and relaxed smile on his face.

Lu Ran exhaled lightly.

"Do you still remember why Yan Chang'an left the entertainment industry?"

When this sentence was asked, Ding Dang was instantly dumb, not knowing how to answer.What else?Naturally, it was to save Li Hongmei, but this matter has almost become a taboo in the hearts of all of them for more than a year. Everyone knows it well, but they never avoid mentioning it in front of Lu Ran.

But today, Lu Ran asked the question knowingly.

Ding Dang's heart skipped a beat, before he could speak, he was interrupted by Lu Ran.

The man shook his head slowly and smiled softly.

"That kidney saved my mother's kidney, not Luo Qingyuan's."

"Do you know what that means?"

"It means that this matter is a scam from beginning to end."

"That kidney was bought by Luo Qingyuan from the black market for 20 yuan."

Lu Ran didn't look at Ding Dang's expression, and exhaled slowly, his expression was both sad and relaxed, he lowered his head, his voice became lower, and he smiled softly, vaguely in a trance.

"I want to get Yan Chang'an back."

"Ding Dang, you don't know."

"It's been more than a year."

Lu Ran raised his hand and pointed to his chest, his smile revealed some undetectable pain, "I have thought about it countless times, I will go to Luo Qingyuan and take the kidney in my chest. Dig it out and return it to her, and ask her to return Yan Changan to me."

"..."

Shocked by the sudden explosive news, Ding Dang's throat was dry, and it took nearly 2 minutes to barely digest this matter.

"Lu Ran, you..."

"A year and a half."

Before Ding Dang could finish speaking, Lu Ran interrupted her.

Shaking his head slightly, looking at himself in the mirror, Lu Ran spoke in a low voice, as if talking to himself.

"In the past year and a half, you don't know how many times I have gone crazy and wanted to find him."

"Ding Dang, I really want to see him, but I'm afraid to see him."

His brows were tightly frowned, in pain and struggle, with a little self-loathing.

"I put all the responsibility on Luo Qingyuan, and I tried my best to convince myself that it was her who forced me to retreat, and she forced me to have no choice, so Yan Changan had nothing and his reputation was ruined , and our separation, all are Luo Qingyuan's responsibility."

With an almost difficult smile, Lu Ran stared deeply at his own eyes in the mirror.

"But in fact, I can't do anything, I don't even have the ability to protect my feelings, right?"

"I saw with my own eyes that Yan Chang'an sacrificed everything for me, for my mother, and for my career."

Almost as cruel as self-dissection, Lu Ran smiled softly, his voice was clear, and he paused every word.

"As much as I hate Luo Qingyuan, I hate myself."

The man turned his head to look at Ding Dang.

"I want to pay for him once."

"Ding Dang, can you understand?"

Speaking of this, Ding Dang's eyes couldn't help turning red.For more than a year, she watched Lu Ran hide all his emotions step by step, watched Lu Ran work hard, and watched Lu Ran try his best to develop his career abroad.

how could she not understand

Yan Chang'an sacrificed everything for Lu Ran.

Will Lu Ran feel better?

But at this moment, if Lu Ran really stood up and confessed his relationship with Yan Chang'an to everyone... Ding Dang couldn't imagine what happened next would have such a terrible impact on Lu Ran's career.

"No...absolutely not..."

"Yan Nanshen will never agree..." Ding Dang was a little incoherent, as if grasping the backbone, he suddenly raised his head and looked at Lu Ran, "Yes, Yan Nanshen will never agree, Lu Ran, Do you have the heart to watch the career that Yan Nanshen desperately wants to protect for you be destroyed overnight?"

"This is not the only solution to the problem. We can discuss everything."

"Yeah... I can't waste Yan Changan's hard work..."

Lu Ran nodded slightly, did not struggle too much, but smiled slightly, patted Ding Dang on the shoulder, took a tissue from the table and handed it to her.

"What if Ji Mo sees you like this and thinks I'm bullying you, what should I do? Don't cry, I'm just talking casually."

"I'm just imagining."

Lu Ran shook his head, an emotion that Ding Dang couldn't understand flickered in his eyes, and smiled lightly, "Now is not the time, I know."

I don't know why, it's clear that Lu Ran has confirmed that he won't do anything irrational at the premiere, but Ding Dang still couldn't hold back seeing his expression so calm that he couldn't see any emotional fluctuations Yes, I feel a little unspeakable uneasiness.

"Lu Ran, you..."

"I am fine."

One step ahead of Ding Dang, Lu Ran shook his head and looked at Ding Dang helplessly.

"Don't look at me with such a worried expression, okay?"

"I know exactly what I'm thinking right now, and I'm also very clear about what I'm going to do."

"Do not worry."

After all, Lu Ran stopped looking at Ding Dang's expression, patted her on the shoulder, turned and left the office.

The movie premiere went well.

Chen Kairui's ability to control the camera as always, Lu Ran's extremely skillful acting skills, and a shocking plot.

Until the end of the movie two hours later, the lights were turned on, and almost everyone was still immersed in the huge shock and couldn't extricate themselves.

Huge success.

However, Lu Ran, the leading actor who was originally the biggest focus tonight, was unexpectedly absent from the scene.

Ding Dang stood in the audience all the time. When he realized that Lu Ran had left two hours after the premiere of the film, he panicked almost instantly. He grabbed Chen Kairui who was about to give a speech on stage and asked, "Lu Ran What? Where did Lu Ran go?"

"He went to work hard for Yan Chang'an."

Chen Kairui raised his head and looked at the light above his head, it was a little dazzling, but he was a little emotional and a little sighed.

"Don't worry about them."

"I think, the two of them will solve these things by themselves."

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At this moment, Lu Ran, who was absent from the movie premiere, was watching TV with Li Hongmei at home.

After the kidney transplant, Li Hongmei recovered quickly.

It has been more than a year and a half now, if it is not necessary to go to the hospital for regular check-ups, there are basically no other problems that can be seen at all. According to the doctor's words, it is now that Li Hongmei's body functions have completely recovered to a healthy state. No problems at all into the 80s.

The woman is sitting on the sofa in the living room, watching TV while choosing dishes with her hands constantly moving.

"Mom, let me come."

Lu Ran chuckled, and reached out to take the vegetable basket in front of Li Hongmei.

Glancing at Lu Ran, Li Hongmei said angrily, "Take a look at your virtue of not standing or sitting."

At this moment, Lu Ran was wearing a big loose vest and a pair of big gaudy underpants casually. If he didn't look at this face and was a little pleasing to the eye, I'm afraid that just by looking at the clothes, he would be a down-and-out. Otaku dick.

Shrugging his shoulders, Lu Ran smiled at Li Hongmei.

"Mom, how long do you think it's been since I stayed at home watching TV with you?"

"It's hard to spare some time, so don't dislike me for this or that."

Hearing what Lu Ran said, Li Hongmei sighed, a hint of distress flashed in her eyes, she stretched out her hand and patted Lu Ran's shoulder and said, "Mom knows that you are busy with work and hard work."

Lu Ran shook his head.

His gaze fell on the vegetable leaf in his hand, but no emotion could be heard.

"It's not hard."

As if thinking of something, Lu Ran suddenly raised his head and smiled at Li Hongmei, "Mom, you haven't urged me to find you a daughter-in-law for a long time."

Hearing Lu Ran say this, Li Hongmei gave him an annoyed look.

"I urged you?"

"You go out to work before dawn all day long. At night, Mom is asleep and hasn't seen you back yet. Where can I urge you to go?"

Lu Ran did not refute Li Hongmei's complaint.

"Then what are you thinking now?"

Lu Ran looked up at Li Hongmei and asked.

Li Hongmei's attention was not on this matter at all, she yelled in displeasure, snatched the vegetable basket from Lu Ran's hand, glared at him with displeasure and said, "Look at the one you chose. What kind of vegetable is this? Throw all the good vegetable leaves into the trash can, wasting food."

Letting Li Hongmei take the vegetable basket over, Lu Ran's eyes were calm, and he gradually sat up straight from the sofa with his back straight, looked at Li Hongmei, and spoke again.

"Mom, do you still remember how long Yan Changan hasn't visited you?"

"Oh, don't tell me Mom doesn't remember." Li Hongmei patted her thigh and sighed, "The kid in Chang'an, I haven't seen him for more than a year, right? I asked Ding Dang, saying that he went abroad? Mom really misses him a little bit, what's wrong?"

Taking a deep breath, Lu Ran stretched out his hand to turn off the TV, and then took the vegetable basket in Li Hongmei's hand and put it on the tea table.

"Mom, I have something to tell you."

Li Hongmei patted Lu Ran's hand, "You kid must turn off the TV for something, this plot is developing to a critical moment."

"mom."

Lu Ran called out again.

Looking at Li Hongmei, she was silent for a moment, then smiled slightly, took a deep breath imperceptibly, and knelt down with a plop.

I was shocked.

Startled by Lu Ran's sudden movement, Li Hongmei stood up and habitually wanted to help Lu Ran up.

"You child, what are you doing?"

Lu Ran avoided Li Hongmei's hand, looked into her eyes, and shook his head gently.

"Mom, listen to me and finish the matter, okay?"

At this moment, Li Hongmei's expression gradually became serious, and she nodded while looking into Lu Ran's eyes.

"You said."

"Mom, do you still remember that when you were sick, you asked me to promise to find you a gentle and virtuous daughter-in-law in the future?"

Li Hongmei nodded.

"I used to think that I would follow this path in my life without risk, find a beautiful girlfriend, get married when I fell in love, and then give birth to a white and fat grandson for you .”

"Mom, but there are some things that it really can't control."

Lu Ran knelt on the ground, looked at Li Hongmei, and smiled softly. It was almost difficult, but it was firm and resolute like never before. He looked into his mother's eyes and spoke every word.

"I was too cowardly before."

"I always feel that there are many things that can be delayed for a day. If you can avoid it, try to avoid it."

Twitching the corners of his mouth, he couldn't tell what mood he was in.

Lu Ran shook his head, his voice gradually lowered.

"Now I want to take on what I should take on... I don't know if it's too late."

Looking at Li Hongmei, Lu Ran's eyes couldn't help being a little dazed, and his smile was slightly bitter. What appeared in his mind again was the calm and elegant man from before, stroking his head and saying it's okay, even if he didn't tell anyone. It doesn't matter.

Throat dryness, vague tingling.

Lu Ran's voice remained steady from beginning to end, without even the slightest tremor.

"I don't like women."

"I like Yan Chang'an."

After a pause of three seconds, Lu Ran raised his head and looked into Li Hongmei's eyes, "Mom, I like Yan Chang'an, or... I love him, it's not brother, like and love between friends, it's... I want to be with him The kind of love that will last a lifetime together.”

Hearing Lu Ran say this, Li Hongmei was obviously a little confused, her body swayed, and she looked at Lu Ran in disbelief, "Son, you..."

"Mom, I'm not kidding you anymore."

Taking a deep breath, despite the dull pain in his heart, Lu Ran's eyes did not dodge for a moment.

"Mom, I don't know if you can understand..."

"In this life, it is impossible for me to fall in love with anyone other than Yan Chang'an, and it is even more impossible for me to marry and have children as you expect."

Lu Ran lowered his head, not looking at Li Hongmei's expression, with a pair of black eyes, he couldn't tell what it was like.

"I... I used to think that I might keep it a secret for the rest of my life. We'll live in peace and let it go. But Mom," Lu Ran looked up at Li Hongmei and smiled, but her eyes were slightly red.

"My cowardice has hurt the person I love the most in this life. I have ruined his reputation and caused him to lose everything."

"Mom, I also don't want to hurt you."

Lu Ran took a deep breath, resisting the dull pain in his chest, forced a smile on Li Hongmei, knelt on the ground and straightened his back.

"But what do you say I should do now?"

"Mom, I know you'll forgive me no matter what I do."

"I can't hold on any longer, Mom, I'm crazy and want to get Yan Chang'an back." At this moment, Lu Ran's eyes were red and bloodshot, and in the depths of his eyes, he suppressed nearly two years of pain At this moment, it seemed that he couldn't hide it at all, and his handsome and delicate features were also wrinkled together.

In the past two years, he completely covered up all the sacrifices made by Yan Changan during Li Hongmei's surgery, and all the consequences he had borne in the end, in front of Li Hongmei, and even himself, he also acted indifferently.

Even now, he couldn't tell Li Hongmei that it was for their family, for him, and for saving Li Hongmei's life.

To what extent did Yan Changan achieve it?

He could only look at Li Hongmei over and over again, and tell her over and over again, Mom, you don't know how good Yan Changan is.

"Mom..." Lu Ran looked up at Li Hongmei, calmed down a little, "I can't get married in this life, but I will never find someone like Yan Changan again."

"I can't give you a biological grandson, but if you want, I can go to the orphanage to adopt one for you."

"mom,"

Lu Ran chuckled, but tears flowed down the corners of his eyes. He raised his right hand and hammered at his heart, took a few deep breaths, concealed the deep pain in his heart, and lowered his voice, almost like a whisper.

"I miss him so much."

"I miss him so much."

Li Hongmei staggered, almost lost her footing and fell on the sofa.

At this moment, Li Hongmei's eyes couldn't help turning red, her trembling right finger landed on Lu Ran, her chest heaved violently, and she couldn't say a word for a long time.

Seeing this, Lu Ran quickly stepped forward to support Li Hongmei, fearing that she would not sit still and fall down.

As soon as he touched Li Hongmei's arm, his hand was pushed away by the woman.

Looking at her son, she took a deep breath, resisting the violent ups and downs of her chest, Li Hongmei's voice, and her two hands trembling uncontrollably.

"Mom knew you must have something to do today."

"I don't understand anything, but I'm your mother. Today is the premiere of your new movie. Mom knows."

"But not only did you not go to participate, but you stayed at home to watch TV with me and help me with housework."

"You are my son, what expression do you have, what tone do you speak, mom knows you have something on your mind."

Li Hongmei's eyes were slightly moist, and she looked at Lu Ran, "Son, that kid from Chang'an is a good boy, and Mom has thought about it more than once, how wonderful it would be if he were my son."

"But two men."

"How can two men be together?"

"Can't you think about it again? If the two of you are together, don't talk about it if you don't have children in the future. You will be stabbed in the spine for a lifetime."

Speaking of this, Li Hongmei couldn't restrain the grief in her heart, covered her face and began to cry, tears streaming down her fingers.

If it was someone else, Li Hongmei took the slipper and the ruler and drew it directly on Lu Ran.

But if it is Yan Changan.

Yan Changan.

During the period when he was in the hospital, Yan Chang'an took shit and urinated, and he was even more considerate than Lu Ran, his own son, in taking care of him.

How could she blame such a child?

Seeing that Li Hongmei's eyes were red, Lu Ran couldn't help but paused for nearly half a second, his eyes were bloodshot, and his nose was sore.

Frowning, he raised a smile almost with difficulty.

"Mom, you don't know."

"You don't know how much I like Yan Chang'an."

"You don't know...you don't know how good he is."

With red eyes, Lu Ran's chest was very stuffy, every word he said seemed to have a dagger in his mouth, his throat was extremely dry, but he still insisted on keeping his back straight, and said every word clearly.

"Besides you, he is the best person in this world to me."

"You don't know how good he is."

Lu Ran smiled, his black eyes were slightly moist at this moment.

"I beg you."

"Mom, I don't want to get married and have children. Even if someone pokes my spine for the rest of my life, I still want to be with Yan Chang'an. I beg you, okay?"

Li Hongmei didn't speak.

The short silence seemed to last as long as almost a whole century. When she spoke again, her whole body seemed to be drained of energy, and she aged a lot in an instant.

Patting Lu Ran on the shoulder, Li Hongmei spoke almost with difficulty.

"You let mom think about it, let mom think about it."

After all, Li Hongmei supported the sofa with both hands, swayed her body, stood up reluctantly, ignored Lu Ran's kneeling body, walked straight into her room, and closed the door.

There was a click——

Lu Ran was the only one left in the living room.

He remained kneeling on the ground without moving.

The man's eyes fell on a certain point in the air, he suddenly pulled the corner of his mouth, and smiled silently.

Just say it.

The things that he was afraid of like a scourge and a beast before, were just said by him.

He loves Yan Chang'an.

It is to want to spend a lifetime together, and never see the same love as anyone else in my eyes.

Today he told Ding Dang that he wanted to tell everyone that he loved Yan Chang'an.

Not kidding, but seriously.

At that moment, he really thought about it and wanted to do it.

But Ding Dang was right.

If he lost his mind and made such a choice, then all the efforts Yan Changan made to protect his career would be in vain.

Lu Ran is not cowardly, let alone selfish.

But at that moment, he suddenly thought, to be mature once, to be good, to be good, to go to Yan Chang'an once.

So he missed the movie premiere, returned home, and confessed to Li Hongmei.

He loves Yan Chang'an.

Even if it is not understood, not supported, not blessed.

He wanted Li Hongmei to know.

In this world, no woman, no man, no other person can be better than Yan Chang'an.

He knew that maybe Li Hongmei would be angry and sad, but one day she would understand.

That is Yan Changan, the only one in the world.

Lu Ran knew that one day Li Hongmei would know that it was not a misfortune to sacrifice his marriage and children to meet Yan Chang'an, but Lu Ran knew it clearly.

How lucky he is.

How lucky.

He didn't want Yan Chang'an to smile anymore, so he promised Li Hongmei that he would look after Lu Ran in the future and help him find a gentle and virtuous girlfriend for him not to be embarrassed.

He didn't want to hide it anymore, he hoped that one day when he really stood up to the world and announced that he was going to be with Yan Chang'an, Li Hongmei would not become another factor that held them back together again.

Now it seems.

Originally, he was afraid of things that he dared not face.

In fact, it is not as difficult as imagined.

Is it?