vaguely past

I opened the lid, and it was full of small and pleasing dumplings. I took a bite, and the rich fragrance immediately wafted out.How many years have you eaten dumplings like this?Or how many years have you not eaten such an impersonal meal?I do not remember.

Seeing that I ate better than usual, this simple woman laughed out loud. When I ate about the same, I put the lunch box aside. She glanced at the remaining dumplings and complained: "How can you eat without a girl?" How many? No wonder you are always so skinny, how good it is not to gain weight all the time!"

No one has ever said that to me, even though she was full of blame, she was full of worry. I smiled and promised that I would eat more and grow fatter, and she laughed happily.I took out the bank card and handed it to her. She was obviously taken aback, then pushed it back to me, and said in a sullen voice, "What are you doing, kid? Mr. Shen has already paid me a lot of money."

I knew that this honest woman would not be able to take my money easily, so I had to lie to her and say, "He gave it to you because you are in an employment relationship, but you are my auntie. It’s equivalent to looking for my younger brother, I have to do my best. And there is only 5000 yuan in this card, which may not be as much as what Mr. Shen gave you, just don’t dislike it.”

She suddenly became unhappy, and glared at me angrily: "If you really treat me as your aunt, don't even give me money. You are a kind-hearted child, and there are places to spend money everywhere outside. Don’t waste it when you’re young, save more for future emergencies.”

I pretended to be depressed and sat aside without saying a word. She couldn't bear to see me like this and then began to comfort me. Finally, after a long confrontation, I won. She accepted it helplessly and patted my head. , said softly: "Silly boy."

My nose was sour, and I almost couldn't control my emotions.

When Aunt Qing went to clean the lunch box, I changed my clothes and planned to leave this place and bid farewell to the past.

I don't have any nostalgia for leaving that city. The people I care about have their own directions and their own lives that are being completed, and the life I want is to bid farewell to the past.Before leaving, I applied for a new ID card and bought a train ticket to Hangzhou.It is a place I like very much. I took root in a small place, rented a decent one-person apartment, and set up a small shop to start a small business.Because I'm not good at words, I made it in the form of self-service hot pot.It is relatively close to a junior high school, and the students gather together to eat here after school.Because the price is reasonable, the dishes are rich, and there are more and more customers. Some of the girls will always ask me if I have a girlfriend while eating, and I just laugh it off.I'm busier than before, and I don't have much time to recall the past. Sure enough, a busy life can drive away everything and fill in the blanks.

Three months have passed, the students are on summer vacation, the business in the store is naturally not so busy, and it is rare for me to relax.After lunch, I fell asleep on the table.I don't know why, but I dreamed of the scene of meeting Shen Qingpei for the first time.I was somewhat against this dream, and half asleep and half awake, I felt that there was someone standing beside me.I woke up with a start when I realized it.

Shen Qingpei.

I thought we would never meet again, but he still came over.He was still the same as before, with a face that turned all sentient beings upside down, but this face was full of anxiety and bewilderment at this time.

Seeing that I just looked at him and didn't speak, he was a little anxious and didn't dare to talk to me, finally he looked at me carefully and said: "Xiaoyu, it's my fault. I know what I said You already hate me and know how weak and stupid you are, but I don't want to let you go."

I was still indifferent, he grabbed my hand and said in a hurry: "I don't have to forgive me, I have a lifetime to redeem my sins. But please don't deny me, I don't know how I got here these three months Yes, it's even more difficult than the ten years without you. I didn't come to you earlier because I confessed everything to my family. If they can't accept you, I will settle everything and leave home to be with you, but Fortunately, these three months have not been in vain. My parents have stated that they will not interfere with our affairs. But I want to tell you that no matter what kind of life you want to live or where you want to go, from now on After that, I will always be with you."

Shen Qingpei has never said so many words in front of me, and has never lowered his posture so much, but I don't feel happy. If a person doesn't want to treat you well at the beginning, but for the so-called atonement, who Will you really feel happy again?At least I won't.I took his hand away, he lowered his head and saw the scar on my wrist, he immediately grabbed me even tighter, his brows were tightly furrowed, he looked at me helplessly and wanted me to give him a response, what else could I do Say?

"Qing Pei, you always act recklessly like this, but you never think about the impact and consequences it will bring to others. What is it now? After reading Gu Aiyu's letter, you found out with your conscience? Or do you think the original cinnabar mole has been around for a long time? Starting to miss that grain of white rice?"

"It's not like that." He shook his head vigorously, "I... No matter how much I say, you still think I have no credibility. I just hope you don't veto me."

His expression is very firm, I looked at him with some headaches, the man in front of me seems to be gradually mixed with the former him, after so many years, he is still the same, he is slow and clumsy in dealing with feelings, sometimes I don’t know How did he manage the huge company in an orderly manner.

No matter what he says now, I don't want to have anything to do with him.If you've ever really fallen into an abyss, you know the pain and despair.After you escape, no matter how long you have been there, that feeling will always follow you for the rest of your life.I really don't want to recall or feel that pain again.How many five years, ten years, 15 years can there be in a person's life?

Time is the cruelest thing in the world. It records the past that you can’t change, the present that you can’t do anything about, and the future that you can’t predict. I don’t know if I’m too pessimistic about the world now, but who can guarantee that in the unpredictable world in the future? Will there be another Xiaoyu here?

If what Gu Aiyu said is true, then maybe it’s because I am a special substitute that he favors him now. If Zhang Yu appears one day, Li Yu, I’m already tired of being tossed about by a name in my life circle around.

I pushed him away: "You go."