vaguely past

He glanced at me, turned around and left, looking at his figure without hesitation, I didn't know whether it was joy or sadness.Thinking that there is no business in the afternoon, and now that it is out, I am not in the mood to stay in the store.So I packed up and prepared to go back.Just as I was about to close the door, he ran to me sweating profusely, holding a document bag in his hand.After seeing me, he stuffed things into my hands without saying a word, and then looked at me with an expression of fear of rejection.

I thought it was something I left behind before, but when I opened it, it turned out to be a shareholding and property transfer document. I opened my eyes and turned a few pages back, completely shocked. He actually transferred all his wealth to me, although he It is separate from his father, but even if it is created and accumulated by himself, it can be compared with his father, but he gave it to me so easily.

According to what I know about him, his family must know about this matter, and he doesn't like to cover it up in vain, but I don't understand why he would do this.Turning to the bottom, there was actually a handwritten letter of guarantee. I thought it was something extraordinary, but after a closer look, it stated all the responsibilities he should bear and his promise to me. The following is his signature.

I closed the thing, put it in the bag and returned it to him.He froze all of a sudden, and refused to pick it up, and we were deadlocked like this.

After a long time, he still spoke first: "I don't want to exchange these, but I want to use these to give you more security. In short, you will know everything in the future. I am very clear and clear about what I am doing. You Take it."

"Shen Qingpei, even if I accept it, it doesn't mean that I will act as if nothing happened."

"I know. But all I need is that you accept it and give me a chance."

I simply took it and left, leaving a sentence: "I've accepted the things. As for you, I want to see who of us can survive the other, and I'll wait for you to retreat in spite of difficulties."

He yelled in surprise, and then quickly caught up with me. The big man, who is obviously already big and big, danced like a child, but he whispered in my ear: "Xiaoyu, you don't know, I'm new at your side. I started a company, and I plan to settle here in the future, and I live next door to you, in fact, I moved here a long time ago, just because I was afraid that you would hide from me, so I quietly packed it up while you were busy during the day."

I stopped abruptly.He also paused, and looked at me a little at a loss: "What's wrong?"

"fine."

I don't know why, but I was so touched at the time.Since he is willing, then I will let him choose, whether to leave or stay, I will not force any more.The only thing I can be sure of is that even if he chooses to leave, it is impossible for me to keep him, let alone go to him again.

I thought it was just a whim, but as time passed, he has been here for nearly half a year. Except for the first two months when he was busy with his feet not touching the ground, the later time was much better.The only constant is that no matter how busy he is, as long as he leaves the company, the first thing he does is to come to my small shop to help.

I also gradually got used to his existence, but it's just a habit. There is very little communication between each other, or between me and him.But he still has a lot to do. If his competitors or family and friends see him so diligently collecting dishes and cleaning tables in a small restaurant, and chopping vegetables with hands that have signed countless documents and contracts, they must be stunned. until the eyeballs pop out.

When I was free, I sat on the side and watched him study some new recipes with great interest.He often complained that I didn't eat enough, so he decided to practice cooking by himself. His original words were: Maybe if you cook delicious food, you will naturally eat more.I said nothing about it, but I couldn't dissuade him from his enthusiasm.It's just that I haven't touched anything he made.

In the end, he was the only one who watched him eat it sadly, and then forced a smile to say that it was not good to cook, but luckily he ate it himself, and he will definitely cook better next time.

My heart suddenly ached.

A year later, my attitude towards him is still neither cold nor cold, but he is more concerned about me than before. I don’t remember when it started. He has the key to my house. From now on, no matter what the weather is the next day, Or how late he comes back from a meeting, he will make breakfast in the microwave in the morning.

And I also started to eat what he made, and he changed from the first surprise to the subsequent persistent efforts.

Life seems to have returned to calm, and everything is on the right track. That day I received a call, and the caller ID showed that it was Shen Qingpei's number, but the person on the phone was not Shen Qingpei.

It's from the hospital.Tell me the owner of the phone is unable to rescue him, and ask his family to come over.I can't remember how I hung up the phone and how I got to the hospital.I only remember the cold body in the morgue, it was so fresh not long ago, but now it doesn't even have any warmth left.

His face was ashen, blood stained his head and face, and the hair hanging from his forehead had already been tied into strands of blood. I couldn't bear to look at it anymore, thinking that the person who died now might be me.

The nurses at the side seemed to have gotten used to it, and they only comforted with a "sorrow" and then stayed silently aside. Yes, they have stayed here too much in the place where life and death cycle, and they have long been in awe and used to the passing of life.

I picked up a pile of blood-stained coats and bags next to me. The coat was already blood-stained. The bag contained my favorite handmade biscuits. I remember that he was still happily talking about the biscuits he baked by himself in the morning, and Told me to bring it back to me after get off work.I dare not look at his closed eyes again, too painful to cry.Trembling, I picked up his cell phone.The corner of the screen is broken, but he can still clearly see his screen saver - the person on it is me, probably I took it inadvertently, I don’t know what I’m looking at inside, but he kept this photo Down as a screen saver has been watching.The screen was not very bright, I wanted to click on his family's phone, but I clicked on the call history, and I clearly saw that the note on my mobile phone number was baby.

I have never felt that these two words are so dazzling, it is like two knives piercing my heart fiercely, I thought I was always resenting him in my heart, until today I didn't know, in fact, I longed for him , longing for his love and warmth, longing for him to really accompany me to grow old.

It was too late, and I didn't wait until I let go of the past.But he could never come back.

For a long period of time later, I lived in a daze. His parents did not retaliate against me. When I saw them for the last time, they were like old people who had lost their vitality.I returned all the things Shen Qing Pei left to me to his parents, but his parents did not accept it.

After being depressed for a long time, I started to work hard to keep myself busy again.I often look at people coming and going, I don't know where they are going, but I know that I don't want to go anywhere in my life.I know that my heart is a prison, which contains Shen Qingpei and my love.

Once the storm has passed, that lonely and courageous young man may only stay in memory.

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