vaguely past

This is a long and dark dream, I came to the dark forest, surrounded by darkness, I knew that there would be a wizard, and the wizard would make me miserable, so I started to run away without bounds, the more I went, the darker it was, I wasn't sure if I was lost, but when I looked back, it turned into darkness behind me, with no direction.

I felt that the wizard was about to chase after me, so I ran away desperately again with all my strength. I don't know how long it has been like this. I feel that all the strength in my body has been used up, and the numbness of my legs seems to be fake. Thinking about it, I was surprised, could it really become a fake?

Looking down, why did my mind want to move forward, but my legs didn't respond for two days?Looking carefully, it turned out that I fell into a swamp with bubbles, and my whole body began to sink slowly. I began to struggle desperately, but my body still sank uncontrollably.

Uncomfortably, I raised my head and wanted to escape, but after a while of dizziness, I saw Shen Qingpei's worried face.It took me a long time to realize that I was fine, and everything just now was probably just a dream.Even after realizing it, the despair and fear of being alone with nowhere to go still enveloped me deeply.

Shen Qingpei took a glass of water gently, and adjusted the hospital bed up so that I could drink the water without choking on it. I didn't take the glass of water, but just looked at him in vain.At this moment, he still had the same high spirits as before, his whole body looked sluggish, and his stubble also turned blue. He didn't force me, he put the water aside first, and said to me: "Wait until you get well." , I’ll send a psychiatrist over, and you’ll be fine.”

"You think I'm sick?"

He was silent for a long time before he said to me: "I can't help it. I should have had an accident, but fate tricked people, and it ended up on Aiyu. I can't help him. I can only do my best in the past ten years. Take care of him as much as I can. I can't help but blame you, not only because your actions hurt Aiyu, but also hurt my trust. At the beginning, no matter what you wanted, I can satisfy you. If you are seriously injured in a car accident If it's me, I won't be so angry."

I was tired of looking away: "Do you think you are great? Did you not feel sorry for Gu Aiyu, and you were kind to me? After all, you still believe that I did that thing. You keep saying that I hurt your trust, but you Have you ever trusted me? We have nothing to say. Even if what you said is true, I have paid the price for ten years. In these ten years, I have been bruised and bruised and you have not made me feel better. We will be even, you go."

He suddenly raised his head: "Do you think I was the one who ordered you to be cleaned up in prison?"

"Isn't it? Even if you say I don't believe it anymore, the trust between us is simply the most ridiculous thing in the world."

He looked at me weakly and said, "I really didn't let anyone do anything to you. I just didn't want to and didn't dare to see you for ten years. If Aiyu hadn't woken up and barely recovered, I wouldn't have know how to face you."

Hearing this, I directly put the quilt over my head, and isolated him from the outside.Maybe it was because my resistance was too obvious, and he stopped trying to communicate with me.I hid in the quilt, but my heart was barren. In fact, I probably know that my mentality is not healthy anymore. I have been depressed for so many years, and I admire myself for not going crazy.

Since then, we no longer have any communication. He invited a nurse. I thought he was imitating his strict requirements. He was unsmiling and only knew how to work. Who knew that she was actually an enthusiastic middle-aged woman. Her young aunt looks like she is working in the city, but she is neatly dressed, knows the importance, and often speaks poor Mandarin but likes to chat with me with a smile. It can be seen that she thinks that I take good care of me from the bottom of her heart. Willing to talk to me more to make me happy.

I found out later that not long after she gave birth to her son, she was sold to someone else by his gambling-addicted husband just for 5 yuan in gambling capital. Hacked the husband to death, although the husband said the name of the introducer, but the child had already passed through several hands and did not know where he was.Looking at her bright eyes, I couldn't believe that such a weak woman dared to leave her hometown and embark on a journey that may last a lifetime and have no results.

She gently helped me up, propped up the small table, and arranged the meals. She smiled after watching me eat slowly, and said: "Sometimes I feel hopeless, but I am always afraid that my son will be wronged." , always thinking about going one step further, maybe it is this step I work hard to get my little treasure back."

I gently put down the spoon and asked, "If you still can't find it after a long time, will you look for it again?"

"Yes." She pinned a strand of white hair behind her ear: "I'm used to living a life of wandering. There are so many cities in China. I have to search all over. If I don't find it once, I will search again. I won't regret it when I die of old age."

"Maybe you can start a new life, find a down-to-earth man, and have a child."

She shook her head, poured a glass of water for me and put it aside: "When you have worries in your heart, you will know that you can't hold anything in your mind."

I kept silent, how could I not understand, but people always have to go down, don't they?

The next few days passed very peacefully, and Shen Qingpei never appeared again. In fact, it was only the day before yesterday that I inadvertently found out that Gu Aiyu was also in this hospital, in the advanced ward two floors above me.Aunt Qing hadn't come over until noon that day. She was always on time. I guessed that she had something to do, so I didn't ask too much.

I don't know why, I really want to go and see Gu Aiyu right now, the relationship between me and him can't be regarded as antagonism, nor can we be regarded as friends, it can only be regarded as an acquaintance he met incidentally through Shen Qingpei, perhaps a little better than an acquaintance, But that's all.

In the past, I was very curious about whether he knew that Shen Qingpei liked him, but after seeing his reaction, I realized that he knew everything, but he chose to pretend to be deaf and dumb.

I dressed myself neatly and got on the elevator.I thought that according to Shen Qingpei and Yue Xun's importance to him, there should be many people guarding him at the door, but until he entered the ward, he was the only one there, and he was struggling to slow down the welded handrail on the wall. Walking slowly, I thought I would be a little angry or envious when I saw him, but neither, objectively speaking, he is also a victim.

I could feel the pain just looking at him, his forehead was covered with dense sweat, he saw me find the door within two steps, and greeted me with a smile: "You are here."

He is still the same.I walked over silently, helped him to sit slowly on the wheelchair beside him, he didn't care about anything, his expression remained the same, he looked at me for a long time and said: "You really haven't changed at all, you are still so good-looking."

I look good?I am too embarrassed to say the word "good-looking" in front of him and Shen Qingpei.After so many years, I feel that I am no different from an old man.

He wiped his sweat, looked straight at me with dark eyes, and lightly touched my gauze-wrapped wrist with one hand: "Anyway, please don't get overwhelmed. If something really happens to you, I will Conscience disturbed."

I was almost ashamed of what he said. He was obviously the victim, but he had a broader heart than me. I probably knew why he was so memorable and engraved in people's hearts.If I were him, I might not have such a good mentality.

He smiled at me apologetically, and then said: "I woke up nine years ago. After waking up, I was in a daze for a long time and my consciousness was not very clear. Later, when I slowly recovered, I secretly investigated What happened back then, I know your injustice."