Divorce!I want to feed you.

Unbelievable, Shu also opened his eyes wide in surprise, looking at the calm and sullen man opposite.There was no smile at the corner of his mouth, and his eyes were terribly cold, all of which seemed to express that he was not joking.

"Why... are you so persistent, how do you want to be satisfied..."

His teeth were stuttering and shaking, and the fear and anger of being threatened made his body tremble non-stop, and the hull, which was unstable in the panic, seemed to start to shake along with it.

Jing Shan let go of his hands and stood up steadily.Facing this demon-like man, Qiu also kept wanting to retreat, but he had no way out, and if he retreated, he would fall into the water.

He is not good at swimming, so he has a greater fear of deep water. Both sides are what he fears. At this time, the situation is just like the boy in the movie "Life of Pi", with a tiger on board and a bottomless ocean below.But I am not that brave young man. Even if what I am facing now is not a life-or-death decision, it still makes people dull and even start to be overwhelmed by panic in a situation where they cannot make a choice.

"I just want to know if you are living happily or not, Qiu Ye."

The tiger lowered its head, put its hands on its knees, and poked its neck over. It was fierce and calm. The dangerous approach made Qiu Ye lean back, and the boat sank a little bit. It's unbearable.

"I don't know, I don't know...don't ask me, I don't know...don't know..."

Under the oppressive atmosphere with nowhere to hide, Qiu Ye, who has no concept of the definition of happiness, can live in harmony with Muma in a way of self-deception and self-satisfaction. It doesn't make sense anymore.I wholeheartedly believed that I was in love with Muma. This persistent thought has never wavered since the confirmation.

Grabbing her hair and covering her head, Shuya's voice was hoarse and full of despair because of difficulty breathing.He didn't understand why Jingshan targeted him so much, if he liked him, why he forced him.

Isn't love to perfect each other?Just like my love for Muma, give me enough tolerance, understanding and fulfillment, and self-sacrifice... And what is Jingshan doing, driving himself to a dead end, and letting desperate people make choices, making people painful?

"Qiuya, calm down and listen to me..."

"I don't know, don't ask me! Don't... I don't know..."

Jing Shan looked at the man who was on the verge of collapse, and wanted to stretch out his hand to hold him down, but recalling Qiu Ye's words, he held back.

"Listen to me Qiuya!"

His eyes became dim and slack, and he finally closed his mouth in the low voice of the terrifying man in front of him.

"Qiuya, I won't really push you into the water, and I won't touch you, so don't get excited and listen carefully."

Crouching down, Jing Shan tried his best to get closer to Qiu Ye, but when their faces were less than half a meter apart, they couldn't see each other.Qiu didn't dare to look over, and Jingshan didn't dare to reach out and touch his face.

"You know I like you, right?"

"……Um."

Even if she didn't look at it, Qiu still nodded slightly tremblingly.A man has an urge for another individual, and that may just be biological.But if the man can restrain himself for that person, it's emotional.That's why Qiu Ye was able to be sure that he was not the fleshy bone that aroused appetite in Jingshan's eyes, but a special existence that he wanted to get close to.

"But you are not happy, right? If you are really happy, you will refute me loudly, and you will firmly believe in your own happiness, but you say you don't know. Qiuya, can I save you from this misfortune? Pull it out?"

Jingshan couldn't restrain his gradually becoming agitated and high-spirited. He kept questioning Qiu Ye, expressing clearly the unexplainable desire in his heart.The oars blocked him, but Jing Shan turned a blind eye.The gradually approaching body was uncontrollable, until Qiu Ye choked up in a low voice, "No, no, no."

"Do you like that woman that much?"

It's just too ugly.Jing Shan thought to himself, if he hadn't lost control for a while, he would never have fallen to the point where he is now.For Qiu Ye, he does things that his conscience and morality cannot easily accept, but he still has to face a dark and hopeless unknown future.It seemed that all the power of life and death was in the hands of this timid man. No matter how strong he was, he was absolutely helpless when facing this man.

"I... I love Mumma, she is mine, my wife..."

"Even if you are not happy? Even if your blind and ridiculous love is unilateral and unresponsive, you are not willing to give up?"

What kind of face he is at the moment, Jing Shan has already ignored.He didn't want anything but Qiu Ye, but this man resisted himself, saying "love his wife" such hurtful words over and over again.But Qiu Ye was clearly right, Jingshan knew that all of this was caused by his own obsession.

"Jingshan..."

Qiu Ye's face was already buried in his knees, and he softly called out to the man in front of him with a feeble voice.

"I am not happy, but even if I am not happy, this is my choice. I am responsible for Muma, and..."

The sky was so dark that it was almost impossible to see anything. The light from the street lamps on the shore was reflected on the water surface, crushed by the tiny waves and reflected into Jing Shan's eyes. My own man, wait for him to speak.

"Also, the name 'Third Party' is too ugly...I don't want you because of me..."

Jing Shan seemed to be thinking about something, and slowly sat back in his seat, with a dejected look as if he had admitted his failure.

"That's why I won't divorce Muma, Mr. Jingshan."

Unexpectedly, when Qiuya raised his head again, there were already drops of water flowing down.Even though icy tears rolled from the corners of his eyes to his chin, Shuya smiled instead.Jing Shan couldn't take his eyes away from his signature gentle smile and calm and shy face, but Qiu Ye, who was smiling and crying at the same time, couldn't face it at all.

Jing Shan didn't know what was going on with the soreness in his heart, but he was exhausted from all the inexplicable power of reason.

"Tomorrow, let's go on a date. When we meet again, just pretend we don't know each other, okay?"

Qiu also quietly suppressed the sadness in her heart, wiped away her tears, and waited for Jingshan's answer.But Jing Shan didn't speak, as if his position was reversed, it was the other party who lowered his head and covered his eyes.

"Hey, okay? If it doesn't work, I'll just jump from here."

Like a light-hearted joke between friends, Shuya tried not to sound threatening.But Jing Shan still didn't move, his broad palm covered his eyes, and he couldn't tell what kind of expression he had.

"Ah... If it's not good, I'd better jump off..."

Qiu also found that he no longer understood himself.Just now I was terrified, but now I am completely relieved.No longer nervous and afraid, he stood up slowly and looked at the dark green to black lake, felt the warmth and humidity in the wind with open arms, as if he had made a decision, he tried to step on the side of the boat with one foot.

"No! I promise you! Qiuya, I promise you..."

Finally he raised his head, seeing Qiu Ye eager to jump, Jing Shan quickly grabbed the man's wrist.

"Don't scare me, Qiuya, I promise you..."

Looking back, Qiu Ye was still smiling like that, looking at the flustered Jingshan with a kind but cruel look.

It wasn't until Qiu Ye withdrew his foot and sat down again that Jing Shan let go of his hand and silently rowed the oars. After a few minutes, the two of them stood back on the shore again.

"Then let's just say that? Tomorrow you can come earlier, so that you will have more time."

"Qiuya, can't it be from tonight?"

Looking at the man who lowered his head and looked in pitiful eyes, Qiu also remembered the disdain and coldness in his eyes for the first time, which was completely gone at this moment.If he hadn't seen it with his own eyes and heard it with his own ears, Qiu would not have believed it at all. One day, Jingshan would try to beg him with such a pitiful gesture.

And I don't know how there is such a decisiveness in the gentle and easy-going personality.

"I want to calm down, so not tonight."

"Oh...then I will arrive at the hotel on time at eight o'clock tomorrow."

Under the night, the brightly illuminated journey back home was not as long as it was when it came. Jingshan felt that he was not ready to part, so he had to part.Standing downstairs of the hotel, Qiu Ye waved his hand to say good night to Jing Shan, and then walked in without looking back.

Qiu didn't know if Jingshan was still there, but after entering the room, she couldn't wait to open a corner of the curtain, and quickly looked for the tall figure belonging to Jingshan.

The man was like a stone statue, standing on the side of the road smoking until the cigarette box was empty, then beckoned the taxi to leave, and Qiu Ye, who was hiding behind the curtain, finally closed the curtain, turned around, took off his clothes and walked towards the bathroom go.

The body in the mirror was pale and thin, the eyes were reddish, and the protruding bones looked unattractive, even a little sick.His cheeks are sunken due to his thinness, and his chin has a beard that he decided to keep.

"Ugly...!"

Not knowing whether he was talking about the beard or herself, Shuya shaved them off again without hesitation, then stepped into the bathtub, raised her head as if dead, stared at the ceiling, and began to think.

"Can you drag you out of this misfortune..."

Qiu also murmured what Jing Shan had said, obviously immersed in the water, but her throat was extremely thirsty.

"No response...?"

The words that precisely hit the center of Zhongqiuye's chest seemed to be beating him, making him have to admit that he was indeed what Jingshan said.Qiu also can't figure out why she loves Muma, but this love that wants to last even if it is one-sided, no matter how ridiculous it is, it cannot be easily let go.

It's not Muma who can't let go, but the promise she made at the wedding.He will always love each other and will never leave him, regardless of poverty or wealth, regardless of illness or death.Now that you have decided to love, how can you give up so easily.

But what about Jingshan...

That is the existence that I should never touch. Even if the other party takes the initiative to meet him, I have already lost my qualifications, and I have no choice but to retreat and avoid.Qiu also knew that even though he always thought that Jingshan was a terrifying existence, his nerves were tense all the time, but he began to relax in the increasingly close contact, and inadvertently relaxed his guard.

It is meaningless to think about whether he will fall in love with a man. No matter what kind of emotion he has for Jingshan, Qiu also has to admit that he has lost himself in Jingshan's coldness and tenderness.

But in this way, didn't he betray Muma?The wife he should have loved wholeheartedly, even if the other party lacks concern for him, the establishment of the relationship cannot be ignored and refuted.

Qiu also admitted that he was moved by Jingshan, but it was also because of this admission that he fell into the torment of the moral cage where he was mentally tortured.

Sighing in silence, Qiu also reached out and touched his thin neck.The collarbone and Adam's apple are so prominent here that there is no other burden.Invisibly, there was a pair of collars, and Qiu also closed his eyes, fastened it around his neck and locked it, and swallowed the key into his stomach...

The author has something to say:

"Fate is a sleeping slave" is derived from a classic line in "JOJO's Bizarre Adventure" created by Araki Hirohiko, I like it very much!