Divorce!I want to feed you.

Waking up 10 minutes earlier than the scheduled alarm clock, Qiuya washed up and changed into light clothes.I didn't know what time Jingshan would come, so I sat there from seven o'clock in the morning to eight o'clock in the morning, and the knock on the door rang on time.

Opening the door, the man standing in front of him was not very energetic, but still smiled at himself uncharacteristically.Immediately, Qiu Ye returned a more gentle smile to Jing Shan.

"Good morning, Shuya."

"Good morning. I... don't want to call you Jingshan today, can you tell me your name?"

Unexpectedly, Qiu Ye was still thinking about this matter, Jing Shan touched the tip of his nose and let out a laugh, but told the other party seriously.

"Yu Jingzhe."

"Zhe..."

Qiu Ye, who had always been habitually avoiding Jingshan's gaze, was very brave today. He raised his head sincerely and looked into those eyes meekly.

"Yeah, Qiuya."

Without hesitation, Qiu also took the initiative to stretch out her hands and put her arms around Jing Shan's waist, feeling his slightly warm body temperature.

"Can I just call you Qiu Ye?"

"My surname has only one word, so you can call me that."

Stuffed in Jingshan's arms, Qiu could hear the other's heartbeat through his chest.Calm, even and powerful, when he said his name, his heart vibrated along with it.

"Yeah, Qiuya."

"exist."

Jing Shan wrapped his hands around Qiu Ye's back, lowered his head, and kissed the top of his head greedily.

"Did you eat breakfast?"

"No, would you like to have breakfast with me?"

After loosening their arms, the two walked out of the hotel, looking for a place to have breakfast.However, I don't know if it's because today is too special, even when they are eating, the two look at each other.

If you don't know, maybe others will think they are really a gay couple.Even if they were riding the subway together, Jing Shan held Qiu Ye's hand without asking, and even protected him in his arms when there were many people.Being protected by a person as tall as a tree, Shu also experienced this novelty.

Because he came too early, there were very few people in the exhibition hall. Qiu also looked at the various architectural photos hanging on the wall. Even if he didn't understand, he listened carefully to Jingshan's introduction to him in a low voice.

"Zhe, did you learn this because you like architectural design?"

After reading a lot of works, even if I only have sighs such as "so beautiful" and "so wonderful", I still want to chat with Jingshan more.

"I couldn't remember it at first, but I liked it when I was studying, and I also admired Master Tadao Ando. But later, because of my father's relationship, it became very contradictory."

"He doesn't support you?"

"No."

Jing Shan stood still, looked around the exhibition hall roughly, and then his eyes were a little confused.

"He was originally an architect, and he didn't object to me doing it. But one year, he was suspected of plagiarism because he won an award for an art gallery he designed, and was forced to jump off a building by a group of old guys in the industry. Since then, I have decided to design commercial projects all the time. Housing. So there is actually a love-hate relationship with architectural design.”

Listening to Jingshan's calm and breezy tone describing the tragedy about his relatives, Qiu couldn't believe that he could be so calm when he mentioned this matter.

"Sorry……"

Qiu also lowered his head, not knowing what to say.

"It's not your fault, why are you always apologizing?"

It was only then that Qiu Ye remembered that when he said this sentence in front of Jing Shan many times, the other party would reply to him with such strange remarks.If you think about Jingshan with common sense, there will be something wrong.If you get along with him intuitively, it may go more smoothly.

"This master who held a solo exhibition is very famous?"

Qiu Ye, who knew nothing about architecture, didn't know this person at all.Even if you may hear this person's name on TV, but more people don't know it at all.

"Oh, Master Tadao Ando won the Pritzker Prize in 1995, which is equivalent to the Nobel of architecture. Master Kenzo Tange was also born in Osaka and won this award. But I prefer Tadao Ando, ​​he is not from a major , but the acquired attainments are extremely high, and the ingenious cooperation of wind, light and geometric figures in nature has a high-level aesthetic feeling and at the same time conforms to nature, and the works are very soulful buildings."

Although it is only a few brief explanations, it is full of Jingshan's respect for this master of architecture.Qiu also guessed that Jingshan still loves this job, otherwise he would not have persisted after his father died.

"Although I don't quite understand it, it still sounds amazing. Do you want to achieve this kind of achievement too? Zhe."

Today, Qiu Ye is really like a lover, spending time with the one he loves, and chatting about topics that the other party is interested in.

"No, I only design commercial housing, and I have no desire for the Pritzker Prize."

If you ask Hollywood actors if they want to win an Oscar, about [-] out of [-] people will answer "yes".Unlike Qiu Ye, Jingshan has such a ceiling-like achievement award in his field. For a passionate practitioner, what is the reason why he has no desire for a star-like goal.

"Ah... Designing a house is also very good. It makes people feel at home. In the stormy weather, the people hiding in the house will appreciate you."

This kind of persuasion is really meaningless, but Qiu also doesn't know what to say.Apart from walking around the exhibition with Jingshan slowly and killing time, I don't know anything about the rest.Occasionally, I stop to look at the design year and introduction of the work, and discuss a few words when I see familiar buildings.

But Qiu is also sure that Jingshan's mood has always been in a low state.Even if he didn't say anything, he would occasionally raise the corners of his mouth and smile, then lower his head, but still looked lonely.

"Zhe, are you tired?"

Walking out of the exhibition hall, Jingshan stood at the door in a daze, and Qiu also waited for him to arrange the next itinerary.Since it's a date, the two will be together all day long.But the original plan was only to see the exhibition.

"Is the aquarium okay?"

It was almost eleven o'clock at noon, and the gradually hot weather made people want to take off their coats.When the two arrived near the aquarium, they had lunch before entering.But no matter what animals he was looking at, Jingshan always had a kind of carelessness.What exactly is his purpose, Qiu Ye has no idea.

Such a perfunctory attitude towards sightseeing, until Qiu also inadvertently said "It's already three o'clock in the afternoon" and suddenly became nervous. The penguins in front of him could no longer stop Jingshan, and the sudden acceleration of the pace caught Qiu Ye a little unprepared, and followed closely behind. But it also needs to follow quickly.

He seems panicked...

Qiu also lowered his head all the way, guessing like this when he was firmly grabbed on the subway on the way back.

But where to go back now, it belongs to this special day between him and Jingshan, it seems that there are only a few hours left in the past.As soon as the sun rises again, everything will be cut off.

Why is there some reluctance in my heart? Is it because I am used to the existence of Jingshan?Qiu couldn't help laughing at herself for being greedy and selfish.

After opening the door, he thought that Jingshan would do something, but he just sat quietly on the bed and looked at Qiuye who was standing at the window like that day.

"Why don't you come and sit? Why do you always like to stand?"

Qiu also thought, most people are not used to sitting on the bed with others...

"I'm lazy. As long as I sit on the bed, I can easily lie down and fall asleep."

After saying that, he laughed, Qiu Ye was embarrassed and didn't know what to do, and at the same time, he didn't dare to look into Jing Shan's eyes.

"Thank you for your hard work today. You have been shopping with me for so long."

With his hands clasped together, Jing Shan also laughed.

"It's not hard, I had a great time shopping. I haven't had a chance to come here, so I don't know much about it. Let's treat it as a tourist, hehe..."

Suddenly becoming more polite, Qiuya was even a little unaccustomed to it.When he was outside, he could ignore everything, hold Jing Shan's hand, and call him by his name affectionately.But here, the atmosphere is eerily subtle.

"Then can you lend me a hug for a while? Qiu Ye, in the last few hours you give me, I want to hold you all the time. Can you..."

He begged Qiu Ye tactfully, hoping that the other party would fulfill his small wish.

Without answering whether Jingshan was okay, Qiu Ye walked to the bed in two steps, propped one knee on the bed, and hugged Jingshan actively.

"I want to... hear you call me."

She couldn't see the other person's face, but Qiu could clearly feel the shock that her actions had brought to Jingshan.His voice, his back... Even though his breathing was still steady, he couldn't hide the trembling.

"Zhe."

With a soft call, Qiu also reached out and stroked the man's back.Immediately, he felt that it was not enough, so he called again.

"Zhe, Zhe."

Clinging to Jingshan's head, Qiu was afraid that he might not be able to hear clearly, so she turned her face away, pressed her lips against Jingshan's ear, and called this man in a low voice again.

"Zhe..."

Touching his cold earlobe, Jing Shan's body suddenly became stiff, and then his tightly bound arms seemed to knead Qiu Ye into one with him, and the bound person was almost suffocated.

The back hurts, but it hurts more than the inside of the chest.The uncontrollable emotion broke through the defense of reason. In the silent room, Qiu Ye knew for the first time whether emotion is cold or warm, and it can also make people paralyzed or bring people extreme pain.

"Zhe, do you like me?"

Asking the known answer softly, Qiu also docilely lay in Jingshan's arms.

"I like you, Qiuya."

"How much do you like it?"

"I like it so much that I want to kill you at the last second today, and then I will kill myself."

The terrifying love words that this person occasionally uttered, although frightening, are so poignant and heroic.Qiu also felt the trembling from the soul, and couldn't help laughing out in relief.

"It's the first time someone can like me so much, I'm so happy..."

With a sense of satisfaction, Shuya smiled and closed her eyes.No matter how Jing Shan kissed him, he wouldn't let go until he couldn't breathe.His unrestrained hot kiss gradually melted Qiu Ye's rationality, maybe since last night, Qiu Ye has already been irrational at all.

Feeling the wet lips on the neck, the hot and humid tears that flowed down the cheeks dripped onto the bed sheets and made small watermarks, and those lips kissed the eyes that kept weeping.

"Zhe, it hurts so much, you make me hurt so much."

The uncontrollable throbbing and the constant rumbling of sadness in the body seemed to be constantly tearing, and finally made Qiuya lie there powerlessly, motionless.

"Qiuya...you, do you like me too..."

After hesitating to ask, Jing Shan knelt on the bed, his eyes were full of sadness, but he was so eager for Qiu Ye to respond to him.

"I don't know, liking, love, or happiness don't seem to be real. In my 30 years of life, I always passively accept, don't choose, and wait for God to arrange everything for me...but I don't Understand, why let me get married and meet you..."

Still with that mournful expression, Shuya bit her finger and turned her face to one side.

"Is it pity that I have never been loved by others, or is it punishing me for relying too much on fate...I don't understand...I can only accept..."

It doesn't matter whether the punishment is light or severe. Tomorrow, both of us will forget about the past.Even if the memories are full of unpleasantness, we must accept the days without each other.

"Give you to me, Qiuya! Can you! Can you continue...to be together, I don't want to obey some shit fate!"

Jingshan's painful expression makes people sad, he is so eager for Qiu to stay by his side regardless of everything.

"Be obedient, Zhe. This is too ugly. I should be the only one who bears the blame. It was I who hid in a place without Muma and indulged myself. It was I who crossed the bottom line. I betrayed her when I fell in love with you. I I don't want you to bear the crime together, it will make me feel even more uncomfortable."

Gently rubbing Jingshan's cheek with his thumb, the action of being more loving than the other person is like caring for a fragile object standing in the wind.Qiu Ye slowly pulled Jingshan up until their hands overlapped, covering the place where the cold belt buckle was tied.

"If you want, take it..."

As if he was about to die, he pecked and kissed Jingshan's lips, Qiu also closed his eyes tightly, but his hands did not hesitate or flinch.

The author has something to say:

Master Tadao Ando, ​​there is a real person, what is said here is true!He himself is really from Osaka and has won the Pritzker Prize.

Then, because this chapter is very long, so I won’t update it one by one, and let the next chapter be released, so as not to be emotionally incoherent