Rebirth of a Writer's Life

Consciousness gradually returned to his body. At first, Tao Sheng could only feel a splitting headache. He tried to open his eyes, but his eyelids seemed to be injected with lead, which was terribly heavy.

After trying several times, I tasted what it means to be extremely sore, but my eyelids still couldn't move a single bit.

where was he just nowIn Tao Sheng's vague consciousness, a question popped up.

at the venue.

doing what?

Penultimate rehearsal.

dress rehearsal……

The fragments that were originally intermittently blurred became clear and coherent in an instant.It was through that moment of sobriety that Tao Sheng suddenly opened his eyes.

The scorching hot feeling came quickly, and the whole picture of various high fevers, even without a thermometer, Tao Sheng knew that his fever might be more than 38 degrees at this moment, but he was still in the venue just now?What will happen next?

Then he looked around carefully, and Tao Sheng found that he was lying in a room, which was a very standard hotel double bed room, but it seemed to be slightly different from that kind of room, Tao Sheng just felt that way, the details said If he didn't come out, he didn't have time to observe.

So where is this?

Tao Sheng thought about it again, did he faint in the venue just now?Then the staff just moved him into the room?

When Tao Sheng lifted the quilt and wanted to go out to see what was going on, when he looked down, he realized that his clothes had been changed by someone.It's not a well-fitting suit, but a set of...loose home clothes, yes, not a white bathrobe for hotels, but home clothes, although it doesn't fit his size very well.After making sure that he read it correctly, Tao Sheng suddenly didn't understand what was going on. Was this also done by the staff?

so careful?It's really a one-stop service.

Rubbing his temples helplessly, Tao Sheng didn't have the brain to think too much at the moment, he always felt that even if he moved a finger, his brain could sing a song in protest.

Her throat was extremely dry, and there was indeed a pot of water on the bedside table, but Tao Sheng didn't want to touch it at all.The stomach was obviously empty, but it was still overwhelming, as if it could be vomited at any time.

Just when Tao Sheng was hesitating whether to go to the phone first or go out directly, the door "clicked--" sounded.

At first, Tao Sheng couldn't recognize who came in. The whole room was dim and dark. When he got up, he only turned on a dim yellow lamp beside the bed, so at first he could only see a very vague shadow.

Until the other party came closer, he said with a worried voice, "Are you awake?"

It wasn't until Tao Sheng realized that his eyes almost rolled to the sky.

An hour ago, Guo Huai learned from his subordinates that it was an employee of Jinshi who went to the penultimate rehearsal or inspection today.The person reported this matter to the person in charge of the Guo family at the annual meeting, and naturally he looked dissatisfied. Guo Huai just happened to pass by and heard it. When he heard that it was an employee, he guessed that it was Tao in all likelihood. Sheng.

This kind of thing is usually done by the marketing department. If the director remembers correctly, it was Wan Xin who came over that day. Based on the person she chose to bring that day and the way she introduced Tao Sheng, Guo Huai guessed so.

He remembered what Luo Zhe had told him about Yan Xiu later that day, which made him more sure of this idea.

But at that time, he couldn't care about right or wrong, since the last dream, he hadn't been alone with Tao Sheng, vaguely.So Guo Huai was always anxious, he was eager to prove something, and this feeling has been very strong since then, even if he himself can't tell the details.

So the current situation came into being. After recognizing the man as Guo Huai, Tao Sheng understood what it meant to be a narrow enemy.He went to work due to illness and unfortunately passed out, and then he was bumped into by this guy and sent to rest, and he took off his clothes by the way?

I really answered that sentence, I can't see it when I want to see it, and I can't see it every day when I don't want to see it.

Normally, he would not be able to fight a fight, but now with a body whose decibels are slightly higher, Tao Sheng understands that he will not be able to escape today.

"Lie down first," Guo Huai saw Tao Sheng's frown three steps away, and immediately stopped walking, looked at Tao Sheng hesitantly, and tentatively said, "It's almost forty degrees, I will let people do the outside things."

He was worried that as soon as he got close, Tao Sheng would immediately explode. Like the previous two times, he knew that Tao Sheng's current physical condition could not withstand such a thing.

Tao Sheng just glanced at him, Guo Huai was telling the truth, he could feel that his illness was obviously worse than before, and the hot feeling all over his body was very uncomfortable.

But it would be really hard for him to stay in this room, standing face to face with Guo Huai, the fever of [-] degrees could reach [-] degrees in a blink of an eye.

"You go out." Tao Sheng then said.

Guo Huai's expression froze, when had he ever experienced such resistance?

"I won't touch you." After thinking for a while, he suppressed the emotions in his heart, followed Tao Sheng's possible worries, and promised.

"Don't touch me? Then who will change my clothes?" Tao Sheng looked at him coldly. As long as Guo Huai was around, he couldn't let others change his clothes. His desire for exclusiveness didn't value Tao much in those four years. When Sheng was born, it was already exposed naked.

"That's because you hit the table when you fell, the water in the vase..." Guo Huai paused at this point, then stopped.

He suddenly realized that Tao Sheng didn't actually want him to explain about changing clothes, because no matter what the truth was, he didn't want to be in this room.

This has nothing to do with whether to change clothes or not. It should have started with his phone call at the earliest.

Seeing that he didn't leave, Tao Sheng didn't want to continue entanglement. This is not his territory, so he said bluntly, "Where are my clothes?"

As Tao Sheng said, he was about to get up and look for it.

"Don't get up!" Guo Huai yelled when he saw him get up.

Sure enough, as soon as Tao Sheng got up, he found that his body couldn't keep up with the movements in his head at all, and his legs had no strength at all. Before he could exert his strength, his legs went limp, and he fell directly back on the bed.Fortunately, Guo Huai rushed forward and hugged his shoulders, so that his brain didn't bump up like this twice.

"The doctor is on his way, don't make fun of your body." Smelling Tao Sheng's familiar scent, Guo Huai suddenly had the urge to hug her tightly, and he knew it was not the time.So he endured and endured, and then slowly put Tao Sheng on the bed and lay down.

On the other side, Tao Sheng was quite different. Just a little shaking had already made him dizzy to the point where he didn't even have time to notice Guo Huai's small movements.After wandering around in a hazy state for a while, he finally came back to his senses. At this time, Guo Huai had already found a seat near the bed and sat down.

At the same time, before Tao Sheng could speak, Guo Huai said first, "I want to ask you a question."

When he said this, Guo Huai's face was full of uneasiness, and it could even be said that he was a little...dodging?

This discovery made Tao Sheng a little surprised, he had never seen such an expression appear on Guo Huai's face.

"I..." Guo Huai wanted to ask Tao Sheng what was going on with that dream, he had an intuition that Tao Sheng could solve his confusion for so many days, and he intuited what Tao Sheng knew.But when he saw Tao Sheng's bright eyes, he couldn't help swallowing the words again, "Let's talk carefully this time, you tell me why we broke up... is that okay?"

But within three to five minutes, Guo Huai showed many expressions that Tao Sheng had never seen before.He has seen Guo Huai's domineering, Guo Huai's indifference, and Guo Huai's anger, but he has never seen Guo Huai like this. The smell of praying.

But even so, Tao Sheng can only sigh that things are right and people are wrong, Guo Huai is different, but in his heart, there is no way to go back.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Guo Huai was a little anxious, "Am I treating you badly? Or is it cheating as you said... But I really don't have this. The last time I went to City C was because..."

"Did I ask you this when I was with you?" Tao Sheng interrupted him suddenly.

"No." Guo Huai replied almost subconsciously.

"Then it's all broken now, so I don't care about it anymore." Tao Sheng said, rubbing his temples, thinking that he would definitely not need to rest if he stayed like this, if someone could pick him up...

Yes, Jian Miao.

Still can't do it, Tao Sheng thought about it, remembered the situation in Four Seasons Garden last time, Guo Huai didn't hesitate to make a move even for a famous director like Kuang, if Jian Miao were to come...

Tao Sheng shook his head silently in his heart.

"Whose matter do you care about? Wu Wei, or Xiao Qing?" Guo Huai stared at Tao Sheng's eyes, restraining his excitement, and asked.

Tao Sheng said he wouldn't care, that he wouldn't take care of him.

It's like what Jian Miao said to him last time outside the community.

This sentence, which seems to have cut off all relationships in an instant, involuntarily blocked him from Tao Sheng's life, and Guo Huai couldn't help but want to rush forward and hug him into his arms, embed him in his bones, and rub him into his heart. inside.

So he can never go again.

That way he'll always be by his side.

Then he was his, from beginning to end.

In the end, Tao Sheng was out of his mind, and he couldn't think of a person who came to pick him up now, but could not be angered by Guo Huai. He could only rub his temples, knowing that he would not be able to avoid this calamity.

"Wake up, Guo Huai, between you and me, there are still a lot of questions before other people are involved." Tao Sheng thought for a while and replied.

He didn't want to entangle with Guo Huai any longer, just like he couldn't block Guo Huai's number back then.It's true that he will take a step back when he takes a step forward, but when he can't take a step back, just like Tao Sheng himself, he will rush forward.

At that time, your thoughts may no longer be in your mind.

It would be great for Tao Sheng if he could really explain the matter between the two of them clearly in this way and make Guo Huai give up pestering him like this.

"what is the problem?"

"..." Tao Sheng opened his mouth, but couldn't speak.

what is the problem?

You don't love me enough?Do you have someone else in your heart?Have you never thought about spending your whole life with me?

This kind of reason, brought to the table, even Tao Sheng himself couldn't say it.But in the past, he persisted for four years or six years precisely for these few beliefs that might become a reality.

At this moment, Tao Sheng actually wanted to laugh, what's the matter?Sure enough, getting used to it is really a very scary thing.It's as if he fell into the vicious circle called "Guo Huai" without hesitation back then, and never went out after that.

No, he never thought of going out.

That's right, he persisted for so long, he thought about how to treat Guo Huai well, how to accompany Guo Huai, and how to make Guo Huai fall in love with him.He has been through so many years of pain, but he never thought of such an easy way to leave him.

The feelings of so many years are like an invisible barrier in Tao Sheng's heart, he can't escape, and he never thought of running away.

So from then on, his life began to revolve around Guo Huai as the axis, and there was no way out.

So back then, wasn't it just wishful thinking on his part to be such a person and create such a love?

Tao Sheng looked at Guo Huai, and suddenly laughed, he shook his head, "It's really nothing, there is no banquet in the world that lasts forever, Mr. Guo, you have to think about it."

"But I don't want to leave." Guo Huai said word by word, "I don't want to leave. You were kind to me at the beginning, but I didn't respond. It was my fault for you to choose to leave me now. Now I want to make up for it. You really don't want to give it to me." me a chance?"

"But I want to leave. I treated you well at the beginning, but you didn't respond. It's my fault that I persisted in doing so. Now I regret it. Can't you give me a chance to break it off cleanly?"

Guo Huai stared at Tao Sheng, and after a while, he burst out two words, "No."

He was too lazy to continue talking with Guo Huai, so he closed his eyes, thinking that Guo Huai was losing his mind.It was his wishful thinking for the first four years, but Guo Huai didn't realize where he was because of his wishful thinking and wanting to get back together.

"Wu Wei, I haven't finished with him, you are with me, no, after you left, I haven't found anyone else." Seeing that Tao Sheng didn't speak, Guo Huai could only say to himself, "You are now Come back, okay? I will treat you well, and the previous things are my fault, okay?"

Tao Sheng still didn't speak.

"You need to know about Xiao Qing, and I'll tell you everything. I've thought it through. My feeling for him...is different from yours." Guo Huai shook his head, "You learn Chinese, I'm not as good as you Express, but I know how I feel. I feel what I want, not him."

"Then you make a time machine, and you can change it when you go back. I can't do it now, but even if it's a year earlier, no, a month," Tao Sheng taunted, "I will definitely agree. your."

Guo Huai looked at Tao Sheng's handsome face, and suddenly there was an emotion in his heart that he didn't understand.

For a while, he stared at these eyes, as if possessed by a demon, without knowing it.

"I had a dream some time ago." Guo Huai said in a low voice.

"I dreamed that you... had a car accident."

Tao Sheng's closed eyes trembled, and the hand on his abdomen was subconsciously put away.

"I also dreamed of myself," Guo Huai said in confusion, "and...Xiao Qing. Then you just lay on the ground, covered in blood..."

"enough."

Tao Sheng opened his eyes and interrupted him with a frown.

"It feels like it really happened, so I've been worried about you for the past few days, I..." Guo Huai continued on his own, as if he didn't hear Tao Sheng's stop, but when he said Here, he suddenly couldn't continue.

I saw Tao Sheng's face looked extremely tired, it seemed to be a little paler than before, Guo Huai could even read the fear in his heart from his eyes.

Suddenly, the whole room fell silent.

Tao Sheng looked at Guo Huai, then at the dark room, and smiled wryly.

What kind of evil fate is this?What he experienced, Guo Huai dreamed again?

For Guo Huai, those scenes that made him feel extremely painful when he recalled them were just a light dream?what is this?

Tao Sheng sat up, he wanted to leave here.

"What are you doing?" Guo Huai had an instant insight into his intentions, frowning to stop him, "You have a high fever, at least wait until the doctor comes."

Tao Sheng didn't even look at him, and stubbornly wanted to get out of bed.

"Tao Sheng!" After all, Guo Huai couldn't stand his indifference, and growled, "You hate me so much?"

This time Tao Sheng stopped, he turned his head, looked at Guo Huai, and said expressionlessly, "Yes."

Yes.

Tao Sheng didn't hesitate, and answered him without hesitation.

At that moment, Guo Huai's expression changed back and forth. He stared at Tao Sheng with wide-eyed eyes, feeling that his chest was constricted and he couldn't even breathe smoothly for a few seconds.

He looked at Tao Sheng with a trace of cruelty in his eyes, and then he took a deep breath.

"But I love you."

After speaking, he didn't even think about it, so he kissed her directly.

Tao Sheng's sick body was limp up and down, and he held him firmly in his arms, his eyes widened but he couldn't respond, and he didn't have the slightest strength to resist.

Guo Huai just kissed him roughly, and stuck out his tongue involuntarily. There was no tenderness in all his actions. He just kissed like this, as if he wanted to use it to eliminate the anxiety and anger in his heart.

Because from the moment he came in, every movement and every word of Tao Sheng seemed to be challenging his limit.

He said he didn't care about his affairs, he said he hated him, he didn't even want to stay in the same room with him, and even had to leave the place with him even with a high fever.

As Guo Huai thought about it, the anger in his chest became more and more intense. He bit every part of Tao Sheng's mouth, licked, and tossed and turned.

Tao Sheng just looked at him like this, staring at him motionless.

He knew he couldn't escape, so he could only bear it.

So when Guo Huai opened his eyes, he met Tao Sheng's clean and clear pupils, as if he could break through all the knots in the world, as if he could understand all his thoughts.

At that moment, Guo Huai felt as if something had hit his heart violently.Immediately afterwards, like a child who did something wrong, he subconsciously let go of Tao Sheng, and subconsciously took a step back.

He opened his mouth, wanting to apologize and explain, but after several attempts, he still couldn't say anything.

"You want to know?" Tao Sheng suddenly smiled.

"..." Guo Huai looked into Tao Sheng's eyes, watching the emotions surge out of them.

"I had a dream." There was no warmth in Tao Sheng's voice, "I'd rather it be a dream."

"The time limit of the dream is July 2015, 7. Yes, my birthday."

"I have been by your side since 09, and that was the sixth year. You finally agreed to stay in city b, not to mourn your first love who died long ago. Guo Huai, I have been with you for six years, and I have loved you persistently. You have been here for six years, I fucking thought you would turn back, so I waited so stupidly for six years. After I found out that you finally didn’t buy a plane ticket to France that year, I thought I had succeeded.”

"I was so happy that I thought that I had achieved the fruit of my cultivation. I was so stupid that I thought that my wish for so many years had finally come true. I also felt so fucking that you finally forgot about Xiao Qing, who is floating in some country. Finally you Guo Huai already has me in his eyes."

"Then the next second, you answered the phone and ran away. I didn't even have time to tell you that it was raining outside, and I didn't even have time to ask you who called. You just rushed out like that."

"After that, guess what happened?"

When Tao Sheng looked at Guo Huai, the expression on his face was so desperate that it was ferocious.

That was something he never wanted to recall in his life. Every time he saw Guo Huai, he could remember how he stood in front of him without dignity in the past, how he abandoned everything and stopped by his side regardless, how Simply feel that giving will pay off.

So when Tao Sheng saw the blood on Guo Huai's face fade away little by little, he felt a sense of revenge in his heart.

"And then I died."

In one sentence, five words, Guo Huai's entire face turned pale.

"It's not a dream to be hit by a car lightly! It's a real death! I can feel the pain, I can feel the blood in my body flowing out, and at that moment I can even feel that my time is not enough There are too many! I'm fucking dying!" Tao Sheng said here, one hand grabbed Guo Huai's neck fiercely, and then rushed forward to press him down.

"Tell me, what did I do in the end?" Tao Sheng looked at Guo Huai's face and said word by word.

Guo Huai knew it.

He saw it all, Tao Sheng tried his best to turn his head to see his appearance, and the last time Tao Sheng... called his name.

The room became so quiet, until Tao Sheng got up and got out of bed, until Tao Sheng changed clothes, put on shoes and opened the door, a weak question came from the room.

"It's all...really?"

The hand on the metal doorknob paused, and Tao Sheng gave a wry smile.

"Before I received your call, I thought it was just a dream."

With that said, he stepped out without any hesitation, and the door closed behind him like a wall, a wall that completely separated the world between the two of them.