baby who are you

Ling Xu went to the bathroom to take a shower.

Ling Yi sat silently on the sofa, his slender fingers gently touching his lips.The touch just now was still obvious, but the experience was more like a dream, and he wasn't sure if it was real.

Ling Xu might be drunk, otherwise he shouldn't be so calm, as if this incident never happened at all.But in this way, this kiss is completely meaningless to them, and nothing can be changed.

Ling Yi felt a dull pain in his head, probably because of the alcohol.

The sound of rushing water kept coming from the bathroom. The alcohol evaporated and made Ling Yi feel hot all over. He raised his hand and rubbed his forehead, then leaned his head back on the sofa chair and sighed heavily.

Ling Xu who came out of the shower didn't say anything, and went back to his room to sleep.

Ling Yi thought that he was probably really drunk, and his head was not sober, otherwise it would take him a long time to take a bath, enough for him to realize what his actions just now meant.

Some were relieved, but more were inexplicable disappointment. Ling Yi smiled wryly, stood up from the sofa, and walked towards the bathroom.

When I saw Ling Xu the next morning, he seemed like nothing had happened. He calmly opened the refrigerator to get eggs, and asked Ling Yi if he wanted fried eggs.

Ling Yi poured himself a glass of white water, raised his head and took a sip, only to see the Adam's apple slipped on his smooth neck, and water droplets flowed down his chin.

Ling Xu turned his gaze away, took out the milk carton and shook it to hear how much milk was still in it.

Ling Yi put down the water glass and said to him, "Eat."

Ling Xu went to the kitchen to fry eggs, Ling Yi stood by the door and looked at him, asking, "Did you drink too much yesterday?"

Ling Xu said: "Yes, once you drink too much, you will be broken, and you can't remember anything."

Ling Yi listened silently, glanced at Ling Xu's back, turned and left.

Dad's condition was very bad. After the first rescue that afternoon, the doctor said that it was very likely that he would not be able to rescue him next time.

But no matter whether his father can recover or not, Ling Xu can't stay here forever. After his vacation is over, he should go back to the army.

During this period, Ling Yi asked Pan Wenshao out for a drink, because apart from Pan Wenshao, he couldn't tell anyone else about his thoughts.Pan Wenshao is the only one in the world who would say to him: so what about my brother?If you like it, go after it.

Although he understands that these words are unrealistic, Ling Yi always feels better when he hears them.

This time, Pan Wenshao told him, "Think about it carefully, don't wait until the person leaves to regret it."

Ling Yi held the small glass with his fingers, and asked, "What do you mean think clearly? You want me to tell him?"

Pan Wenshao put one hand on his shoulder, "If you say it, you will leave, if you don't say it, you will leave, what do you think? You don't have many chances, maybe this time he left, and next time he will bring his wife back to see your brother, when you arrive What do you think when?"

Ling Yi looked at the wine glass with a dazed expression, "Am I afraid that if I say it, I won't be able to turn back?"

Pan Wenshao said: "If you don't say anything, nothing is possible."

Hearing this, Ling Yi raised his eyes and silently lit a cigarette for himself.

Ling Xu found a box in his room one afternoon. He opened it and found that it contained all his past things, including the messy notebooks he remembered in middle school. Ling Yi didn't throw them away, but carefully collected them for him. stand up.

Ling Yi knew that Ling Xu would definitely see this box, because he let Ling Xu see it on purpose, and he felt that what Pan Wenshao said was right, nothing is possible without trying.

In the evening, the two brothers went out to eat together. The lights in the western restaurant were ambiguous and dim, and romantic and lyrical music accompanied the whole meal.

Ling Yi drove back after dinner, the two of them didn't speak a word along the way.

In fact, something was wrong with the atmosphere. Ling Yi could feel that Ling Xu's emotions were actually tense. On the surface, he looked relaxed, but he deliberately kept a distance from him.

Ling Yi threw his phone near the gear lever, between the two seats in the front row. When he reached for the phone, he accidentally touched the back of Ling Xu's hand, and Ling Xu immediately moved his hand away.

Of course it wasn't just because of that box of things, Ling Yi stared ahead and asked softly: "Do you still remember what happened that night?"

Ling Xu's body became stiff all of a sudden, and he didn't even answer Ling Yi's question immediately.

Ling Yi waited very patiently.

The road is not smooth, stop and go all the way.

Finally Ling Xu said: "Brother..."

Ling Yi stepped on the brakes to stop and turned to look at him.

Ling Xu's words were a bit difficult, "Are we all drunk?"

Ling Yi said, "I'm not drunk."

He's not drunk, he knows what he's doing.

Ling Xu was a little dazed, he didn't even dare to look at Ling Yi, he looked out of the car window and asked, "What do you want to say?"

Ling Yi said: "Don't you know? What I want to talk about is what I did that night."

Ling Xu shook his head, "We are brothers."

Ling Yi pressed down on the car window, propped his left elbow on the window sill, and pressed his fingers to his lips, "So?"

Ling Xu said: "Even if we are not related by blood, I have always regarded you as my brother since I was a child."

Before Ling Yi could speak, the car in front had already started, and he also drove the car forward slowly. After a while, he said to Ling Xu: "You are the most special existence to me."

Ling Xu turned to look at Ling Yi, this was the first time he heard Ling Yi say such a thing.As long as he can remember, he has always followed Ling Yi, because his brother is very handsome and outstanding, and he admires him, admires him and likes him.He knew that Ling Yi was very kind to him, but in words, Ling Yi had never been polite to him. When he was a child and didn't let him pester him, telling him to fuck off was commonplace. It will still be entangled.

He knew that Ling Yi treated him differently from other people, because Ling Yi was a bit cold and didn't like to express himself. He could tell Ling Xu that he valued him by his actions, and he could already see his feelings.

As soon as he uttered these words today, Ling Xu immediately understood that Ling Yi was serious, very serious, so serious that he was a little scared.

The two fell into silence again.

Ling Xu didn't bluntly refuse, because Ling Yi didn't bluntly confess either.

It's just that one confessed his heart, while the other always had only one sentence: We are brothers.

It's not that homosexuality is disgusting, or that I don't like you at all, or that we are brothers. In his opinion, this sentence is enough to sentence Ling Yi's feelings to death.

Ling Yi had a hard time during those days.

Ling Xu didn't refuse bluntly, maybe he didn't resist that much, or maybe he just couldn't bear to hurt Ling Yi.

Dad was rescued again.

Outside the ward, Ling Xu stood nervously leaning against the wall, while Ling Yi clenched his fist against the wall, frowning tightly.

Their family is in a very good family now, and they don't lack anything. He can give his father the best medical conditions, but he is still helpless in the face of the disease.

After the doctors and nurses left, they walked into the ward. Dad was lying on the bed and had lost consciousness.With a cold tube inserted into his body, he barely maintained his life by relying on the assistance of equipment, but soon, this barely survived.

"Father," Ling Xu called him softly while holding his hand, but this time he was unable to respond to him.

Coming out of the ward, when Ling Yi raised his hand to touch Ling Xu's shoulder, Ling Xu avoided it.

Ling Yi looked at his hand, lowered it slowly, and said, "Go back first."

After he finished speaking, he left. Ling Xu chased after him for two steps, not knowing whether he should call him, but he still didn't catch up in the end.

Ling Yi went to drink with Pan Wenshao again at night.

One is because of Ling Xu's affairs, and the other is that his father's situation also makes him feel uncomfortable and the pressure is too great. He needs a way to relax a little bit, and it is better than going home to face Ling Xu.

Pan Wenshao is a person who doesn't think it's a big deal to watch the excitement. He said to Ling Yi: "It's so uncomfortable, how about finding someone to accompany you?"

Ling Yi answered him coldly: "Get out." How could he be in such a mood now.

Pan Wenshao said: "Why are you so infatuated? If it were me, it's fine if you don't like it. There are no fragrant grasses anywhere in the world, don't you think?"

Ling Yi didn't answer him a word this time.

Later, Ling Yi drank too much, and it was Pan Wenshao who asked someone to drive him back.

Before he got home, Pan Wenshao took out his mobile phone from Ling Yi's pocket, found Ling Xu's phone number and called him.

Ling Xu answered the phone quickly, and shouted nervously, "Brother?"

Pan Wenshao said, "It's not your brother, your brother is drunk, come down and pick him up."

After hanging up the phone, Ling Xu hurried downstairs to the gate of the community, and waited for 2 minutes before seeing the car carrying Ling Yi and the others approaching.

"Brother?" As soon as the car door opened, Ling Xu poked his head to look.

Pan Wenshao got out of the car first, and said to Ling Xu, "Help him out."

Ling Xu hadn't seen Pan Wenshao for a long time, so he recognized him in a daze, "Brother Shao?"

Pan Wenshao smiled, raised his hand to pinch Ling Xu's face, and said, "The longer the better, no wonder Ling Yi never forgets it."

Ling Xu felt extremely embarrassed, avoided Pan Wenshao's hand, changed the subject and said, "Help my brother out."

Pan Wenshao helped him and helped Ling Yi out of the car.

Ling Yi was really drunk, his footsteps were vain, and he needed to lean on Ling Xu to stand still.

Pan Wenshao got into the car and waved to Ling Xu, "Then I'll be leaving first."

Ling Xu responded, "I'm sorry to trouble you." He almost half dragged and half hugged Ling Yi to go home.

In the elevator, Ling Yi leaned his head on Ling Xu's shoulder and asked vaguely, "Ling Xu?"

Ling Xu said, "It's me."

Ling Yi was silent for a moment, then suddenly raised his head slightly and kissed Ling Xu's neck, and even sucked it lightly.

Ling Xu reacted greatly and pushed Ling Yi away almost immediately.

Ling Yi couldn't stand still at all, and fell to the ground.

Ling Xu was taken aback for a moment, and then stepped forward to help Ling Yi up.

From then on until home, Ling Yi did not cross the line in any way.

Ling Xu supported Ling Yi to sit on the sofa, and went to the kitchen to pour him a glass of water.However, when the water glass was brought to Ling Yi, Ling Yi refused to take it.

"Brother..." Ling Xu called him softly.

Ling Yi suddenly raised his hand and grabbed Ling Xu's wrist. Ling Xu struggled to withdraw his hand but failed. He didn't expect the drunk Ling Yi to have such strength.

During the struggle, the water glass in Ling Xu's hand fell to the ground, and when he was about to pick up the water glass, Ling Yi rolled over and pressed him on the sofa.

Ling Yi's body completely covered Ling Xu's body, he lowered his head, and gently kissed Ling Xu's lips again.

Ling Xu was about to resist, when he suddenly heard Ling Yi shouting in his ear: "Xiao Xu."

His movements stopped suddenly, he looked up at Ling Yi, and asked, "Brother? Does it have to be like this?"

Ling Yi also looked at him, but his eyes were loose, obviously not clear-headed, he said, "I miss you."

Ling Xu was slightly taken aback.

Ling Yi kissed his lips, cheeks, and ears again, this time it was an intense and emotional kiss, which made Ling Xu even feel scared.He raised his knee and hit Ling Yi's lower abdomen, then pushed him away.

Ling Yi fell back on the other side of the sofa, and sat up slowly after a while.

Ling Xu also sat up, and faced Ling Yi face to face, he asked, "Brother, is it impossible for us to maintain our previous relationship?"

Ling Yi didn't answer him, but looked at the coffee table in front of him blankly.

Just when Ling Xu thought he would not get an answer, Ling Yi suddenly said: "No." In a cold and emotionless voice.

Ling Xu was stunned, and he said, "What if I don't accept it?"

Ling Yi said, "Don't come back in the future."

Ling Xu stared at him with wide eyes.

Ling Yi didn't want to treat Ling Xu like this, but he also didn't want to continue to torture himself, since it was better not to see each other in the future, he let Ling Xu go, and he let go of himself.

The two were silent for several minutes.

Ling Yi stood up suddenly, his footsteps were unsteady, and he was about to stumble towards the bathroom, but at this moment Ling Xu reached out and grabbed his hand, and called softly, "Brother."