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Our life is March weather, which can be violent and calm in an hour. — Emerson

The summer is almost over, the autumn colors are on the branches, and the lotus has just passed through the world.

Zhou Xingchen and Shen Yiyan went to the supermarket together that day. From the beginning to the end of the laboratory project, Shen Yiyan hadn't visited the supermarket for a long time.

He stood in front of a row of shelves and couldn't help but start to tidy up.

I remember that when I did this last time, Zhou Xingchen didn't know me yet, but I could always think of Zhou Xingchen vaguely, even though he didn't know me at that time.

This little habit has persisted for many years, weird and stubborn.

Zhou Xingchen had just gone to buy some daily necessities, and asked Shen Yiyan to look in the food area, but after searching for a long time, he found that this person was fiddling in front of a row of shelves.

Looked extremely serious.

Zhou Xingchen walked in, and suddenly remembered the boy he met in the bookstore in his third year of high school, and felt that Shen Yiyan's back was very similar to him.

Zhou Xingchen's heart froze, a little distressed and helpless, Shen Yiyan and him are in the same school, how could it be possible that they have never met?

"Shen Yiyan." Zhou Xingchen called out.Then he took Shen Yiyan with his hands, covering the person under him from the back.

Shen Yiyan's ears felt hot, a little helpless, and asked, "What's wrong?"

"I've been looking for you for a long time." Zhou Xingchen deliberately lowered his voice, as if he was acting like a baby.

"Sorry, I... let's go." Shen Yiyan blushed.Being awkwardly led away by Zhou Xingchen.

Passing by a place selling yogurt, Shen Yiyan specially stepped forward to pick out one: "Buy this one."

Zhou Xingchen raised his eyebrows, this is his favorite yogurt, he nodded helplessly.

After shopping around, it was always Shen Yiyan who picked out Zhou Xingchen's favorite things, but never picked for himself.

"Shen Yiyan, I like them all, how about you? I don't know what my boyfriend likes?" Zhou Xingchen's doting eyes were shining brightly.

This voice of boyfriend forced Shen Yiyan to bow her head in embarrassment: "I don't like anything, the only one I like is you."

Zhou Xingchen was stunned, he didn't expect Shen Yiyan to be so straightforward suddenly.Smiling, he took Shen Yiyan's hand and said, "Let's go."

After the two of them finished their meal, Zhou Xingchen asked Shen Yiyan to sit first, and went to wash the dishes by himself. Looking at Zhou Xingchen's busy figure, Shen Yiyan thought he was dreaming.

Until now, he couldn't believe the fact that Zhou Xingchen was already with him, which was something he never dared to expect in the past.

That day when Zhou Xingchen said that he would accept him, Shen Yiyan had his own guess. Zhou Xingchen probably didn't like him, and maybe he would break up after a while, but it was always good to be by his side. Before Zhou Xingchen wanted to leave him, he would always stay on the spot.

On the table is the photo album that he misses so much. Every photo on it has haunted him and made him unbearable.

Shen Yiyan smiled wryly, as if liking Zhou Xingchen had become an obsession, which could drive away nightmares and soothe the mood.

When Zhou Xingchen came out after washing the dishes, he saw Shen Yiyan holding the photo album in a daze. Zhou Xingchen was always curious why Shen Yiyan liked him for so long.

"Shen Yiyan." Zhou Xingchen called out, and sat beside him, very close.

"Huh?" Shen Yiyan stared in a daze.

"Why do you have so many photos of me, have you been following me before?" Zhou Xingchen said.

As soon as Shen Yiyan heard the word "stalking", Shen Yiyan became anxious, and hurriedly explained: "No, some of them were found in school forums. I rarely took sneak shots. Stalking... I did follow you for a while."

Shen Yiyan shrugged her shoulders, a little trembling, with a worried look on her face.

Zhou Xingchen found it funny, and thought Shen Yiyan was more interesting like this: "Aren't you tired of looking for so many photos? Now the person is right in front of you..." Zhou Xingchen said, approaching Shen Yiyan.

"You can see and touch as you like." Zhou Xingchen pursed his lips, with a faint charm in his eyes.

Zhou Xingchen lowered his head, and first pressed his lips against Shen Yiyan's lips lightly, and then began to kiss each other, with the silky hot breath brushing over the tip of Shen Yiyan's nose.

Shen Yiyan's heart beat extremely fast, her Adam's apple rolled slightly, she stuck out her tongue unexpectedly, and licked Zhou Xingchen's lips.

The icy cold wetness was fleeting on Zhou Xingchen's lips, and Zhou Xingchen's cock was named namelessly.

Then deepened the kiss, wrapped Shen Yiyan's face with both hands, and attacked crazily.

Shen Yiyan couldn't stand it anymore, and was forced to press on the sofa, Zhou Xingchen was on top, slowly becoming gentle, licking Shen Yiyan's beautiful red lips little by little.

His hands even reached into Shen Yiyan's clothes.

Shen Yiyan was delirious from the kiss, Zhou Xingchen wanted to push off the sleeve on Shen Yiyan's wrist, but stopped when he saw the suspicious red marks on it.

He comforted Shen Yiyan for a while, then slowly left Shen Yiyan's lips, feeling like a boulder fell from his heart.

When loving someone becomes a habit, it is as if this person has become a part of your life.

Zhou Xingchen was a little panicked.

In fact, he can see the suspicious red marks on Shen Yiyan's body and the nightmares that haunt him from time to time.

Back then in the small county town, the incident related to Shen Yiyan was made known to everyone, criminals could be punished by law, but sometimes victims could not be redeemed.People's cheap and short-lived sympathy and sneaky private discussions will deepen the thickness of the scars.

Zhou Xingchen didn't know how Shen Yiyan faced the past, but he wanted to treat Shen Yiyan well in the future.

Everything is too late.

Shen Yiyan doesn't know what happened to Zhou Xingchen recently, since the last kiss, Zhou Xingchen has become very clingy, and the two have a lot of intimate behaviors.

Sometimes in the stairwell of the laboratory building late at night, when no one was around, Zhou Xingchen would hug himself, hide in a dark corner, and kiss himself frantically.

Sometimes at home, when Shen Yiyan was cooking, Zhou Xingchen would hug himself from the back, act like a baby to himself, and then kiss himself tenderly.

Shen Yiyan often blushes and heart beats when kissed, giving birth to the illusion that Zhou Xingchen loves herself deeply.

Sometimes Shen Yiyan really wanted to grab Zhou Xingchen's hand and ask him if he wanted to take the last step, but Shen Yiyan didn't dare, because he was afraid that Zhou Xingchen would reject him, because he didn't like men in the first place, and he fell into it because of his involvement. The second is that Shen Yiyan was afraid that Zhou Xingchen would see the wounds on his body. Those wounds had scabbed and deepened, making them ugly and unbearable. Shen Yiyan was worried that Zhou Xingchen would despise him.

This time Zhou Xingchen pushed Shen Yiyan onto the bed, and the two fell into a charming kiss, the ambiguous atmosphere was intoxicating.

Zhou Xingchen's hand reached under the hem of Shen Yiyan's clothes.

Shen Yiyan trembled, and pushed Zhou Xingchen away, the fear in his eyes could not deceive anyone.

"I'm sorry." Shen Yiyan looked embarrassed. "My body is ugly, you won't like it."

"Shen Yiyan, I won't force you to do what you don't want to do." Zhou Xingchen said.

Then he pulled Shen Yiyan into his arms, gently rubbed his chin against Shen Yiyan's soft hair, then placed a kiss on his forehead, and looked at Shen Yiyan lovingly: "Shen Yiyan, can you tell me the reason for doing this?"

He gently unbuttoned Shen Yiyan's sleeves, and those red marks were revealed like this.

Shen Yiyan was stunned, and said bluntly: "You know everything?"

"En." Zhou Xingchen nodded, he and Shen Yiyan have been intimate so many times, how could he not know about it?

"Do you remember what I said before, the little boy I met when I was young, I once gave him a box of grapefruit candies. Later, I also found a lot of grapefruit candies at your house. You are that little boy, right?"

Shen Yiyan's eyes were wet, he didn't expect Zhou Xingchen to know everything, and he began to choke up excitedly.

"Every time I dream of that person, I will eat a grapefruit candy, but sometimes he is always there, talking in my ear, I can't stand it, it seems that he has taken root in my body, so I can only keep talking. Grabbing myself, I thought I could kill him..."

"When I am afraid, I will miss you, so that I will not be afraid, Zhou Xingchen, you will always live in my heart."

Zhou Xingchen hugged Shen Yiyan even tighter, as if this would give Shen Yiyan more sense of completeness.

"Shen Yiyan, do you still remember what I said to you at that time?"

"I said I would like to be your patron saint."

"Those words, whether in the past or the present, including the future, always count."

The tip of Shen Yiyan's nose felt sore, but warmth filled her heart, like wild geese flying south, winter melting into spring.

Shen Yiyan and Zhou Xingchen lived together.

In fact, it was not sudden, it was proposed by Zhou Xingchen on his own initiative, Shen Yiyan teased him at first, Zhou Xingchen was too kind to himself, those sincere words were still echoing in his ears, Shen Yiyan was obsessed and afraid of losing, he never knew whether Zhou Xingchen liked him, So beg to differ if this is love.

Until Zhou Xingchen accidentally took out his exchange student application form.

"Just now I went to your room to help you get your clothes, and I saw this." Zhou Xingchen's voice was low, and he didn't sound angry, but rather calm.

Just when Shen Yiyan was ready for Zhou Xingchen to break up, he heard an unexpected sentence: "Shen Yiyan, I will go with you."

"What?" Shen Yiyan was taken aback.

"Originally, I was also planning to study abroad, but now it's all right, you also have plans to go abroad, and then we will be able to live together." Zhou Xingchen said.

Shen Yiyan was puzzled.

Zhou Xingchen smiled wryly, "But why didn't you tell me about it?"

Shen Yiyan lowered her head: "I never thought that you would be willing to go abroad with me?"

"Have you never thought about it, or dare not think about it?" Zhou Xingchen pressed.

"Don't dare... I'm afraid that if you find out, you will break up with me." Shen Yiyan was a little at a loss.

Zhou Xingchen sighed helplessly, with mixed feelings in his heart, seeing Shen Yiyan obediently bowing his head and admitting his mistake, he felt distressed.

"Shen Yiyan, what do you think my feelings for you are?"

Shen Yiyan's expression was a little confused. Zhou Xingchen only said that he would accept him before, but it didn't mean that he really liked him.

There are too many unstable factors, so Shen Yiyan dare not extravagantly ask for this love. How could the person whom he has missed for so many years fall in love with him in these short days and nights?

He didn't dare to think, and he didn't dare to guess.

"I don't know." Shen Yiyan said.

Zhou Xingchen approached Shen Yiyan, lowered his head and kissed Shen Yiyan. This kiss was different from the past. In the past, Zhou Xingchen would do foreplay, kissing Shen Yiyan's lips gently, and then he would capture important places. Going further, this time it was aggressive, Zhou Xingchen opened Shen Yiyan forcefully lips, crazily attacking Shen Yiyan out of breath.

With half of his body pressed against Shen Yiyan, he could clearly feel a sense of oppression.

Shen Yiyan vaguely knew that Zhou Xingchen was serious this time.

There was a whisper in his ear like a mountain ghost's charm: "Shen Yiyan, is it okay?"

Shen Yiyan nodded, the corners of his eyes were slightly red, showing a coquettish attitude, which touched Zhou Xingchen's heartstrings.

There is one problem to be solved first, Shen Yiyan reacted.

Shen Yiyan's breathing became more and more rapid, and she was even ashamed: "Zhou...Zhou Xingchen, dirty."

He had never been treated like this by others, and he was a little confused.

Soon, Shen Yiyan was brought out, and he turned his head a little ashamedly, trying to bury his face in the pillow.

But caught by Zhou Xingchen, "Shen Yiyan, I want to see your face."

The two of them struggled for a long time before they stopped. Shen Yiyan was covered in sticky sweat, lying on Zhou Xingchen's body, and when he was about to fall asleep, he heard Zhou Xingchen say: "I love you, Shen Yiyan."

The beginning of the year was a holiday, Zhou Xingchen specifically asked Shen Yiyan to eat and rest well before giving up and returning home with peace of mind.

After arriving home, I received a call from Shen Yiyan.

Shen Yiyan's voice was very soft and hoarse, like a butterfly kissing a flower bone: "I'll count the time, you should be here."

"I'll come back to accompany you on the fourth day of the lunar new year." Zhou Xingchen said, he knew that Shen Yiyan's family was a bit special, and he seldom spent time with his family during the Chinese New Year.Thinking of Shen Yiyan staying at home alone, he felt very distressed and couldn't wait to come back to see him.

Shen Yiyan was a little surprised, he didn't expect Zhou Xingchen to have such a plan, so he said: "Why don't you spend more time with your parents..."

However, it was quickly interrupted by Zhou Xingchen: "Shen Yiyan, do you miss me?"

"Think..." Shen Yiyan blushed.

"Then wait for me." Zhou Xingchen said with satisfaction.

On Chinese New Year's Eve, Shen Yiyan received a call from Zhou Xingchen. The other end was very lively, as if fireworks were being set off. Shen Yiyan didn't like excitement in the past, but when he heard Zhou Xingchen's voice, he couldn't help but laugh out loud.

"Happy New Year, Shen Yiyan." Zhou Xingchen shouted loudly, and then said a few more words, but Shen Yiyan couldn't hear clearly because of the noise.

With honey in his heart, Shen Yiyan said to Zhou Xingchen on the phone: "Happy New Year, Zhou Xingchen."

What Zhou Xingchen said was: "I hope we can always be together."