After Our Divorce, I Still Wore Your Jacket

Getting along has deviated from the track, like walking on ice, taking every step carefully, fearing that if you take a deep step, your foot will be empty.

But this kind of state can't last long, either it's really stepping on air and completely falling into the water, or it's finding a good road, and it's steadfast from now on.

Neither of them apparently found the right path.

They eventually separated.

Even though Yuan Ye said several times that they would not be separated, even though he was really so sure every time he said it.

But in the end they still got separated.

This may be the result that could have been expected a long time ago. They are two different people from the soul. During these years of getting along, they rely on love to cover up these contradictions and frictions that should have been there. This is something that will be faced one day.Their separation didn't even have anything to push, it didn't need to, or it didn't wait for anything to happen, it just happened in a peaceful and quiet state.Sometimes the shattering of glass only needs a bullet hole the size of a finger, and the whole piece of glass can be completely collapsed.As time goes by, the cracks are already there.

It's ridiculous to say that they ended up just because of a coat.

It has been a few days since the filming of Fang Shaoyi's film, and it has not been a week since he flew back from England, and the reaction from the jet lag has not completely dissipated.The time in the wilderness is quite tight, which is normal for the two of them, and the wilderness is usually quite busy when Fang Shao rests.Fang Shaoyi didn't take any work afterwards, and wanted to stay for a long vacation, and the two of them went out for a walk after Yuan Ye finished his work.

Wilderness often runs back and forth between the two cities, which is indeed very busy.

One day Yuan Ye drove back and picked him up at Fang Shaoyi's company, and the two went back to Yuan Ye's parents for dinner together.Yuanye's voice was a little nasal, and his voice sounded like he had caught a cold.

The car was parked a little far away, and I had to walk for a while after eating. Yuan Ye only wore short sleeves. It had just rained and the weather was a bit cold.Fang Shao frowned and said to him, "I wear so little."

Yuanye didn't take it seriously, he was used to being rough and stubborn, and never paid attention to these things, but Fang Shaoyi still had a low-grade fever.He smiled and said, "It's okay, it's not cold."

"I have a cold and don't know?" Fang Shaoyi took off his coat and handed it over, "Put it on."

Yuan Ye didn't answer, and shook his head: "I don't have a cold, I'm really not cold in your clothes."

Fang Shaoyi didn't tell him again, the coat was unfolded and he was going to put it on Yuanye, Yuanye jumped to the side for a while, and then smiled playfully: "Brother outside, don't talk about it, we have to be photographed again." Go to Weibo. Wear it."

The movement of him jumping to the side was a bit exaggerated, Fang Shao paused for a moment, the movement of his hands was in vain, and his arms were still stiff.

Fang Shaoyi didn't say anything afterwards, and put his coat back on in silence.Yuan Ye was nervous, looking down at the message on the phone without lifting his head.

So when Fang Shaoyi spoke suddenly, Yuan Ye was still a little dazed, and his train of thought didn't catch on.Fang Shao asked him, "Why are you so stubborn."

"Huh?" Yuan Ye looked up at him, "What?"

Fang Shaoyi didn't look at him, but asked again: "What are you so awkward about?"

Yuan Ye blinked, and it took a few seconds for his brain to come to his senses.Fang Shaoyi's expression was a little gloomy, half of the message on Yuanye's phone was answered, he pursed his lips, finished replying the message, then put the phone back, reached out to touch Shaoyi's hand below, grabbed it, squeezed it, and smiled She asked him, "Are you angry?"

Fang Shaoyi said, "No, I just don't know what you're thinking."

Yuan Ye didn't know what he was angry about, anyway, the two of them have often been like this recently, and they would be distracted and rub against each other for no reason.Yuan Ye didn't know where he got angry, let alone how to reply to him.

In front of the car, Fang Shao took back his hand, and Yuanye's palm was empty. He subconsciously clenched his fist, but couldn't keep anything.

This is how they are now, friction without reason and then careful reconciliation, endless cycle.

Fang Shaoyi is not the kind of person who cares about such small things, he and Yuanye seldom get angry, even now.It's just that the long-term tense nerves have made them too sensitive, and they are confused when they care about it. The more they think about it, the more sensitive and sharp they become.No matter how powerful or famous he is, he is still an ordinary person after all, and he cannot avoid these things.

Emotions pull people down from the altar, and no one is more sober than the other.

After getting into the car, there was a long silence, Fang Shaoyi's eyes were dark, Yuan Ye glanced at it and then turned his head away.

Later, Yuan Ye broke the silence first, and he asked Fang Shaoyi: "Honey, you have to let me know how angry you are so I can know how to coax you."

The expression on Fang Shao's face did not change, he kept looking at the front, and after a while he said in a deep voice: "You also have to let me know what you are thinking, I want to know too."

When he said this, there was tiredness in his tone, Yuan Ye could hear it immediately.They are not the only one thing, they don't know when they got along with each other deliberately, but they didn't engrave a good result on purpose.

It's all very tiring, and it's not easy for anyone.

The helplessness and powerlessness in Fang Shao's tone seemed to make Yuan Ye's heart go through an electric shock, and it hurt like fire.

A thought flashed through Yuanye's mind, and he conveyed it directly: "Since you're so tired, then..."

Fang Shao turned his head and stared at him.After all, the two words behind Yuanye still couldn't be said, and I didn't want to give up.It hurts too much to say.

Before he finished speaking, Fang Shao turned around and didn't ask any questions.

There was silence all the way, the air in the car seemed to be frozen, with a suffocating dullness.

Finally, the car drove home and parked in the basement. Fang Shaoyi slammed on the brakes and said at the same time: "Let's finish talking."

Yuanye unbuckled his seat belt and lowered his head to touch a cigarette, but he had quit smoking for a while.

The reality is in front of them, and both of them are clear about the state for such a long time.I can't figure it out.

If you can’t say it, you have to say it in the end. Before going to bed that night, Yuanye said softly in the dark: "I want to keep the relationship young and fresh, let's not let it become old, weak, sick and disabled."

Fang Shaoyi never spoke, he was silent as if he didn't exist, even the sound of breathing was so soft.

Yuanye used so much effort to say that sentence, it took all the strength of more than ten years.

It was indeed a cold. I didn't feel it before. This morning, my whole body was aching from bone to flesh.He couldn't speak in his throat, and the burning sensation in his throat made him not want to speak anymore.Fang Shaoyi never saw him from the beginning to the end. Fang Shaoyi went downstairs when he woke up in the morning. He went to the company in the morning and brought porridge to Yuanye when he came back at noon.

Yuan Ye didn't have much appetite, but he ate it all, not a single grain of rice was left.

Fang Shaoyi was always calm, as if nothing had happened.Yuan Ye finished the porridge, and the two of them sat at the dining table without moving.Fang Shaoyi suddenly reached out and touched Yuan Ye's forehead, and said, "You burn it or I burn it."

No fever, all sober.

Fang Shaoyi looked into Yuanye's eyes and asked him, "Have you figured it out?"

Yuan Ye exhausted all his strength to say that sentence last night, but he couldn't answer this answer no matter what.

Fang Shaoyi waited for him for a long time, then Fang Shaoyi stood up, his voice was a little low but calm, and asked him again: "Did you think it over?"

Yuanye's headache is about to explode, and it hurts everywhere.He was still sitting there, watching Fang Shaoyi's eyes gradually turn red, his eyes met each other, Yuanye blinked his eyes, and closed his mouth tightly.Fang Shaoyi let out a long sigh.

When Fang Shao pulled off the ring on his neck and threw it towards Yuanye, Yuanye reached out to catch it.They usually throw things like this in the field and they can't catch them. Their hands are fast, but this day, I don't know if it's because of illness or something, he didn't catch the string.The small metal ring fell to the ground with a slight sound.

That small sound directly hit Yuan Ye's heart, and the heart was like glass, which shattered all over the ground piece by piece, and the pieces cut skin and flesh.

After Fang Shao left, he never came back. Yuan Ye called him several times, but Fang Shao didn't answer.Later, Yuan Ye called Ji Xiaotao, and Ji Xiaotao also saw that something was wrong with them, so he spoke carefully, saying that Fang Shaoyi was fine, so he didn't have to worry.

Yuanye almost never regretted what he said, and he never hesitated in what he decided to do.

But he was not at all free and easy about it, and he soon regretted it.

Yuanye 32, he and Fang Shaoyi have been together for almost 15 years, and he can hardly remember what it was like without Fang Shaoyi for half the time.How to separate?

Yuan Ye really regretted it, although no one knew better than him that for the two of them now, this was the only way to go.But he still regretted it.

When Fang Shao came back again and again, he took all the divorce agreements together, put them in Yuan Ye's hand, and said to him, "Sign it."

Yuanye's voice was so hoarse that he could barely speak, and asked him, "Did you see the message I sent you?"

Fang Shao didn't answer him, and repeated again: "Sign."

Yuan Ye looked at the papers, they had no children, the divorce did not involve raising children, and basically all of them were written on the division of property, Yuan Ye glanced roughly, and then laughed, Fang Shaoyi really did Generous.

Yuan Ye shook his head, cleared his throat and said, "Brother, let's talk again."

Fang Shao stuffed it into his hand, his voice became colder and colder, and he frowned and said to him: "Don't talk, sign."

Yuanye's nose was sore, he put down his pen and rubbed it with his hand, and then said in a low voice: "It's not right to divide property like this, let's redistribute it."

Fang Shao pulled the chair, sat down, nodded and said, "Okay, how do you divide it?"

Yuanye put both hands on his head, scratched the stubble on the top of his head, buried his face in his arms and said, "I'll give you all..."

Fang Shaoyi closed his eyes and said after a while: "If you want anything else, just say it, and if you don't want it, you can sign it."

Yuan Ye remained in this posture and did not move. He cleared his throat several times to speak, but he never raised his head.When Yuanye finally spoke, his voice became unsteady, and with his hoarse and broken voice, he could hardly hear clearly.He seldom let himself be so embarrassed, Yuan Ye said: "...Brother, I don't want to sign, I don't want to leave."

Fang Shaoyi looked at him in silence, Yuanye put his arms down, and lay down on his stomach. He buried his face on the table, rubbed his forehead against his wrist twice, and said in a broken voice, "Can I take back what I said? I'll coax you... Cheng No way. How can I sign it... Did you chop off my hand and sign it yourself?"

It was still raining outside, and the crackling raindrops on the windows gave the room a bit of coolness.Fang Shaoyi looked at the back of Yuanye's head lying there, his eyes were black and bottomless.The fundus of the eyes is also red, a broken red spot.

"Say something, brother," Yuan Ye continued while laying on his stomach, "Can I coax you well...Let's tear it up."

Yuan Ye seldom spoke with such a posture and tone, and he was really convinced.He never raised his head, and his words were muffled inside, with a heavy nasal voice.

He had never begged Fang Shaoyi like this before, and he only played like this occasionally when he was courting on the bed.He doesn't have to say so much if he wants anything, no need.Besides, Yuan Ye doesn't have anything that he wants so much, what he obsesses most in this life is nothing but Fang Shaoyi.

Yuan Ye pushed the pieces of paper back to Fang Shao's hand, sat up straight and looked at him and said, "Shall we start over, bro?"

Wilderness knows how to play tricks, and Fang Shaoyi is also willing to watch him play tricks.But at this moment Yuan Ye Fang Lai refused to sign, but Fang Shaoyi didn't buy it. He grabbed the few pieces of paper, and there were many creases on the paper.Fang Shaoyi stood up, the chair rubbing against the ground made a screeching sound, Fang Shaoyi dropped the papers by Yuan Ye's hand, and there was a "pop".

As soon as Fang Shao walked over and stood behind Yuan Ye, he stuffed the pen into his hand, and then squeezed his hand hard, really hard.

"How long have you been thinking about it?" Fang Shaoyi's voice wished that it was icy, and the two hands were clasped together, one grasped the other, exerting force on each other, and the pen trembled in their hands.This posture is equivalent to Fang Shao holding Yuan Ye in his arms, and he is talking with his mouth next to Yuan Ye's ear, what an intimate posture.

"You've wanted to say this for a long time, so don't take it back after you say it." When Fang Shaoyi spoke, his breath sprayed into Yuan Ye's ears, and half of Yuan Ye's body went numb. Fang Shaoyi continued, "It's been 15 years. I didn't give you what you wanted."

Fang Shao squeezed Yuan Ye's hand and slammed it on the paper, causing pain to both of them.The tip of his nose pokes on the paper, leaving a small black dot.Fang Shaoyi said: "You don't want it? Then why are you hesitating?"

How could Yuanye's strength be greater than Fang Shao's? Fang Shao has filmed many fighting scenes, and he has practiced boxing for many years.Yuan Ye's joints were almost crushed, and Fang Shao squeezed his hand and signed "Yuan Ye" with all his might.

Yuanye has always been one-sided, isn't Fang Shaoyi?Fang Shao didn't change his decision easily, he rarely expressed any strong emotions, as if he had lost his temper.But he insisted on doing something like he is now, and Yuanye knew very well that he couldn't stop him.

As soon as Fang Shao wants to divorce, the marriage must be divorced.

Yuanye shook the hand that Fang Shaoyi had pinched before, opened and closed his fingers, and then stroked his heart with this numb hand.

It's all numb and empty.

Fang Shaoyi was 20 years old and Yuan Ye was 17 years old. They were hot young men at that time. They tried and collided, and then they fell in love naturally.

Having been in love for five years, two crazy young people are desperate to tell the world, what are they afraid of, love is here, what are they afraid of getting married.

After another ten years, one agreement was stamped, and a divorce certificate was exchanged.