After Our Divorce, I Still Wore Your Jacket

I have never thought about the concept of separation, why separation?How is it possible to separate?

Friends around me split and reunited, and there were even more divorces in the entertainment circle, but Fang Shaoyi and Yuan Ye were always one.At first no one believed that the two of them could grow too long, but later on, no one who was close to them doubted their relationship.They are definitely going to be together for a long time, and whoever leaves them will not leave.

But there was indeed a problem between the two, and it lasted for a long time.

On the surface, it started with the incident with the film crew, and since then there has been a deviation. No matter how hard the two of them tried, they couldn't get along with each other back to the same way as before.He obviously talked about it, and he obviously didn't remember that incident in his heart, but he couldn't return to the previous state no matter what.

Yuanye said that he wanted to find himself, but what exactly is "self" and where should he look for it.In the past ten years of marriage, she has already adapted to this pattern. She uses Fang Shaoyi's time to make plans, and everything should be considered on Fang Shaoyi's side. She didn't think it was wrong in these years.Especially in recent years, many times Yuan Ye doesn't remember that he is "Yuan Ye". His first identity is Fang Shaoyi's lover, and his second identity is himself.A lot of thoughts and a lot of words, from blurting out to considering whether I can say it, should I say it, and finally not saying it at all.

Everything in his heart and mind was poured into the pen, and what he wrote became more and more sharp and realistic, but it was not as straightforward as before, pointing and hitting like a knife, but always separated by a layer.In the past, his things were stuck in the soil. Some people said that he was a romantic man integrated with mountain aura.Later, his romantic atmosphere became weaker and weaker.This may be related to age. After thirty, people have different thoughts at each stage.

But whether this change is right, and whether the way they have been getting along for a long time is healthy. When two people are split into two individuals and are no longer tied together, this kind of thinking becomes more and more, Also getting deeper.

Feng Leizi had to call Yuan Ye every now and then. There was a tight shortage of screenwriters in the film industry, and there was never enough skilled screenwriters.The wilderness is a piece of meat that is sizzling and oily, and the literary planners keep a close eye on him.Relying on his personal friendship with Yuan Ye, Feng Leizi always wanted to dig him into his project.

"My wild brother, help me urgently." Feng Leizi muttered on the phone again, "My boss asked me to find someone. When I heard the demands he said, isn't that my wild brother?"

Yuan Ye scolded him with a smile, and then said: "I can't write your boss's story, he is too good at grinding."

"How can you produce something good if you don't grind it?" Feng Leizi was a little anxious, and shouted in a low voice, "Brother, "Stove Fire", we snatched the copyright from three directors. Here is the story. This will definitely win the prize."

"Then you don't write it yourself?" Yuan Ye laughed "sneaky", piercing his thoughts, "The better the story is, the more the screenwriter will be blamed if he doesn't win the award later."

"I can't write it!" Feng Leizi began to play tricks, "Ye brother, Ye brother, Ye uncle! Can you do me a favor? If you can help me, I don't think I need to mess around anymore if I can't find anyone."

Feng Leizi's boss is Lin Feng, a director of literary and artistic films. He has won countless awards abroad, but in China it is deserted and not very popular.But people's ambitions are not here, what they are after is stories, and they don't need to care too much about the domestic market.If Yuan Ye accepts this job, he will be tied to this story. Lin Feng is notoriously tormenting people.

Yuan Ye's first reaction was not to pick up, and he couldn't afford it.In particular, Fang Shaoyi is going to film a movie in the UK, and Yuanye has not let him go out by himself in the movie going abroad.

Yuan Ye was pushed back later, and took on another project in Feng Leizi's hands, a reasoning commercial film, which was not so tedious, and the time was much more relaxed.

After that, Fang Shao was alone in Europe, Yuanye didn't follow him, and only stayed with him for a week at the beginning, and then came back.

Across the jet lag, separated by their respective work and rest time, the two sometimes couldn't talk on the phone for several days.When talking on the phone, talk about their own affairs, chat for a few minutes, it is still intimate.When Yuanye is free, he will fly over to visit the class, and come back after a few days. It is a bit of a toss, and the time is filled, but it is worth it to see Fang Shaoyi.

But this still didn't bring the relationship between the two back to the previous state, as if something was missing.

In the middle, Fang Shaoyi sent Yuanye a proposal for a variety show and asked him if he wanted to go.Yuanye watched it for two days, and they never participated in this kind of thing. Yuanye hated it, and Fang Shaoyi didn't like it either.But this time Fang Shaoyi sent it to him. It was a love travel show. He wanted to go to several places and have a few love affairs through the show.

Inexplicably, both of them signed.

The naturalness and false harmony that both parties have deliberately shown are in the final analysis just false prosperity, and a little thing is enough to break this tacit peace.

Due to other actors, Fang Shaoyi's play was interrupted for about ten days.Yuan Ye has two meetings to attend, and if there is no unexpected situation, he will fly there for a few days, which was agreed before.Before this, they hadn't seen each other for almost two months, and it was impossible to say that they didn't miss her.

Yuan Ye sent Fang Shao a message: Wait for me, baby, to see you.

As soon as Fang Shao didn't reply to this article, Yuan Ye put away his mobile phone after sending the message, changed his clothes and went out to have a meal with someone. There was something to discuss at the dinner table, and it was already past nine o'clock in the evening after the meal.He also just came back, and he had been in another city before, so he didn't pay attention to the temperature difference, and he didn't wear enough clothes.

When Yuan Ye returned home and opened the door, he felt something was wrong. He saw Fang Shaoyi's shoes, and Yuan Ye immediately looked up, and saw the coat on the sofa at a glance.

There was a smile in Yuan Ye's eyes instantly, the little surprise from his lover was very useful.

But then he frowned.

Yuan Ye went upstairs, the bedroom door was open and the light was on, Fang Shaoyi was lying there sleeping with his eyes closed, his face was as white as paper.Yuan Ye walked over with light steps, put one knee on the bed, leaned over, and pressed his forehead against his forehead, trying to test his body temperature.

It was a little hot, Yuanye sighed in his heart, before he got up, Fang Shaoyi suddenly reached out to cover his head, and kissed him on the lips.

Yuan Ye asked him in a low voice, "Did you fall asleep?"

"Yeah," Fang Shaoyi said with a nasal voice, he still didn't let go, and continued to hold him in the same position as before, and said against his lips, "I'm waiting for you."

He was breathing so heavily, and his voice was so hoarse, Ye Ye closed his eyes for a while, and when he opened them again, his eyes turned red.

Fang Shaoyi came back this time on a whim, he didn't take the medicine in advance, and he flew back from there due to jet lag, which was almost fatal.Yuan Ye asked him, "Why didn't you wait for me to pass..."

"I can't wait anymore," Fang Shaoyi smiled and said softly, "I can't wait another two days."

This is a love story, and love words are naturally beautiful, but it is not the truth.Yuanye knows him so well, the truth is that Fang Shaoyi is afraid that Yuanye will be tired, that he will squeeze time to fly to Europe, and that this relationship can only be paid and maintained by one party.

Yuan Ye was lying beside Fang Shaoyi at that time, with his arms around him, his face buried in Fang Shaoyi's neck, and he hugged Fang Shaoyi quietly for a long time.Fang Shaoyi's body is always warm, dry and comfortable, making people intoxicated and fascinated.

As soon as Fang Shao flew back, he cut off the jet lag for ten days, and there was nothing left.

Seeing Fang Shaoyi suffering, Yuanye had an empty mouth, but he didn't know how to say it several times.If it was before, Yuanye might have been angry, complaining about Fang Shao while feeling distressed, what are you messing with for ten days, you just wait for me, you don’t know if you can’t get rid of the jet lag?

But now Yuan Ye can't say anything, the emotions in his heart are too complicated and chaotic, and they are all crowded together.In the wilderness, a man who writes with a pen, can't find a suitable language to describe it.

Since when did the relationship between the two of them need to be like this?It was a bit of a failure by any means.The harder you try, the more you fail.

One morning, after Yuanye finished his breakfast, Fang Shaoyi came down from the stairs, poured a glass of water and took a sip.Yuan Ye smiled at him.

Fang Shaoyi actually couldn't eat anything, but for peace of mind, he ate some porridge.His face was still not very good-looking, and he didn't slow down.Seeing the unnatural color on his dry lips, Yuanye suddenly said, "Brother Yi, are you tired?"

Fang Shao looked at him and asked, "Are you tired?"

"With me." Yuan Ye lowered his head, and said again after a while, "I think you are very tired now."

Fang Shao put down the things in his hand, touched his fingers lightly, and asked him: "Are you tired?"

Yuan Ye didn't speak, just shook his head.

"We two..." Yuanye started talking, but didn't know how to answer the rest.What's wrong with them, in fact, it's nothing, but why is it so uncomfortable.What should be said and what should be talked about has already been talked about, and it is still those old words.

Two adult men in their thirties messed up a relationship that had no problems.Looking back, I can't even think of why, which is ridiculous.

Fang Shao had no expression on his face, but his eyes were deep. He kept staring at Yuan Ye, and then asked him, "What do you want to say?"

Yuan Ye looked up at him, didn't continue to speak, and said everything he could say.

"What do you want?" Fang Shaoyi asked him again, his voice was low and deep, "Just say what you want."

Yuan Ye sighed, shook his head, and even wanted to laugh, he said innocently: "I don't want anything, what do I want."

After saying this sentence, he really laughed. He reached out and touched Fang Shaoyi's hand, shook his head and said, "Forget it, I just want you to be well, don't be unhappy."

Fang Shao gave him a backhand shake, and squeezed his fingers on his ring.

Yuan Ye smiled at him.