not the white lotus

Ye Xuning turned his head and saw that there were still a few sips of red wine in the glass next to the computer, and he took it up without hesitation and drank it all in one gulp, trying to calm his beating heart and the throbbing and impetuousness that kept rising in his heart, until the glass was empty. It was only at the end that I remembered that this was Xing Shengyu's cup.

Thinking of the way Xing Shengyu was drinking just now, his face was a little hot, Ye Xuning touched his nose, his attention was successfully diverted, and his mind calmed down a lot. He had already planned to face Yan Xuzhi, since Yan Xuzhi He came to look for him as expected, so why should he hide it anymore.

The little pencil on the avatar in the chat box was still writing. Ye Xuning waited patiently, wondering what Yan Xuzhi was going to say. Two or three minutes passed, and the little pencil never stopped. It was almost expected that it would be a long speech.

In the end, the message he received turned out to be a short line, Ye Xuning was ashamed, this line of Yan Xu Zhi took so long?Or did I type and delete what I was going to say?In the end it turned into a very common small talk?But my heart was quietly relieved.

Tranquility and Zhiyuan: I have seen your ink paintings on Weibo, and they are very good.

Lin Laiquan☆Bai Xu☆Singer of the band: Thank you, I only have this strength.

Tranquility and Zhiyuan: In my opinion, you are outstanding, your singing skills are great, and you have learned ink painting for more than ten years, right?

Lin Laiquan☆Bai Xu☆Singer of the Orchestra: Well, I have been learning since I was a child, and this is my hobby.

Ye Xuning suddenly remembered the scene when he first learned to draw. When he was very young, he saw the children in the class winning prizes for drawing and being praised by their parents. He still remembers the big smile on that child’s face. And the pride in the eyes of parents.

He wanted to learn to draw from that time, and carefully raised this request with his parents. He originally thought that his parents would be happy to see his good learning, but in the end, he got a faint "oh" from his parents and called the housekeeper to arrange it for him. a teacher.

Ye Xuning was in the bottom of his mood at the time, but he didn't want to disappoint his parents. He followed his teacher and studied hard. It was unintentional. He didn't expect that he was quite talented in ink painting. Even his teacher praised him and won more and more awards. many.

At the same time, his state of mind gradually changed from disappointment to calm, from wanting to get praise from his parents to truly loving painting. In the blink of an eye, more than ten years have passed. He has painted many works, some of which are hung in the school, and some are bought away. Yes, some of them are at Yan Xuzhi's place, and there are quite a few who gave them away.

Thinking of these things now seems like a lifetime away, and my mentality is not as complicated as it was back then.

There was another silence on Yan Xuzhi's side, the small pencil on the portrait was still moving, showing that the other party was still chatting with him in front of the computer, Ye Xuning waited patiently, maybe this was Yan Xuzhi's first time across the Internet Want to chat with someone?He found it very strange.

I don't know what kind of expression Yan Xuzhi has when chatting with YY?Ye Xuning held his chin in thought.

Yan Xuzhi is a meticulous person. In his memory, Yan Xuzhi received an elite education when he was a student. After inheriting the family business, Yan Xuzhi was dealing with official business. Except for proper exercise, it is rare for him to have other hobbies.

Tranquility and Zhiyuan: Seeing your work makes me miss it very much. I have a younger brother who is also good at ink painting. In my mind, his works are unique and priceless. Your style of painting is very similar to his.

Ye Xuning lowered his head, his eyes were covered by long eyelashes, so he couldn't see the expression on his face clearly. He rested his hands on the keyboard, typing mechanically, and could faintly tremble when typing on the keyboard.

Lin Laiquan☆Bai Xu☆Singer of the orchestra: Thank you, I really want to appreciate Lingdi's works if I have the opportunity.

Tranquility and far-reaching: A few months ago, he had an accident while returning to China for vacation and passed away.

Lin Laiquan ☆Bai Xu☆ Orchestra Singer: Sorry

Tranquility and Zhiyuan: We are the ones who want to say sorry. He has lived alone for so many years. In our neglect, he has grown so big and grown up so well, but we have no time to tell him that he is in our hearts. is a wonderful kid.

Lin Laiquan ☆ Bai Xu ☆ Orchestra singer: Maybe he can figure it out.

Tranquility and Zhiyuan: Well, I believe it.

Tranquility and Zhiyuan: If there is a chance, I can do it again. I want to be with him every day, so that he won’t be so lonely. It’s probably God’s punishment for us. We don’t even let us see him for the last time. I feel a little regretful It is to be burdened for a lifetime.

Lin Laiquan☆Bai Xu☆Singer of the Orchestra: I don’t think he wants to see such a result, and it’s not the ending he wants. Now that it’s happened, some things are enough for one person to bear. This is to punish yourself.

Tranquility and Zhiyuan: I will go back to China tomorrow, I hope to see you!

For a long time, the chat box on the screen was very quiet, no one spoke, Yan Xuzhi's last words lay silently in the chat box, Ye Xuning's hands resting on the keyboard trembled more and more, gradually clenched into fists, and his shoulders trembled slightly , always lowered his head, unable to see the expression.

At the door of the study, Xing Shengyu leaned quietly against the door frame, staring at the person in front of the computer.

After a long time, the person in front of the computer made a movement, lightly typed a character, pressed the enter key, then leaned his head back on the chair, raised his hand to cover his eyes with the back of his hand, under the light, the corners of his eyes gleamed faintly , sliding down the forehead and disappearing in the hair.

When Ye Xuning seemed to have calmed down, and slowly corrected his posture, Xing Shengyu was about to walk over, but stopped after taking a step forward.

Ye Xuning held the mouse and opened YY, clicked on the friends list, then opened a chat box, sent a message to one of them, then opened the minimized Lin Laiquanyun on the taskbar, and exited YY after waiting for a while .

It was almost Mai Xu's turn, but Ye Xuning knew that he couldn't sing at all in his current mood, so he sent a message to You Nian, asking You Nian to take him off Mai Xu first, but You Nian didn't ask much, just hugged him off After ordering the wheat, only let him tell her if he replenishes the wheat.

Ye Xuning responded, and when he saw his vest disappeared from the wheat sequence, he turned off YY, and thought that after so long a delay, Xing Shengyu's supper should be cooked, he urgently needs to calm down now, and I don't want Xing Shengyu to see it, so I worry about him.

Taking a deep breath, Ye Xuning blinked his sore eyes, he thought he could calmly test Yan Xuzhi with each other, but he didn't expect that when he saw Yan Xuzhi's words, his eyes turned red instantly, and he couldn't tell what it was I feel, I only know that the escape psychology for many years has finally come to an end, and it is time to face it.

People are such emotional and fragile animals. When they are eager to get the answer, they are afraid that the result will not be so satisfactory, that hope will turn into despair, and that despair will turn into ashes, so they keep avoiding and avoiding.

I had to face it until I had nowhere to go. Only then did I realize that the result was not as bad as expected, and then I began to regret why I didn’t face it earlier, otherwise I wouldn’t have lost or missed so many good times.

Ye Xuning felt that he was in this mood now: joy, emotion, regret, luck, luckily, there was a chance to do it all over again.

Suppressing all her emotions, Ye Xuning was about to stand up, she put her hands on his shoulders, startled slightly, looked up at Xing Shengyu who was smiling at the corner of her mouth, with gentle comfort in her eyes, lowered her head, no need to think about it He knew that Xing Shengyu had been standing for a long time, but he didn't notice it.

"Let's go, supper is ready, if you don't eat it, it will be mushy. Tonight we are cooking big noodles." Xing Shengyu looked normal, patted Ye Xuning on the shoulder, pulled him up from the chair, saw Ye Xuning Without refusing, let him go out of the study first.

Hearing the footsteps following behind him, Xing Shengyu was very satisfied. Ye Xuning is not the kind of hysterical person. On the contrary, Ye Xuning knows how to control his emotions. hold emotions.

"Don't put pressure on yourself, follow your own heart." Xing Shengyu walked to the stairs, stopped suddenly, and the people behind cast doubtful eyes, smiled and stretched out his fingers, pointing to his heart, Then asked, "He asked to meet you? Did you agree?"

"how do you know?"

"Guess."

Ye Xuning looked at Xing Shengyu with a smile on his face, and then relaxed, all the emotions poured out, and the rest was to relax with all his body and mind. Not everyone has a chance to do it again. Since he has this opportunity, Why not give yourself a chance for others?

"The noodles are a bit mushy." Xing Shengyu frowned and looked at the two large bowls of noodles on the table, thinking about whether to make it again.

Ye Xuning pulled out a chair and sat on it, took a bite with chopsticks, and looked up at Xing Shengyu: "Don't waste it."

Xing Shengyu shook his head dumbfoundedly, pulled away the chair opposite him and sat down to eat noodles. Who is it because of?Originally, it didn't take long to make a bowl of noodles, but Ye Xuning had already prepared them during dinner, and just put the cooked noodles on, but when I went upstairs, I saw that Ye Xuning was in a bad mood.

Walking to the door of the study room, I saw Ye Xuning sitting in front of the computer with a strange expression from a distance. There was an open YY chat box on the screen. The only person who could make Ye Xuning have such big mood swings was Yan Xuzhi. Can't stand it?

Xing Shengyu didn't bother Ye Xuning, and quietly leaned aside and waited for Ye Xuning to calm down. This feeling has been suppressed in Ye Xuning's heart for more than ten years. It's time to be released. Being able to be reborn is a miracle. destiny.

Only Ye Xuning can experience this feeling, as a bystander, he can't interfere, he can only rely on Ye Xuning to figure it out, Xing Shengyu sighed inwardly, there is only one way to get the best of both worlds, to be honest with the two parents and be the child of the two families.

After eating a big bowl of noodles, Ye Xuning felt a little overwhelmed, rubbed his stomach lightly, leaned on the back of the chair to digest, thought for a while and said, "My brother explained that he will be on the plane tomorrow, and he hopes to see me. Tempting each other, and knowing each other well."

"He wants to talk to you face to face." Xing Shengyu was not surprised. Sooner or later, he would have to face things, and each other would feel at ease when they met.

"In the past, I felt that fate was unfair to me. I didn't desire anything, I just asked my family to look at me more, and finally left this world with regret, and then woke up in another person's body, enjoying the parents' life instead of that person. love."

Ye Xuning smiled, and continued: "At that time, I felt that fate gave me compensation, and now I believe that fate is actually fair to me. Even if I live as Ye Xuning, at least I can give my family and myself There is no need to bear the shackles of remorse for a new opportunity, yes, that's what my brother said, remorse."

Xing Shengyu stared straight at him, Ye Xuning had a smile on his face mixed with sadness, and comforted him: "As long as you can figure it out, you still have decades to start over with them again, I believe that at this time They are so happy."

"Well, my brother said the same thing just now. He said that if he had the chance to do it all over again, he would accompany his brother every day."

Cough cough, Xing Shengyu inexplicably feels pain in the soles of his feet, is this called lifting a rock and hitting his own foot?

If Yan Xuzhi really stayed with Ye Xuning every day in the future, what would he do?He absolutely believes that this guy can do what he says, Yan Xuzhi is this kind of person, plus the parents of the Yan family who want to compensate the child, and the parents of the Ye family who love Ye Xuning, does he still have a chance?

Xing Shengyu rubbed his nose in frustration, always felt that the road with Ye Xuning was full of thorns, the biggest of which was Yan Xuzhi. In the past, his younger brother lived where he could see him, and he didn't need to accompany him every day. Be still.

Unexpectedly, he would lose his life when he went back to the country for a vacation. This guy has been regretting for the past few months and almost cut himself off. Annihilation, care without family affection, a typical tragedy of a wealthy family.

But Yan Xuzhi is indeed a guy favored by God, and he can still see miracles at the end of despair, Xing Shengyu sighed silently for a moment, fixedly staring at Ye Xuning who was washing dishes in the kitchen, rubbing his chin and thinking about how to deal with it Yan Xuzhi.

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