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In Xu Chenchuan's impression, Shen Ji was still a teenager, even though he had actually been working for several years at that time, there was still no generation gap when dealing with children.When he was a child, Xu Chenchuan would always be amused by him and giggled every time, and when he was about to go home, he still couldn't get enough of it.What's rare is that Shen Ji also seems to be quite happy with it.At that time, I always thought that Shen Ji was a wage earner in the shop, but now that I think about it, it should be the proprietress.

In contrast, Cheng Rong, the boss, is not so easy to get close to.Xu Chenchuan has always been a little inexplicably afraid of this father's best friend, and dare not look at him for nothing.Although he is good-looking... and good-looking.

"Xiao Chuanchuan is in college, right?" Shen Ji sat on the sofa sipping hot tea.

"Yes, but there is one semester left before graduation."

"Wow—how time flies. The scene of my own graduation seems like yesterday."

"In a blink of an eye, we all became uncles." Xu Guoqi said with a smile.He washed the fruits and brought them out, Xu Chenchuan moved his seat and sat beside them watching them chat.

Shen Ji's complexion was not very good. Although he was talking and laughing happily, and looked well dressed, he looked thin and haggard.However, Cheng Rong still had the same kind of innocence, half-smile and little talk, slowly peeling the orange in his hand, which made him look like some old man was playing with a white jade finger wrench.Xu Chenchuan thought of the scene he bumped into at the door, and his heart was full of doubts.

After Cheng Rong peeled an orange, he handed it to Shen Ji.Probably feeling Xu Chenchuan's probing gaze, he raised his eyes to look back and smiled.Xu Chenchuan's heart skipped a beat, and he heard him open his golden mouth: "Have you not been back for the New Year for a long time?"

"Yes... yes, there is no Spring Festival holiday abroad. It would be nice to be able to celebrate New Year's Day."

"Indeed." Cheng Rong said with a smile.Xu Chenchuan suddenly remembered that the reason why his parents called him back this time was to meet this person in front of him.But do they know the relationship between the two?

The sliding door of the kitchen was opened, and Shu Yingli called out from inside: "Chen Chuan, come and help chop the meat—"

"Where is he, a fake foreign devil, I'll do it." Xu Guoqi stood up first, and Shen Ji also stood up: "I'll go and fight too."

"No, no, you sit down."

"It's okay, I haven't seen my sister-in-law for a long time." Shen Ji said with a smile.

Xu Guoqi didn't insist anymore, the two just left, leaving only Cheng Rong and Xu Chenchuan where they were.

The atmosphere was very eerie.Xu Chenchuan couldn't just leave the guests alone, and was about to bite the bullet and chat, but the other party started the conversation first: "Chenchuan actually doesn't remember us very much, does he?"

"Huh? How come, of course I remember—"

Cheng Rong said very gently: "I hugged you when you were young."

This kind of all-purpose words from elders to strike up a conversation came out of Cheng Rong's mouth, Xu Chenchuan shuddered, his mind was full of "you must be lying".

"It's true. But that was earlier, before you learned to speak."

"Oh." Xu Chenchuan smiled embarrassingly when he saw through his thoughts, "I really don't remember that."

Cheng Rong took a sip of tea: "You seemed a little surprised when you saw us just now?"

Xu Chenchuan froze for a moment.He was trying his best to pretend he didn't see it, but the other party brought it up on his own initiative.

"You were too young before, probably never noticed."

Xu Chenchuan was puzzled, so frank... Could it be that it has not been a secret for a long time? "It's really unexpected." He carefully considered the wording, "My parents..."

"I've always known. Aqi knew my orientation in college. For a while, Xiaoli suspected that Aqi and I had something."

Xu Chenchuan seemed to hear the sound of the gate of the new world slowly opening.

Cheng Rong looked at his expression, and his smile deepened: "You underestimate them."

A gleam of clarity suddenly flashed through Xu Chenchuan's chaotic mind.Why did my parents let me see Cheng Rong?

******

Xu Guoqi was chopping meat like flying with a knife, Shen Ji looked around and couldn't find anything to do, and couldn't go back to the living room, so he grabbed the vegetables and soaked them in water to wash them back and forth.

"Is it snowing outside?" Xu Guoqi asked.

"A little snow seed fell on the way here just now, I don't know if it will grow bigger."

"If it's too cold, just stay here for one night. There are all ready-made guest rooms." Shu Yingli interjected, "Xiao Cheng's body can't be cold."

Shen Ji smiled: "It's okay, I'm driving anyway."

The three were silent for a while.

Xu Guoqi looked at Shen Ji's face, and asked carefully, "What did the doctor say?"

"That's the way to say it. If it's more than a year, you can't say if it's less. Maybe next month... maybe tomorrow..."

Shen Ji's hands gradually stopped, staring blankly at the water surface.

Xu Guoqi reached out to pat him on the shoulder, but Shen Ji came back to his senses and ruthlessly ravaged the vegetables.

"I don't think about anything now, Aqi. I don't think about anything, I just think about it day by day... A day has passed, and when I wake up in the morning and see that he is still breathing, I think I have earned money, and I can face another One day. My parents called and scolded and scolded me, saying that I didn’t listen to them at the beginning and had to ask for trouble. But after all, I’ve earned so much money for so many years. Why didn’t I I found that the days go by so fast that I can't even catch them."

Xu Guoqi's eyes turned red when he heard this, and he opened his mouth, but said nothing.

What can I say?The world is not benevolent, all things are like dogs, any words are just futile in the face of such power.

In the end, Shu Yingli asked, "Does Xiao Cheng know about it?"

Shen Ji shook his head: "I haven't told him. The hospital has also taken care of it, and what I told him is all good things."

"What's the trouble with you... People like Xiao Cheng can't hide it no matter what. It's better for the two of you to face it together than to worry about it yourself."

"How long can I hide it. I have relied on him for so many years, and I can't think about relying on him until the end. It's just a fear. If this is what I can do for him, let me do it." Shen Ji smiled whitely He smiled, "Anyway, there will be no more chances in the future."

Shu Yingli was worried when she heard this, and she couldn't persuade her anymore, so she had to say: "Then you have to take care of yourself and don't lose weight. Now he depends on you, you can't collapse first."

"I know." Shen Ji took a deep breath, and finally let go of Qingcai, "I know, I won't pour it."

******

"Chenchuan lives in a very open environment, and homosexuality is much less discriminated against, right?" Cheng Rong gently put down his teacup.

"Well, although discrimination still exists, my friends who are out of the closet around me are basically treated equally."

"That's great." Cheng Rong said with a smile, "If you were born in that world, your whole life might be much easier."

Xu Chenchuan vaguely thought of his parents talking about Cheng Rong's family, as if he severed ties with his adoptive parents because he came out of the closet.He felt a little sore in his heart, and couldn't find words of comfort for a while.Cheng Rong didn't wait for him to speak, and took it on his own: "But life is good and bad, it's a lifetime, and following your own heart is the most important thing, what do you think?"

Xu Chenchuan froze for a moment, faintly feeling that Cheng Rong meant something.

He wanted to see some clues from the other person's eyes, but only saw a trace of strange compassion.

"Life is too short. If you miss one happiness, you may not be able to wait for the next one." Cheng Rong lowered his eyes and said softly, "Don't put unnecessary pressure on yourself."

"……I remember."

The conversation ends here.Shu Yingli seemed to be taking the time to appear on the stage, holding the plate and calling, "Let's serve!"

Cheng Rong smiled at Xu Chenchuan, got up and walked away.

Xu Chenchuan followed him in a daze, thinking about his words for a while, but thinking about Bai Qi for a while, and he was restless after eating.

The author has something to say:

1. I don’t know why so many people think it’s a kiss on the eyelid, please read this paragraph again:

Bai Qi's fingertips brushed over the thin skin with blood vessels very slowly, as if he was tracing the shape of the peach blossom eyes over and over again.Pressing the fingertips on the eyelids, revealing a sense of oppression, Xu Chenchuan's heartbeat accelerated involuntarily, pounding against his chest.Being so close, he thought the other party must have heard it.

Everything happens in an instant.

However, like a slow-motion stream of consciousness, he clearly decomposes the soft touch on his lips, the eyebrows and eyes of the other party who are suddenly close at hand, the darkness that descends after closing his eyes, the bitter taste in Bai Qi's mouth, and the abnormal heat emitted from his body , the coldness of the surrounding air.

It's mouth to mouth...

2. Q: Why did Xu’s mother have PS when she was young/Why is Boss Cheng already an uncle/I thought he was a peer

A: Cheng Rong and Shen Ji are the protagonists of the previous article "Listen to My Explanation", and Xu Guoqi (Xu's father) is the first male supporting role, Cheng Rong's bamboo horse.

3.Q: Why can the disabled drive/how do the disabled drive?

A: news. sina. com. cn/c/2009-12-18/043416792308s.shtml

At the same time, it was written in the article that "Bai Qi moved himself into a wheelchair from a private car for the disabled".

4. Finally, a bad news: the school has already started in the United States (we don’t have a Spring Festival holiday), and the next semester is visually too busy to sleep, so this article is changed to weekly update TUT