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Because it was time to leave for school the next day, a few classmates went to buy a lot of wine that night, gathered in Xu Chenchuan's room, and planned to drink all night.

Young men and women blushed and talked and laughed at Yan Yan, Xu Chenchuan kept wandering away from the jokes, pouring wine down his throat unconsciously.The roommate saw him curled up on the ground drinking himself, and said with a smile: "Chris, are you okay? I miss this place before I leave?"

Xu Chenchuan also grinned: "I miss you already, and we will be separated soon after graduation."

As soon as these words came out, the atmosphere suddenly became a little sad.Several people looked at each other in blank dismay, and suddenly someone suggested: "Shall we take a group photo and post it on Facebook?"

The masses responded positively: "Whose mobile phone do you use?"

"Use mine." Xu Chenchuan said as he took out the phone and pressed it a few times, only to find that it was still turned off.

He pressed the power button, and then he was taken aback, staring blankly at the number of phone messages that popped up.

A few seconds later, another new call came in.

"Chris, what's wrong?"

Xu Chenchuan looked at Bai Qi's selfie on the caller ID, and pursed his lips: "I have to leave for a while, you guys take pictures first, don't wait for me."

He walked out of the room to the corridor and pressed the answer button: "Hello?"

There was no sound for a long time.

"Hello?" Xu Chenchuan said again.His feet were a little fluttering, and he simply sat down against the wall.

"Are you okay?" Bai Qi asked.

"……what?"

"During the day, after you went out, I heard the sound of brakes..." Bai Qi said softly.

Xu Chenchuan tried his best to search in Chaos' mind.He found that he was still holding the wine bottle in his left hand, so he took a sip.

"Have it?"

Bai Qi was silent for a moment: "It's fine."

knocking.A nurse walked into the room and looked at Bai Qi who was lying down: "It's very late. The patient had severe convulsions today and is very weak now. He needs a good rest. He keeps making phone calls like this..."

"Let him finish this call, and I'll tell him to rest." Katie, who was sitting on the side playing with her mobile phone, said in a low voice, "Thank you, nurse."

The nurse gave some more instructions and left. Katie followed her to the door, glanced back at the hospital bed, stepped out and closed the door gently.

Bai Qi heard a vague and noisy voice from the phone: "Are you outside?"

"No, in the hotel..." Xu Chenchuan got up and walked to a place farther from the door, then sat down again, "Why are you making so many phone calls?"

"..."

Xu Chenchuan drank a few sips of wine cross-legged, and reacted slowly. "It's to make sure I haven't been hit?" He laughed, "Don't worry, I'm dead. Is there anything else? Do you want—ah——" He yawned, "Do you want more say sorry?"

Bai Qi heard that his tone was wrong: "Are you drunk?"

"Hmm..." Xu Chenchuan was still waiting to count his apologies, he was a little confused when he didn't hear the expected content, "Huh?"

"You're drunk." Declarative sentence.

"Ah."

Bai Qi laughed lightly.

The sadness in that laughter was washed away by the signal, Xu Chenchuan was a little annoyed: "I'm dead."

"and many more--"

"how?"

There was no sound from the other end for a long time.It wasn't until Xu Chenchuan became impatient again that he said with difficulty: "Don't hang up, just listen to me."

Xu Chenchuan raised his head and drank the last sip: "What are you talking about? No way... I want to say that your love for ghosts is over?"

"The relationship between humans and ghosts is over." Bai Qi repeated and smiled.

"They all thought this was a love affair between humans and ghosts, and they all thought I was a lover who lost his love and couldn't get out, and spent the rest of his life remembering..."

"Is not it?"

"……no."

When Bai Qi looked out the window, he could only see darkness.

"At that time, Gu Shuying and I had already broken up."

……

Xu Chenchuan vaguely felt that the amount of information in this sentence was huge, but the arc of reflection was infinitely stretched under the influence of alcohol, and the world was like looking up at the sky from the bottom of the water, showing an absurd unreality.

"You, you say it again?"

"I broke up with him two months before the car accident." Bai Qi stated calmly.

After getting started, it seems that it is not so difficult.

"Actually, it was expected. We met in university, and we were like-minded, and we got together not long after. After actually getting along, we found that various problems popped up..."

One is a born hedgehog, and the other is also a master who relies on his talents and pride.Large and small frictions are common, and no matter how beautiful the vision is, it cannot withstand the wear and tear of day and night.

It would be good for both of them if they separated at that time.They are both too young to make mistakes.Bai Qi could see through rationally, but he just couldn't do it.At some point, he discovered that he had a paranoid desire for human affection that was almost pathological.Perhaps it was because of the huge hole in his chest that needed to be filled, and he would hold on to the only ones he had in his hands, no matter the cost.

Bai Qi even tried his best to hide his thorns and play a kind role.It's hard to say how successful he is, but Gu Shuying was moved by his sincerity.Gu Shuying, the proud son of heaven, also tried to force herself to maintain that relationship, and it dragged on for several years.Until the conflict gradually intensified to the point where it was irreparable, there was no room for a peaceful breakup, and they left the stage separately like two clowns in a state of embarrassment and shamelessness.

Bai Qi was depressed for two months.He would have continued to be depressed, but two months seemed to be enough for Gu Shuying to regain his composure.

One weekend, he took the initiative to contact Bai Qi, made an appointment for a place to eat, and asked Bai Qi to bring over some bits and pieces he had left at home.

"It's the so-called breakup meal." Bai Qi said, "The meal was very peaceful, and we didn't talk much, probably because everything we could say was exhausted before. Until the end..."

He paused for a long time.

Xu Chenchuan couldn't help but ask, "When is it over?"

"...something happened." Bai Qi said softly.

Gu Shuying rushed out of the door, trembling all over, and walked quickly towards the street.

Bai Qi chased after him, all reason was burned away by the anger, and he just poured out all the most vicious words he could think of.

Gu Shuying was so humiliated that her face turned pale, she turned her head suddenly, and punched him.Bai Qi turned his head to avoid it.The passers-by behind stopped, waiting to watch a farce.

Gu Shuying's chest heaved violently, and she twisted her face trying to put together a sneer, but failed shamefully.

"What else do you do other than chop people up?" he asked.

Bai Qi was stabbed hard at the sore spot, and he gritted his teeth to get revenge, but Gu Shuying overshadowed his voice almost hysterically: "What qualifications do you have to love someone, stop joking! I don’t even know how to write the word love! I’m happier than staying with you even if I go to find a dog!”

"Really, why don't you ask that dog if he likes you?"

Gu Shuying finally managed to laugh out loud.

He smiled and said, "Why don't you die, Bai Qi? Why don't you get rotten with your thorns all over your body?"

Before Bai Qi could react, he turned around and strode forward.Bai Qi subconsciously wanted to catch up.

The screech of brakes.

They all saw the truck close at hand, but they had no time to react.

In the next moment, the world in front of him was spinning, and Bai Qi's waist felt an unimaginable pain, which made his heart stop beating for a few beats.When his vision slowly recovered, he felt warmth on his face.

Then he saw Gu Shuying's crushed head.

……

"and after?"

Bai Qi looked up at the pale ceiling of the hospital.

"The next thing I can remember, I woke up in the hospital room.

"For the next week, I lay like a stone statue, neither eating nor sleeping, neither seeing nor listening. They all said that I didn't respond to the outside world, but in fact I was just thinking about a problem seriously. I was thinking, what should I do? don't die.

"He told me to die, but he himself was forced to die by me. I kept thinking about what he said, and I couldn't think of what else I would do besides cutting people into pieces...

"But I still haven't died." He said sarcastically, "I'm not dead, but I'm not alive either."

Between absolute states like life and death, there is an infinitely wide gray area.

"They found out that rehabilitation didn't work for me. They said I was giving myself psychological hints, saying that I couldn't accept the fact that man was separated forever, and wanted to bind myself forever in the shadow of the car accident. Heh...human imagination The power is really great. You can imagine a whole soul-stirring love story out of thin air and move yourself.

"I've never had a love story. I've never been capable of feeling, only capturing, possessing, torturing and destroying..."

"What happened later?" Xu Chenchuan asked mechanically.My brain is as thick and dull as a paste, and I can't think.

"Later, I met someone."

Xu Chenchuan hiccupped in the silence, feeling drowsy: "Who is it?"

Bai Qi smiled.

"At first he called me a great god. As soon as I came up, he sent me a mua, so stupid that it seemed to be faking."

To Xu Chenchuan who was clearly out of state, these words were more like talking to himself in the quiet night.He spoke without any scruples, as if he wanted to say everything in his lifetime.

"No matter how you ignore it, he will come forward stupidly. No matter how cynical and sarcastic, he will not get angry, as if he doesn't feel pain...

"He can bear me like this, and even likes me. I've been waiting to see when he leaves."

Xu Chenchuan seemed to have returned to that impenetrable room, with the coolness of an ancient well permeating the walls filled with books and papers.The dark-eyed young man asked him seriously: Why don't you leave?

The evening wind blew in from the window and passed through the corridor, Xu Chenchuan started to feel cold from his fingertips, and his limbs went all the way to the bottom of his heart.The whole person was deeply frozen, so that the dim memory was as warm as the sun.

"After that, I was afraid.

"I have killed one person, and I can kill another one. But I am not reconciled. It's like a beggar on the side of the road who only thinks about the next meal, and has no time to think about diamonds. But once you get diamonds out of thin air, how can you Willing to give up?

"I hope Gu Shuying is wrong, I want to find some evidence to prove that I have changed..."

Bai Qi reached out and groped downwards.After crossing the plane of perception, it seemed as if he touched two pieces of dead wood that were forcibly connected to his body.

"It's a pity I couldn't find it."