[Titanic] I can't help myself

"You are the one, my dear." My mother held my hand, with a gratified smile on her face, "You are always so quiet like a girl, I have always been worried about whether you can take up Acton's responsibilities, Continuing the glory of Bucket. Before you said that you have a way to solve the problems left by your father, I always think it is because you don't realize how difficult our situation is, just because you are young and energetic That's why I keep telling you to keep your duty and manage the land well. I didn't expect you to be able to do what you say."

"So you can easily be a noble lady in the future." I raised my mother's hand and kissed it, "I have grown up."

"There will be such a day, but it's still too early." The mother laughed. "Let's move on to Mr. Hockley. You seem to get on well with Mr. Hockley these days, and you think he is interested in Rose." ?"

I stroked the second knuckle of my index finger with my thumb, and said softly: "I don't know too well, we don't discuss these issues much."

"Then do you think he would like a girl like Rose?" The mother asked immediately, "We can let the two of them get in touch more, Rose is the best in every way, unless Mr Hockley has peculiar taste, or he would never have disliked Rose."

"This is not good." I whispered, "The woman is too enthusiastic, as if Rose can't get married. If Carl doesn't want to marry Rose, wouldn't it just be a joke for others."

"Then let them laugh." The mother laughed arrogantly. "When Rose becomes Mrs. Hockley, they won't be able to laugh. I really can't think of a reason for Karl to refuse this marriage. Now Rose It is absolutely perfect in every aspect—of course, as long as she hides her weird thoughts. And now he has a cooperative relationship with you, marriage is such a icing on the cake, why would he refuse?"

"But...but what if he doesn't love her?" I said with a stiff mouth.

"Love?" Mother widened her eyes slightly as if hearing some ridiculous joke, and laughed out loud, "Oh, I'm sorry, my dear, you have been so mature during this time, I even forgot that you are only 15 Years old... Love, this is the most unreliable thing in the world, only interests can form the most eternal and firm relationship."

I paused and said, "What about Rose? She didn't want to marry in the first place, and now we have no reason for her to get married so quickly. She really has no interest in Mr. Hockley."

"You don't have to worry about it, I will convince her." The mother took a sip of tea and put down the cup. "A woman's marriage is the last thing to delay. Every girl thinks that she is a new rose, and she can always swim in the hearts of men." While admiring her, she doesn't know that the most indispensable thing in this world is young girls, and they themselves will turn into remnants of late autumn in just two or three years. Those suitors who I didn't like at the beginning are no longer the ones I can choose. Luo Now is the best time for Si, if you don't seize the opportunity now and don't have marriage to restrain her, who knows what she will look like in a few years, and you will be the one who will have a headache."

I looked at the lines on the table and didn't speak any more. I just felt like my tongue was stuck to the chest.

Mother took out a handkerchief and pressed the sides of her nose, and then said: "You should listen to Mr. Hockley more, see what he has taboos, and tell him something nice about Rose. I remember you said that Mr. Hockley likes to ride horses." , you can try to have them together next time you go hunting. You can also invite Carl to the carnival, bring Rose with you, and then find a chance to leave first..."

I quietly listened to my mother's enthusiastic plan on how to increase the time Carl and Rose spent together, and suddenly felt a little tired. As I listened, my eyes fell out of the window, and I only responded with a mechanical "hmmmm" in my mouth. with.

My mother quickly discovered this, and she pinched my chin affectionately, which startled me, and I could only smile awkwardly when I came back to my senses.

"Honey, this topic is a bit boring, but this is your sister's lifelong event. If I miss Mr. Hockley, I don't know if there is still a chance to meet such an outstanding man." My mother looked at me seriously, "If you can marry Mr. Hockley, it will be of great benefit not only to Rose, but also to your future."

I licked the dry corner of my mouth, "Mom, since interests can form the strongest relationship, we don't necessarily have to strengthen it through marriage. I just need to maintain the interest relationship with Hockley Enterprise. And this is in It's not going to change for decades to come."

"You think marriage is too simple, Henry." The mother played with the diamond pendant of the necklace that hung all the way to her belly. "There are countless people who benefit from him, but he can only be best to one person. Why? Marriage That's the answer." As she spoke, she suddenly narrowed her eyes slightly, "If I didn't think too much, dear, you sound like you don't support Rose marrying Mr. Hockley, can you tell me the reason?"

I pulled out a smile: "I just think it's unbelievable. After all, it's been so long, Rose and Carl haven't spoken a few words, they can be regarded as strangers. And now we're talking about marrying Rose to Carl This kind of thing...at least requires a certain emotional foundation. I...I just feel..." I pressed my knuckles to my lips, and couldn't continue.

"It's man's fault. They are strangers. Let's make them adults." said the mother. "This is a matter of great importance to Rose's life. I hope that when we leave, Mr. Hockley will propose to Rose." good news."

My mother looked straight at me with those green eyes, and I sighed: "I see, Mom."

My mother kept her promise, and asked me to invite Carl to the carnival after lunch the next day.When I stood in front of Carl and said that invitation, my hands behind my back had to be tightly clenched to keep my face relaxed.

I thought that was unbearable enough, but when we actually walked to the carnival, I realized I was wrong.

Rose was wearing a pure white suit with simple lines. Standing next to Carl in a black coat, it was particularly suitable.And I had to walk side by side with my mother behind both of them.My mother held my arm with a satisfied smile on her face.

We went to the first game, which was a game of darts. Carl paid for some darts, and Rose was invited by a gentleman.Rose was depressed because of the reasons for this trip, she waved her hand to express her refusal, Carl didn't care, and easily threw the darts, all of which hit the bull's-eye.

Rose made no secret of her surprise.A guy's good performance in sports will always attract a girl's attention, whether she likes him or not.

"That's amazing!" said the mother, smiling. "Isn't it, Rose?"

Rose nodded. "That's impressive, Mr. Hockley."

"Thank you for the compliment, Miss Rose," said Carl. "Call me Carl. It's very strange for you to call me Mr. Hockley when your mother calls me that."

With that said, he handed me a dart: "You can try it too, Henry."

I looked slowly along his outstretched hand, until I saw his obsidian eyes.Suddenly, an indescribable pain seized my heart deeply, and I felt that the ground under my feet was unbearable, and I couldn't stay on it for even a second.

"Sorry." I struggled to hold up a smile, "Mom, I feel a little uncomfortable, I'm afraid I can't continue shopping with you."

Maybe it's because my face is really ugly. My mother touched my face worriedly: "What's wrong with you? Do you need to call a doctor?"

"No need for mom, it's not a big problem." I held her hand, "It may be that I was tired from hunting the day before yesterday. Since then, my appetite has not been very good in the past few days. I just go back and lie down. You guys keep playing, don't let me spoil the fun, or I will blame myself very much."

Mother hesitated for a moment, the plan to match Carl and Rose was off to a good start, and she didn't want to interrupt the carnival trip because of me, "Okay, since you said so. Get a good rest, if the night is still uncomfortable, Just call the doctor."

"Can you hold on now?" Carl asked, "Do you need me to send you?"

"No need really." I interrupted him almost immediately, almost rudely, and realized that, I explained remedially, "It's not gentlemanly to throw a lady aside, Karl. My mother and Rose will leave it to you."

Without waiting for him to say anything, I hurriedly kissed my mother's cheek: "Then I'll go back. Have fun."

After that, I didn't even say goodbye to Rose, I almost ran away in a hurry and left here quickly.

I walked quickly, and I had the illusion that my eyes were on my back, as if Karl and the others were looking at me, even though I knew it was impossible.It wasn't until I turned a corner and the carnival venue was blocked by houses that I breathed a sigh of relief and slowed down until I stopped.

Actually I don't want to go back to the castle at all, I don't want to see anyone I know, I don't even want to see people.I raised my head and looked at the blue sky. The bright light made me unable to open my eyes, and my eyes became moist physiologically.

A well-dressed man stood in the middle of the road and looked up at the sky. People coming and going gave him puzzled looks.I had to lift my feet and walk around.I didn't know my destination, I just emptied my brain, let my feet lead me, and walked to a place where I could escape reality.