in the center of the universe

"She called me and told me to have dinner together tonight... We went shopping and bought her flowers. She was very happy. After eating, she told me that we will never be together in this life, she said She doesn't deserve me anymore, so let me find another good person. I said I don't deserve it, and she said that she doesn't deserve it anyway. I said I don't do it, and I will keep chasing her until she gets married. She just laughed , Call me stupid. Then I said to take her home, and she asked me to go down and drive first. I waited for a long time, but she didn't come. Then, then, she fell down. "

"She is my roommate, who used to live in a dormitory. No, I'm not her boyfriend. Her last boyfriend beat her, her ribs were cracked, and she was forced to have sex, and she bled a lot. We broke up. I am afraid that she will be entangled, so I pick her up from work these days. She is timid and can't get along with the rest of the troupe—the troupe? The reverse troupe. Yes, we all wear skirts when we go on stage. She's like my little sister, and I have a boyfriend."

"Who knew that his ID card was fake? He also looks like a girl. He changed a boyfriend within a month, called us sisters and sisters, and went to the bathroom together. I didn't expect it to be a monster! How disgusting ! How do I know? His ex-boyfriend showed us the video, full body!"

"It's a peripheral girl, isn't there a lot of transsexuals who come out to do this? They earn a lot of money at a time. I don't know if it's opened elsewhere. Anyway, we opened a room once here. Her boyfriend came first, and she was called She went in, and another came after a while, looking like a big boss. She only came out in the morning, and she took a taxi and left, nothing different."

"Looking at her standing on the side, she jumped without hesitation."

"It's scary, a person just fell from the top!"

Interview and autopsy results identified as suicide.Xiaohao didn't understand, and asked repeatedly: "Why, Miss Meimei, why?" And he finally found out that Lingling's full name is Zhao Jianning, and another "ID card" says Zhao Jianling, probably The name she gave herself.

The police found chat messages on her mobile phone. The ex-boyfriend said to "introduce" her to a brother, just play once, 5000 yuan, and if he doesn't come, he will post the last photo on the Internet.Lingling's bank card did deposit [-] on the same day, and the bank has records.However, it is impossible to identify "forced prostitution" based on chat messages alone, and there is no evidence that she was raped.The ex-boyfriend also categorically denied any violent sex, saying it was completely consensual.

Lingling's family took a car overnight and arrived the next day.My father, mother, and an older sister and a younger brother cried all day, but they resolutely refused to sign or agree to cremation, and must file a case for investigation.The police did not file a case, so they pulled up banners, printed photos of their ex-boyfriends, went to the gate of the court, and went to the other party's unit, carrying an empty coffin to ask for an explanation, and wanted to "bring to justice the dog who ruined his son's innocence."

After three days of quarreling, I sat down with the other party's lawyer on the fourth day and asked for compensation.From 50 to 20, stop making trouble.

Yan Keji didn't know about these things, but Jin Xiang told him that he had been packing up Lingling's things since he came back from the police station.The police came to the Guose Tianxiang dormitory to investigate, and Sister Xiangxiang found out that Xiaohao was still there, and went to the food company to drag Xiaohao away.

There are not many things in Lingling's rented house, skin care products, beauty tools, clothes and skirts, her family almost didn't want them, and they said they burned them.I heard that Yan Keji was also a member of a reverse troupe, muttering, "Why are all good men like this".Only her 12-year-old brother took away a set of New Year's cards she bought, saying that the New Year's cards that his sister gave him every year were the most beautiful, "Wan (I) thinks it's good to call her sister, she looks like a sister, even Wan (I) ) Daddy won’t let me call, but hit me when I call.”

The three suicide notes he found in Lingling's relics, scented letter paper and envelopes, and cartoon glue.One for him, one for Xiaohao, and one for his parents.

"Meimei, I'll call you Meimei. I'm leaving, so don't be angry with me. I don't blame others for what I have today, it's all up to me. I'm narrow-minded and vain. If you wait for Xiaohao well, That's all. That night XX (I don't want to write his name) called me, and I knew it was over. He must have shown my appearance to others. I am innocent, and I will never again in this life One day Ann had a birthday.

I didn't want to take their money, but the man said that if I didn't take it, I would look down on him and I had to accompany him again. I was afraid of pain, so I took it.Some people must say that I am selling it, but you tell them that I am not.

You are so kind to me, buy me medicine and delicious food, I will repay you in the next life, don't blame me.I also want to live a good life, really, but I am too uncomfortable, I want to have a next life as soon as possible, and be a girl.

I wore my favorite skirt, curled my hair, and the bra you gave me, although it is a bit big (^_^), and I have a small bag. I want to leave beautifully.Goodbye, I love you. "

At the end, I drew a heart with lipstick.It was quite short, and he still looked at it for a whole day without moving.

"I'm afraid of pain, jumping off a building doesn't hurt." He said.

Xiaohao was locked at home by Sister Xiangxiang and was not allowed to go out.After signing the papers, Lingling's family members sent a video to Yan Keji on the first day of cremation. It was him dancing without any background music.

"Sister Meimei, if you go to see her off, show it to her for me, I will dance."

He wrapped a white bag for Lingling's father and asked when the farewell ceremony will be held.Her father said that there is no farewell ceremony, outsiders, who can come, put a photo and place two bouquets of flowers, and cremate directly tomorrow morning and bring the ashes back.He said, can I go and send a wreath, her father glanced at him and said you can do whatever you want.

He asked again: Don't pursue it?

Her father said: "People are gone, and they can't come back if they pursue it. The living still have to live."

He went to look for Guan Zang with his mobile phone in his pocket: "I'm not a family member. I want to see the body. Is there a way?"

Guan Zang nodded, "Yes." Others may not be able to do it, but Guan Zang is familiar with it.

The two drove directly to the funeral home.It is not a family member and there is no proof. It is said that they are not allowed to see it, but the living people always want to earn money from the dead.Cleaning fee, coffin loading fee, dressing fee, this fee is a bunch, even the urn and shroud are several times more expensive than outside.Lingling's family didn't want to spend this unjustified money, so they bought the most basic service. There was no farewell ceremony, and the master of ceremonies didn't need it.

Guan Zang stuffed some money into the makeup artist, and bought another set of shrouds on the surface, plus the service of sending flowers to the spirit, the highest standard.It's winter, and those flowers can't be found in such a short period of time, that's what it means.

"Keji, do you want me to accompany you?"

He shook his head and took out a small paper bag, "I'll go by myself and have a word with her."

Following the staff to the basement dressing room, Lingling, who had finished her make-up and changed clothes, was lying in a cardboard box wrapped in yellow silk, and was pushed into a single room, covered with a layer of white cloth.He glanced at it, but didn't think it was the same, and asked the makeup artist who was about to leave: "Who is this?"

"Zhao Jianning, that's right, it has a famous brand. Born in [-]."

He took another look, "Where's her hair?"

"Shave it off. The family members said that this is his son, so he should be more masculine."

He fell silent.

The make-up artist left, he took out his phone and played Xiaohao's video, carefully watching Lingling.The face was not damaged, and the face was very peaceful, as if sleeping peacefully, with a smile, but it was not like her.Two sword eyebrows were deliberately turned into two, and the nose shadow was punched to highlight the high bridge of the nose.Wearing a men's shirt and tie.

He took a small bra from the paper bag and snapped the label off with his teeth.

"I said I'd give it to you. This number must be suitable, little sister."

"Small breasts are good, delicate."

"Don't worry about makeup, let the makeup artist secretly change it for you in a while, and send you powdered cakes during the holidays, and you can make it yourself when it's over."

In the video, Xiao Hao was halfway through the dance, and he smiled: "It's still so awkward, isn't it?" No one answered him.After Xiaohao finished dancing, he stood there without speaking for a long time, then suddenly opened his mouth and sang Happy Birthday.

When he came out, Guan Zang asked, "Have you changed?"

"You can't change the outer one, so put the inner one on. You can't see it if you hide it, or no one will let you in." There is no underwear in the shroud at all, and Yan Keji asked the makeup artist to change it into the one he brought, and put another layer on the outside Suits, white gloves and nail polish inside.

Can't do anything else.

"It's so cool." After being silent for a long time, he suddenly said.Didn't say it was cool.

"Well, it's very cold." Guan Zang understood, shook his hand, and replied, "Except for you."

The cremation went smoothly, but he just didn't like the posthumous photo, like a girl pretending to be a kid.Lingling's parents didn't see the aggressiveness when they pulled the banners, and kept silent. When the ashes were taken out, the mother burst into sharp cries and fell to the ground.Her father murmured: In the next life, you can choose to be a man or a woman.

After returning from the funeral parlor, before the car arrived in the city, Jin Xiang called, crying and shouting: Xiaohao ran away from home, went to the supermarket to buy a kitchen knife, found Lingling's partner, and stabbed him to death in public .

"Lingling, you are [-] years old today, you can get married." Xiao Hao said shyly after singing.