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Lei Zhuo drove and parked under the bridge, and saw a person standing on the bridge from a distance, looking at the tumbling river, Lei Zhuo frowned, parked the car beside the green belt, and ran over to the bridge.

Jing Xintan stood in the center of the bridge, with vehicles behind him. The wind was quite cold, and almost no one would stand here to enjoy the scenery.Pedestrians passing by would glance at him from time to time, and the way he looked at the river in a daze made people worry.The closer Lei Zhuo got to him, the more uneasy he felt. Jing Xintan stood by the railing and looked at the Tongyu River. He lost a lot of weight, and the wind made his clothes float. Jing Xintan would suddenly climb over the railing and jump off.Thinking of this, Lei Zhuo's heart palpitated even more.He quietly walked to Jing Xintan's side, but Jing Xintan didn't notice his arrival, he was still staring at the river in a daze.

"Jing Xin talk?"

Jing Xintan froze for a moment when he heard the voice, he quickly turned his head and looked aside, when he saw Lei Zhuo's face, his eyes widened.

"Why are you here!"

There was shock and disbelief in Jing Xintan's eyes, Lei Zhuo swallowed, he tried his best to look sincere,

"I, I'm here to apologize to you."

Jing Xintan looked at him, took two steps back, his eyes were full of resentment, and his trembling body betrayed his nervousness.Seeing him retreat, Lei Zhuo habitually followed up two more steps,

"Don't come here!"

As Jing Xin talked, she grabbed the railing of the bridge with one hand, Lei Zhuo's heart tightened and he was startled.Despite the distance between the two, even if Jing Xintan wanted to jump, Lei Zhuo could hug him, but Lei Zhuo is not calm now, every movement of Jing Xintan makes him a little nervous.

"Jing Xintan, calm down, I really came to apologize to you. I misunderstood you, and I did something very bad to you. I sincerely apologize to you. If you want to beat or scold me Can."

Jing Xintan looked at him viciously, not knowing what he was thinking, Lei Zhuo took two steps back.The two remained in a stalemate like this for a long time, before Jing Xintan moved, and walked past him to the bridge, Lei Zhuo heaved a sigh of relief, turned around and followed.Jing Xintan leaned on crutches, walking down little by little, Lei Zhuo felt very uncomfortable seeing it, he walked over to help him,

"Go away! Don't touch me!"

Jing Xintan reacted greatly, Lei Zhuo could hear the tremor in his voice, he gritted his teeth, and walked two quick steps to Jing Xintan.

"Jing Xintan, I now know that you were not the one who reported it. I sincerely apologize to you for the crimes I committed. It was I who did something irreparable without understanding the matter. I feel very guilty. I don't I beg you to forgive me, I just wonder if you can give me a chance to make up for my mistakes."

Lei Zhuo had a sincere look on his face, but in Jing Xintan's eyes, it was extremely disgusting, Jing Xintan even wanted to kill him.He stared at Lei Zhuo for a while, then said calmly:

"It's very simple to forgive you. If you jump from here, I will forgive you immediately."

Saying that, he turned his head to look at the Tongyu River under the bridge, Lei Zhuo also turned his head to look at it, he lowered his head and didn't speak, Jing Xintan passed him calmly and walked home little by little.

When Jing Jing came home, she saw the classmate who came to look for her son during the day standing at the door of her house. Although it was not winter, it was quite cold outside.Jing Jing looked at Lei Zhuo in surprise,

"Why are you outside? Tan Tan hasn't come back yet?"

Lei Zhuo was also stunned for a long time when he saw her, only thinking about how to get Jing Xintan to forgive him, but he didn't notice that it was getting late and his mother was going home too.He scratched his head and said shyly:

"Uh, well, Auntie."

Jing Jing felt that the child was in a daze, so she took out the key to open the door with doubts, and when she opened the door, the light was on in the room, Jing Xintan sat by the bed wondering what she was thinking, lost in thought.Jing Jing frowned and looked at him, then turned to look at Lei Zhuo outside the door.

"Talk about?"

When Jing Xintan heard his mother calling him, she suddenly recovered and looked towards the door.Unexpectedly, when his mother walked in, Lei Zhuo was following behind.Jing Xintan frowned, stood up while supporting the table,

"What are you doing here, get out!"

Lei Zhuo froze for a moment, turned around and walked out, Jing Jing frowned,

"What's the matter with you kid? Why do you have such an attitude when your classmates come to see you from afar."

Jing Jing got angry, she turned around and pulled Lei Zhuo in again,

"Son, Jing Xin said that he has a bad temper, don't worry about it, tell Auntie what's going on."

Lei Zhuo cautiously raised his eyes to look at Jing Xintan, and saw him glaring at him, Lei Zhuo had a runny nose from the cold outside, he sniffed, wondering how Jing Xintan told his mother that he was injured Hesitating about how to speak, Jing Xintan said to his mother:

"Mom, you don't know, he is not a good person, don't let him into our house."

Jing Jing glanced at her son, didn't say anything, but looked at Lei Zhuo questioningly, Lei Zhuo pursed his lips,

"Auntie, that...Jing Xintan was injured because of me, and I felt very sorry, so I came to see him, thinking if I could do something for him."

Jing Jing saw that the child was tall, but he spoke so cautiously, which obviously frightened her child. She remembered that Jing Xintan told her that she hurt her foot while playing football. She thought about it and looked at him with a bit of complaint. to his son.

"Let's talk, the classmates have come to see you in person, why are you still so unreasonable. It's normal for classmates to make small fights, you can't be so ignorant."

Jing Xintan wanted to tear Lei Zhuo apart, but he would never let his mother know what happened between him and Lei Zhuo.

"Mom, it's not that simple. Anyway, you tell him to go away, I don't want to see him at all."

Jing Jing suddenly felt why her son was so unreasonable, she was about to reprimand her again, but Lei Zhuo grabbed her,

"Auntie, I did have a little misunderstanding with him, so don't blame him for being angry. Well, it's getting late today, I'll go back first, and I'll come see him tomorrow."

Lei Zhuo said that when he came back tomorrow, he looked up at Jing Xintan, Jing Xintan's brows had not been flattened since meeting him in the afternoon.Jing Jing still felt embarrassed and insisted on sending Lei Zhuo out. As soon as the two of them left the door, Jing Xintan grabbed a book by the bedside and slammed it onto the ground.

"Son, what's your name?"

"Oh, auntie, my name is Lei Zhuo, the thunder of thunder, the burning of burning."

"Oh, good. How did you talk with Jing Xin?"

"Uh...it's like this, I...I misunderstood him because of some things, thinking that Jing Xintan did something bad, and then hit, hit him, and hurt him. But now I know it was my fault Yes, I misunderstood him, so I came here to apologize, I hope he can forgive me, sorry auntie."

What Lei Zhuo said was sincere, Jing Jing also seemed to understand, she patted Lei Zhuo's arm,

"Well, this kid also told me that he was injured from playing football. Boy, no matter what happens, it's wrong to hit someone. You hit my son, and my aunt will also blame you for this."

Lei Zhuo lowered his head, with a well-behaved attitude that I did wrong, Jing Jing didn't say much, she sighed,

"Talking about it is probably still angry. He has a big temper, but his heart is soft-hearted. You should confess your mistake to him, and Auntie will help you talk about it when you go back. But in the future, you are not allowed to hit your classmates again."

Jing Jing stared at Lei Zhuo, Lei Zhuo just nodded and said nothing.

"Okay, where do you live?"

"Oh, I'll just go find a hotel."

Jing Jing felt pity again,

"You child, Auntie's place is too small to keep you. Well, go quickly, talk to him tomorrow and go back to school as soon as possible, don't delay your studies."

Lei Zhuo nodded, said Auntie, I'm leaving first, then turned and ran out, Jing Jing watched him walk away, sighed and went back upstairs.

As soon as he entered the door, he saw his son standing there with a face of resentment, and there was a broken book on the ground.Jing Jing frowned, picked up the book and stroked it, then approached her son and looked at him,

"Tell me, Lei Zhuo told me just now that you were injured because he hit you, right?"

Jing Xintan frowned and looked at his mother, the impatience on her face was clearly visible, Jing Jing helped her son's arm to let him sit down, then sat next to him herself, took her son's hand and looked at it,

"Mom has criticized him just now. It's wrong to hit someone, and he should be scolded. But let's talk about it. You see that he came all the way to admit his mistakes, and his attitude is sincere. Mom thinks he can forgive him once. What do you think?"

Jing Xintan turned her head to look at his mother helplessly,

"Mom, it's not that simple. Don't ask about it anymore, okay?"

Jing Jing could see that her son was still angry at the moment, and guessed that nothing she said would help her, so she smiled,

"Okay, Mom doesn't care about your business. Mom believes that my son will handle it well."

After finishing speaking, she got up and went to the kitchen counter outside to prepare dinner.Jing Xintan looked at the back of his mother leaving, and put her head in her hands tiredly, why did things turn out like this...

Lei Zhuo found an express hotel close to his home to stay, took a shower and lay down on the bed exhaustedly, raised one arm to cover his eyes, he didn't expect Jing Xin Tan's house to be like this, he entered the room today Only then can I see that their living environment is really not very good, and it seems that he only lives with his mother.Lei Zhuo shook his head, these are not what he should think about, what he should think about is how to make Jing Xintan forgive himself, not to the extent of being a good friend, at least let go of grievances and have a good talk with himself.Recalling his attitude today, Lei Zhuo felt chills in his heart, that incident probably had a great impact on him, Jing Xintan probably has the desire to kill himself now.But any big man who is raped by another man will not be able to let go of it in a short while.After thinking about it, Lei Zhuo fell asleep exhausted, but sadly, he didn't know what Jing Xintan had experienced. An ordinary boy might let it go, but it was too difficult for a person who hated homosexuality since he was a child. up.

Jing Xintan didn't sleep well all night, he never expected that Lei Zhuo would come here.Thinking of his fierce appearance that night, Jing Xintan would feel panic in his heart. He hated homosexuality so much, but in the end he was raped by a man. Although he wanted to die at first, Tianjing Xintan has calmed down a lot. , this may be fate, it is a doomed thing.The development of the matter is beyond his choice, but forgiving Lei Zhuo must be impossible for him to choose.

There is breakfast in Jing Jing's shop, so she gets up before dawn to wash up and go out every day. The room is very small, and when she moves, Jing Xintan, who is already asleep, opens her eyes and sits up.

"Yo baby, I woke you up."

Jing Jing was still the same as she was when she was a child, she came over to touch her son's face, and kissed her.

"Mom has to go to the store. If you are hungry, go downstairs and buy some yourself, or you can come to the store to eat."

Jing Xintan nodded, Jing Jing got up and was about to go out, but when she was about to leave, she remembered something, she turned her head to look at her son sitting on the bed,

"Talk about it. If Lei Zhuo came to you today to confess his mistake, you should tell him well and tell him to go back to school early."

When Jing Xin saw that his mother was still thinking about Lei Zhuo, she felt upset and didn't reply, Jing Jing sighed, said something obedient, and hurried out.Jing Xintan lay back on the bed, thinking irritably why she still got her mother involved.

Jing Xintan vaguely felt that he was going to fall asleep, and the knock on the door sounded again, he slowly sat up and rubbed his eyes, the sky had already brightened a lot.He took the crutches and stood up, went to the door and opened it, Lei Zhuo was standing at the door with some breakfast.Jing Xintan frowned, just as she was about to close the door, Lei Zhuo reached out to hold the door,

"I bought you breakfast."

Jing Xin ignored him and closed the door forcefully.He frowned and looked at the door, then slowly walked back to the bed and sat down.Lei Zhuo knocked on the door, seeing that he didn't respond, so he sat on the saddle by the door, opened his breakfast and ate some by himself.Lei Zhuo sat guarding the door, thinking that when he went out, he would rush over to help him or something, and do what he could.Unexpectedly, Jing Xintan didn't go out the whole morning, and didn't even go to the toilet.After dinner time, Lei Zhuo sat at the door and his stomach began to growl. The breakfast in the morning was already cold. He thought that Jing Xintan probably hadn't eaten breakfast until now, so he got up and knocked again. Door,

"Jing Xintan, do you want something to eat? I'll go and buy it."

Sure enough, there was no response.Lei Zhuo sighed, went downstairs to find a restaurant and packed two boxed lunches, just about to enter the hospital, he turned around and walked to Jing Jing's snack bar after a second thought.

Jing Jing was still surprised when she saw him, and then glanced at the lunch box in his hand, Lei Zhuo walked over with a smile on his face,

"Auntie, um, I went shopping with Jing Xin, but he forgot to bring his key, so I told him to wait at the door, I'll come and get yours."

Jing Jing thought for a while, probably because her son refused to open the door for others, so the child came here and asked for the key nonsense.Jing Jing smiled, took out the house key from her pocket and handed it to Lei Zhuo,

"Take it, you guys have fun."

Lei Zhuo smiled and nodded, took the key and ran out.