Yama

Yan Cheng didn't expect that Tan Ying would suddenly ask him about Ji Qiao, and he was startled for a while before saying, "What are you talking about?" Tan Ying: "Anything, if you want."

Yan Cheng was silent, not because he didn't want to, but because he didn't know how to say it.For a while, he really hoped that everyone would know the relationship between the two of them. In Yan Cheng's mind, this was not homosexuality, and it was not a shameful and shady relationship that needed to be concealed. This was no different from ordinary love. He wants others to know the person he likes, let Ji Qiao integrate into his life, and be with him all the time. Yan Cheng is high-profile, flamboyant, and even has no scruples. This is also a major reason why everything has evolved to today.

For this, Yan Cheng is willing to apologize, is willing to change, and is willing to make any effort to get back together with Ji Qiao, but you really want him to look back, reflect on the pain, and regret it, but he doesn't feel that he had something wrong back then. Where did the big mistake go, he was bright and open from the bottom of his heart, and he didn't want to shrink back and avoid living.

But even during the days when he was most indulgent, Yan Cheng only briefly mentioned the process of getting along with Ji Qiao to Liao Yuandong, and the words he said were not so good. His mood was very contradictory. The whole world shares this kind of happiness and joy, but on the one hand, they don't want others to see Ji Qiao and his friendship. This relationship is like his most precious and priceless treasure, and it seems that there is always a risk of being missed if it is taken out.

So, let Yan Cheng describe it, but he was at a loss for words for a while.

Tan Ying was not in a hurry, she drank tea and waited slowly, but she could also see that when she mentioned the child, Yan Cheng's expression suddenly became complicated from calm, with sweetness and doting in it Melancholy, melancholy and infinite sadness, these emotions are all rolled into one ball, fighting each other, and finally gradually turning into a deep hopelessness.

Such a fierce and forbearing reaction was unexpected by Tan Ying. Similarly, she also understood that Yan Cheng's character was not someone who would be easily shaken by falling in love with him, but she still did not expect that he would love so deeply and so bitterly.

"He... is actually quite difficult to get along with."

Yan Cheng held back for a long time, and finally choked out this first sentence, and he laughed himself after he finished speaking, and then most of the previous stiffness disappeared, and it became much easier to say the following words.

"Speaking of it, there are quite a few shortcomings." Ji Qiao is indifferent, withdrawn, and unreasonable. At the beginning, it took him so much effort to get close to him. Now that he thinks about it, Yan Cheng can't help but feel sorry for her. I waved a bitter tear myself.

"He didn't like me at first, I know, but I liked him, and I was pleasing to the eye at first sight. At that time, I really didn't think about it so much. I just hoped that he could look happy and stop being so stern, but he I don’t like to talk, and I ignore you no matter how many times I ask,” Yan Cheng recalled that every time Ji Qiao was annoyed, he would raise his eyes and stare at him, with a thin cold light coming from the end of his eyes, and he was looking at him. In his eyes, it is more about scratching people, and what scratching is his own heart.

"But I know that compared to others, he doesn't hate me that much." It was this little bit of self-confidence, this little light that made Yan Cheng's charming hopes expand infinitely, and unfortunately burned into a prairie fire.

"There is only one thing I regret up to now, and that is that I shouldn't have threatened him with his family's problems in the first place." Ji Qiao took the soft but not the tough, even if it wasn't for Yan Cheng's trick back then, Ji Qiao would not have taken it easy. He bowed his head and obeyed, even if he didn't blame himself again, Yan Cheng would never use such a method today, it was a festering scar in Ji Qiao's heart, how could he bear to cut it again.

"It's not that I haven't thought about breaking up. When the troubles were the worst in my sophomore year, I thought about it, I really thought about it!" Yan Cheng nodded seriously to Tan Ying, which also revealed the despair in his wide-open eyes. Wu Wu said, "But later I knew it was impossible, not at all." As long as he thought that he would become a stranger to Ji Qiao from now on, and that he would become as ordinary as anyone in the other party's eyes, Yan Cheng's heart would be broken. up.

He really can't let it go, Yan Cheng can't listen to the words that are repeated in those TV and novels, "If I knew today, I would rather not have met at the beginning", he is willing to meet Ji Qiao, no matter how hard it is, no matter how hard it is, Yan Cheng I am also willing to live those days over and over again, as long as Ji Qiao is there...

He doesn't even seek to be recognized by others, nor does he seek a wealthy and peaceful life.

I just beg...Ji Qiao is here, by his side, don't leave.

This is his only wish, and the only bottom line that cannot be compromised, but he doesn't want to, and still can't achieve it.

There was endless sadness in Yan Cheng's eyes, for a moment Tan Ying almost thought he was crying, but Yan Cheng didn't, when he raised his eyes, there was only an abyss-like tranquility in them.

Seeing this, Tan Ying frowned deeply.

……

Ji Qiao crossed the road with the instant noodles he bought from the supermarket. He deliberately walked across the street, turning his head to look at the courtyard ahead.

This is the third time he has passed by here today, but looking around, occasionally people come and go in black cars that can't see the inside, but Ji Qiao still finds nothing.He didn't dare to stop and look at it for a long time, because the guards at the door would find something abnormal, so he could only pass slowly until he was farther and farther away from the entrance of the compound.

The place where Ji Qiao lives is relatively close, in a hotel just outside the two traffic lights. Although this area is not very bustling and noisy, it is still considered a golden area in City A. The surrounding environment is mainly quiet and quiet, so the hotel is not high-end , but also relatively formal and clean.

Ji Qiao went into the room and soaked the noodles first, then turned on the computer and checked the mailbox, after eating the noodles, she boiled water for herself and took cold medicine.

There were a few missed calls on the phone, half of them were from Chi Shuxuan, and the other half were from Jiang Zhen. Ji Qiao didn't call back, and just focused on drawing.

When she raised her head again, it was dark outside, Ji Qiao rubbed her forehead, let out a breath, and felt her eyes were blurry.Sniffing his nose, the cold seems to be aggravating, his mouth has no taste, he has no appetite to eat, and he has no strength to go downstairs, so he simply took a bath and went to bed.

I woke up twice in the middle of the night, once from the heat and once from the cold, and then passed out in a daze, and when I opened my eyes again, it was almost noon.

It took Ji Qiao a while to gain strength. Since returning from the grave visit last time, he has had a cold for a while, and occasionally had a low-grade fever for two days. Apart from a little dizziness and stuffy nose, he can walk and move. It’s okay to fly, but not I know why today is so hard.

As soon as he went into the bathroom and looked up, Ji Qiao knew something was wrong. In the mirror, a small red spot appeared on his face from his chin to his neck. It was neither itchy nor painful, but it was very hot. He knew that there were generally two possibilities for this situation. One is being exposed to the sun, and the other is that the body function has declined severely.

It is winter now, even if there is sun, the poison will not go anywhere, so there is only the latter possibility.

Ji Qiao washed her face with cold water, went to sit on the bed for a while, and after taking two cold medicines, decided to go out.

He originally wanted to wear a mask, but he thought it would attract more attention, so he just left the door open.

The weather is not good today, it just snowed the night before, and the feet can go up to the ankles. The humidity and coldness of city a and city u are different. The winter here is dry and refreshing. You can live with it, and someone like Ji Qiao is obviously not used to being so direct.

He has been in City A for the fourth day, and no one has told him. He came here secretly. Ji Qiao knew that what she did was reckless and stupid, so she didn't plan to stay for a long time at first, but when she really arrived at the door, she failed to achieve her goal. Ji Qiao couldn't give up no matter what, so she was exhausted day after day, time and time again. She was exhausted, but she still didn't intend to give up.

Today, the gate of the compound was quite lively, and Ji Qiao saw big red lanterns hanging on both ends and two rows of happy electronic couplets from a distance. He thought for a while before realizing that it was already New Year's Eve...

It's New Year's Eve again, family reunion, dumplings, glutinous rice balls, gold and silver rice.

Thinking of what someone once told him to be a good thing for the New Year, Ji Qiao couldn't help but smile slightly on her pale face.

Even if he didn't see it, he seemed to be able to imagine the lively scene surrounded by a group, because he had already experienced it and deeply remembered it...

It was rare for Yan Cheng to stay in bed, not because he couldn't get up, but because he couldn't remember.

But in the end, I still struggled to wash up properly, but as soon as I went out, my eyes were hurt by the lights and festoons at home. I thought it would be better at my mother's place, but when I turned into the courtyard, I saw Chen's mother making glutinous rice balls there.

"Xiaocheng likes to eat red bean stuffing, Mama Chen will remember."

Chen Ma smiled happily, seeing Yan Cheng recently, even the cold expression on her face faded a lot.

Yan Cheng stared at the plump and round glutinous rice balls with a forced smile, chatted with Tan Ying casually, and left in a hurry.

After returning to the room, he was still out of his wits. Yan Hongzuo refused to let him go out, and confiscated Yan Cheng's communication tools. In fact, it was not difficult for him to get out of trouble, but there was nothing, or should I say, people, that could make Yan Cheng able to get out of this situation. Strength and mind.

Don't want to? How is it possible.

He had a dream again last night. He dreamed that when he was back in high school, everyone was still in class, doing endless papers, and taking endless exams. , but got a cool "serve it" look.

Thinking about it now, Yan Cheng really wanted to slap himself, why didn't he rush over to hug the person in his dream, hug him tightly, even if the person blamed him no matter how much he would not let go.

never let go...

After thinking about it, Yan Cheng was stunned again, until the servant came to tell him that there was a phone call.

Those who can get in are just a few, Yan Hongzuo is not afraid of what he will do, because no one can do it.

Therefore, when Yan Cheng picked it up, he didn't have too much enthusiasm, but the person on the other side was full of words.

"What's going on with you? As soon as I'm released, it's your turn to go to prison. You're trying to kill me!" Wu Zixu's noisy voice crackled.

Yan Cheng paused, and when he heard it was him, his gloomy expression faded a little, "Are you back?"

"Nonsense, I've suffered enough, it's easy to come out," Wu Zixu gritted his teeth, seeing that the topic was getting off topic, but fortunately he pulled him back, "Then what, can you come out? Or can I go in?"

Yan Cheng casually picked up a sour pear wood ornament on the table and turned it around, saying in a sullen tone, "Don't be busy, it's useless, you can stay with your parents, or... Jiang Zhen," after thinking about it, he added a sentence , "Does she still want you?" Wu Zixu was anxious immediately, "Fart, why doesn't she want me? Let's do it! By the way, I just called her and came to ask you about this." "What ? "Yan Cheng didn't care too much.

Unexpectedly, Wu Zixu's next sentence made him smash the thing in his hand.

Wu Zixu asked, "Ji Qiao disappeared, did you know?"