Yama

Yan Cheng cried very uselessly, he himself knew that he was so useless, he wanted to endure it, and did not want Ji Qiao to find out, but the nerves in the eye sockets connected to the nasal cavity kept aching and twitching, and then couldn't stop The liquid dripped from the eyes, wet Ji Qiao's neckline and Yan Cheng's face.

Ji Qiao didn't move, she just let Yan Cheng hug her and leaned on her, only the finger on the other side where the IV was still hanging was trembling slightly.

Yan Cheng finally managed to control his emotions, and when he looked up, he saw Ji Qiao looking at him. If he didn't look carefully, he would think that Ji Qiao's expression was still very calm, at most, his brows were slightly frowned, and his eyes remained cold.But with Yan Cheng's current distance and angle, he was finally able to see through some surface ice floes, and see the hidden emotions in Ji Qiao's eyes.

Distressed, sad and powerless.

Those emotions were buried very deeply, but they were real. Yan Cheng's heart twitched violently when he saw it. He was pleasantly surprised that he was not completely indifferent to his efforts, but he couldn't help feeling more apprehensive and worried.

"Why are you……"

Yan Cheng wanted to ask why Ji Qiao came to him, was it regret or redemption?No, there is no need to be so whimsical, as long as Ji Qiao has the slightest thought in this regard, he can switch to another more straightforward method, he can call Liao Yuandong, or Wu Zixu, or Wang Xitang, even if it is for Jiang Zhen can always find a way to contact her, so Ji Qiao still doesn't know what Yan Cheng has been looking forward to?

But Ji Qiao didn't, he just came silently, stayed silently, and then planned to leave silently.

Thinking of something, Yan Cheng's eyes turned red again, and this time there was endless fear in his eyes. He grabbed Ji Qiao's hand and moved closer to him, so close that his nose would touch, he growled every word asked, "Do you want to go? Where are you going?"

"Where can you go? Your family and friends are here, and so am I. Where are you going?!! Tell me! You promised your father..."

Seeing that Yan Cheng was about to lose control, Ji Qiao finally interrupted him.

"I don't want to die..." He looked at Yan Cheng quietly, and expressed the worry in the other party's heart, "I don't want to die, I just want to see you."

Facing the stunned Yan Cheng, Ji Qiao repeated the last sentence again. "Last time, I didn't say goodbye properly, so I just want to see you again..."

Yan Cheng closed his eyes slowly and forcefully, and took a few quick breaths before calming down the mental fluctuations that almost suffocated him.

When he opened it again, he said in a deep voice, "You always knew that you don't want me, I won't, never..."

"I don't want you." Before Yan Cheng could say the three words, he suddenly stopped, because his neck was suddenly encircled by Ji Qiao, and then a soft and cold touch touched his lips.

He stayed for five or six seconds before realizing that it was Ji Qiao kissing him, the first time he kissed him actively!

Ji Qiao's kiss was very light, with almost no strength, and her lips were not as moist as before, and looked a little dry, but Yan Cheng was still astonished as if struck by lightning, until he realized that Ji Qiao's slightly raised chest and abdomen were no longer supported. When his strength was about to fall back down, Yan Cheng stretched out his arms to wrap his arms around him and took over the initiative.

However, it has only been more than a month since he didn't feel this familiar smell, and Yan Cheng felt as if he was in another world. He was clearly in his arms at this moment, but Yan Cheng still didn't dare to indulge. He kissed so carefully, so softly and tenderly. , not so much to vent the longing, but more like wanting to lengthen and lengthen this lingering relationship, never ending.

However, Ji Qiao's current body is not suitable for this kind of communication. Finally, thinking that she still has a cold, Ji Qiao pushed Yan Cheng away with some force.

Yan Cheng looked at his lips that were ruddy because of this kiss, but the pain in his heart didn't lessen.

"What about now?" He asked Ji Qiao, "You came and I found out, so you know the original plan is impossible."

Ji Qiao lowered her eyes and said nothing, Yan Cheng couldn't help but say harsh words in a hurry, "I won't break up with you a second time!" After thinking about it, he changed into another pitiful tone , "You take good care of your health, we can solve everything together, I will always find a way, always, if it doesn't work now, then, in the future, I will save a lot of money, we can't stay in the country, we Just go abroad, as long as you want, I can work hard, you don’t have to endure hardships or fear, just wait for me..." Yan Cheng also felt selfish when he said this, his promise was sincere, and it was also his recent Ji Qiao has been thinking about it for a while, maybe it sounds so hopeless to Ji Qiao, but he will really try to do it, as long as Ji Qiao gives him a little time, a little bit is enough.He really can't separate, even if they are separated now, at least he has some expectations in the future, so that even if he does everything he can, he will definitely do it.

Ji Qiao just listened and didn't answer.

Yan Cheng saw his indifferent side face slowly recovering, and gradually closed his voice, but he immediately thought, Ji Qiao is still sick now, he can't act too hastily, he has come to his side, as long as he doesn't give up, he can slowly Come, Ji Qiao will agree one day.

This topic was temporarily put on hold, and Ji Qiao was already tired. After he closed his eyes, Yan Cheng carefully got out of bed and went to check his drip twice. When the hang was almost finished, he asked Ji Qiao to take care of Dr. Xia who came with him. After getting the needle, I took my temperature again, and I felt relieved when I saw that the temperature had subsided a bit.

Unknowingly, it was already midnight, and there was crackling sound of firecrackers outside the window. Because the sound insulation was good, it wasn't too noisy. Yan Cheng went to the window and looked downstairs, and saw the nurse walking out of the small courtyard and met a waiter. The guard and nurse there said a few words to each other before leaving.

Yan Cheng watched the two of them disappear into the night, then returned to the bed and lay down on tiptoe, looked at Ji Qiao's sleeping face beside him for a while, then bowed his head and kissed the corner of his lips.

"Happy New Year……"

After Yan Cheng was busy and finally fell asleep, Ji Qiao who was in his arms slowly opened his eyes.

He silently looked at the face in front of him that was frowning in his dream, and thought of what Chen Ma found out outside, today, it was indeed not the result of Ji Qiao's wish.

Just like what Ji Qiao and Yan Cheng said, he just came to say goodbye, and he also wanted to leave beautifully, without any lingering regrets, just like when he said we were breaking up before, but Ji Qiao felt that he couldn't go on anymore, he didn't want to leave. Knowing whether this kind of feeling is called regret, this is something he has never had before, obviously he has already made a decision and made a choice, so what can he do now.So he didn't intend to change anything, he just wanted to see Yan Cheng again, to see if he was doing well, not to let the other party know, only to meet once from a distance, and then stop thinking about it.

He stood outside, and the more he stood, the more uncomfortable he felt. It was very cold, the snow was heavy, and there were lights and festoons everywhere. For some reason, the festive red made Ji Qiao's eyes hard to open. He told Myself, if I don't see that person again today, I will go back.

Ji Qiao won't die, never thought of dying, why should he die, he promised Ji Xiaoze to live, he won't be like the other party, in the end he didn't keep his promise, although Ji Qiao felt more and more painful to do it, It is almost impossible to find the motivation to maintain it, but he will still be alive.

Just, not for yourself.

In the back, Ji Qiao's legs were already stiff, and he couldn't help squatting down behind a big poplar tree, but his eyes were still fixed on the opposite gate.

Staring at him felt that he was about to fall asleep, so Ji Qiao could only think of a way to cheer himself up, and he began to recall the past things, things that could make him excited and concentrate.However, Ji Qiao's life is too barren, and the memories he regarded as precious before the age of seven are slowly fading year by year. He is really afraid that one day he will forget all by accident. What is worth remembering.

what else……

And... and that person.

Ji Qiao remembers what he said to himself, what he did, and what he did well.

He didn't want to remember at first, why did a person who was destined to be separated in the future come to occupy his life, but that person was too persistent, he over and over again, almost madly obsessed with branding his own shadow in Ji Qiao's life , By the time Ji Qiao realizes the danger, it cannot be erased or waved away.

From rejection to forced acceptance, from discomfort to getting used to it, and finally relying on dependence unconsciously, this is such a difficult and irresistible process. Ji Qiao's defense is constantly being weakened. He has struggled and escaped, but In the end, just when he was about to completely surrender, a heavy hammer knocked out his confused mind again!

When she saw Yan Cheng lying there ignorant, and she didn't even have a penny in her pocket to save him, Ji Qiao's heart was enveloped in powerlessness and despair like never before.

Ji Qiao is not afraid of those people in the Yan family, what threats and hardships, what Yan Cheng is worried about, in fact, Ji Qiao has never cared about it, but he doesn't know how to express it, and he doesn't think Yan Cheng will believe it, so Ji Qiao doesn't say it in his mouth, but in his heart He didn't intend to give up easily, he felt that he had nothing left to lose, what did he care about?

However, Ji Qiao still wanted to miss it. He overestimated his ability to bear, overestimated his ability to bear Yan Cheng's affairs. He can be poor, he can suffer, he can stand up after being beaten, but if he is around Is the person who was always with me gone?

It turns out that he still has one thing that cannot be lost...

Of course, Yan Cheng will not die, and the Yan family will not let him die, but the cause of all this is that Ji Qiao feels that she has to pay half of the responsibility. Their incident caused Yan Cheng's injury, but the sad thing is When the other party was injured, there was nothing she could do about it, she could only watch helplessly, how could Ji Qiao accept such a result, how could she continue calmly?

He could not find the dawn of the road ahead, nor could he see hope.

After struggling, Ji Qiao could only let go...

But this decision was the most difficult decision he had ever made in his life, and it also had the most after-effects. Ji Qiao was so frightened that he dared not recall those days.

I won't break up with you a second time!

The words he just heard suddenly sounded in Ji Qiao's mind.

The feeling of breaking up...it's really uncomfortable.