Leftover temperature

The new snow is coming, and the spring here in Nanyang is coming sooner than Xinyou. The weather is getting warmer, and the snow in Baihua Alley has gradually melted into puddles in the alley.

Xia Shenyan lives an ordinary and boring life here every day.

His work and rest schedules are very irregular, and the pain always occurs irregularly. When he is uncomfortable, even the sustained-release tablets can't stop it much, and it lasts until dawn, causing his sleep time to become disordered.

His appetite was also getting worse.There was a wonton shop on the street around the corner of Baihua Town. He used to eat a bowl every time he went back to Shixi Village. When he was young, he liked to eat the wontons here the most.So even at the age of 29, eating a bowl is something that will keep him happy for a long time.But recently he couldn't even finish a bowl of wontons.

The shop owner is a middle-aged woman. Xia Shenyan knew her when she was a child, but her husband was still there at that time. Now she is the only one left to manage the small shop, and her son and daughter are all working outside.

She probably doesn't know him anymore. After all, he doesn't have time to come over to eat wontons every year, and he has changed a lot since he was a child. Even if he goes back to the countryside now, those uncles and uncles probably won't recognize him anymore.

But after Xia Shenyan lived in Baihua Lane, he had a lot of time, and when he was free and too lazy to cook, he would eat wontons, and every time it was a big bowl.After his appetite dropped, the lady boss said sadly, "Are you tired of eating?"

Xia Shenyan could only reassure with a dry smile: "No, you are doing very well, probably because your stomach is not good recently and you can't eat too much."

The proprietress smiled and said nothing more.

Xia Shenyan remembered that she was not so haggard when her husband was still there.When she was young, the proprietress was very beautiful, her long black hair was loosely tied behind her ears, and there was always a faint smile on her mouth, she was gentle and gentle to everyone.But at that time, she often sat behind the cash register to collect money, holding a Qiong Yao novel in her hand to pass the time, and her husband would not let her reach out for rough work.

At that time, Xia Shenyan didn't understand that it was sex.He only thought that the proprietress and the proprietor were very nice and happy, and he didn't envy him at that time, after all, his grandparents also loved him very much.

But he didn't expect that the world is impermanent. When he came back, the owner of the store had passed away in a car accident. The accident happened unexpectedly. When he saw her again, the proprietress seemed to have aged several decades in an instant. The smile that used to be only on the corner of her mouth, but no longer appeared between her eyebrows and eyes.And she seemed to have become what her husband used to be, the wontons he made tasted almost the same as before, but she would never sit behind the cashier with her chin propped up and read a book carelessly.

The world is impermanent.

These are the four words that the world likes to sigh most.

It is also the most helpless four words.

Shixi Village is no longer his belonging, Baihua Lane is no longer his elusive, and he no longer looks forward to the future.

And Xia Shenyan, who was young back then, didn't know that when he was 29, he would hide in this dark alley that once made him yearn for so much, but now it is deserted and old, quietly and peacefully welcoming the coming end.

Xia Shenyan would go to the town hospital once a month to buy medicines, slow-release tablets and painkillers. The dosage of the medicines increased with time, and his dependence on the medicines became stronger and stronger. The pain also escalated again.

One night, Xia Shenyan was sweating profusely from the pain, and his face was covered with tears. He could only grit his teeth silently, disregarding the doctor's advice and took a few more pills to calm down, but it also made him fall into a coma for a day .When I woke up, I felt weak all over, vomited all over the place, slumped on the bed and couldn't get up, my face turned pale, and my body was extremely thin.

Uncle Zhang at the opposite door is a smart person. He must have already seen that something was wrong with him. Xia Shenyan asked him several times.Uncle Zhang obviously didn't believe it, but seeing that he didn't want to say more and didn't force him, he just brought the old cat to his house every day and cooked for him under the pretense that there was no food at home. One cat and one cat basically eat three meals a day together.

Uncle Zhang kept nagging, saying that Xia Shenyan had some kind of magical power, since he moved here, the old cat didn’t stay by the tree any more, and would come to Xia Shenyan whenever he could.The door of Xia Shenyan's house is usually closed, and the old cat seems to have returned to his youth, finding a foothold and jumping up the wall of his house, and then came in with peace of mind, lying on the bed specially prepared for Xia Shenyan. It is prepared on the couch.

Uncle Zhang said that the old cat was very stubborn when he was young. He didn’t listen to anyone but him. He was noisy and playful. He couldn’t even see his cat shadow every night. His son and grandchildren didn’t like it very much. .Later, when the cat got old, it became more and more lazy, and it remained disobedient. When it didn't want to eat, it lay there sleepy, or went outside to sleep with its eyes squinted by a tree.

The old cat is really old.Uncle Zhang said that he hoped that the old cat could walk in front of him, otherwise no one would take care of it when he died, and he was worried that it would have a sad life, but now when he saw Xia Shenyan, he felt that the old cat was in his heart again. I'm afraid I've already found a home for myself.

After hearing what he said, Xia Shenyan said softly, "Grandpa, you will live a long life."

Uncle Zhang was overjoyed, and wanted to touch his head, but after a pause, he just patted his shoulder lightly, and sighed, "I don't live long!"

Xia Shenyan frowned slightly: "Grandpa, you..."

"It's been seven or eight years in the late stage of lymphoma cancer. The elderly are always going to die. At our age, there is nothing to look forward to." Uncle Zhang said with a nonchalant smile, "And I have no regrets. Son The daughter-in-law is filial, and the grandchildren are good-looking. My wife left early and didn’t enjoy any blessings, so I lived for her for so many years. In recent years, I have missed her for some reason, and I always feel that she will come Pick me up, and I don’t know if the old lady is doing well there alone, if there will be more salt in the cooking, and if sewing clothes now will hurt her hands..."

Xia Shenyan saw tears flickering in the eyes of the old man. The seemingly strong and open-minded old man stared blankly at the sky, thinking of his late wife. It turns out that the old man also has a dry city in his heart.However, the tears were wiped away by him in a short while, as if the gaffe just now had ceased to exist, leaving only a slightly inaudible wet redness at the corners of the eyes with obvious wrinkles.

Xia Shenyan laughed at himself in his heart, maybe he was old too, and he missed his old friend more and more in recent years, and he always felt that he could catch Grandpa's hand in his dreams.All kinds of happiness in the past are recorded in the heart and dreams.Probably the brain also wanted to make him happy, and automatically discarded those embarrassing and painful memories.

But such a dream is like the last meal a condemned prisoner eats before he dies.

Xia Shenyan knew better than anyone what this omen was, but he was not afraid at all.

He knew he was expecting it.

"Shen Yan, tell me honestly, is there something wrong with your health? Why do you keep coughing so badly? Your complexion is getting worse and worse, and your health is worse than that of an old man like me." Uncle Zhang looked at him seriously , but a trace of worry could not be suppressed in his eyes.

His sons, daughters and grandchildren are away all the year round, and they don’t come back a few times a year. He lives alone in this dilapidated alley, and it’s impossible to say that he’s not lonely. After all these years, he’s looking forward to someone moving here. It’s good to be a little popular. Ah, I am so looking forward to it, so I look forward to Xia Shenyan's arrival.

After these few months of getting along, Uncle Zhang can almost feel Qingxia Shenyan's temperament. He is a child who will not get angry at all. Be a grandson.

It's just that the child's body is really not right.

Last time, Uncle Zhang accidentally saw a box of sustained-release tablets on Xia Shenyan’s desk. He was also sick, so of course he knew what kind of medicine it was, but he also knew that it was a medicine that only cancer patients would take. Yan... how is it possible?

Since then, Uncle Zhang has always had a lump in his heart, and he has been holding back until now before he dares to ask.

Xia Shenyan was stunned for a moment, then smiled and said: "It's really nothing, it's just that I was too tired from work in the early years, and my body suffered from a problem..."

"Stop framing me!" Uncle Zhang immediately blew his nose and stared, "Although I am old, I am not so dazed and confused, just tell me the truth!"

"..."

This time Xia Shenyan did not dare to be sloppy, and after a long silence, he lowered his eyes and said in a low voice: "...stomach cancer, early stage."

The author has something to say:

I feel that my cubs have more or less stomach problems, maybe because I have a stomach myself-sick hahahahahaha.

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