Leftover temperature

Xia Shenyan's gastric cancer was diagnosed six months ago.

He wasn't so surprised, after all, he knew what kind of chaos his usual life was like, smoking, drinking, drinking and taking medicine. This stomach cancer came a little slower than he imagined, and it was only in the early stage.

He went to the hospital for a review once a month, and took medicine on time, but when the doctor suggested that he go for EMR, he refused.

He doesn't want to cure.

In fact, it doesn't make any sense to cure him. For him now, alleviating his physical pain is the most important thing.

Otherwise, he really couldn't bear the bone-eating pain on his not-so-strong body.

He didn't tell anyone about this matter, he chose to leave quietly, staying quietly in this small county town to watch the sunset.

Whether gastric cancer is early or late is actually the same, there is no difference.

Xia Shenyan didn't plan to have an operation either.

He had long since given up on treatment.

"The day after tomorrow! The weather should be better the day after tomorrow. You follow me...you follow me to the city hospital for an examination!" Uncle Zhang said angrily.

Xia Shenyan didn't expect his reaction to be so big, so he could only say hastily: "It's only in the early stage, it's being treated..."

Uncle Zhang was taken aback, looked at him in disbelief and said, "It's just the early stage?! Don't you need to be taken seriously in the early stage? Have you had surgery?"

Xia Shenyan didn't speak.

Uncle Zhang doesn't need him to say anything else, he can understand it just by looking at his attitude, he was so angry that he almost didn't turn up, but seeing the innocent and docile face of the child in front of him, he really couldn't say anything serious, just In vain, Neng said angrily: "I don't care, I just want to go for a re-examination, so you go with me!"

The weather this day was really not bad, the sun was shining brightly, like the ripples rippling on the lake in spring, soft and warm.

Xia Shenyan's damaged car was brought back half a month ago, but it was quickly resold, and now he drives a black Audi a3.

The previous Volkswagen was an SUV, which was not easy to store here, so he changed to a smaller one.

Since he was going to the city, Xia Shenyan had to make a full set of preparations to prevent being recognized or secretly photographed on the trending list.

Otherwise, all his efforts would be in vain.

He can only be thankful that he is not famous yet, and he hasn't appeared on the screen for a long time, and Director Qi's play hasn't been released yet, so he probably will be very different from the last time he appeared in public.

He is aware of his body and knows that he is losing weight day by day.

The virus is consuming his body.

Uncle Zhang was startled when he saw his attire that his own mother would not recognize, and it took a long time before he said: "...Are you going to see a doctor or to rob?"

Xia Shenyan smiled and said, "I'm afraid of being recognized."

Uncle Zhang didn't quite understand.

Xia Shenyan is quite familiar with Uncle Zhang now, and there are certain things that he cannot tell him, so he told him the unspeakable secrets tactfully.

Xia Shenyan told Uncle Zhang before that his job is to be a singer, and Uncle Zhang must have understood it in his heart at that time, and now his reaction is very flat after listening to it.For an old man like Uncle Zhang who is independent of the hustle and bustle of the world, there is no concept of being a celebrity, but he said a little embarrassedly: "Is it because I am forcing you too much? If you are recognized on the street, it is true. not too good……"

Xia Shenyan smiled lightly: "How could it be, don't worry, the weather is still cold, so no one will pay extra attention if you dress like this."

Uncle Zhang thinks about it too, and he is going to see a doctor for Xia Shenyan this time, so he must go this time.

Xia Shenyan hasn't driven a car for a long time. He usually rides a bicycle when he goes out. Now he's a bit unfamiliar with it at first, so he drives along the street for two laps before he can feel at ease on the road.

But this is two or three hours.

This trip for Yu Xia Shenyan was really, quite torturous.

I don't know how many times I stopped and rested in the middle. Due to the high concentration of the spirit, Xia Shenyan could only hold his breath and concentrate on driving. Even if the cough continued, he could only take out a few sheets while Uncle Zhang was asleep. Pressing the paper against his lips, he spat out the blood that had been in his mouth for a long time, then threw the blood-stained paper into the storage compartment and continued driving.

When he got near the hospital, Xia Shenyan didn't dare to wake up Uncle Zhang first, and slipped quietly to the toilet to vomit for a while, and after taking the medicine, he calmed down before tidying up.

He first took Uncle Zhang to the hospital for a reexamination, and then was pressed by Uncle Zhang for a full-body examination.As it turned out that he could not get it until the afternoon, he first booked a restaurant and took his old man to have lunch in the box.

It is inevitable to talk about something while eating.

For example, how did Xia Shenyan get this disease, why did he go to that remote Baihua Lane to commit suicide without getting treatment, and other issues such as family situation, marital status and so on.

Some things can't be explained clearly in a few words, and some things are said too deliberately, so he answered them vaguely. Uncle Zhang just asked casually to ease the atmosphere, and didn't pursue further questions.Xia Shenyan secretly heaved a sigh of relief.

"But you are 29 years old, you should have someone you like? You look so good, you have money, a car and a house, there is no girl who doesn't like you, right?"

Uncle Zhang’s son is actually not much older than Xia Shenyan, but his son got married when he was 24, and most of the young men around him ended their boring days of wandering alone at this age, so Uncle Zhang subconsciously felt that Xia Shenyan should also have a family.

After hearing this, Xia Shenyan just twitched the corners of his lips, forced a smile and said: "I have someone in my heart, but... we can't be together."

Uncle Zhang didn't ask any more questions.

People always have a lot of unspeakable secrets.

The two of them rested in the private room for a while after eating, Xia Shenyan asked Uncle Zhang to rest in the car, and went to get the diagnosis results by himself.

Fortunately, stomach cancer is still in its early stage, and there is nothing abnormal, so he felt relieved when he showed it to Uncle Zhang.

It’s just that Uncle Zhang’s lymphoma is not very optimistic. The cancer cells will spread, especially in the advanced stage, which is more difficult to control. I don’t know if Uncle Zhang has taken the medicine according to the doctor’s advice.

"I've had an operation." Uncle Zhang seemed to see through what he was thinking, and said nonchalantly, "I also had chemotherapy once, but it didn't work. Now I'm relying on that medicine to continue my life."

The disease was only diagnosed last year, and an operation was performed at the end of last year. After the operation, after a few months of recovery, he followed his son to the city for chemotherapy, but it was only a temporary containment.No matter how positive he is, at this age he knows that there is nothing to cure.

Alleviating the pain is the priority now.

Xia Shenyan frowned and did not speak, half of his face was not under the mask, and Uncle Zhang couldn't tell what he was thinking, only thinking of his stomach cancer, and couldn't help saying: "What about you? You still have this disease." Why don't you stay in the hospital for treatment and go to that rotten place?"

Xia Shenyan smiled, and said lightly: "It's not too serious, and I'm taking medicine to contain it temporarily, and I plan to wait until the Chinese New Year is over before going for surgery."

After hearing this, Uncle Zhang couldn't help but sternly said: "The cure must be fast! Procrastinate! What if it's late!?"

Xia Shenyan said helplessly: "It won't be so fast."

"Why can't it happen!? My old lady is like this. She dragged her illness and refused to treat it. She always said it was still too late, but...then she just left..." Uncle Zhang couldn't help but blushed, and his voice was low down.

Xia Shenyan couldn't bear it, and while slowly starting the car, he said with relief: "Don't worry, it won't happen. I have already made an appointment with the doctor, and the doctor also suggested that I rest for a while before going for the operation, otherwise I would run away Come here."

After hearing this, Uncle Zhang's complexion really improved a bit, he looked at him suspiciously, and said in doubt, "Really?"

Xia Shenyan smiled and nodded: "Yes."

Uncle Zhang's heart immediately relaxed for the most part.

He had never asked about Xia Shenyan's family, but he thought it was not a good idea, otherwise he would not have come to this kind of place alone, but no one has come to look for him.When Xia Shenyan talks about home with him, he will always avoid it intentionally or unintentionally.

Seeing that the child is sensible and docile, Uncle Zhang selfishly hopes that he can take care of himself, and when he is gone in the future, his old cat will have to rely on Xia Shenyan for the rest of his life.

Such a good child deserves to live well.

It was already seven or eight in the evening when we returned to Baihua Lane.The sky always gets dark quickly in winter, and Baihua Lane is silent, gloomy and cold, independent of the noisy world, and abandoned by the glitzy world in the filth.

Uncle Zhang and he went home separately.

During this time, the old cat has been sleeping with him. When the door was pushed open, the old cat licked its paws and let out a cry. Xia Shenyan gently stroked his back, and it lay down and fell asleep again. past.

Xia Shenyan took off the mask and scarf, quickly went to the bathroom to take a shower, then covered his stomach, took medicine and got under the quilt.

In fact, on the way back, his stomach hurt, but he was afraid that Uncle Zhang would be worried, so he endured it and didn't have the attack. At this moment, he lost all his strength and no other energy.

The cancer pain was like a timed meat grinder placed in his abdominal cavity, and it buzzed into operation on rainy days and lonely nights, twisting his painful internal organs, making his life worse than death, and he passed out several times. Died and woke up in pain.

Fortunately, I have already gotten used to it.

Coughing is unstoppable in winter.It was okay during the day, but it became violent at night, and even the internal organs trembled slightly.Xia Shenyan felt cold hands and feet all over his body, even if he buried his head in the quilt, he still felt cold.He trembled and coughed earth-shatteringly, the soft flesh in his stomach turned purple from his pinching, but this bit of pain was no longer worth mentioning.

"Meow~"

Suddenly, the lazy meow of a cat suddenly sounded in his ears like the sound of thousands of insects.

Xia Shenyan froze suddenly, and before he could react, he realized that a small warm body had slipped under the quilt.

He felt a sudden heat in his heart, and stretched out his hand to hold the old cat in his arms, Xia Shenyan felt much warmer for a while.

"Sorry for waking you up." Xia Shenyan stroked the fur on its back.

"Meow~" it yelled again, as if to say "it's okay".

Xia Shenyan chuckled a few times, and suddenly felt that even his stomach was not so uncomfortable.

fine……

After a while, Xia Shenyan slowly lowered his head when he felt less uncomfortable, pressed against the fur on the old cat's forehead, and said softly, "Can you stay with me all the time?"

The old cat arched its body, as if it didn't understand what Xia Shenyan was talking about.

Xia Shenyan lowered his head and kissed his eyes, and said softly: "I mean, the moment my life ends, will you be with me?"

The old cat let out a "meow", as if he understood it, and said "yes".

All things have spirit.

Xia Shenyan smiled lightly: "Please stay with me."

The author has something to say:

Old cat: I will always be with you.

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