night lights up

At that moment ten years ago, summer was just beginning.Now, summer is almost over.

He and I, from the second we met, the important moments seem to be inseparable from Xia Tian.Early summer, late summer, summer rain, summer wind, intertwined in the past years.

My hand is still held by Chu Heng. In fact, even without the text messages recorded in those notebooks and the words I wrote in the old songs, I know that I will never forget this moment.Any action, any word, even a breath, as long as it belongs to him, I can immediately think of every similar scene and words in the past, even the weather.

Our car was still parked by the cemetery. He wanted to put the ring on me again in front of my mother, but he really didn't have the face to go directly in front of the cemetery, so he chose here.

Or, he hesitated for a long time, and finally decided to put it on for me here.

He wanted me to go back with him voluntarily.

He is working hard in his own way.

I know everything, really, everything.

His painstaking efforts, his way of thinking, when I understood that he was indeed that Chu Heng.

There is still a little clarity in my mind.

The lights outside the cemetery were very bright, and I kept staring at the light outside the car to remind myself to stay awake.

I also know that I have to take back my hand and say what I should do and what I should say according to my original plan.

Relying on the last bit of clarity in my mind, I inhaled secretly, and finally started to pull my hand back.

He held onto it tightly, not letting me pull it back.

I couldn't get it back, I was very anxious, I don't know how long this clearness in my mind can last.When my mind is not clear, I go crazy. There are too many things I can do. How can I regret it afterwards?

Where can I regret it?

The more anxious I am, the stronger my hand will be.

"An Sifeng." He called me.

I gritted my teeth, as if I couldn't hear, and the other hand also went to help pull my hand back.He still didn't let go, I was so chaotic, even stretched out my hand to pinch his tiger's mouth, but he still didn't let go.

I said anxiously: "You let go." I didn't know that there was a crying sound in my voice.

I'm really scared.

I still shouldn't be alone with him, Brother Jin is right, I should go with him.

Chu Heng noticed that I was abnormal, and his hand gradually loosened.

I quickly withdrew my hand, bowed my head and stroked the ring down, I can't wear it!

In the past ten years, I have lost some weight, and my hands have less flesh. It stands to reason that the ring is easy to pick.But no matter how hard I tried, the ring got stuck at the bottom joint, and I couldn’t get it off anyway. I was about to cry, I tried my best to turn the ring, twisted and pulled it out, and my hand was red, but still Can't take it off.

I was covered in sweat.

Chu Heng didn't say a word the whole time, just watched me take the ring silently.

I've tried too many times and the ring is still securely on my ring finger.

I finally thought of him sitting next to me, I looked up at Chu Heng, my face was a bit embarrassed.For some reason, I felt a little guilty. I didn't dare to look at him, but I couldn't help but look at him.

I want to see his face.

I saw it too, he had a sad face.

He was really sad. He didn't have the arrogance and indifference he pretended to be before, let alone the deliberate cruelty, but was genuinely sad.

I made him sad again.

My hand slowly stopped, I looked at him for a long time, and I said powerlessly: "I already have someone else I like, sorry, I can't take the ring."

He kept his original face, just looked at me and didn't speak.

I don't know if he believes it or not, such a clumsy lie.

I can only bite the bullet and say: "He is very good, listens to me, takes care of me, and likes to smile at me, he, he is very good to me, he..." I "he" for a long time, I can't write any more.I bowed my head and continued to pull out the ring, but Chu Heng said: "I listen to you too, and I take care of you, I like to smile at you, I treat you so well. Whether it was before or now, I will only listen to you more , take care of you more, smile at you more, treat you better."

My hand froze, my fingers curled ridiculously over the ring.

The last bit of clarity in my mind is almost gone.

He asked, "Aren't I better than that person who is true or false?"

I clasp my hands.

There was silence again, and his voice came softly again, he said, "An Sifeng, do you remember what you said ten years ago?"

I dare not move.

He said, "You said, you love me."

He said again: "Do you remember?"

I remained silent, and he said again: "You will never forget, how can you forget."

"How long is ten years, do you know?"

"How sad it is ten years, do you know?"

He reached out and took my hand again, but I was already numb, and let him grab my hand numbly.

He leaned towards me and said, "Look at me."

I look up at him.

His face is expressionless, but his eyes are filled with the wind, rain, sunshine and starlight of the whole summer we once loved each other.

He said, "I love you."

I know, all the strings are broken, all the stars are exploding.

His tail sound is still floating in the car, I have already rushed to kiss him and bite him, the evil spirit in my head won in the end.

When I was a child, I was very afraid of ghosts, I was also afraid of the dark, and I was even more afraid of the end of the world.

In the fifth grade of elementary school, the first popular doomsday theory appeared.At that time, it was not as good as the later era, and the Internet was not well developed.One morning when I went to school, the whole class suddenly said that today is the end of the world.Everyone was terrified, and I was even more terrified of death.

I didn't finish my morning class, so I was in a hurry to go home.

I thought, the earth is going to explode, and I'm going to explode at home, with my favorite books, my favorite gardens, everything I like.

At that time, I began to know that I was actually alone.

Because the moment the world was about to explode, mom wasn't even with me.

I want to die alone.

Later, of course the earth did not explode, and my courage gradually grew.

When there is talk of the end of the world, I just find it ridiculous.

But I always remember the fear that I had in the fifth grade of elementary school, and I dreamed of it many times in nightmares.

I never thought that one day, I would personally experience the extreme fear of the end of the world.

Many people, friends and classmates around us, used to be very curious about why I broke up with Chu Heng.

Is it because his parents strongly oppose us being together?

No.

When we actually broke up, Chu Heng's parents treated me much better and even called me once.Because Chu Heng was not in good condition, they expressed very cryptically that they could accept me, and even apologized for what happened to my mother. I said a few words and hung up the phone in a hurry.

Even Brother Jin always thought that it was Chu Heng who was sorry for me and Chu Heng's parents were sorry for me, and that it was because of Chu Heng's parents that my mother passed away.

Wait, I never explained it to anyone, never talked about it.

Because it doesn't make any sense.

Also because I am afraid.

I like Chu Heng so much, will I leave him just because Chu Heng's parents say a few words about me and show me a face?I will be afraid of his parents?Will you leave Chu Heng's mother just because he gave me some money?Who hasn't seen money yet?Will he not be able to live for too many years because of heart disease, and he doesn't want to drag him down?

How is it possible, I am such a selfish person who is afraid of pain, I only want to rely on him more when I am sick.Life is short, but I want to stick to him all the time.

But we just broke up, I mentioned, very suddenly.

The head card was thinking about this matter before he died, wanting to know why I broke up with Chu Heng.

After all, I like him so much, anyone with eyes can tell.

But even if it was a dying person, I didn't say anything.

In fact, the reason why Chu Heng and I broke up is very simple.

Chu Heng and I are blood cousins.