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I hate. Odio…Loodio…Laodio…Liodio…Iomiodio.

The fire in the "fireplace" is "crackling". This is City R, and there is not a real fireplace here. Even the "crackling" sound that should accompany the burning of pine grease is artificial.

The sound quality of vinyl is warm and detailed, and no modern player can replace it.The studio was filled with the hoarse and powerful aria of Queen of the Night.

"Hell's vengeance boils in my heart

around me

The flames of death and despair surround me"

This is an excerpt from the opera "The Magic Flute": "The Flame of Vengeance Burns in My Heart".

I hate, but I don't know what to hate.

When I was very young, my family told me that our hometown is in the far east, and the blood of Chinese descendants flows in our bodies, but at the same time, I am also an Italian, opera, painting, sculpture... I have never left behind.

The libretto and passionate singing made my plaster-sculpting hands tremble uncontrollably.

"I don't recognize you

don't even think about coming back to see me

I abandon you forever

I am separated from you forever

i disown you

……

listen

listen

what

hear me swear

listen

Nemesis! "

Boom! ! ——The bust in his hand smashed to pieces on the ground.

I have shaped her for nine years, but the more I do it, the more I am dissatisfied. Did I forget her temperature?I forgot her fullness, slenderness, scatteredness, and the feeling of holding everything in my hand. I roared and saw the statue I was most satisfied with in the center of the studio. It was my work 11 years ago. Digits bought it, I refused, I looked at her, with hatred in my eyes, rushed to her, and lifted her up.

But at the last second, he lost his courage and burst into tears.

Nine years ago, Shang Ru and that Pei Sihan were driving through the Feihong Bridge and had a quarrel over preparations for their wedding. She asked him to stop the car. …

For nine years, I have transferred all my hatred, just because I can't bear to hate you deep in my heart.

I fell to the ground, hugging her favorite work, silent for a long time.I took out my mobile phone and called the woman named Xiao Ziyan. At that moment, I felt like I was possessed by an angel. I thought, the dead can’t tell anymore, and the living still have debts, so just do it. Let's end it.

I know that Xiao Ziyan is soft-hearted towards me. I was riding a motorcycle with her, and she hugged me behind her back, just like when we were "passionately in love" a few months ago, yes, my heart is broken, no matter how hot Don't get it, "passionate love" belongs to Xiao Ziyan, but she is a little different to me, different from the women I have played with in these years, she is the second woman who is sincere to me after Shang Ru .

We drove onto the Feihong Bridge, and I was going to take her to the carnival on the other side of the bridge.

Car lights flowed like streams, and I saw interrupted concrete walls and dark iron chains in the river of lights, and I saw Shang Ru standing there.

Her long hair fluttered gently in the night wind, and her eyes shone with charming and emotional stars. When she saw me, she curled the corners of her lips...

Suddenly, I saw that man named Pei Sihan rushing towards her, she wanted to take away my Shang Ru, my woman!

I turned the handle and slammed into him.

I want him dead, I want him to disappear, I want him to be wiped out.

……

I was lying on the chair in the consulting room waiting for the doctor, humming an Italian lullaby:

Ninnananna, ninnaoh

Questobimboachilodo?

When I was very young, my mother sang it to me, and later, I taught Shang Ru to sing it.

In a trance, I saw her walk in, but stood there motionless again.

"Like..." I held out my hands.

"Zhuo Bing, I'm Shang Wan, I have something to talk to you about."

I lowered my hand and asked her calmly, "Are you afraid that I will kill you?"

"I will be in charge of curing you, and then I will give you..." She lowered her head, then raised it again, "I will give you a considerable amount of money and send you back to Europe."

"Torture you," I laughed. "Killing you is too cheap. I will stay by your side and torture you slowly."

"Zhuo Bing, the doctor expects you to recover in about a year, so we will tentatively set it for one year."

"You're dreaming! Don't insult me ​​anymore! I only want my woman's ashes!"

"She is from the Shang family, stay in the Shang family."

"Shang family? Are all of your Shang family human? How did you treat her? What face do you still have to call her a Shang family?"

She lowered her head, her silhouette was very similar to my Shang Ru, and that resemblance made my heart ache like a knife.

"Zhuo Bing, the Shang family raised their sister without malice, so don't deny it all."

I laughed out loud, "But when one of her and you was going to sacrifice, the hypocritical Shang family chose her! Of course! How could they choose you?? And you, watch her get married for you with peace of mind, Look at your hypocritical face!"

"Zhuo Bing! You know it's not like this!"

I saw the resentment on Shang Wan's face and the tears in his eyes, and I felt satisfied at that moment.

At this point, I began to pester her for nine years.I know that I am taking advantage of her feelings for Shang Ru and her guilt towards me, and I also know that she can't do more, but I seem to be addicted to it, so that occasionally, I will Think, am I really treating her as Shangru?But when I went to look for Shang Ru who was deep in my memory and deeply burned in my soul, I knew that no one could replace her. I just added the resentment towards Shang Ru to Shang Wan, And that love, no one can share.

But I don't know when such days will end.

It wasn't until this day nine years later that I ran into the Feihong Bridge again. I didn't realize until I woke up that I had severely hurt another innocent woman, Xiao Ziyan.This time, Shang Wan's lawyers approached me and offered me an exchange. They released me on bail, and I returned to Europe from then on and never came back again.

I agreed, I thought, this is the end.

However, in these nine years, I have always remembered some things:

My Shangru, why couldn't he fly away with me at that time, but was willing to stay and be a sacrifice?I blame her, would I really rather abandon me?

When I was in London, Shang Wan witnessed the love between Shang Ru and me, so why can she let Shang Ru replace her with peace of mind?That man surnamed Pei clearly wanted her, the granddaughter of the Shang family!

I hate it even more. Up to now, she has not married Pei. Not only is she not married, but she even has a girlfriend. How can she have happiness?In that relationship, does she know that the woman she is dating comes from a family that is not as good as a beast?Does she know how Shang Wan sacrificed others in exchange for her own freedom?Therefore, I will spare no effort to break them up, this is the last sacrifice I can offer to Shang Ru.

What I don't understand and hate the most is that on October 10rd, Shang Ru's memorial day, when I went to the Shanggu Building with a white wristband to find Shang Wan, she and Pei Sihan seemed to be all right. I don't understand. Don't they all have hearts?Not to mention that Shang Ru's death was directly related to them, even if it had nothing to do with it, can you really talk and laugh on the memorial day of your cousin and fiancée?Are they amnesiac?

On the first night back to Italy, I successfully injected the prepared story into my heart. I watched her run out in a daze. Say, "Look, I'll always avenge you."

That night, I had a dream. I dreamed that Shang Ru was lying on a white bed, singing that lullaby.

I walked over and held out my hand, "Like, they said you were dead?"

She stopped singing and smiled, "That's what they told me too."

In the middle of winter night, I broke out in sweat, sat up abruptly, panting heavily.

The dream was so real that it shook my nine-year cognition, I was out of breath, and my heart was beating violently...

What if?

No, I can't leave. If I leave, I can no longer enter the country. What if she is really still here, still here...

I escaped overnight, hid outside for two days, and thought about it for two days.

I know that no matter what method I use, I won't get anything from Shang Wan, and I haven't had any flaws in nine years.

Come and go, come and go is the breaker.

This morning I quietly came downstairs to the home, but I saw Shang Wan’s driver and car waiting there. I called the car and quietly followed them. Interestingly, they stopped at the Feihong Bridge.

I followed the two of them all the way, and the rain that had soaked all morning finally fell, and the sky and the earth were gray.

I saw that I was going to turn my head back, I walked up, and Shang Wan saw me.

She was not surprised, just looked at me so calmly, the rain hit her face and body.

"Where is Shangru?" I asked.

"You tell me your address first, and I'll find you," she said.

"Where is Shangru??" I yelled at her.

I don't understand, where did she get the confidence, why should I tell her where I am hiding?Waiting for them to come and get me?

"Zhuo Bing, before coming back, tell me your address, and leave quickly."

I held out my hand and she took a step back.

"Believe it or not, I can kill you now?"

"I don't have time. I can't say more now. When I arrange everything, I will go to you."

I stared into her eyes, I wanted to believe her, but my reason told me that I couldn’t, this must be lying to me to save my life, how could I believe it, if she really wanted to tell me something, she didn’t say it for nine years, today When I suddenly appeared in front of her, did she suddenly want to tell me?What other arrangements will you make?Why didn't you arrange it earlier?

She must be lying to me.

I heard hurried footsteps behind me, I turned my head, and sure enough it was coming and going, I smiled and turned back, "She will watch you die with her own eyes." I pushed lightly...

"Zhuo Bing!!"

This cry seemed to be separated by nine years of time, hatred and longing, thousands of rivers and mountains, but it seemed to be close at hand.

The author has something to say: there should be two conclusions~