Died Before the Wedding

Xie Chenmin coughed twice.

Behind him was the solemn and tense noise of the emergency room, and the faint sound of the ECG monitor, like someone's heartbeat.

Xie Chenmin said, Mr. Lin Chu, whether you are born, old, sick, dead, rich or poor, are you willing to stay with me for the rest of your life?

He added, don't laugh.

I said, you look like a fool.

He said, I don't know the words, I made it up by myself, don't laugh.

I said, good.

He said.

"Mr. Lin Chu."

"You look at the man in front of you."

"He's probably too nervous right now and doesn't look very smart."

"Or he has been like this for a long time. When he sees you, his thoughts are completely confused. He doesn't know what to say or do, so that he can carefully give you all his silly love."

"Just take pity on him, don't want him, and don't throw him away." "He really likes you so much that if you throw him away, he won't be able to live."

The two people with transparent bodies hugged each other, as if the god deliberately let their skin wrapping their hearts disappear, leaving only two beating, naked, bright red hearts cuddling together to keep warm.

I know he may have been preparing for a long time, ready to say on this day, we are expecting someone's wedding.

There is no "rival in love" here, he has become a pastor himself.

Xie Chenmin said.

"So, regardless of life, old age, sickness, death, poverty or wealth, are you willing to be with him forever and grow old together?"

I choked thousands of words in my throat and said, "I do".

He said, "Me too."

He bowed his head and kissed me. This was the first hot soul I met in the cold world seven days after my death.

He once said that to love me is longer than a lifetime, a kiss longer.

He said he was going to force kiss me in front of the ferryman who brought soup to the dead.

He was very narrow-minded, he never knew the heights of the heavens and the earth, he would definitely keep the promises he made, and those who put them in his heart would never show them again.

I heard the sound of the heart rate monitor beating gradually.

The doctor who had lost hope was taken aback, the sweat that had cooled down on his forehead instantly became hot, and he tried his best to save the heart again.

I tried my best to separate from him, but he also knew the ending, so he was still reluctant to let go.

He said, "At the beginning."

It was as if he had cut flesh in his heart alive.

I said, "Xie Chenmin, I love you."

How can my reluctance be easier than his.

There was morning light in the corner of my heart, how to endure the darkness again.

I saw his twinkling eyes suddenly widen, I felt his arms around me, and I heard him call my name tremblingly.

"Chu, Lin Chu,..."

Just two words, fifteen strokes, he seemed to be able to read it for a lifetime.

I still couldn't hold back my tears and said, "Xie Chenmin, Chenmin..."

It's like two crazy believers meditating on their beliefs.

I concluded this prayer by saying with difficulty, "You... you go back."

……

The doctors felt their sweat and exclaimed excitedly, "I've been saved..."

Almost everyone outside the door was ecstatic about finding something lost. Mother Xie covered her mouth, trembling, and finally cried out.

"I'm in a coma for now, I don't know when I'll wake up..."

……

Xie Chenmin was like a child, lying on the hospital bed and said: "I think if I close my eyes, I won't be able to see you when I open them again. Suddenly I don't want to close them."

I said, "Close it, and when you open it, you can still see our mother and your brothers."

I added: "Remember to compensate the driver well, how much I was worried about you."

He said obediently: "Yes."

He was still looking at me.

I said: "Since I was with you, I have been writing a diary every day. I probably put it together with that notebook. You can read one article a day for ten years."

He said, "Okay."

I said, "Don't forget to bring Zhaocai back. It's okay...just take him to Jinbao's small tomb to have a look."

"Well," he said, "that kid will stop by and trick me into buying him sausages."

I said: "Then buy it, buy two, it will be brought to the kitten."

He said, "What if I want to eat too."

I said, "Then buy three."

He smiled and said, "Buy four and bring them to see you, just like a family of four."

I also shook my head with a smile and said, "Then you have to take care of yourself."

"it is good."

He nodded, still looking at me.

I couldn't laugh or cry, and my nose was a little sore: "Close your eyes quickly, and get some sleep, you see our mother is accompanying you in bed, can you bear it?"

He hummed obediently again, closed his eyes, opened them again, glanced at me, and said carefully.

"Chu, can you not forget me?"

I said: "How come."

He said "hmm"

I always feel that the speed at which he closes his eyes is very slow, as if it took a lifetime, maybe because I also know that when he closes his eyes and falls asleep, we are saying goodbye.

I saw a line of tears streaming from the corner of his eyes, trying to sleep, trying not to open his eyes to look at me, pursing his lips, trying not to call my name again.

I will never cry again.

When the clock hits zero, the first seven have passed, and what is lost must be returned to reincarnation.

I don't think I will forget if I didn't drink the soup.

……

I had a dream in which my whole body was in pain.

I remember squatting next to a shared bicycle and kicking it down in a fit of rage.

I said to the other side of the phone, you guys will come over later, I will call a few people, even if I get into the game today, I have to make them disabled.

I was a little surprised and unbelievable when I heard the voice over there, and I hung up the phone before their words of persuasion came out.

Then someone called again.

When I saw the name of the contact person, I felt a little unhappy.

Then hung up.

Went to the side of the road to weigh a brick.

The phone in my pocket kept ringing, and I had no choice but to answer it.

I said: "What are you doing?"

He said, "Where are you?"

I wanted to laugh a little, and said, "Brother, if you come here to be a peacemaker, you can just talk on the phone. If you hang up, I will go to fight. The data card charges are very expensive."

"Do you know the consequences?" he said.

I said, "Reserve a record for me, thank you."

The phone hangs up.

He said: "According to the school regulations just changed last year, do you know that you will be expelled?"

The voice came from behind me.

I turned around and saw his still calm to indifferent face.

I remember the first time I saw him, I thought this guy was pretty, probably an art student.

In fact, he was very outdated.

Always tell me not to do this, don't do that, and don't let me get ahead and cause trouble. There is no entertainment if you don't play games, and you only know how to study every day.He is the kind of good student that was very common in the previous class.

I don't like being a good student.

At this moment, there is a surge of anger in my chest and I am about to vent it, and I don't want to see a good student get in the way.

I said: "Senior, I'll call you Brother Sheng, hurry up, don't fucking stop me this time, okay?"

He said, "Xie Chenmin."

I saw him walk from the darkness to the light of the street lamp, and choked on all the words he just said.

He said, "You go back to me."

His face was full of medicated wounds.

I didn't expect good students to fight.

If it hadn't been told by a student union officer who was with him later, I might never know why that group of people came to me to apologize.

I had a relationship with the basketball team of that class because the other party cheated. The matter was closed, and we were both disqualified.

But they were so angry that they provoked and hurt my roommate privately tonight.

Lin Chu knew about it faster than I did.

He went to find the three provocateurs by himself and beat them up.

It turned out to be evenly matched.

He said he asked them to apologize, and that was the end of the matter. If they didn't, he would report their provocation and add a charge of disturbing and hurting the mediator's student union officer.

It has to be said that the three of them were going to die of grievances, and their injuries were much more severe than that of the student council officer alone.

When that buddy said this, I kind of wanted to laugh.

That buddy told me, you don't know, when Lin Chu stepped on someone's back and said.

Don't think you can sue me, I have plenty of people here, if you want to feel better, just shut up the fuck.

The buddy said that he couldn’t believe that Lin Chu, the most disciplined, fair and honest member of the Inspectorate, said this. He was just like a tough gangster. If the minister heard it, he would definitely have to play it to the end.

.

That was the first time I really got to know him.

I think he is like the hidden wise man in the novel, who looks weak on the surface, but in fact he just doesn't want to care about others.

You can't force him to be serious.

It was only later that I found out about his transfer.

This person can ignore any eyes from the outside world and only listen to what is in his heart.

It's really amazing.

Only then did I know that he was the kind of person I most wanted to be.

I try to catch up with him.