Died Before the Wedding

Three days after we had a conflict for the first time, I sent him a message and he didn't reply. I deliberately asked him to have dinner with him, but he also replied angrily, "I'm sorry, it's time for class."

On the last day, my short-term guilt was over, and I was a little chilled and angry at his attitude, so I sent a message saying, you are in a good mood, right?

He does not return.

I said, that's fine, let's not talk about it in the future.

I will eat by myself.

Then I turned on Do Not Disturb and plugged in my headphones, and deliberately walked to the restaurant on the East Campus.

I think I'm doing it for his own good.

Same-sex couples are not easy to leave in China. If one day he has had enough fun and wants to leave, I will let him leave without any worries.

There is a huge lake in the school. At night, there are singers playing guitar, couples sitting side by side on stone benches holding hands, and old people taking their grandchildren or pets out for a walk by the lake at night.

I found an empty stone bench to sit on.

It was still a bit cold by the lake at night, I rubbed against the tip of my nose when the wind blew, and sneezed.

I rubbed my arms, thinking that I was really idle, the restaurant on the east campus tasted the same as the restaurant on the west campus.

Xie Chenmin was simply childish.

I just want to remind you that it's not that I don't believe him.

If possible, I would like to go to the police academy next door to borrow handcuffs. After each person locks one hand, throw the key into the lake. He will never try to untie it in his life.

But I can't.

I am also very conflicted, I am afraid that one day we will be hurt, but I am also afraid that if we really separate, I will not be able to let go.

I know he thinks so too.

But this idiot is really stupid for choosing this way of venting his temper with a pissed off kid.

I calmed down by the lake for a while, and finally glanced at my phone.

Xie Chenmin sent 99 plus by himself.

And his roommate is also calling me.

He sent countless "sorry" alone.In addition to the countless "I was wrong" sent by his roommate-followed by one: Brother Min just snatched our mobile phone.

He asked where I was, and he ran to the Three and Four restaurant on the west campus, but he couldn't find me.

He said he was a jerk and he didn't mean to ignore me.

He said sorry.

Until the end, please get back to me.

I think I may have been too strong and let him misunderstand something.

I called his roommate first, and his roommate told me urgently.

Brother Lin, just meet Brother Min, he's been looking for you since noon, he's going crazy.

Where the hell are you.

I said, I'm by the lake near your dormitory.

Thinking of Xie Chenmin who ran all over the campus and didn't even have time to return to the dormitory halfway, his roommates sent three lines of ellipses, saying that they feel sorry for Brother Min.

……

I like a cold and plain life. In my original opinion, the explosion of news is a kind of disaster.

But this guy with the light all over his body broke in, and my life has never been ordinary.

I think, as long as there is a chance to burn, I am still unwilling to be mediocre.

I read all of his 99 plus ones, and he sent more than ten more during the period.

I replied, I am by the lake.

a little cold.

His mad sending stopped.I guess he is running.

Until that sweaty, panting idiot appeared again and hugged me in front of me, his heart pounding into his hot chest non-stop.

I had an idea somewhere.

I think this person can actually go on.

It is the kind of walking that can leave a corner of the straw in his hand with a sincere and scalding temperature even if he has seen the thousands of winds and clouds outside, the vast scenery, even if he is afraid of rumors and prejudice.

It's the kind of person who will only show his frightened, imperfect soft side to the straw, but is indestructible and invincible on the outside.

I think, don't think about whether we will be separated, okay?

Why should I look at the unexpected world? This is the case now, and it was also the case before.

At that time, there were many people of all kinds and eyes with various colors by the lake. I hugged Xie Chenmin's neck and bit his lips that were still panting.

Said, I will never say those words again, sorry.

Xie Chenmin buried his panting head on my neck like a big dog, as if he was scared, and said sullenly, I don't blame you, really.

I said, well.

I'm not a child who is angry.

……

On the third day after my death, Xie Chenmin fell asleep holding Zhaocai in my room.

On the fourth day, it asked for leave.

I think it may be the vomiting yesterday, which hurt my stomach.

I watched him slowly sit up from me, bowed his back, buried his head between his knees, and sat alone on the bed for a long time.

Until Zhaocai also woke up, raised his head and stuck out his tongue at him, and then with a "wow", Xie Chenmin pulled him to use him as a pillow.

Wangcai's head was crooked.

……

I stroked his back and said, who made you drink so much.

He said, I am happy that the senior has graduated.

I was silent for a while, and said, no need to pretend.

He looked up at me with his aggrieved dog's head, and said, I'm not happy.

I pet the dog's head.

There were wine stains on Xie Chenmin's shirt, so it was pressed against my chest.

He said, you must be well when you are there alone, and I will find you when I graduate.

I said, don't you go to graduate school?

Although this is not a famous major of our school, the employment rate of the computer science major is very high, and I don’t think I am suitable for doing research. After an Internet company with a good domestic development signed me, I didn’t think about the postgraduate entrance examination anymore. .

But Xie Chenmin's major is different.

With the name of our school, he can directly have the opportunity of a managerial position after finishing his graduate studies.

He said, I will study, and I will go to your city to study.

I said, there are no good schools for business and commerce over there.

He said, but there you are.

I said, love words have no effect on me.

He said, do you want me to stay alone in the empty room?

I said seriously, Xie Chenmin, you are not a child anymore, you have to look at your life responsibly.

I didn't give him a chance to speak, and said, I just want you to take the exam, and then you can become an executive in a good company, and I will spend your money to say goodbye to programmers, okay?

He didn't seem to think about it for a second, and said, that's ok, that's what you said.

It was not until a long time later that I wondered whether this conversation had been designed by him long ago.

This guy keeps trying to keep me away from that damn computer language, he asked me, make a choice, code or me, which one do you prefer.

I say you.

When he is happy, he will put his head on his head and show me the mountains, rivers, lakes and seas recorded in the memo on his mobile phone.

He said one by one like a tour guide, saying that when we get married, we will travel to these places one by one.

I'm um, waited for him to finish, and finally asked, dear boyfriend, have you finished, I'm going to code.

Xie Chenmin's greatest love rival is the computer.The least favorite places are bars and Internet cafes.

……

Manager Xie got up from the bed, greeted Zhaocai, dragged his stomach from drinking last night, and held a copy of "C Language Programming from Beginner to Master".

Went to the Internet cafe.

I remember that there was a computer room maintenance at the school. Just in time for the final exam of the School of Economics and Engineering, my computer hung up.

Fate is simply playing tricks on me.

But at that time, Xie Chenmin's magical popularity helped a lot.

He asked the owner of the Internet cafe next to the school to reserve a quiet place for me.Every two hours, a cup of hot water will be delivered.

Because the boss's behavior was too weird, I also specially timed it.

Then, while typing, the reflection of Xie Chenmin's handsome head will appear on the screen.

He whispered, wife, it's time to eat.

Then I was kicked out of the Internet cafe.

……

The punks with the colorful hair probably thought there was something wrong with him.

I also feel a little bit.

If you can turn a small boy into a big guy in a book, then what would I do with wasted four years in college.

It took him a day to turn the book from cover to cover. I don't know if he understood it or not.

But I know that the long-winded but clumsy and barely feasible code he wrote is definitely not something that can be done in a day.

It turned out that not all of the books he bought in college were used as pillows for sleeping.

He stared at the last line that output "Would you like" for a long, long time.

Finally picked up the clothes and left.

He didn't execute it.

I also know it won't work.

There is no compiler on the computer in the Internet cafe.

……

He said he was going to surprise me, he was going to use his rival in love to surprise me at the wedding.

I was still wondering, what kind of rival.

And he didn't speak.

……

Do you think there really are people like Po Meng in the world?

It was probably made up by someone. I thought that when I died, someone handed me a bowl of hot soup, so that I could drink it and forget everything... At least the last trace of my belonging to this world proved to be boiling hot. of.

I died for five days without seeing the person who gave me the soup.

Legend has it that a person can only stay in the world for seven days after death.

I follow him every day, and I can touch him about the first seven days.

Although no one can see my soul.

Xie Chenmin continued to ask for leave, and he went to his mother's place.