Jujube

His lover is on the second floor of the Embroidery Pavilion, with exquisite features and small and brittle bones.

--Inscription

Since spring, the red-spotted butterfly has frequently appeared in my field of vision.It flapped its light wings, and sometimes landed on the pillow, sometimes on the peonies of the patchwork quilt, and sometimes I saw it stretch out its long tentacles towards my brother, and an ominous red light flashed in front of my eyes.

Along with the red-spotted butterfly came Mei Qingqing's silver bell-like laughter. I have heard her laughter in many impossible places.It didn't occur to me that there might be something wrong with my eyes or ears, I just had an animal instinct of what was going to happen.

Will my brother and Mei Qingqing rekindle their old relationship? ——I don't know if there was an old relationship between my brother and Mei Qingqing, but I can't help worrying that they will rekindle their old relationship.My younger brother Sun Yanming's outspokenness undoubtedly added fuel to my worries.

During that time, I clearly felt the estrangement between me and my brother. Since he was beaten once, he never allowed me to sleep in his bed, nor taught me anything.So I fell into the predicament of insomnia again, and Mei Qingqing's laughter lingered in my ears every night.

The situation intensified, and one night, as I was falling asleep, I overheard an unusual conversation.I recognized Sun Yuemei's voice. She was talking about my brother's marriage. Just like my brother Sun Yanming revealed, Sun Yuemei conspired to drive me out of the house after my brother got married.

I was not surprised when she said that, but the voice behind me woke me up suddenly.It's my brother!He actually conspired with Sun Yuemei.

My room is far away from where Sun Yuemei lives, and my brother's room is even more far away. I don't know how I can hear their voices in such a late night.Thin and small, like a whisper that is only for me.

I got up from the bed and walked towards the door, when the sound suddenly disappeared.There was no one outside the door, maybe they noticed my movements, so they all disappeared.

There were so many doubts about this matter that I couldn't fall asleep again after I lay back on the bed. I felt that the whole room was unbelievably quiet, but at the same time it was filled with sound.

Driven by anxiety, I couldn't help looking for my brother.I left my room and squatted at the door of my brother's house until dawn.

The next morning when Lu Xinyao opened the door and found me, his expression was indescribable. In the few seconds I looked at him, I seemed to see misfortune in his eyes.I don't know who it is for.

I told my brother I couldn't sleep without him.

He smiled and said nothing.I've never seen my brother smile like that, not contemptuous or ironic, just a slight bleakness.His brother had succeeded in making him less of himself in that split second.

But only for a moment, Lu Xinyao didn't spoil me.The second time I showed up at his door, he said to me, "Do you want me to lock you in your room?"

Not to scare, I'm sure my brother can do it.

I suddenly thought, maybe the conversation I heard before is true, and he is really going to abandon me.

I didn't know that I had auditory hallucinations at the time, but took it as a sense before the danger came.I was deeply immersed in a sense of crisis, restless, and everything around me became suspicious, including my brother.

It became more and more clear to me that something must be happening.

At that time, I was in the third year of high school, and the college entrance examination was imminent, but I had no intention of studying. I only had my brother in my eyes and in my heart.The school only rests on weekends a week, and there are too many homework to finish, but as soon as my brother goes out, I will throw away the irrelevant test papers and the so-called college entrance examination review, and concentrate on chasing my brother's back.

In the "Shan Hai Jing", Kuafu's daily ending is "before he arrives, he will die of thirst".

One Saturday afternoon, I received a call from Zhang Buyu.

I was supposed to stay at school for evening self-study that day, and the class bell rang hastily, but instead of going to the classroom, I ran out of the school gate.

During the call I decided to skip school.Zhang Buyu didn't know it, and he was still boasting about Mei Qingqing's beauty and her satin-like long hair on the phone.

He said enviously: "It's the first time I'm so close to Mei Qingqing! The woman who came with her is not bad looking, and she's still smelling good. I heard what they said, Mei Qingqing is going on a date! I think about it Go, besides your brother, who else can date Mei Qingqing in Baique Dang? Ah, Meng Li, you are so blessed, Mei Qingqing will be your sister-in-law from now on..."

My throat and legs trembled together, and my feet felt weak for a while, but I couldn't let it go. I asked Zhang Buyu, "Where are they going?"

"Where else can we go? There is a movie in the auditorium today, so it's in the county town! Little Lizi, we two will--" Zhang Buyu said in a whisper, I couldn't hear clearly, the wind was blowing in my ears, blowing, The spring breeze in February is like scissors, cutting with a scissors. The short ones are sensible, and the grass is still growing wildly.

County towns, auditoriums, movies!This is the place where lovers go, and there are pairs of eyes and eyebrows coming and going at the door of the auditorium.What about movies?The door closed with a bang, the lights went out, the snow-white screen lit up, and the whole room was completely dark. Is it one scene or two... Is the best scene on stage or off stage?

My brother hasn't seen the movie with me yet.

I was just catching up, and there were still people gathered at the entrance of the auditorium, but the man said that the movie had already started.I felt a heavy heart sink, and then tenaciously burst into a sliver of vitality, starting from the beginning, I want to watch the same movie with my brother, not just him and Mei Qingqing - then I will lose.I can't lose.

When I went to buy a ticket, I forgot to ask for the entrance. I got dizzy while holding the ticket, and bumped into someone.I didn't bump into it on purpose, but Pan Guizhi blocked my way on purpose.

Why is Pan Guizhi here?He's alone too, oh, and his smoke.

"Brother." Pan Guizhi smiled at me and warmly embraced my shoulders. Of course he saw my ticket, twisted his fingers with the cigarette, twisted the ticket, and kneaded it into a ball, "I want this to do What? I want to watch a movie and find my brother!"

I pushed Pan Guizhi away: "Give it back to me, I want to go in."

Pan Guizhi put the ticket in his trouser pocket and said to me, "Are you in a hurry? Come, follow me, my brother will take you in."

Pan Guizhi never discussed things with others. He took me to the side door, turned the latch, and the door opened.It was pitch black inside, except for the flickering light on the screen to the west.

The blurry light hit the blurred faces, and I couldn't see anything clearly. I heard Pan Guizhi boasting triumphantly, how about it?Is brother good?

I ignored him, and he said boringly, it's not good here.One hand pulled up and led me along the wall to the west of the big screen. A spark from a cigarette was burning in the dark, flickering, flickering, bright and dim.

Finally, I stopped at a place only about ten meters away from the screen. Instead of watching a movie, I turned around and looked at the crowded seats and crowded people.At that time, I didn't think about what it would be like to find him, but I just wanted to find him.

Pan Guizhi suddenly said something meaningless, his gaze fell on me at some point, looked at me for a while, and said abruptly, "You can't find it." It was as if he knew who I was looking for.

After finishing speaking, Pan Guizhi stretched out a finger and pointed to the fluorescent screen: "My brother will teach you a trick. You, stand there, and everyone will see you."

I won't go.

Pan Guizhi saw through me, and he clicked his tongue and said, "Don't you dare? Brother help you..." Before he could finish speaking, he grabbed my arm and dragged me up the stairs, one step after another.

The auditorium is not like a special movie theater. It is more often used for rehearsals and performances than showing movies. The screen is hung, and there are thick purple-red velvet curtains behind and on both sides——Pan Guizhi pulled me behind the velvet curtains .

He suddenly and unexpectedly took a puff of smoke at me. The smell of the smoke entered my nose and stings my eyes. I retreated, but Pan Guizhi's hand blocked my retreat.

The back of the flannelette was empty, he blocked the back of my head with his smoky-yellow palm, the bridge of his nose hit his face together, and his mouth, which took a mouthful of cigarette, moved to my ear, breathing out breath after breath.

He said: "Little pigeon is full and forgets about it? Don't forget who taught you to be a woman..."

I was sweating all over my back, my heart was beating wildly, and I was afraid of anything. Pan Guizhi hugged my waist and pressed me against the flannel. The flannel shook violently, and Pan Guizhi's face seemed to be upside down.

He said, what does Lu Xinyao know, the best thing to watch on stage is a movie, ha, a blind person!

His hands were rubbing behind my back, stroking obscenely.I saw the lamp above my head, the dark silhouette, as if there was an eye looking at me in the darkness, knowing everything.Visible, the stirring of flesh, invisible, the scratching of fingers.If it's on... no, it won't be on.It cannot be lit!

The body was tightened, then loosened, Pan Guizhi's rough fingers touched it, and picked out a pearl from a clam that couldn't close its mouth.His nails were still long, and Jiuyin White Bone Claws picked them resentfully, and said with a smile, "Lu Xinyao doesn't know what to do."

A piece of plasticine was rubbed, twisted, and played with vigorously by him, and it became moldy.

I am still looking at the lamp, bewildered.What's this?virginity?

I suddenly remembered my virginity, kidnapped by the smoke from Pan Guizhi's mouth... If he comes to snatch it, am I going to lose it?Because I'm afraid of him, I can't hide, I'm a coward, a coward, a coward... Isn't I?I'm afraid of him.

Where should we start?The endless shadow of the scarecrow, or the three dogs?

wrong.I was at a loss and thought, but the dog is old and dead, why should I be afraid of him?Am I going to play a cowardly show in front of my brother?Does he laugh?

But he told me not to listen to Pan Guizhi.

I suddenly woke up.

"Get out!" I saw Pan Guizhi's astonished, undefended eyes, and the voice seemed to come from his eyes—boom!Like a drumstick beating on a drum.Pan Guizhi fell on the stage.

I ran out of the darkness and into another kind of darkness, using my brother Sun Yanming's way of running like a mouse.