Jujube

The lights in the auditorium were on, but it was dark outside. I hid under the stairs at the back door, my legs went limp, and I shivered.My throat is soaked in the smell of smoke, what I inhale and exhale is the smell of smoke, the smell of Pan Guizhi seems to be endless, I keep inhaling, saliva swallowing, I want to cough, but will it Attract Pan Guizhi?

In my imagination, Pan Guizhi has become his family's dog, the hunter's dog, with a first-class sense of smell and viciousness.What would happen if he found it?Become a bird carcass on a bird net, lost its virginity, moldy?

I was sweating all over, and I covered my mouth with my hands vigorously, only showing a pair of eyes to be alert to the surroundings, the swaying weeds and trees, it was still dusk, everything was as usual, and everything changed quietly again.The clock is ticking.

Suddenly, a pair of feet stepped on it.

I was frightened, as if back in the paddy field, the scarecrow's huge shadow pressed down on me, and it was inevitable, Pan Guizhi's eye sockets shot out ecstasy—"Haha! I found you"!

but not.He was startled by me and said: Who are you and why are you hiding here.

I shook my head at the stranger's face, and at that moment I realized I had lost my voice, or forgotten who I was.

The movie ended, so many more feet stepped into my sight.

Feet up are legs, legs up is buttocks——Mei Qingqing's buttocks are so easy to recognize, it's a delicate butt, not like a moldy grapefruit.Today's skirt tightly wraps her hips, and her hips are tightly placed on the back seat of the bicycle. Her hands are also tightly hugging my brother's waist.

They just showed up without saying hello.

Mei Qingqing smiled at my brother, the corners of her mouth curled up, her smile was charming.I stared in a daze, ignoring everyone around me, only seeing the two of them, my heart beating in a panic.I can't laugh like her, what should I do?I'm going to lose to Mei Qingqing.

The wheels of the bicycle were moving forward, carrying Mei Qingqing away, she took my back seat, will she also take my brother?She wants to win, winning so effortlessly, because her love rival doesn't have red lips, crisp breasts, exquisite body, and a beautiful butt like her. —She didn't know she had a rival in love.

Why?

The same is thrilling, some people are running away in a thrilling way, and the future is uncertain, and some people are experiencing a thrilling love, laughing and laughing.

Why should my flowers not bloom and look at her Liu Chengyin!

I am deeply jealous of Mei Qingqing.

The wheel was moving forward, in the direction of the white sparrow swinging, and my brother was getting farther and farther away from me. I had an illusion, as if another thread that was stitched on my lifeline in the palm of my hand was ruthlessly pulled out, faintly The sting.I dug my nails into my palm and grabbed it—the wheels were still going.

I can no longer be my own master, and leave everything to fate.A ghost, dragged by a wheel, disfigured, moldy?Just let it get moldy.I've been doused in cold water, completely awake or completely insane, I want my brother!I want him to want me!

The moon in the spring night is like a knife, cold and sharp.

It's more than ten miles from the county town to Baique. I don't know when my brother found me. When he stopped to look at me, I pushed Mei Qingqing down under his nose.

"This is my place!" I yelled at her.

Mei Qingqing's eyes widened in horror, and she fell to the ground, feeling unbelievable at the changes in front of her.

I knew that I had done a bad thing, my heart started beating wildly, I didn't dare to look at my brother, my instinct drove me to run away from him.

It was clear that I chased him all the way, and I managed to catch up with him, but as soon as he called Meng Li, I ran away. I don't know why, but when I saw Lu Xinyao, I became weak and wept while running.

The wind split the dog barking all the way, the moon flowed from the ditch to the well and my brother's roof, and the last class was in the room I was very familiar with. I waited for my brother to come back and settle accounts with me like waiting for death.

I hurt Mei Qingqing, my brother will definitely not let me go.In just a few ten minutes, I thought a lot. I thought that my brother would help Mei Qingqing up. If her leg was injured, maybe my brother would pick her up.

I fell into an anxious imagination, and suddenly I heard Mei Qingqing's laughter again, it was too loud, I asked her to stop, but she didn't listen to me, and kept laughing.I covered my ears and heard the hollow echo of despair in my body.

Lu Xinyao came back soon.He must be my Avalokitesvara, as soon as he came, all the noisy voices disappeared.Despite my preparations, I was caught off guard the moment he entered the room.

My body was dripping with sweat, I couldn't lift my eyelids, and my brother's fingers appeared in front of me. I thought I would be beaten, but I didn't expect his first move was to wipe my tears with ease.

Much like a thoughtful lover.But the truth may be this: Lu Xinyao doesn't like to see tears, so every time I cry, he wipes it off, just like wiping off a speck of dust.

I started lying again and said it was sweat.My brother's eyes fixed on me, his passionate eyes made me shudder.

"I taught you your lies," he admitted.

I was startled, and tears welled up again, blocking my eyes and throat.I couldn't lie to him, so I had to confess: "Brother, can I tell the truth? You can also tell the truth to me, okay?"

He should say, when did I lie to you?But this sentence cannot be said now.Lu Xinyao agreed and said, "Speak."

"I skipped class, and I followed you. I saw you and Mei Qingqing. You went to the movies, right? Brother, you haven't taken me to the movies yet." ——My brother is really a water ghost, and he glanced at him, Eyelids are wet again.

I remembered the purpose of my running all the way back. A ghost floated all the way, wanting to die, coming all the way to sacrifice its body.I asked him: "Brother, do you want to get married? Do you want to marry Mei Qingqing?"

Lu Xinyao gave me the answer: "It's not her, it's someone else."

other people?It seems that anyone can do it, but I know it doesn't include me: "Then what am I?"

"You are my brother." The natural answer.

But my brother is not enough.I shook my head to my brother: "Brother, don't marry someone else, okay?"

Lu Xinyao didn't answer, but asked instead: "Then can I marry you?"

Where in the world are there so many things that can't and can't?I have a lot of "ables" and "cans", no worse than Mei Qingqing.I swore to my brother: "I can do anything for you except not being able to have children."

Lu Xinyao said, "How do you know that I don't want children? What if I have to?"

My tears flowed down, he pushed me to a corner, did he insist on my "No"?I begged my brother: "Can you just have me alone?"

Lu Xinyao gently wiped my tears, almost coaxing: Don't cry, don't cry.

He said, I will always be your brother.

Forever is obviously such a rare and good word, but it makes me feel extremely sad when it is placed in the family relationship between me and my brother.I suddenly figured it out, and it turned out that this is love.My brother taught me how to fall in love, and taught me that there are betrayals, deceptions, and turmoil in love, but there is no such thing as an elder brother and a younger brother.

He wiped away my tears again, but that's not how tears are wiped.Sweat needs to be licked, blood needs to be sucked with a sharp mouth, tears need to be kissed, and body fluids on the human body must be used with the lips and tongue so as not to hurt.

I said to my brother: "Brother, brother...can you kiss me? One last time."

I lied again, but it's okay, nothing matters anymore.The last plea of ​​the desperate is always met with mercy.My brother gave me a kiss.

I looked at my brother fixedly, he cupped my chin in my gaze, and gently bit my lips.I actively sucked his lips, tongue and saliva, stroked my brother's face with the bridge of my nose and cheeks, and touched my brother's body with my body.

I don't know if he tasted my sour lie, but my brother did taste the smoke.

The unbearable situation behind the flannelette in the auditorium... I coughed nauseatedly, and the desire and will in my heart became stronger: I must "lose body" to my brother.

"Brother, I smoke. So be more aggressive..." Another lie.

As if in a dream, Lu Xinyao's eyes froze, the dim light reflected in his eyes, a ball of fire burst into flames, and the sparks blazed and fell on the shadow, and the two shadows were like two Flames burn together.

My brother clasped my throat, a heavy, bloody kiss... All the air in the chest cavity is redundant, breathing is also redundant, death is something worth looking forward to, I can't tell this dizziness Whether the feeling of fascination is due to suffocation or ecstasy.Just moan.

Kissing is not enough.A ghost who has lost his soul and lost all four things.Form is emptiness.

"Brother, I'm scared to death, you have to stop being scared for me." He muttered, the ghost didn't know what he was talking about.

What is surprise?What my grandmother taught was to call the soul, to call my soul back.

Lu Xinyao lowered his eyes, his black pupils were half covered by eyelashes, and he was blurred.How to charge?He asked, his eyes regained a little clarity.

I climbed onto my brother's lap and knelt on him. I really should wear a skirt. The advantage of the skirt is that you don't have to take it off, and you still hug the pipa half-hidden.

"Use here." It is also the tongue of fire, full and forward.I spread my fingers to touch.It was taught to me by my brother and I used it on him for the first time.

Lu Xinyao raised my face and stared at me fixedly, as if in ecstasy or emotion.

I said to him, brother, do you want me?Let me be your lover, okay?

Lu Xinyao didn't answer, his eyes flickered, his fingers moved from his chin to the corner of his mouth, he suddenly parted my lips, put two fingers in, and pinched his tongue.I stared blankly at my brother, my ears were as hot as the tip of my tongue, as if a finger had been inserted into my earhole, and I was teasing him meticulously.The saliva wets my chin and flows to the base of my brother's fingers.

My brother even has prettier fingers than others. I licked his fingertips wet, wrapped my tongue around it, and bit it with my teeth.Continue to say to him, brother, I love you, you can do whatever you want... just don't want me.

I vaguely heard my brother talking.He said, "I'll ask you a question."

Lu Xinyao twisted my lips and asked me thoughtfully, as if penetrating me, asking someone else: "You can't live without me, can you?"

leave my brother?No, I wouldn't even think about it if I were killed.

I suddenly became flustered, almost incoherent: "Brother, don't ask me like that, do you want my life? I can't live... If you want to marry Mei Qingqing, I won't make trouble, really! Trust me!"

Wrong, this answer is not what my brother wants.His movements suddenly became fierce, his fingers twisted like knives, trying to wring out his disobedient tongue?There was a sour and light taste of blood in my mouth.

But I'm already crazy, can people still be like people when they are the most despicable?My brother hurt me and made me bleed. I sucked his finger and swallowed the saliva with the blood. I begged my brother: "Even if you are married, don't you want me, okay? Mei Qingqing won't know... ..."

My brother laughed.With a hopeless and contemptuous smile, he must have never imagined that his brother would beg him and want to be his secret lover.

I finally squeezed all the sympathy out of my brother, and now there is no sympathy left, he has completely lost interest in the cheap brother he picked up.I saw two shadows being chopped apart mercilessly.There will be blood when the flesh and blood are chopped, but there is no blood in this chop, and the two people who have no blood relationship in the first place have done their utmost to stop here.

My brother kicked me out.

He told me to go.

I seemed to have fallen into an abyss, and my whole body was shattered, and the broken bones froze into ice slag, cold and brittle, vulnerable to a single blow.Lu Xinyao's expression was completely unfamiliar, he sincerely wanted me to get out, and he never wanted to see me again.

The years that we depended on each other went with the tide in the long river of time, gradually drifted away, and became a piece of "past".

I knelt in front of my brother's door, tears streaming down my face, heartbroken.

——My brother doesn't want me anymore, because he doesn't love me, he wants to love Mei Qingqing.

The door is closed tightly, bent like a moon knife, a knife, unreasonable.

Who would recognize it as the one from ten years ago?At that time, dogs were barking far and near, and Lu Xinyao was wet. I followed behind him, step by step, and called him "brother" for the first time.

At that time, the bridge was not broken.

Now he wants me to go.