ideal lover

The entrance is a white world.

Light and floating, like a body held up by velvet, if it weren't for the smell of medicine in the air, Aya Kobayashi Hirano would have thought that she had come to heaven after death.

However, the cruel reality is that he is in the private ward of the hospital, his whole body is covered with bandages, and his right hand is still receiving a drip. When he breathes, he feels his internal organs being squeezed, as if an extremely inflated balloon is buried inside, which may explode at any time. Danger.

He didn't even die.

Kobayashi Hirano Ling was surprised, the pain in his body clearly reminded him of the fact that he was still alive, although the price was a bit painful.

It feels like the brain has become dull.

Lying quietly on the hospital bed, Kobayashi Hirano Ling emptied her mind, recalling the scene before she lost consciousness, her neck suddenly became sensitive, and the strength of her hands still remained on her skin, leaving traces of pain .

So itchy.

There is an urge to remove the bandage and scratch it hard.

Rationality reminded him not to do this, and the eager thoughts in his heart were not satisfied, and he only felt more itchy.

Restrainedly touched his bandaged neck, his own temperature made the wound on his neck "steady" and eased a little restlessness.

As soon as I relaxed, my mood became much calmer.

Aya Kobayashi Hirano tilted her head and looked at the white snow scene outside the window. The bare branches pressed the heavy snow, and the cold wind made the air tremble. The shaking makes people feel a little dazzling.

There is an inexplicable spiritual pollution, this visual stimulation.

Kobayashi Hirano Aya thought in a daze.

creak-

The discordant sound that cuts through the silence.

Standing at the door was a black-haired man he was so familiar with.

Kobayashi Hirano Aya's heart beat violently again.

"Mr. Dazai..."

MD, why is this madman here? !

Bang!

The sound of the iron frame hitting the threshold made Kobayashi Hirano Aya tremble in fright, because of Osamu Dazai's current appearance.

Wearing a bandage, wearing a hospital gown, having an IV drip, and holding an iron shelf for hanging medicine bottles in his hand, Kobayashi Hirano Ling had a sense of dreadful sight for this person for a moment.

Suddenly he didn't know what to say, and the atmosphere suddenly fell into an awkward silence.

"Mr. Dazai—" A slightly flustered voice came from behind Osamu Dazai. The young man who broke in stopped talking when he saw Kobayashi Hirano Aya, and the worry in his eyes turned into subtle hostility, and fell on Kobayashi Hirano Aya. .

What's with that hair?What the hell is it that only the tail of the hair is white?Non-mainstream?

And what's with that hostile look?This boy likes Osamu Dazai?Think of yourself as a rival in love?

A series of doubts emerged from the bottom of my heart. Aya Kobayashi Hirano's body was still in astonishment, which was in a stuck state, but when she met the boy's gaze, she still smiled politely. The boy was stunned for a moment, then lowered his head, Osamu Dazai signaled to leave.

Really obedient, are you a junior?

Thinking idly, his body opened his mouth, as if he wanted to say something, but Osamu Dazai took a step ahead of him.

"Aren't you running away? Aya Hirano?"

"Eh?"

"It's still too late to escape, when I recognize my ugly face."

"Mr. Dazai..." The boy lying on the hospital bed stretched out his hand with difficulty, reaching for the adjustment button on the side of the bed, and the junior's mattress was adjusted to a suitable position. At this height, he and Dazai are at eye level, which is more convenient chat.

"Sit down first, standing up for infusion is not what a patient should do."

Seeing Osamu Dazai sitting beside his hospital bed, Kobayashi Hirano Aya's body was obviously more relaxed, his throat was still burning, but there was no problem with his speech. He took a deep breath and opened his mouth and said: "I won't run away , Mr. Dazai."

Serious but flat tone.

Osamu Dazai remained silent, and Aya Kobayashi Hirano continued: "Well, Mr. Dazai, I have been ready to face death since the day I became your lover."

"No, it should be said that I have prepared myself for the short time left in my life."

Facing Osamu Dazai's casual eyes, Aya Kobayashi Hirano smiled and said: "It's normal if you don't believe it, because I'm just a mortal. Even if I already know the final outcome in my heart, I'm still afraid of death. Too."

"However, it is precisely because I am a mortal that I will cherish the time of living after knowing the limited time of death."

"Because I don't know when death will come, so I have to spend the time with Mr. Dazai every day, no, it should be every second, enjoy it with all my strength, and feel the breath of life. I just want to live with Dazai-san."

Talking too much at once, her throat started to dry up, and after a pause, Aya Kobayashi Hirano tried to touch Osamu Dazai's hand with her fingertips.

"Mr. Dazai, you must not feel my heart, just as I understand the reason why you pursue death, Mr. Dazai, but I cannot pursue death with you."

"So, Mr. Dazai, you just need to know the fact that I love you. This will not change. You must feel tired after saying so many things."

Picking up the apple on the counter, Aya Kobayashi Hirano wanted to peel off the skin of the apple with a knife, but she couldn't use her hands, and the smooth apple became pitted and pitted, which was horrible.

"It's ugly." Osamu Dazai commented.

"Sorry, I wanted to cut it better, but I can't use my hands..."

The apple in his hand was taken away by Osamu Dazai, and the crisp sound of cracking showed the delicacy of the apple flesh.

Talking about disgust, but eating positively.

Kobayashi Hirano Aya spurned Osamu Dazai in her heart, and at the same time was shocked by her body's speech just now.

The Holy Mother's hopeless speech is more disgusting than the scalp-numbing love words. I feel that goosebumps are about to pop out, and it is even more shameful that I said it myself.

I really want to find a crack in the ground to drill in.

If possible, Aya Kobayashi Hirano would like to cover her face now.

But not only did his body not cover his face, but he didn't show any shyness on his face, and his eyes were fixed on Osamu Dazai biting an apple.

The juicy apple moistened his lips, and his Adam's apple moved slightly when he swallowed, looking extraordinarily sexy.

From a pure appreciation point of view.

Even if Osamu Dazai is an out-and-out lunatic, Kobayashi Hirano Aya has to admit that this man's good skin is enough to confuse him and shake his position.

But it's just confusing, not really fascinated. After all, this person is a dangerous person who will kill himself. Kobayashi Hirano Ling really doesn't like this kind of person, and even had a tantrum when Osamu Dazai pinched him. Hate, the idea that he wanted this person to die at that time was not fake.

Kobayashi Hirano Aya's idea is very simple, since this person wants him to die, as a balance, he will naturally want Dazai to die.

Kobayashi Hirano Aya is also accustomed to using the theory of equivalence on feelings.

"What are you looking at?"

The staring was too explicit, and Osamu Dazai couldn't ignore it even if he wanted to ignore it. The black-haired boy smiled cheerfully, different from the soft smile before, showing a sharp canine tooth, very cute, as if he had discovered something that made him happy .

"It's nothing, I just found Mr. Dazai's hair, which turned out to be brown in the sun, looks very warm."

Osamu Dazai didn't get the heartbeat of his lover for such insignificant things, but this kind of dialogue filled his cold body with daily warmth.

Healed a little bit, Aya Hirano.

Osamu Dazai observed the black-haired boy on the hospital bed. If Hirano Aya really became his lover, it seemed good.

However, it is only if.

Throwing the fruit core into the trash can neatly, Osamu Dazai looked lazy, such a comfortable sunshine is very suitable for taking a nap.

Lie down on Satoda's bed according to his heart. The treatment of the port Mafia cadres is good, and even the family members enjoy the private ward. The bed is so big that it is not a problem for an adult man to lie on it.

When Ryunosuke Akutagawa entered the ward with the doctor, he saw such a scene.

The two slept together, the black-haired boy rested his head on Osamu Dazai's shoulder, his expression was serene, the halo of light haloed on their hair, and the gentle dream net enveloped them, making one unable to bear to destroy their beautiful dreamland.

If you ignore the iron shelves with empty medicine bottles hanging on both sides of the hospital bed, and the dark red blood in the two people's infusion tubes.

Doctor & Akutagawa: ...

been trained.

Aya Kobayashi Hirano, who woke up from a nap, looked at the doctor's angry eyes, and then at the dark red liquid left in the infusion tube, to understand the situation in seconds.

I overslept and didn't notice it after the infusion.

Dazai Osamu was in the same situation, but he was sitting and Aya Kobayashi Hirano was lying on the bed.

"...But you are really powerful. Both of you have a high fever, and one of you has frostbite all over your body and almost developed pneumonia. You still have to perform piston movements like this. You are not afraid of passing out in bed."

"Also, if the muscles are frozen, you need to rub your body with snow to warm up first, and then you can take a hot bath. Now the surface of your skin is equivalent to 'molting' again. It's lucky that you haven't developed muscle necrosis, otherwise you will die. Waiting to lie in bed for the rest of my life."

The responsible doctor helped Kobayashi Hirano Aya check her physical condition, left a lot of precautions and left, but was not so enthusiastic about Osamu Dazai. In the words of the doctor:

"It's just a fever. It's fine to hang water, get an injection and take medicine. Hospitalization is a waste of time."

The words revealed the meaning of driving people away. Dazai Osamu said it doesn't matter, he can leave with a change of clothes, but Kobayashi Hirano Aya is more troublesome. He needs to rest and recuperate. It is okay to leave the hospital now, but there must be someone who will take care of him.

Are you counting on Osamu Dazai?

Aya Kobayashi and Hirano thought it was impossible, but if Osamu Dazai was discharged from the hospital, her body would definitely follow her.

"Since you insist on being discharged from the hospital, I won't force you, but remember to change the dressing in time, and the steps must not be missed, otherwise your skin will become very fragile, and it will break if you rub it lightly."

"I see, thank you, doctor."

Sure enough, such a stupid thing will be done.

Kobayashi Hirano Aya's body was still in pain, and her steps were heavy. Every step she took, her bones seemed to be falling apart, but when she saw Osamu Dazai in front of her, she smiled pretending to be relaxed.

Forget it, Aya Kobayashi Hirano thought decadently.

He can just watch what his own body does.

☆, Dazai Osamu Six