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Back to the Sixth Middle School is NO.13 in January.

I didn't deliberately choose the day, I just felt that the sun was very bright, the sky was very blue, maybe it wouldn't be so cold, that's all.Xin Wan didn't tell Song Heng, nor did she greet anyone in the school in advance, after all, it was just a matter of going out and coming back, like attending a graduation ceremony.

I overslept in the morning and started to tidy up slowly at noon.The school uniform was still hanging in the closet, smelling like washing powder. Xin Wan stood in front of the full-length mirror and looked at herself. It was quite rare to see herself six years ago through the thin mirror.

A few days ago, he went to the cemetery to deliver dumplings to his grandma. On the way back, he asked Song Heng: "I was the one who insisted on going to No. [-] Middle School to go to high school?"

"Well," Song Heng said, "and asked me if you passed the exam, I almost cried."

"It's so easy to cry, you're exaggerating." Xin Wan rubbed her nose, argued in a low voice, and then asked in confusion, "What do you have to do there? It's quite stubborn."

I still sat on that bus, and there were a lot of people, jostling and shoving. Fortunately, most of them got off at the People's Hospital. Xin Wan didn't sit down until the second half of the way, with hot sweat running down her back. Jumping in place several times before slowing down.

Wearing a school uniform, and no one stopped him at the school gate, Xin Wan entered the school unimpeded all the way. He hadn't come for more than ten days, but he couldn't remember the class clearly. He almost reached the third year of high school when he suddenly heard someone call His name, Xin Wan turned her head and saw the natural scroll first, Wen Xiang approached in astonishment: "It's really you."

"It's true." Xin Wan found a savior and said enthusiastically, "Where is our class? Let's go together."

Wen Xiang is still very shy and not good at words. After being at the same table for so many days, she has lost a lot of sense of distance. When she is nervous, she always touches her curly hair unconsciously, and her voice is soft like a girl, asking in a low voice. : "You haven't come all these days, what did you do?"

"Hmm..." Xin Wan lowered her head, "I have something to do, very busy."

Wen Xiang is very good at observing words and expressions, seeing that he doesn't want to mention more, so he didn't ask, and began to feel melancholy again: "Then you have missed a lot of homework when you come back, and you have to make up for a long time. What about the final exam?"

"It's okay, don't worry," Xin Wan looked at her, "I won't continue here anymore."

We have all arrived at the teaching building, Wen Xiang stopped, and looked at him stupidly: "Huh?"

"I'm going to another school, which is more suitable for me, so don't worry about it." Xin Wan still smiled brightly, standing in the sun, and said softly, "I'm coming back to say goodbye to you."

Water was splashed into the hot oil in the class, and it exploded cracklingly. Zhang Hao started to talk about it. He said that he saw Xin Wan outside—high school life was too dull, except for books. A classmate who hadn’t seen for a long time It is easy to become the words in people's mouths, the rising tone, and the emotion of surprise.

"Who?" Fang Yichuan raised his head abruptly, still holding the pen in his hand, "Who are you talking about?"

"Xin Wan," Zhang Hao said indifferently, despite the previous fight, but there was no feud between the boys, "You forgot, it was your deskmate before, tsk, I don't have a good memory. .”

The chair made a rattling sound, and Fang Yi stood up abruptly——Xin Wan saw him when he opened the back door and walked in. He was tall and stood among a pile of books, so he was always conspicuous.He smiled at Fang Yichuan and waved his hands slightly, but there was no response, Fang Yichuan just kept looking at him.

Wen Xiang tugged at his sleeve, Xin Wan recovered and heard her say, "You sit inside."

"I haven't forgotten this." Xin Wan couldn't laugh or cry, "It's not like I smashed my head."

The books on the table are still there, and there is no dust, as if someone has been tidying them up.He didn't intend to come here to attend class, but just stayed here for a short time. He was about to speak when he heard the class bell ringing, and the hustle and bustle of the class calmed down.

It seems that it is really late to get up, otherwise it would not be so coincidental.

Xin Wan couldn't leave directly, so she had to pull out her textbook.This class is geography. After listening to it for less than 10 minutes, a face came over the glass of the back door. The classmate who was looking at him straightened his back and touched his deskmate with his elbow.Xin Wan heard the sound of the door opening and the sound of footsteps approaching. He turned his head, and Chu Hefei touched his desk with the rolled bookcase, and said quietly, "Come out with me."

During class, the corridor outside was clean, Xin Wan closed the back door softly, and then called out: "Teacher."

Chu Hefei still looked the same, with gray hair, many wrinkles on his face, and white chalk shavings on his fingers. He looked at Xin Wan carefully for a long while, and then asked: "I thought I couldn't see you anymore, so you can blame me. I haven't come to school for so long."

"No, how can I?" Xin Wan lowered her head, and lightly buttoned the hem of the school uniform with her left hand, and said, "I know you couldn't do anything at the time, you had to deceive me, and you had to make me feel good. If I had known earlier, I won't question you any more."

"Got it." Chu Hefei was a little surprised, "When did you know?"

"Not long ago, I only found out recently."

"Very good," Chu Hefei nodded, lowered his head and sighed, "When you sent it in, the other teachers thought it was ridiculous, saying how could someone spend so much money just for the multiple chairs in the classroom, and they couldn't Exams, and no student status. When I saw you at the time, I knew that you didn't know those things, and you learned honestly. Other teachers don't care about you, and I want to care about you. Let it go."

In front of Chu Hefei, Xin Wan always felt like she was beside her grandma. Perhaps this was the temperament accumulated by the elders over the years. Many times they evaluated a picture album in the office and chose books on art.The "Philosophy of Art" that hasn't read a third of it, and the hands that rubbed his hair several times are precious.

"You are the best to me." Xin Wan's nose was a little sour, "I remember it all, and I haven't forgotten it."

Chu Hefei asked: "Then you won't stay here anymore, right?"

"Sure, it doesn't look good to stay in high school any longer."

They didn't go anywhere else, they were just in the corridor, facing the row of glass windows, the sun was hanging outside, and small figures were running, jumping, and throwing basketballs on the playground.Chu Hefei was silent for a long time, and then said regretfully: "I am quite reluctant to part with you, child, and after that you leave, there will be no place for my paintings."

"I also miss you, really," Xin Wan said, "I will come to you often in the future, and I can add a mobile phone number."

"Don't lie to me, the old man is going to be on the news if he is tricked," Chu Hefei said, but he still took out his mobile phone from his pocket to add his contact information, "Where did you go back? Are you working? Or are you still going to school?"

Xin Wan entered the numbers: "It's right here, but it's a little farther away, at the Xiwan Academy of Fine Arts."

"That's not bad," Chu Hefei patted him on the shoulder, chatted a few more words casually, looked at the young man with slightly cloudy eyes, as if looking at his own child, and then let go of his hand after a while, saying : "I have to go to a meeting later, and I can't stay here all the time. I won't say too much, and it's not that I won't see you anymore. You come to me more often. I will send you a few words at the end, just as if I have been here for six months. Your teacher's blessing to you."

Xin Wan still felt hot in her eyes, and her voice was a little hoarse: "Well, I'm listening."

"There's a lot to do," Chu Hefei rubbed his hair, his voice echoed in his ears in the empty corridor, as if he had left infinite hope and hope, "The future is bright."

There were still people jumping and running on the basketball court outside. After Chu Hefei left, Xin Wan stood alone in front of the window in a daze, breathing on the glass, writing nonsensical characters, drawing smiling faces, and suddenly thought, he still wants to be a child , never grow up, don't face so many partings.

No matter with whom.

Standing by the window until the end of get out of class, the bell rang, and the people in the classroom rushed out. Xin Wan was playing with the small gravel on the window sill with her fingertips. I was shocked when I saw it: "Why are you still silent?"

"I..." Fang Yichuan said hesitantly, "I spoke out, but you didn't listen to me."

That's his fault. Just as Xin Wan was about to speak, he heard him say, "You're going to transfer to another school, aren't you?"

Those eyes seemed to be very sad. The eye sockets of the big boy who was close to 1.8 meters tall were a little red. Xin Wan unconsciously picked the flesh in the palm of his hand and said, "Today is Wednesday, the next class is music or art?"

"music."

"Then it shouldn't matter if you sneak away from a music class." Xin Wan laughed and said softly, "If you have time, let's have a chat, I still have something to say to you."

The farewell to Chu Hefei wasn't too hard to bear. What really made Xin Wan feel difficult was the one with Fang Yichuan. He had thought about this scene many times and organized countless words, but they walked down the stairs together, stepping on the golden-white When it came to filming, he still gave up all the words he had thought, and chose to let nature take its course.

The time between one and two classes was very short, and before they had time to reach the playground, the class bell rang. They randomly picked an open space to wander around, and Fang Yichuan asked again: "Are you leaving?"

Xin Wan nodded: "Forget it, I won't have a chance to come to No.[-] Middle School in the future."

"Is it because...is it because of me?"

Xin Wan was stunned, and just about to say "no", Fang Yichuan's eyes turned redder, stopped, looked at him, and said in a hoarse voice, "It's because I confessed my love to you, and you don't want to see me, that's why you didn't want to see me." let's go, eh?"

This topic, which is considered taboo between them, was brought up so easily, Xin Wan shook her head: "No, if it is because of you that I am leaving, I will not come here again, just to say goodbye to you, that is not a contradiction ?"

Fang Yichuan fell silent again, and simply sat on the edge of the flower bed with his legs bent. Xin Wan, not too dirty, also sat beside him, with two or three tufts of yellowed grass in between. He said, "Actually, I'm here. After staying for more than six months, I don’t know many people, this time I mainly want to say goodbye to two people, one is Lao Chu, and the other is you.”

Fang Yichuan paused.

"Because I still have something to say to you, and I feel that something is missing if I don't say it." Xin Wan grabbed a grass and squeezed it in her hand, "A year ago, you confessed to me, I was out of my mind at the time. I'm all stupid, I can't say anything, and I didn't give you any answer afterwards, I have to say all those things, otherwise it will be unfair to you."

"I know what you're going to say, don't you just don't like it?" Fang Yichuan said in a low voice, "I know it all." But there was also some unrealistic hope, a secret hope, pretending not to care: "It's impossible after all. You... like me again."

Xin Wan laughed, her tone was relaxed, as if she was chatting casually: "I can't like you, I'm an adult, you're underage, I'm lying to children if I mess around."

Fang Yichuan gave him a suspicious look, and said in a low voice, "Even if you reject me, don't make such a joke."

"I didn't lie to you," Xin Wan told people other than Shen You and Song Heng about these things for the first time. She was a little uneasy for a while, and she still rubbed the grass, and the shriveled roots were crushed. I didn't tell you my age, I'm twenty, not fourteen or five."

After all, it was still a long time, and Xin Wan picked up and talked about the memory loss, trying to be logical and orderly, and didn't mention things that shouldn't be mentioned, Fang Yichuan forgot to be sad, it was like listening to a book, His eyes opened wider and wider, and he didn't turn around when it was over, and asked stupidly, "Are you fooling me?"

"I didn't fool you," Xin Wan threw the blade of grass aside, her hands were a little dirty and dusty, "It's at this point, if I still lie to you, I'll be hurting you."

Before Fang Yichuan could react, he said "ah", swallowed the sentence "You don't look like twenty", and kicked the small stone beside him: "Actually, I felt that you were different from us at first. , but I didn’t think too much, I thought I was thinking too much.”

"When I first came here, I didn't know anyone, and the teacher didn't talk to me, and I couldn't understand what you said, so I inevitably doubted myself and thought, 'How did I get into No. [-] Middle School when I was so stupid'," Xin said. With one hand on her chin, Wan Wan said slowly, "I'm not too lonely as long as you are willing to talk to me. I remember the homework you borrowed from me and the homework you tutored me. You are right. I am very nice, and I cherish you as a friend very, very much."

Fang Yichuan's Adam's apple twitched, and said: "But I deliberately distanced myself from you later, did you hate me at that time, and somehow stopped talking to you?"

"I think it's very inexplicable, but I don't hate you, so I think there is something wrong with me."

"You're fine," Fang Yichuan said quickly, stuttering nervously, "Isn't it because I'm happy, fuck!"

Xin Wan was happy: "Don't worry." He hugged his knees, put his face on it, and said, "Actually, I came to you and told you this because I thought it was too inappropriate for me to handle it. If I rejected you because of my confession , and let you have self-doubt, a sense of failure, and feel that there is something wrong with you, that is not my intention, I know how difficult it is, I don’t want to.”

Fang Yichuan turned his head away, rubbed his hair, finally couldn't hold back, and said, "Is it really impossible for us?"

Xin Wan said softly: "I can't have any other emotions beyond friendship between you and me. It's not because of you, but because of the different environments we live in. I'm not suitable for you. And you have no problem, you are special Sincere and cute, you are only in high school, you will meet a lot of people, like to wear bright clothes, like to grow flowers, like to go for a run at night, like to drink - all kinds of people, maybe in the future you will I think of me occasionally, but at that time you must have met someone better than me, and that person will also like you, there will definitely be a day."

Fang Yichuan's eyes fluctuated, and he looked up at him.

"So keep running forward, towards a better future," Xin Wan patted him like a buddy, "Fang Yichuan."

Farewell is always mixed with some tears, which are bitter, astringent, the grass juice left on the fingertips, and the dust that cannot be patted off the trouser legs.What he wanted to say was over, and Fang Yichuan didn't say anything else. He wandered around the playground for the remaining half of the class, picked up a basketball on the ground, and Xin Wan rarely threw a three-pointer. What he thought for a moment was: What a pity Song Heng is not here, otherwise he would praise him.

"Well," Fang Yichuan asked with his hand in his school uniform pocket, "Then how are you doing now?"

"It's been a good life, and it's not even the start of school, so I'm just dawdling at home." Xin Wan bounced the ball and threw another one, but he didn't get in, but he was not discouraged, "It's quite boring, why don't you enrich yourself at school. "

"Then I'll take some time to send you some mock questions from the school to enrich you."

Xin Wan laughed: "Come on."

This way of getting along is more comfortable than they were before, perhaps because everything is said and everything is open, and there is no need to hide.After chatting for a while, Fang Yichuan suddenly remembered and said, "Didn't you always look for someone from Class [-] (Class [-])? Back then, I knew a classmate from Class [-]. I can let him know who you want to talk to." Ask for help."

"Ah?" Xin Wan then remembered what happened a long time ago, and rubbed her nose, "You're from class two (eighth) of high school?"

"That's right, didn't you have to go to the second year of high school to find someone every time after school?"

If Fang Yichuan hadn't mentioned it, he really wouldn't have remembered this matter, Xin Wan thought for a long time in a daze, Fang Yichuan waved his hand first: "It's okay, if you don't remember, you won't be here anyway, it's the same. "

Xin Wan vaguely figured out something, nodded again, and glanced at her mobile phone: "Is it almost time for the big break, I remember running exercises."

In less than 5 minutes, Fang Yichuan nodded, understood the meaning of Xin Wan's words, and came here. He looked into Xin Wan's eyes and said, "Then I'll go back to class."

Xin Wan leaned against the green fence of the playground, waved to him, smiled lightly, and joked, "Call me later if you have anything to do, for college entrance examination consultation, volunteer application consultation, and other matters, you can come to consult me Senior."

"I'm still a senior... It's still early for the college entrance examination," Fang Yichuan also laughed, but those smiles gradually faded, he loosened and clenched his hands, and said softly, "Let's give it a last hug."

On January 23th, at [-]:[-] p.m., the sun did not melt and the temperature was below zero. On the red and green playground, Fang Yichuan hugged him for the last time when he was ignorant when he was young. The hug was very short. At the end, he smiled at Xin Wan Laughed and said "goodbye", but his eyes were a little red, but he didn't cry, turned his head and left, just bid farewell to his childishness and short-lived spirit.

The author has something to say: The tail of the Sixth Middle School is over!Then you can slowly fall in love, alas, I really want to see them having sex