midsummer night

At the banquet after the wedding, the band played a very old song, the newcomer entered the venue to lead the dance, and then other dance partners joined in sporadically.

He Xiyuan likes this music very much. Even though there is no one to dance to, his body and breathing fluctuate slightly with the music.He and Lin Xin can dance disco in the nightclub without pressure, but at the wedding of strangers, he would rather stand in the sunset and dusk, leaning against a small flower bed on the edge of the grassland, so as to avoid the noise of strangers around , and you can see the crowd dancing in the arena.

One pair, two pairs, three pairs.What a monotonous combination the multiples of two are, in a two-dimensional quadrant, it is nothing but a smooth infinite straight line, infinitely monotonous.

Suddenly hearing footsteps behind him, he turned his head and saw Lu Chengfeng walking in his direction.

The other party stretched out a hand and asked He Xiyuan, "Can I ask you to dance."

He Xiyuan was taken aback for a moment, his heart beating from his chest.Without thinking, he put his hand in Lu Chengfeng's.

The dry and warm hand that fell on his cheek last night was now leading him to the dance floor.

The moment they entered the dance floor, the eyes of everyone on the grass field left the newcomers and focused on Alpha and his partner.

He Xiyuan was not very good at dancing, he put one hand on Lu Chengfeng's shoulder, and the other fell into Lu Chengfeng's.His breathing was a little short, and he didn't know how to move forward. Lu Chengfeng whispered to him, "Relax."

He Xiyuan nodded, the smell of pine wood filled his senses, and his feet were almost numb.

The night gradually rose, and lights lit up on the grassland. With his fingers in Lu Chengfeng's hands, his body moved along with the music.Lu Chengfeng is proficient in dance steps. His dancer mother gave him extremely coordinated limbs, and he can dance a simple dance with He Xiyuan with ease.

He Xiyuan felt the scrutiny, curiosity and onlookers in the eyes of his surroundings.The bystander is lucky, and he wants to be one most of the time.

As the music neared the climax of the end, the couple embraced and kissed, and the surrounding crowd cheered.

He stood face to face with Lu Chengfeng, with only a few centimeters between his upper body and his cheeks. Alpha's amber eyes seemed to have a soft expression in the night and light.He Xiyuan didn't dare to look him in the eye, he thought he would be at a loss.

Hearing the cheers around him, he raised his head and gave Lu Chengfeng a small smile, with more gratitude than admiration in his smile.

Then he turned around and applauded the newcomer together with the people around him.

Lu Chengfeng's dark suit jacket was attached to the back. Inside the jacket was a cotton shirt, and inside were strong muscles.

He turned his back to Lu Chengfeng, and the other party's breathing and gaze stayed behind his back, making the glands on his neck uncontrollably itchy, and the shivering feeling traveled down the spine to the scalp.

He turned around hastily and politely and said to Lu Chengfeng, "Thank you senior, I haven't danced for a long time."

Lu Chengfeng: "Really, how long is a long time?"

He Xiyuan: "The last time was the prom of college graduation."

Lu Chengfeng: "Do you still remember who the dance partner is?"

He Xiyuan: "It's a Beta classmate. I still remember my name, but I have indeed forgotten my surname."

Lu Chengfeng smiled.

He Xiyuan lowered his head and stepped on his feet, as if someone was coming towards them, so he said, "I'm going to get some drinks, what do you want, senior?"

Lu Chengfeng waved his hands and said, "No, you can go."

Then He Xiyuan left, his steps were slow at first, and then he walked faster and faster.He went to the bar to get a glass of iced lemonade, and seeing Lin Xin's gaze not far away, he silently walked to the shadow behind the flower bed.

Lin Xin followed him and walked over: "You just danced with the senior!"

He Xiyuan: "The music just started, and he happened to be next to him, so I just danced randomly."

Lin Xin: "Dancing at will? You can't tell at all! Except for the parents of the newcomers who are watching their children, everyone else is watching you."

He Xiyuan: "Yes, the senior is very good-looking."

He switched to a glass of lemonade in one hand, which seemed to have a little too much ice in it.

Lin Xin asked in a low voice, "Are you dating the senior?"

He Xiyuan denied Sanlian: "No, no, don't talk nonsense."

If he was dating Lu Chengfeng, why would he live with Lin Xin and deal with his ex who came knocking on the door in the middle of the night from time to time.But he didn't say it.

Lin Xin: "Dancing just now, I realized for the first time that you are also very Omega!"

He Xiyuan: "There's a difference in height, a short Alpha can be very Omega standing with him."

Lin Xin: "No, no, it's the aura and atmosphere, the feeling that outsiders can't get in. Is the senior chasing you?"

He Xiyuan thought to himself that this was a bit ridiculous, and the undisguised self-deprecation was more than the sneaky joy.

He Xiyuan shook his head and said, "He should have someone to date."

He thought of the tall Omega standing next to Lu Chengfeng at an art exhibition, with his long hair rolled up and a dark dress falling on his slender ankles.The pheromones seem to be faintly visible camellias, like people, blooming in the garden after the rain in spring, condensing the warm vitality in the elegance.

He arrived at the art show after get off work and stood across the crowd, seemingly unable to recognize the language they were speaking in.It wasn't until he was about to sneak away to see the exhibition that Lu Chengfeng found out and called him to his side.

The people around Lu Chengfeng were dazzling, their hair and eyelashes covered with soft light, He Xiyuan introduced himself briefly, and when everyone changed the topic to the art exhibition and hedge fund income, he found an excuse to get a glass of orange juice.

Then he stood in front of a painting and did not leave.In that painting is the daughter in the arms of the mother, with cool colors and classical style, but the picture is warm. In the distant view, there is a big lotus flower blooming in the pond.

He watched it for a long time, and he both sympathized and couldn't empathize.

For weddings, family affection and love, his perception became more and more dull with the growth of the years.It seems that with his glands dormant, his desire for emotion can only be pinned on words, not reality.

Realistic emotions only make him more vulnerable, whether in the past, now or in the future.

He Xiyuan said that Lu Chengfeng has a date, Lin Xin said with a smile: "It doesn't look like it. If you have a date, you won't dance with you, or in front of so many people. And he always looks at you while dancing. "

He Xiyuan: "This conclusion is not valid. The senior is European, and he can dance with strangers on the street in the middle of the night."

When Lu Chengfeng, a European not far away, heard his words, he almost choked on champagne.

However, He Xiyuan obviously didn't want to talk more about Europeans. His eyes and footsteps followed the waiter who was holding a grilled salmon tray.

This is the first wedding that He Xiyuan has attended in two years.The last time I visited a classmate's house when I was studying, in a small church in North America, I fell asleep listening to the priest's babbling.

Whenever relatives and friends get married, parents will always tell him, but he often chooses to ignore it, and he doesn't even bother to send blessings, let alone gift money.

Once he replied: The money you give to others may not be returned until you die.

Then I turned off the parent's message reminder, blocked the mobile phone number, and let him slowly digest this fact.

His parents didn't know where he lived in Beidu, and only told him that he was at the airport after coming to Beidu.He Xiyuan sat in the office and booked a hotel room and asked her to go first.

It happened that he was very busy with work, so he only had a meal with her in the hotel the next morning.

The parents forced him to give him a few things: Zodiac jade bought on a trip, a tea variety he didn't like, and an old coat.

He didn't need most of the things his parents gave him since he was a child, and almost none of the things he needed were given by his parents.Before having self-will, his existence is passive; if he could choose at birth, he would even choose not to.

He Xiyuan didn't tell his parents about the recent move, but Xiadao is a very small city, so the news spread quickly.

Lin Xin has a good relationship with her mother, and they call each other almost every day.Once when Lin Xin was videoing with her mother who lives in Xiadao, He Xiyuan walked past the living room and greeted her.

On a certain occasion a few weeks later, Lin Xin's mother happened to meet He Xiyuan's parents, and after the two chatted for a while, the parents found out that he actually lived with a classmate, in the other's house.

Because the mobile phone has turned off the message reminder, He Xiyuan checks the parents' messages every two days on average. Whether it is 1 message or 100 messages, the reminder is just a red dot.

When he opened the message, the parent's words popped up from the dialog box:

I heard you live with Lin Xin?

Have you signed a formal contract?

You'd better rent a house by yourself, what does it look like to live in someone else's house.

……

He could almost see the parents frowning as they typed on their phones.

For the first 20 years of life, up to his first year at work, parents would request weekend videos, then sit frowning and scrutinizing him in shabby clothes in front of a blurry camera.

After He Xiyuan cut off contact with his family due to boredom, he has not heard from or seen his parents for nearly a year.He felt very good, although there was no such thing as joy, at least there was no torture.

As far as the parents can perceive, he always feels that he is being watched.His life had indeed been under surveillance, initially by parents who would appear from behind while he was doing his homework.

During the years of studying abroad, the price he temporarily escaped from monitoring was that he was occasionally reprimanded by his parents.Later, when he came back, he was surrounded by layers of surveillance and sight every day, from the office to the social platform, from the corners of the neighborhoods he walked every day to the cameras of the subway.

Family monitoring is just a microcosm of social power, and parents are just poor executors.

But in any case, he had to move and could not let his parents know his address.

The threats from his parents even made him feel unreasonably flustered even more than Lin Xin's predecessor. He woke up in the middle of the night and went to the living room to drink water.

The glands at the back of the neck moved slightly, pulling on the nerves in the brain, causing throbbing pain.

I have something to say: He Xiyuan: All actions can be explained by Europeans, which is awesome.