midsummer night

He Xiyuan made an appointment with a doctor over the weekend for a consultation to re-implant the suppressor.The doctor sighed after reading his medical record with the words "widowed", and said helplessly: "You are too young. The hospital stipulates that Omega under 30 years old can only be implanted with a suppressor in extreme cases, such as life-threatening diseases. I only You can be prescribed inhibitors, and they can only be prescribed in doses for a month at a time."

He Xiyuan: "Then how about I create an extreme situation?"

Doctor: "This is very difficult. The hospital's indicators come from the superior, and the number of operations for suppressor implantation is limited every month. Although I am a Beta, I understand your concerns."

He Xiyuan stopped talking.This was the doctor he came to see most often, with a gentle personality, never said useless words, and never suggested that he find an Alpha.

He was holding a box of Inhibitors, and when he checked out, he found that the price was more expensive than before.A lower percentage of Medicare coverage and higher spending on inhibitors afterwards.

He called Xu Jiu, an obstetrician friend, and wanted to ask her if there was any other way.

A friend told him: "This has started in the first half of the year. First, it will be piloted locally, and then extended to hospitals in major cities. Both hospitals and cities have absolute quantity indicators. The suppressor will first be provided to married couples who have given birth to more than two children." Omega, or Omega with a serious disease. If there are places left, it will be the turn of Omegas who have given birth to a child. Besides, there will be almost no places for Omegas like you who have not given birth before the age of 30."

He Xiyuan: "Really, have they ever thought about the instability of an individual's estrus to drugs? If an unexpected estrus happens, what will happen to an Omega without a partner?"

The friend was quiet for a while and said, "Xiyuan, actually I never knew why you returned to China. If you have the opportunity, you can go abroad or Fenggang to complete the operation."

After a while, she said again: "Every month from now on, regardless of whether the inhibitor is enough or not, you should go to the hospital or pharmacy to buy it regularly, and buy enough to allow you to buy the amount that the indicator allows you to buy."

He Xiyuan: "Is the distribution of inhibitors going to be limited?"

Friend: "No one knows, but you can buy it when you can, with cash and no ID."

He Xiyuan: "Okay, I see, thank you."

Friend: "I told a few friends around me secretly, but I didn't tell you. You have always been calm and sensitive, and I thought you should know."

He Xiyuan: "My perception is sometimes dull. Do you have indicators for your department's surgery?"

"Yeah." Xu Jiu said after a while: "There are also indicators for pregnancy termination surgery."

He Xiyuan: "Then let's guess whether the index is a means or an end. Will there be a day when the surgical index will no longer exist? Let us get used to the limit of the number of the index, and the number of operations will decrease every year until it is completely Termination of pregnancy is prohibited."

Friend: "I hope that day won't happen. Take care and go out for dinner another day."

He Xiyuan: "Well, take care."

Standing in the cold wind on the balcony, he felt chills all over when he saw the afternoon sun crawling on the outer wall of milky white tiles.No matter how dull his senses and consciousness are, he also knows that indicators are of course only means, and only the initial means.

First restrict who can use inhibitors, then restrict who can terminate pregnancy, and then limit the supply and price of inhibitors on the market.

In the end, all Omega had to be forced to find Alpha and give birth.The double burden of morality and law makes Omega reluctant to throw away or kill his children, so he can only be forced to use his body, time and energy to raise them.

Blood-sucking and milk-sucking cubs are planted on the body and morality of each Omega, and the Omega that has entered the puberty estrus at an ignorant age looks for Alpha through intuition and gives birth to a child without knowing it.

If that child was an Omega, he would inevitably repeat his mother's fate.

Every year, their hands tighten.Some of the former Omega classmates stayed abroad, and even though many of them had an excellent relationship with their parents, they never came back.

You can still be a traveler in a foreign land, but you are not even a human being in your hometown, just a walking genital cavity destined to feed your offspring with flesh and blood.

And he was alone, and he didn't think of any other way except to buy more inhibitors.

The autumn sunshine was beautiful, but it seemed to be too harsh in the afternoon to make him feel dizzy.

He walked through three pharmacies and convenience stores wearing a mask, two of which had to be registered.Facing the huge facial recognition device, he did not take off his mask.The third is an old pharmacy with an old storefront.

There were a few boxes of Inhibitors left in the store, not his usual brand, on the bottom shelf in the corner.

He squatted down, reached out and grabbed three boxes, walked around the store casually, and put the medicine on the counter.

The middle-aged Beta teller raised his head and glanced at him, a little puzzled. He Xiyuan is a Beta in the eyes of most people, so he doesn't need inhibitors.

The clerk said, "You can only buy two boxes of this at a time."

After he put back a box, the other party asked again: "Do you have an ID card?"

He Xiyuan lowered his head and turned through the bag, then said, "Sorry, I didn't bring it with me."

Eventually he put the medicine in his backpack and walked out of the pharmacy.

The bottom of the medicine shelf is obviously the most difficult to get the medicine, but it is the emptiest one.The medicine boxes were placed in a mess. Perhaps many Omega have been here before. After grabbing a few boxes of medicine and paying the bill, they were told that they could only buy two boxes, so they had to put them back.

In the middle and the upper layer of the shelf are nutritional drinks and health drinks for estrus, which are neatly arranged.Fresh fruit was painted on the packaging, but no one seemed to have touched it.

There were two boxes of medicine in his bag, and he was inexplicably vigilant when he walked, with his bangs pressed against his forehead, and his eyes occasionally glanced at the people around him.He felt more and more groundless hatred and alienation towards Alpha.It would be great if there were only half of the Alphas in this world, and only the young and handsome ones would be left, and the old and ugly inferior Alphas would be castrated or have their glands removed at the same age, so that Omega would not have to cover their glands when walking on the road. Hide bracelets and inhibitors.

He also wants to walk and run freely in the sun.

At noon and after get off work, He Xiyuan often walked into different pharmacies near the company, wearing a mask to buy inhibitors.

He occasionally received messages from Lu Chengfeng, but he found some innocuous excuses and declined invitations to dinner or weekend trips.

He didn't want to refuse and welcome, but urgently needed to find a new place to live.Once the parents know his address, his work and life will face unknown risks.The pressure of work has made him almost unbearable, the end-of-quarter assessment is meaningless, the daily work is full of trivial matters, and his career has no end in sight.

During the two years at Jianling, Gao Qingnian and Zhu Ping used to assign him to do chores. When he was busy with a certain project, he was asked to go to the conference room to take conference call notes.

Whenever new interns come, He Xiyuan will lead them to familiarize themselves with the work and teach them the details of the project.Gao Qingnian said with a smile to the interns: "Xiao He was also our intern back then, but he stayed after a while. Without Xiao He, the department's affairs would be impossible."

In fact, He Xiyuan took a very low salary as an intern and built models and due diligence for the investment of multiple projects.When Gao Qingnian went on a business trip to North America, he used to make cross-border phone calls with North American investment banks in a short-term rental house in the middle of the night with a 12-hour time difference several days a week for a month.

Even though I was drowsy when I woke up the next day, I still wore clean and tidy clothes to take the subway.

During that time, he seldom thought of Lu Chengfeng, he only had a strong will to survive and be independent, and he only remembered to eat when he was hungry.

Now he seldom thinks about the internship, the only memory is not to let himself fall into the situation of passive cheap labor.The winter in the northern capital is extremely cold. In the first winter of his first arrival, the nights of the month before the heating started were unbearably cold.Sitting under the quilt wearing thick socks and basking in the sun with the curtains open during the day can't stop the cold air from seeping in through the cracks in the windows and doors.

Sometimes there is a knock on the door during the day, and there is a knock on the door.He sat in the room with his hands tucked away, watching the door warily, like a hungry cat lurking in the shadows.

After officially working, he found a better house. He would turn on a small heater to warm the room at night before heating in winter.

He is the youngest employee in the office, and with his small face, he looks about the same age as an intern, and the interns who are still studying are naturally close to He Xiyuan.

He is very gentle with the interns, and the students from the best colleges and universities in Beijing are in their early 20s and receive lower salaries than he did back then.They occasionally complained to He Xiyuan about the decadent professor of a certain compulsory course. His concept was like a zombie crawling out of the Nancheng cemetery. Every class had to be called, and he stood on the stage between classes and scolded the students, repeating that no one would read it again after the exam. dogma.

He Xiyuan laughed and said, "I didn't like thought classes when I was in high school. I knew I couldn't escape college, so I ran away."

He sees confusion and numbness in young people, and slippery accidents in older people, and he hopes that he will not become that kind of person in the future.

Gao Qingnian and Zhu Ping casually mentioned Lu Chengfeng more than once during departmental meetings or lunches, with inexplicable smiles on their faces.

They must not know about Lu Chengfeng and He Xiyuan's intersection outside of work.If they knew, they would not smile at him like that, but would ask blatantly, and even inquire about the news flatteringly.

He Xiyuan hoped that the meeting between Lu Chengfeng and Lu Chengfeng would only be in crowded places. Whether the other party handed him a glass of wine, or danced in the twilight by holding his arm, everything happened under the sky, without selfishness.

When an unfamiliar person suddenly asked: "What's your relationship with Lu Chengfeng?"

He can then calmly answer: "A former alumnus, a current group partner, I see you occasionally on social occasions, and you were there last time."

He didn't think about why Lu Chengfeng asked him out, nor did he analyze or guess the other party's intentions, nor did he think about how he should respond.