Do not love me

This time, Sanada didn't stay for long.It seems that Sanada Chiai was sent here on a special trip.Left after lunch.

To Ai Sanada and Kenya Ninzuzu, boys with a childish personality, soon played together.However, listening to the indifferent answer of the beloved is not likely to be very willing to accept this kind of receptive boy.

Fortunately, Ren Zuqian kept playing quiz games with her without feeling impatient.This made Qianshang Weiai a lot more at ease.In fact, she didn't know why Genichiro Sanada indulged Sanada's favorite behavior inexplicably this time.With a strict character like Sanada-kun, how could he indulge children's unreasonable troubles?Even loved ones are really worried about themselves.

On the side, I don't know how many opportunities I have found to ask the little girl, but the girl I love is very stubborn and refuses to say anything.But later Qian Shangwei stopped asking after thinking about it. Anyway, it was only a summer vacation, so it was better to treat it as a trip for her.

But, God knows, Yui Ai Asakami's thinking is also the reason why Sanada persuaded his family to let Sanada Zhiai go out.Of course, he wouldn't be so stupid to really tell his family about Qianshang Weiai.So there was a small agreement with Sanada Chiai.

Sanada is responsible for bringing her to Yui Asakami, and Sanada Chiai must report the situation to him every day.The very smart Sanada didn't directly explain that he wanted to know the situation of Qianshang Weiai every day, but only learned some news about her from the daily life of the little girl.

It's a smart move, albeit a bit baffling.

Began to become busy, every day, Qianshang Weiai started to work at the same time as usual, and used the so-called busyness to bury the small space that was missing in his heart.Looking up, in the living room, two children arguing and playing cards made her slightly relieved.

That way, she doesn't feel alone.

I miss it, I miss lying on Tezuka's lap and watching TV.It's so warm that people can't help but smile inexplicably.But, it's gone.

After all, it's your own fault, isn't it?

It is self-righteous thinking that feelings may be recognized and blessed.Then he thought self-righteously that it was the best choice to let him go, and then let go of his grip on his hand.

Everything is so self-righteous, is it just looking for guilt?

Started to find the reason in a non-stop cycle, the reason for such heartache.

Tezuka...does he... think he's too self-righteous?Yes.Hand over my hand to let him not let go of me, but the one who let go is me...

The cup in my hand accidentally dropped on the table for some unknown reason.There was a loud noise.The frozen liquid dripped all the way along the edge of the tabletop, and landed on the upper only legs.A piece of ice cold.

"Miss Wei Ai."

Such a scene woke up the two people who were playing vigorously in the living room.Shinobu Ken also looked at the person whose pants were soaked by the cold liquid but did not respond at all, and slightly frowned.

Still can't let go.

I don't know when it started, but Ren Zuqian always saw such a shallow Yui who was often in a daze.Maybe it was when she woke up from the decadence and self-abandonment.At that time, he saw, every day, every time, he always saw her sitting quietly by the lake alone.The dignified expression on his face resembled extreme despair.

Are you missing that iceberg called Tezuka?

Obviously know the answer, obviously love that person so much, why would you give up holding his hand so easily?He didn't know Tezuka well, but he knew what kind of person he was.And Qiangami Weiai... what are you worried about?

It's incomprehensible that she is so self-inflicted.

For the first time, Shinobu began to face her grief.

"So why do you still want to give up if you like it? Can memories make you spend the rest of your life? Now that you have let go, why do you still miss it meaninglessly?" Isn't it contradictory?Aren't you looking for guilt?

It turned out that Wei Ai, who had always been calm and rational in his eyes, was just a coward.

Shinobu Ken's voice suddenly became serious, awakening Yui Asakami who had already forgotten what she was going to do.She raised her face in confusion, and looked seriously at his pretty face.

Then... the unreasonable Si smiled lightly.The bitterness contained in that smile...how much, who can really understand?

"My baby...will be a hindrance. I hope it's not."

Sighing faintly, she lowered her head, and her fingertips, already stained with water, fell from the computer desk to her stomach.

This is the reason?

That's right, Ren Zuqian also bit his lower lip in annoyance.Of course I know that his sister Wei Ai is a worrying fool.Always thinking wildly to find sins that don't exist for myself.

"I haven't tried it, why do you say it is an obstacle? I haven't tried it...Maybe it's not what you think, maybe, as long as you persist..." He couldn't believe that Tezuka was the kind of person who easily compromised , that person must have worked hard.But while working hard, even the most precious and closest people around him are unwilling to believe that he will do well.What a hopeless thing that was... and yet, Qiangami Yuai didn't know anything.

Suddenly I don't like such a sister Wei Ai.

Too timid to even try.

"Tezuka...it will be very hard." And she doesn't want him to be hard... Her hope is that he will be good.

"Is this great? This...you think it's the answer Tezuka is willing to hear, and you really think it's the answer Tezuka is looking forward to? Then why did he take such a big risk..." Could it be that you are an idiot what?Qiangami Weiai... Don't you know what kind of person the person you like is?

Wanting to reprimand like this, Renzu Qianye forbears it.

I'm afraid this is the so-called bystanders who are clear, and those who are in power are confused, right?

"Don't scold my sister, you big villain. I don't know if my sister is very sad?" Every night when she got up in the middle of the night to call her little uncle, she could see the tears hanging from the corners of her eyes. She knew what sister aunt was sad about, but she knew that sister aunt was unhappy and sad.Why do you still bully such a poor sister?

The condensed atmosphere was completely messed up by the little girl's disturbance, to the point where it was out of control.

Lowering his head, the corners of his eyes were filled with tears.

She didn't want that either.Obviously can't let go, obviously the heart is so painful.But what else can she do as a weak woman besides giving up?

Guoguang...

Tears could not stop falling.For the first time, she cried in front of someone other than Tezuka Kunimitsu.Yinyin cried loudly.

Crouching on the computer desk.

The tears never stopped.Like pearls with a broken string falling down...

"Go to him. That person must...be the same as you when he left."

...go to him...

He must be as unhappy as you... But, she still remembered what he said.When you are sad and cry, you must be in front of her.

Have you been trying to be strong?

It must be so, he never kept the promise.Always stand alone.

"I'm sorry, I was wrong. Guoguang...I was wrong, I shouldn't let go of your hand so easily. Your hand is so important, but I didn't cherish it...I'm sorry...I'm still here I miss you every minute and every second...I can't help but miss you. I miss you so much."

I really want... I really want... I really want to...

Tears mixed with transparent turbid liquid wet the elbows prostrate on the table in circles, drawing ugly marks.No one cares, how dirty and messy the traces are, and the sound of crying has buried everything.

fool……

Stretching out his hand, Ren Zuken also wrapped Yui Asakami's shrunken body into his arms with red eyes.The white shirt, he generously let her get dirty.

After explaining that Mitsuya Ninazuru took care of Sanada Chiai, Asakami Yui got on the car to Tokyo.The long-lost Tokyo... is daunting.The place where Jean brought her too much harm was already hopeless.Only, that one person is the morning light of hope.

……

"Guo Guang, can you and Xiao Zi go out and help me buy some things in the afternoon? Things for the engagement."

Tezuka Ayana took the time out of her busy schedule to look up, and her son, who had always had a calm face, reminded her.

"Understood." Tezuka twitched the corner of his mouth and agreed to his mother's words with a blank expression.He didn't want to say anything more, he agreed to the engagement his parents said.Therefore, it is up to him to cooperate as he wants.

I was tired, and suddenly I didn't want to see my mother busy preparing for the engagement ceremony between him and Sanada Kozusa.From the heart, he didn't intend to pretend he didn't mind at all.I want to find a place where there is no one to rest and lick my wounds.

"Kunimitsu..." Tezuka Ayana stopped what she wanted to say when her son got up suddenly and his face was unbearable to see.

That expression... what does it mean?

The paralyzed face that outsiders seem to have nothing to do with usual, today... no... It's been a long time, and Tezuka Ayana always sees something that she can't understand.

Guoguang was unhappy and didn't want to hear her mention anything about the engagement.This is the intuition of the mother and the evidence of the understanding of the son as a mother.But Aina Tezuka really couldn't figure it out, she obviously heard her son agreeing to hold the engagement ceremony, didn't she?

Since when, the son has become unpredictable.They can't even guess what's hidden in their hearts.

He went upstairs without saying a word, and then walked into his own room to watch the door.As if exhausted, he fell straight on the bed.Close your eyes tightly.

Hypnotize yourself.Everything is just a dream.

Asakami is the only person who has never appeared once before.He didn't know such a person, and everything in the past was just a dream without trace.

Failed.always fails.

Can't do it, treat her beloved as the air that comes and goes in a hurry and never stays.

Go to sleep, if you have nothing to do, if you can't read a book, just go to sleep.It's often like this recently... I close my eyes but I'm afraid that if I fall asleep at ease, I will be in a dream, and the disobedient ones will stop.

miss her.It is customary to miss a little while when there is nothing to do.If you miss a little less every day, will you forget it in an unknown day?

will you?

how can that be possible.

You can't even deceive yourself.A little bit every day, a little less every day... In the end, one day I can't help but think of her crazily.Then this life will become the deepest and deepest memory in my heart.

In the end, it turned her into the most cherished memory.

Don't be silly, instead of working so hard, it's better to let yourself miss it, until the day you don't want to miss it, the place in your heart will be filled with other things after all.