Soul knot

"A netizen named 'Little Rice Seedling That Moves with the Wind' asked, does the seedling have an ideal type?"

A new-generation female singer who just made her debut fell into deep thought for a while in Star Entertainment's behind-the-scenes interview because of such a question from a randomly selected netizen.

After a brief embarrassment, the host smiled with a strong professional ability: "Yangyang doesn't seem to have thought about this issue."

"Yes." Chen Yang smiled and replied shyly, "I believe in love at first sight."

"Yangyang will want it in the future? If you have someone you like, will you announce your relationship?"

"I am a singer, and I hope everyone will pay more attention to my works, not me." Chen Yang said, "If one day, who am I with? I will tell everyone about my You are no longer single, and decide whether to announce the other party according to the situation? Identity..."

She thought for a while, and said very seriously: "After all, I want to protect the person I like. If he is just an amateur, I don't want him to come into the public eye, and be criticized by many people because of me." Give me some pointers, that? I’ll be sorry? I won’t go.”

A singer's love is always more free than an idol's.

Although the company doesn't want Chen Yang to fall in love, after all, a new-generation singer who is beautiful and has singing skills, and has no black material so far, will have more commercial value if he remains single.

Okay? There is no need for Chen Yang to fully follow the company's ideas. After all, the family uses money to support her, not for her to earn more money, but for her to be able to do what she likes to do.

Her family background is very strong, so she doesn't need to socialize with people she doesn't like, and doesn't need to do too many complicated entertainments.

Just like what her college roommate said in a joke, some people try their best to move forward, but the end of a lifetime may not be the starting point of some people.

There is not much fairness in this world. Everyone is born in an unfair world, and it is useless to complain.

Chen Yang has lived a very privileged life since she was a child. No matter what she wants, her family will find a way to get it for her.

However, although she is a bit delicate and spends money lavishly, she has never had the temperament of a lady and a princess.

She knows that it is difficult for someone who is too special to blend in with the crowd.

Therefore, from childhood to adulthood, she was just a quiet and ordinary girl in the eyes of others. Apart from being beautiful, she seemed to have nothing special about her.

For the first time in her life, she had the urge to fight for something for herself, and that was the night when she met Zhang Ziyun, who was not an old friend.

As she said - she believed in love at first sight.

Undoubtedly, that was the most confused day of her life.

She has been well-behaved since she was a child, and she seems to be obsessed with ghosts. When she was drunk, she ran to the hotel and opened a double-bed room with a woman she had only known for a night.

Later, she kept thinking that if Zhang Ziyun really wanted to do something to her that night, she might not refuse.

But if something like that really happened, the relationship between her and Zhang Ziyun would only be that one night.

Knowing a woman who can be so casual on the first day, can't give her any sense of security at all? No matter how much she likes her, she can't accept it, can she?

Fortunately, Zhang Ziyun didn't have the slightest thought of touching her on such a night when he instinctively shared the spring breeze with others. Such an incomprehensible style was just the starting point of Chen Yang's fall.

The year when I met Zhang Ziyun was also the first year when Chen Yang debuted.

Chen Yang invited Zhang Ziyun to accompany him to the large-scale Double Eleven concert, which was broadcast live on the entire network. When the concert ended, it was already late at night. Under the arrangement of Chen Yang's assistant, the two young girls checked into the same hotel. double room.

This was what Chen Yang asked on purpose, but nothing happened to them that night.

It was nothing more than going to the bathroom one after another to take a shower, drying their long hair, and lying back on the bed, holding their mobile phones, accompanied by the soft light of the small bedside lamp, chatting about how they felt tonight.

Finally, I lay down, from unconsciously looking at each other face to face, to falling asleep with flushed cheeks back to back and eyes closed.

That night, Chen Yang faintly felt that Zhang Ziyun was very happy, but tried his best not to show it too clearly.

This is the biggest obstacle in the process of getting along with Zhang Ziyun, like an invisible but unknown obstacle, how to overcome it - Zhang Ziyun never showed her true self, never opened his heart.

After that night, they each returned to their own areas of life.

Chen Yang didn't know what Zhang Ziyun was doing on weekdays, and Zhang Ziyun could only get some news about Chen Yang from the Internet.

Occasionally sneaking in from the busy schedule, whether it's taking out the phone to chat with Zhang Ziyun, or going out to make an appointment for a meal with AA, they always maintain the previous familiar but not warm way of getting along with each other.

This kind of situation started as early as the day they met.

From childhood to adulthood, when Chen Yang took the initiative to approach others, he would always get the desired response.

Everyone likes her, some like her family's money, like her "generous" appearance when entertaining guests, and some like her as a person.For whatever reason, she doesn't mind.

Being able to be liked, and this liking will not become a burden, is a good thing, and the rest is not really important.

Chen Yang likes a simple life, straight-forward love and hate, not optimistic about everything? All the twists and turns.

It is also because of this that she always worried about her roommate during the years of college.

First came Ye Liujing, and then Lu Yudong, those two roommates, obviously they can go one step further? After chasing someone you like, why are you so cowardly? They don't want to put a knife on their necks? Take the initiative? point.

But as the saying goes, the authorities are confused by the onlookers, otherwise she would not be confused and become a person who hesitates emotionally.

Lu Yudong once said that Zhang Ziyun liked girls, which made Chen Yang very happy.

Chen Yang knew very well that she liked Zhang Ziyun, but she didn't know exactly what kind of feelings Zhang Ziyun had for her.

If they were just friends, why did they feel vaguely? How much did Zhang Ziyun treat her? Was it a bit special?

But if there is that kind of "unusual" emotion, why there is always a feeling of "attraction"?

When facing Zhang Ziyun, Chen Yang tried to get closer, tried to distance himself, and even tried many hints, but he didn't get any response.

She even thought that Zhang Ziyun should have understood her thoughts a long time ago, but she kept pretending not to understand, maybe she just didn't like it and was reluctant to refuse.After all, she is rich and famous, and can bring convenience to many people around her. No matter who it is, it's hard to get to know her, and she always tries to maintain a good relationship.

But in fact, Zhang Ziyun never asked her for anything, and even repeatedly rejected her favors. He had to reciprocate everything, and there was fairness.

Chen Yang could feel from some details that Zhang Ziyun didn't have a lot of money. Under this "reciprocity" communication method, the better she was to Zhang Ziyun, the more she would become a burden to Zhang Ziyun .

Gradually, even when she invited a meal or gave a gift, she needed to find a good reason for Zhang Ziyun to accept it with peace of mind.

Chen Yang became more and more willing to believe that Zhang Ziyun's getting along with her was not just for fame and gain, but many times, she felt annoyed by it.

She has not yet reached the age of countless people, the existence of Zhang Ziyun is so special to her, from the first sight to the long time together, this specialness has not changed in the slightest.

Chen Yang didn't want to admit it, but she had to admit that the longer she and Zhang Ziyun had known each other, the deeper and deeper they would be.

When you can't see it? You will think, and you will be happy when you see it.

It's just that she doesn't know whether Zhang Ziyun has similar feelings towards her.

She thought, it would be great if there was one, I really don't ask too much, just a little bit...at least, let her be more special than others in Zhang Ziyun's heart.

If, she thinks if...

Zhang Ziyun was like many people who deliberately approached and flattered her. They could be bought by fame, fortune and money. She probably...would really be able to trap her, right?

This idea appeared in Chen Yang's mind more than once, and several times she felt ashamed of herself for having this idea, but this idea just lingered.

It turns out that the feeling of liking someone can really make people lose their minds.

***

At the end of January, the new year is approaching.

Chen Yang's first album is about to enter the recording stage, but the title song has not been finalized yet.

Each of the existing five tracks is very pleasant to listen to, but she just feels that something is missing, and has been trying to find a creator to "fill" this unexplainable regret.

While she was busy working on the album, the students in the school began to discuss one thing. They said that an alumnus was hacked into a dead end at a dead corner on the street and was seriously injured. She was unconscious and the murderer was missing.

That day was Ye Liujing's birthday.

The victim was Ye Liujing's boyfriend Jiang Fang.

As a roommate who has been with her for three and a half years in college, Chen Yang hastily let go of all the things in her hands, flew back to Yuanchuan, and went to the city hospital to visit her.

When leaving?, she saw Zhang Ziyun.

But Zhang Ziyun and Ye Liujing were not familiar with each other, and knew nothing about this matter.

Zhang Ziyun came here, not for the sake of visiting a doctor, but for himself.

Zhang Ziyun suffered some trauma - was beaten.

The moment she bumped into Chen Yang, her first reaction was to turn around and run away. Chen Yang recognized her in the crowd at a glance, rushed forward, and grabbed her wrist.

On that day, Zhang Ziyun had a bruise on his forehead, pale lips, and a haggard face. It was rare to see a plain face with only a ponytail. He was as clean as a high school student—and a high school student who had just suffered violence. , almost dull eyes.

"How did you do it? Who bullied you?"

Chen Yang kept asking, but couldn't get an answer.

She followed Zhang Ziyun in line to buy medicine, and finally sent her back home.

That was the first time Chen Yang entered Zhang Ziyun's house.

That glamorous woman outside usually lives in a messy house, and I don't know how long it hasn't been tidied up.

The only thing to be thankful for is that the house is not only messy but not dirty, it can still accommodate people.

Zhang Ziyun tidied up the sofa casually, leaving a space for Chen Yang to sit on, and then walked to the water heater, wanting to give her a beaker of hot water, but found the drinking water in the bucket It's bottomed out, and I can't take it out anymore.

"Sorry? Sorry." Her smile was a bit bleak, a look that would not be seen by others on weekdays.

After a brief moment of embarrassment, Zhang Ziyun took out the mobile phone whose screen was broken when he didn't know when, and called the water delivery company.

Chen Yang bit his lower lip silently, and waited until Zhang Ziyun hung up the phone, then raised his eyes and asked again: "What happened?"

"Small things."

"What have you been doing recently?" Chen Yang asked in a different way.

Zhang Ziyun thought for a while, and said, "What did you do before, what do you do now?"

"Lack of money?"

"No shortage." Zhang Ziyun replied indifferently.

Chen Yang clearly sensed that Zhang Ziyun was in trouble, but she didn't know how to help her. After a long silence, she took a deep breath and asked, "Have a meal together?"

Zhang Ziyun shook his head: "No."

That was the first time, Chen Yang failed to ask Zhang Ziyun to have a meal, maybe it was because she bumped into her in a mess.

A woman was beaten but dared not speak out, but went to the hospital for a check-up and paid for medicine to treat her injuries. This is definitely not a good thing.

Chen Yang thought about it, but couldn't feel relieved, so he paid someone to protect him secretly.

Only after that did she know that Zhang Ziyun used to wander around bars every night, getting drunk with different people.

Sometimes it's one person, sometimes it's a group, there is always someone who is taken advantage of will pay for her, and the wine she ordered is often of great value.

It turned out that Zhang Ziyun was just a bartender, surrounded by countless idiots who could just get rid of after cheating - getting a commission from the bar owner, this was her source of income.

Chen Yang never thought that he would be looking at such a woman.

Her heart chilled uncontrollably, and she wanted to ignore this woman anymore, but she still couldn't help herself, and she didn't take away the protection hidden in the dark.

Day by day? Day by day, I didn't contact Zhang Ziyun for a while, Chen Yang almost forgot about it, but suddenly got the news.

At that time? Exactly after the year, Chen Yang just celebrated the New Year with his family.

Someone provoked someone in a bar where Zhang Ziyun often went, but was stopped and expelled by bodyguards pretending to be passers-by.

That man wanted to do something to her. Judging from the content of the dispute between the two, it seemed that this was not the first time that he had entangled her like this. It could even be said that the man came after him from another place.

After receiving the news, Chen Yang hesitated for a long time, but finally booked a plane ticket and rushed back to Yuanchuan overnight.

She thought, Zhang Ziyun deceived so many idiots by virtue of her beauty to pay for her in bars. It is common for one or two lunatics to be unable to throw it away.

But in the end, she just couldn't let it go.

On the second night, wearing a mask, she found a bar that she had never been to according to the location reported by the bodyguard.

The resident band performed the hottest song on the Internet recently in front of the booing crowd, arousing everyone's enthusiasm.

Some people moved to the rhythm of the music, and some people chatted and drank everywhere. It was very noisy here, and the eyes were full of clutter that could be seen everywhere.

Chen Yang went through the crowd, and after a lot of effort, he found Zhang Ziyun in the corner who was drinking and chatting with others.

Her eyes were calm, with an almost professional smirk in her eyes, as if she didn't take what happened last night to heart at all.

Chen Yang couldn't help gritting his teeth and clenching his fists, turned and left with red eyes.

But after a brief moment of indignation, she turned around and strode towards where Zhang Ziyun was.

Under the surprised gaze of the man, she grabbed Zhang Ziyun's wrist, paid for the drink without any explanation, and took him away from here with the most stubborn gesture.

With Chen Yang's current status, going into and out of the bar alone will definitely have a bad impact. Zhang Ziyun was afraid that his resistance would attract the attention of others, so he behaved extremely quietly until he was dragged into a deserted alley by her. , Only then broke free from her palm.

"The person who hit you last time was the guy who pestered you yesterday?" Chen Yang opened the door and Jian Shandi questioned.

A trace of disbelief flashed across Zhang Ziyun's already puzzled eyes.

After a short pause, she raised her lips and said, "So you asked someone to watch me?"

Chen Yang gritted his teeth and said angrily, "I'm looking for someone to protect you!"

Zhang Ziyun yelled, "You find someone to watch me!"

Isn't that surveillance?I know her every move, know that she was pestered yesterday, and know where she is today.

This kind of monitoring should last for a long time, right?

Therefore, Chen Yang should be very clear about what kind of person she is.

Chen Yang tried her best not to let the tears of grievance fall from her eyes. For a moment, she suddenly felt that all her wishful thinking was just humiliating herself.

A person who is not worthy of her protection at all is blaming her for protecting him at this moment.

"Zhang Ziyun, are you very short of money?" Chen Yang sneered, "Is the money coming quickly for such a deceptive thing?"

Zhang Ziyun sneered twice, and said: "Yeah, the money comes very quickly, and there are so many idiots... If you smile at them, they will naively think that as long as they spend this money for you, they will be able to... Sleep with you. Such a fool, pretend to be innocent with him afterwards, say that he thinks too much, and then take the opportunity to distance himself, so he can do anything? Fool it..."

"You have hands and feet, and you're about to graduate from college, what can't you do?" Chen Yang asked with a frown.

"Graduate from what college? I dropped out of school a long time ago." Zhang Ziyun's eyes were full of indifference, "You people who have everything since childhood, always stand and talk without back pain..."

"you……"

"I'm just short of money! My ass debt at home is waiting for me to pay it off by myself, so what's wrong with me just wanting to make some quick money? First, I didn't steal, and second, I didn't grab it. I coaxed some fools to buy me a drink. You love me." Wishing is not for sale!"

"This is a lie, it involves money, and it's against the law!" Chen Yang corrected.

Zhang Ziyun nodded and said, "Then you want? Don't you? Call the police and arrest me?"

Chen Yang: "..."

Zhang Ziyun: "Go, anyway, it's not like I haven't been punished before, isn't it just criticizing education and fines?"

Chen Yang: "You are self-defeating! You are hopeless!"

"Chen Yang, what do you know? Not everyone can? Choose their fate! Do you think there is a better choice? Who would be willing? Like this? In a daze!" Zhang Ziyun gritted his teeth and shouted, "Money! Money! Money! I've been bound by this thing my whole life! Since the day my dad died, people have been using this thing to force me!"

"Forcing me to be 16 years old, I have to go to school and work part-time at the same time, saving food and money just to fill the hole in the family... Before the college entrance examination, I didn't even dare to go back to school. After graduation, it's not easy I paid off the money, and I was pestered endlessly! I'm going crazy!"

"In order to take care of my emotions, my mother left her job and moved to other places with me. She was struggling with food and housing only on the rent of a flat at home. She also had to pay for my schooling. I worked hard to make money, or I can only watch helplessly as she suffers from mental problems, and her body collapses day by day. She has a terminal illness, and when she found out, it was already too late... I stopped studying, I borrowed money everywhere, and I desperately made money , I just want to treat her and want her to live a few more years, could it be that I am wrong!"

But Zhang's mother left in the end. She didn't die of illness, but gave up her own life.

Her husband passed away unexpectedly, and her daughter gave up her studies because of her. She was mentally disturbed and felt that she was a burden now, so she chose to cut her wrists and commit suicide in a night when no one was around.

She walked very quietly, leaving behind only one daughter who would never be "dragged" by anyone.

Part of the money I borrowed from others for medical treatment was returned untouched, and part of it is still being repaid slowly, almost on the verge of being paid off.

And she has long been used to such a muddle-headed life.

She has not been a good girl for a long time, so there is no need to pretend anymore.

Depravity has its benefits, at least after lowering the bottom line of self-morality, she lived a lot more freely.

"I'm living a good life now? You good girls who only dare to go to the bar after drinking, don't understand how happy it is to be free... What's wrong with being drunk and dreaming in a place where the lights are feasting? "

Everything Zhang Ziyun said was so ironic.

At that moment, in the empty alley, there was only the sound of two people breathing in the cold winter night.

After a long silence, Zhang Ziyun smiled indifferently, stepped on high heels, turned around and left unsteadily.

"How much do you owe? I'll pay it back for you!" Chen Yang took two steps forward and shouted, "There are still people who pester you, how much do you owe him? I will pay for you. From then on, you and them Cut off contact, don't do such a thing again!"

Zhang Ziyun's steps faltered, and he was silent for a few seconds before turning around with a sneer and asking, "What? You want to redeem me? I don't have a contract of sale."

Chen Yang said: "I just want to help you!"

"Do you think you are the savior of the world? Not everyone expects to receive charity." Zhang Ziyun's tone was frivolous, and his eyes were full of sarcasm.

I don't know? Are you laughing at Chen Yang, or yourself.

"Aren't you just short of money? What's the difference between what you owe others and what you owe me?" Chen Yang tried to take a step forward, his tone softened a little, "I don't need you? Pay it back in a hurry, take your time..."

"Enough!" Zhang Ziyun interrupted, "I'm not feeling well, should I go home and rest."

Such a resolute attitude undoubtedly pierced into Chen Yang's heart like a thorn.

She doesn't understand, she can't understand, isn't Zhang Ziyun just short of money?Why would you rather humiliate yourself than accept her help?

She had always thought that she was special in Zhang Ziyun's heart, but she didn't realize until this moment. From Zhang Ziyun's point of view, she didn't even have the qualifications to lend a helping hand to her.

After a moment of unwillingness, Chen Yang strode forward, grabbed Zhang Ziyun's wrist, and asked with red eyes: "Zhang Ziyun! Can't you just think I'm a fool? You have deceived so many fools, Is there really one more of me!"

"..."

"You know clearly that the people who spend money for you want to sleep with you, are you still willing? Smile at them... I am willing too? Spending money for you, I am a fool, a big fool!" Chen Yang clenched tightly Zhang Ziyun yelled without hesitation, "If you are short of money, you can just swindle some fool on social software, why not? It's me! Using my money, is it better than being a wine trustee, talking to you every day? A bunch of rotten people are doing Tai Chi, so you can't? Accept it!"

In this passage, I almost didn't say it clearly - I want? You, as long as? You are willing?, I can take care of you.

When the words fell, her face was already covered with tears.

Chen Yang never thought that he was such a fragile person, and he was the aggressive one, but he almost broke down in tears while talking.

Such words shattered not only her pride, but also Zhang Ziyun's self-esteem.

She suddenly felt that the self who could say such a thing was like a bastard, a hooligan, and a licking dog with no bottom line.

But Zhang Ziyun in front of him just stared at Chen Yang quietly for a long time.

At the end, she smiled with a hollow look in her eyes.

"Anyone can, but you can't?"

"why……"

"We are not people from the same world." Zhang Ziyun said, pulling her ten fingers away from his wrist one by one.

That momentary feeling of shame made the despair that was so hard to dissipate come to my heart again.

Ever since she was a child, she has never been a good thing. She has listened to all kinds of ugly insults over the years. No matter how she sticks to her bottom line, in the eyes of others, she is just that kind of money. You can make an appointment with a woman who will go for a night.

That kind of clean girl, she doesn't deserve it.

This was true for Lu Yudong in the past, and it is even more true for the dazzling Chen Yang now.

She should like this girl, she is stupid and simple, if she gets three points, she is willing to return seven points of sincerity.

This girl is obviously an extremely superior person in every aspect, but she has been keeping all her figures flat by her side.

In particular, this goddess who is so beautiful on the stage, every time she gets along with her in private? The delicate thought of being cautious and afraid of hurting her, and the little appearance of joy and shyness when seeing her? Really It's hard not to be moved by it.

It's a pity that she is not worthy, so she suppresses everything, passively waits quietly and without deliberately, waiting for Chen Yang to lose interest in her.

If I can hide it better, at least I can still be friends... But a fake is a fake, and if it is a disguise, it will be exposed one day.

That day has come.

So she could only leave, with her last dignity, turned and left without looking back.

"You hate me that much?"

The last questioning got no answer.

For the first time, a well-behaved girl who grew up worry-free, felt the frustration of getting what she wanted.

She thought, maybe Zhang Ziyun?has?had?had?hated her all along, and those indifferent feelings have never been an?illusion.

In fact, she should have known it earlier, but she couldn't help being smart and deceiving herself.

The author has something to say: you all know the ending, and the extra episode is just to make up the process.No knife, sweet from the next chapter.

感谢在2021-01-2304:35:05~2021-01-2422:23:16期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who cast the rocket launcher: Yuyue Nongying 1;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: Xiao Li is unreasonable 2; ~Purple & Wind Chimes~1;

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: Mu Qingmu, Apr, yes haha. 1;

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