Soul knot

Zhang Ziyun never thought that Chen Yang would still silently care about her when she said such hurtful words that night, and even found Lu Yudong to ask her about the past.

She didn't know what Lu Yudong had said? What, she was flustered for a while, but she showed it inadvertently, and was seen as a half? Vulnerable.

Thinking about it carefully, the person who once chased here from other places to trouble her, and harassed her with frantic text messages and calls every day, seems to have not appeared for a long time?

And that person no longer pestered her precisely because he came to trouble her last time and ran into someone sent by Chen Yang to secretly protect her.

In fact, she knew that ever since Chen Yang suddenly appeared in front of her that night, she had always known that Chen Yang sent her away? That person, she didn't know whether it was with money or power.

She is no longer a person who can accept other people's kindness with peace of mind.

She doesn't like this, because she is afraid that she will not be able to repay this love, and she is even more afraid that she will fall again.

Most of the time, people are like this. After groping alone for a long time, it is easy to change their minds. They are not afraid that others will treat her badly, but only that others will treat her too well.

Because she can't repay, and because she can't accept it with peace of mind.

In the final analysis, she is too clear about how difficult it is to quit relying on a person.

It's like during the days when Chen Yang was cruelly severed from contact, even if he didn't rely on him, he already had it? The reluctance that shouldn't exist.

It's just that she didn't think about what this reluctance could change. After all, if she was given another chance to start over, she would make the same choice and bite the bullet to defend her last dignity in front of Chen Yang.

Such a choice once made her think that she was about to lose the person she cherished in her heart.

Fortunately, what she was worried about didn't really happen.

Maybe God really saw her suffering enough, it's over? Punishment for her.

Or maybe, all the luck in her life was used to meet those people who treated her best.

Lu Yudong, who used to never leave her, no matter what happened.

No matter how unbearable she is now, she has never thought of her as Chen Yang.

They are like two rays of light.

A ray once grew up according to her stumbling in this world full of ups and downs, and a ray is outside the dark room. When you are exhausted, you can draw the curtains and you can see it.

Zhang Ziyun thought, she should be brave once.

So this time, she no longer rejects the desire to help her, and accepts the opportunity given by Chen Yang.

After getting in touch with the director of this album, she wrote a song for Chen Yang.

A song for myself and also for Chen Yang.

There is only one me in this world.

Bad deeds, and good things missed?

Repelling everything, preferring to guard,

The bitter fruit of their own planting.

There is only one me in this world.

Tiny dust drifts in the sky and the earth.

When the wind blows, involuntarily,

Will it fall into the gully of no one.

I hide the quiet past in my heart and let the wind blow.

Don't look forward to the next reunion.

There is no deep-rooted memory, no embarrassment, at most ignorance.

Can it work? Spring, summer, autumn and winter.

The crowd of strangers will be instigated by others.

They love to go with the flow first, and then complain about numbness and obedience.

When the spring breeze passes through the border, when the ice and snow melt.

Will someone tear off the face of hypocrisy and accompany me to indulge.

me like this,

Who do you pass by along the way?

Which destination to find at the end,

They are all running towards freedom.

That song is called "I", Chen Yang likes it very much, and the album director system also appreciates it very much.

Zhang Ziyun is an unknown creator, so the final reward will be relatively lower than other well-known creators who participated in the production.

But for Zhang Ziyun, this is already a very impressive number.

After giving up her studies and her dreams, she never thought that one day she would be able to make money from music and even be recognized by many people.

After the title song was recorded, Chen Yang sent Zhang Ziyun a demo that didn't do any mixing, just added a little reverb.

She asked her: Will it? Do you think it sounds good?Has it been ruined? Your lyrics [poor].

When Zhang Ziyun saw it, he smiled heartily, holding his mobile phone and replied: The fairy went down to earth to sing? It directly reminded me of a singer I particularly like.

Chen Yang: Which one?

Zhang Ziyun: Chen Yang.

Chen Yang: Are you flirting with me?

Zhang Ziyun: No.

Chen Yang: You are flirting with me!

Zhang Ziyun: Is there any?

Chen Yang: Yes!

Chen Yang: I feel it!

Zhang Ziyun: Then what should I do?

Chen Yang: You have to be responsible!

Zhang Ziyun: [I was so scared that I dropped all the melon seeds?]

Chen Yang: I have a question that I have always wanted to ask you.

Zhang Ziyun: What's the problem?

Chen Yang: Someone is chasing you, but you don't like it, will you refuse?

Zhang Ziyun: I will?

Chen Yang: What if that person is me?

Zhang Ziyun: Are you chasing me?

Chen Yang: I'm chasing you.

Zhang Ziyun: I have nothing good.

Chen Yang: Take a look in the mirror.

Zhang Ziyun:? ? ?

Chen Yang: Anywhere is good for you.

Chen Yang: As I said, I believe in love at first sight.

Chen Yang: As I said, if the person I like is an amateur, I will protect her.

Chen Yang: That person is you, from the first day I saw you, I thought it was you?

Chen Yang: So, if I chase you, will you reject me?

Zhang Ziyun: Chen Yang, you may still not know me well, I don't have a few truths in my mouth.

Zhang Ziyun: You know, I'm a wine trustee, an emotional liar.

After Zhang Ziyun replied the message, he fell into a brief period of thought.

At the other end of the chat window, "typing" is always displayed.

Holding the hand of the mobile phone, she broke out in a cold sweat unconsciously, and could only loop the demo sent by Chen Yang.

Fortunately, Chen Yang didn't spend too much time organizing his words, and his anxiety was finally relieved after Chen Yang sent a response.

Chen Yang: I believe that's not you, you don't want to be such a person.

Chen Yang: Zhang Ziyun, if you are such a person, why didn't you lie to me?

Chen Yang: Am I not as rich as those people?As long as you please? I, I am willing to give you anything, you know it, but you didn't do it.

Chen Yang: I know you are forced to, you have your difficulties, although I don't agree with your approach, but I don't think you have no chance of turning back.

Chen Yang: You can start over.

Chen Yang: You have the ability to do well!

Chen Yang: As long as you want, I can accompany you.Accompany you to come out from the past, and accompany you to rely on your own efforts to gain recognition bit by bit.

Chen Yang: So are you willing?

Zhang Ziyun stared blankly at every sentence Chen Yang sent, his mind was buzzing for a while, not knowing how to respond.

She wanted to say that she wasn't worthy, but there was a voice in her heart that kept saying to her——can you, please, be selfish for the last time.

If you want, reach out and grab it, okay?

It's really too bitter for a person.

Chen Yang: Zhang Ziyun, if you say you don't like it, you will? Reject.

Chen Yang: You didn't reject me now.

Chen Yang: So does this mean you are willing to accept it?

……

That night, Zhang Ziyun didn't dare to reply.

She turned off her mobile phone, sat on the bed with her knees hugged, and sat in a daze until dawn.

The next day, when the phone was turned on again, only one message was received.

Chen Yang said: "I'll wait for you all night. If you don't refuse, I'll take it as your acquiescence. Starting tomorrow, we will be in

together. "

Zhang Ziyun was stunned for a while with dark circles under his eyes, and finally replied like lost his soul: "The phone was turned off last night."

Chen Yang replied almost instantly: "I know, the phone call?? There is a reminder, are you avoiding me?"

Zhang Ziyun: Are you angry?

Chen Yang: I was very angry and left me alone all night.

Zhang Ziyun: Sorry.

Chen Yang: So you want to understand?Are you going to reject me?

Zhang Ziyun: I didn't want to understand.

Chen Yang: Is that accepted?

Seeing Zhang Ziyun, he couldn't help but smile heartily.

She hurriedly asked, where did this conclusion come from?

Chen Yang: That night, I said something that hurt your self-esteem, but you didn't blame me, and you didn't block me.

Chen Yang: You are willing to help me write a song, and you really wrote it for me with your heart? A song I like very much.

Chen Yang: Last night, you said you would? Reject someone you don't like.

Chen Yang: But when I said I wanted to pursue you, you couldn't bear to refuse after thinking about it all night.

Chen Yang: You still say you have no feelings for me?

If you like someone, you can't hide it.

No matter how hard you try to deceive, deceive others and yourself, it's like wrapping fire in paper, and it won't take long for it to burn blazingly.

This is the second time she yearns for a nice girl.

How lucky, this girl, cares about her too.

Zhang Ziyun: So with my current status, what should I do?

Zhang Ziyun's reply made Chen Yang dumbfounded for a while.

From Chen Yang's point of view, Zhang Ziyun has always been an eloquent person, but today's Zhang Ziyun is somewhat clumsy in his words and deeds.

She thought, she likes Zhang Ziyun, but can't she follow Zhang Ziyun's everything? Otherwise, she might not get much favor from her in the future.

So, she pressed her finger on the voice message and said two words into the phone.

"Coax me!"

***

The end of April of that year was the day when Chen Yang's first album was released.

Zhang Ziyun waited anxiously for the online version of the paid album to go online, refreshing the album and the evaluation of each song time and time again.

The title song she wrote for Chen Yang lived up to expectations and became the most praised song in the entire album.

On the day the album was released, Chen Yang also posted a Weibo.

In Weibo, she said: ""I" wrote? A lonely 'I', but 'I' won't? I will always be alone, because 'I' deserves to be loved. Here, I hope everyone, no matter ordinary or extraordinary, You can find someone who will accompany you to indulge yourself.”

Some people suspect that Chen Yang has left the single? This is an announcement of a relationship, but some people think that this is just a publicity for the title song of the new album, a piece of creative inspiration.

Chen Yang is very popular? Some people noticed the name Zhang Ziyun because of the lyrics and music of this song, and Zhang Ziyun was invited to some projects because of this.

Although they were all small projects, and Zhang Ziyun's own fame didn't get much reward, but at least the road to music had a good start.

In the days that followed, Chen Yang sang Zhang Ziyun's lyrics and music works many times.

Two years later, at his first solo concert, Chen Yang invited Zhang Ziyun to sing a new arrangement of "I" with him.

In the past two years, Zhang Ziyun has become a well-known songwriter, and many film and television works have asked her to cooperate.

Many people have heard the songs written by her, but no one knows that she is also very good at singing. She is definitely a beautiful singer-songwriter with singing skills and talent.

In the past two years, Zhang Ziyun has not appeared in any interviews, and will always be a behind-the-scenes creator.

Some netizens laughed and said that Chen Yang had hidden treasures like Zhang Ziyun for two years. For some reason, this sentence was heard by a small number of CP fans who are addicted to "beautiful singers? Binding creators" every day. Once again, I found a clip of Chen Yang in an interview a long time ago.

The broadcast volume of that interview on Xiaopozhan was very low, about [-] to [-].

In the video, Chen Yang said that if the person she likes is an amateur, she will try her best to protect him and prevent him from being judged by others.

Then? In connection with the passage that Chen Yang posted on Weibo when the first album was released that year, and such an important title song, the songwriter chose Zhang Ziyun, who was not well-known and had no works at that time.

CP fans expressed kdlkdl one after another.

Of course, this was a small-scale nibbling, and it didn't cause much splash.

Chen Yang didn't really announce his relationship, not because he was afraid of affecting his career, but because he was afraid that his family would do something that would hurt Zhang Ziyun.

Zhang Ziyun expressed her understanding, she could wait, or she could not have a title?

They are doing very well now, being separated from each other or sharing the same room is much better than before.

Zhang Ziyun didn't want too much, now she has no parents and no family, Chen Yang is her everything, she doesn't want her existence to become resistance or pressure to Chen Yang.

But when Chen Yang heard her say such words, he was angry on the spot?

In front of Zhang Ziyun, Chen Yang angrily accused Zhang Ziyun, saying that Zhang Ziyun couldn't think like this.

Chen Yang said that she will definitely? Give her a title? At least, she will definitely? Find a suitable opportunity and think of a way to let her family accept her.

Chen Yang said, title? Not just a title?.

It still feels safe and a real home.

She said, it's not that you have no family, I am your family.

Destiny will crush many people, not necessarily the crushed people are too fragile, maybe just their world, less? A person who truly understands them and is willing to carefully open a window for them and send in a ray of light people.

Sometimes Zhang Ziyun would think about whether all the misfortunes in his life were just a kind of test.

Maybe there is a definite destiny in the dark, if she gritted her teeth and survived the most difficult period, she would definitely meet the person who took her out of the haze.

That night, she asked Chen Yang: "Did Yudong tell you? I liked her."

"No, but she told me about a lot of things in your middle and high school years. I was the one who asked, and she told me all of it." Chen Yang said, "Yudong is beautiful and gentle. You are so busy, and you are always by your side when you are desperate. I am not surprised when you say you like her. On the contrary, if you have no feelings for her, I will wonder if you are not bent at all .”

Chen Yang's tone was so calm that no one could hear his happiness or anger.

Zhang Ziyun looked at it seriously? Chen Yang asked again after a long time, "Have you ever cared?"

Chen Yang asked back: "Then what is Lu Yudong to you? White moonlight? Cinnabar mole? What have you been asking for all your life?"

"Are you jealous?"

"I do not have."

"Are you jealous?"

"I do not have!"

"Did I put it down long ago?" Zhang Ziyun said, leaning into Chen Yang's ear, and said softly, "I am very selfish."

She said she was very selfish.

She likes that Lu Yudong treats her well, but if Lu Yudong treats her badly, she doesn't like it either.

But what she and Chen Yang said on the day when they were not old friends was true.

She really fell in love with Chen Yang in that show, and she couldn't bear to miss every stage of Chen Yang.

She said that on the day when someone who was not an old friend met Chen Yang, her heart was beating so fast, but she didn't dare to show it, so she could only pretend to be calm.

At that time, she clearly knew that she was not worthy of her, but she couldn't hide her selfishness and wanted to get close to her.

Then, I struggled and hesitated again and again, and kept getting stuck.

"I like that you treat me well, but when you ignore me, I still can't let go..."

"In that year, I could leave everything behind and go away to escape Lu Yudong, but I couldn't escape? You. In front of you, I was so cowardly that I couldn't even delete a WeChat friend."

How lucky you didn't give up on me when I decided to give up on myself.

The author has something to say: The story of Chen Yang and Zhang Ziyun is over. I originally thought about whether to write a class reunion content and then revenge and slap my face or something, but I feel that so many years have passed, and I still go back and care about the hurt I received. , his mind is too small, he lives well is the best way to slap those who bullied him, anyway, now that Zhang Ziyun is famous, wealthy and has a daughter-in-law, he is also someone who those people couldn't afford.

*感谢在2021-01-2823:12:13~2021-01-3123:20:35期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw the landmines: 2 for yu; 1 for bastard and raccoon if motionless;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：Shen31瓶；aman20瓶；胖花15瓶；胖麦10瓶；星期天5瓶；凌泡君2瓶；火山啊火山1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!