you're nothing but scum

Tang Qilin had a large number of people and forced them to apologize to me.

The man who insulted me shrank back and whispered to me: "Yes, yes, I'm sorry, it's my fault..." The others also echoed.

Qi Ling said slowly: "Today is my brother's fault, I'm sorry."

I looked at him silently, wishing I could tear off his mask, but I was in no mood to fight with them anymore.

There will never be a shortage of such people in nightclubs. I should have thought that I would have this day a long time ago, but I didn't expect it to be so sudden.

Liang Liang walked up to Qi Ling, and Lin Luo stared at them nervously.

Liang Liang and Qi Ling looked at each other, and suddenly Liang Liang raised his hand and punched Qi Ling.He whispered with a look of disgust: "You are so fucking disgusting, take your people and get out of here as soon as possible."

"Liang Ying?" Qi Ling covered his face, licked the bleeding corner of his mouth and narrowed his eyes.

"I just wanted to find a way to take revenge on you these two days, but I don't have the ability to take revenge on you. After all, I'm not as good as you. I obviously don't like men, but I still pretend to like them to seduce other people," Liang Liang said. Said sarcastically, "I can't help it. At that time, I was still young, so I could only treat it as being bitten by a dog."

Qi Ling was about to speak, but Liang Liang interrupted him, and said with a sneer: "Also, I really don't do it here, because someone wants to take me away. You'd better get out early, don't dirty my eyes."

Lin Luo's eyes lit up.

Tang Qilin came over and frowned and said, "Hey, you don't need to beat them to relieve your anger, just let them go?" He stretched out his hand to grab me, I turned sideways to avoid him, and looked at Song Xiuming.

He met my gaze, frowned and touched my swollen right cheek, and asked in a low voice, "Does it still hurt? Today is my fault, I am late."

I twitched the corners of my mouth, thinking it would be better if I came late.

Otherwise, what the man said before was heard by Song Xiuming, how can I explain to him.

Song Xiuming looked very cold when he first came in, but I guess even if he didn't hear anything, he could guess what happened.It is estimated that if it is not for the quality, he would have already raised his fist to beat people.

My whole head was in a mess, I never thought that something like this would happen when I came to see Liang Liang.The stump of my left leg also started to hurt again, and the prosthetic limb seemed to be a little bit off when I was struggling, and it pinched into my flesh, which was painful.

The back of my head and neck still hurt to this day.

But these have not attracted my attention, I just want to get out of this place, wishing to forget everything in the back of my mind.

I just stood by the bar in a daze. Song Xiuming called me many times before I realized it.

Song Xiuming sighed, approached me and whispered in my ear: "Don't think too much, let's go back, okay?"

I nodded dully.

Lin Luo stayed to take care of Liang Liang, Tang Qilin looked at me and Song Xiuming coldly, and rarely stopped him.Before I followed Song Xiuming and turned to leave, my eyes swept across the man.

He also looked at me, although he apologized to me humbly just now, but there was obvious contempt in his eyes.

Those eyes didn't look like they were looking at a person at all.

I was silent all the way home.

Song Xiuming was driving the car, and it took a while before he said, "Xiao Le?"

"...Huh?" I turned to look at him tiredly.

"Don't think too much," he glanced at me, and said softly, "The past is over, you have already left that place."

I twitched the corner of my mouth and said, "I know..."

"I've fallen before, and even though I came to my senses quickly, it's true that I casually find someone to spend the night with," Song Xiuming said, "You know my past, and I know yours, Xiao Le, I don't agree with you escaping from those things, after all, you have experienced them yourself, and only when you fully accept it and face it, will you stop being disturbed by it, you know?"

I nodded lazily, looked out the car window, but didn't listen at all.

That's right, Song Xiuming also had a history of depravity.

But I am different from him.

It is common for people to fall once in a while when they are frustrated, and those who wake up quickly like Song Xiuming are still considered rational people.Thinking about it, I know, how dirty is the black history that Song Xiuming said?His past has always been glamorous, with a perfect family, a beautiful education, and a respected career.How many times can he have a one-night stand, once?twice?and I?

I'm not like him at all.

My past was like the deadliest and quietest pool, filled with a lot of rubbish and aquatic plants, which had rotted and rotted year after year.

How can I compare with Song Xiuming?

I may always talk about my past in a nonchalant tone, and I never want to admit that I am ashamed of what I did.After all, I made all the choices. For a long time, I even faced this matter with a broken attitude. When someone ridiculed me as an MB, I could always find more mean words to retort.

But with the passage of year after year, as people around me come and go, and come again after leaving, my state of mind will also slowly change.

Gradually, I began to be reluctant to recall the past, and I also felt ashamed of myself.I want to overthrow the past and start over, but this kind of thing is never possible.

But how can I redeem the mistakes I made in the past?

When I went to bed at night, it took me a long time to fall asleep, but I had nightmares again.

Yao Jiu no longer appeared in my dream, but something earlier than him knowing me appeared.

I dreamed that I was wandering the streets at midnight, walking shoulder to shoulder with Liang Liang.

We drank wine and sang songs.

I dreamed that the man I couldn't even remember my appearance staggered in the middle of the night and swiped the card to open the door. Once we entered the room, we couldn't wait to kiss and take off our clothes.

He touched my body and I tugged at his belt.

The two of us just had fun on the bed, smelling of alcohol, until dawn.

When I woke up, I was very irritable.

I wanted to fall asleep again, but there were so many pictures tossing and turning in my mind.

I saw myself moaning under those men, how I hugged them, or sat on them, as if I was looking at someone else.

Is that another person?

How can I act like a totally irrational animal?Is that person really me?

Was it the same when I was pinned down by Song Xiuming?Is it also this disgusting appearance that I can't face up to?

The stump of the left leg ached, and the place that had been tortured by the prosthetic for so long made its presence felt again.

My stomach felt uncomfortable, I turned over a few times without falling asleep, and finally felt sick.I lifted the quilt, picked up my crutches and ran to the toilet without even putting on my slippers, and vomited into the toilet.

The sound alarmed Song Xiuming, who came out after me, and said in a hoarse voice, "Xiao Le?"

The sound of hurried footsteps sounded, and he rushed to my side to help me and said anxiously: "Why did you vomit?"

I shook my head, and before I could speak, I vomited into the toilet again, but all I spit out was acidic water.Song Xiuming comforted me in a low voice and patted my back.

When the whole person recovered, I sat down on the floor of the bathroom like this.

Song Xiuming brought me a water cup, I rinsed my mouth, and spit the water in my mouth into the toilet.

Song Xiuming looked at me for a while, then suddenly hugged me.

I was slightly startled, and then I heard Song Xiuming whisper above my head: "Xiao Le, it's okay, I'm here."

My eyes became hot, I grabbed his hand subconsciously, and said with some sobs: "Song Xiuming, I'm sorry."

"……Do not say such things."

But I closed my eyes and couldn't stop repeating in a low voice: "...I'm sorry."

I didn't go to the store the next day, but Liang Liang reassured me.The relationship between him and Lin Luo seems to have eased a lot now. He said that today is just a weekend, and Lin Luo accompanied him to the T University to open a shop early, and said that he would come to see me in the evening.

Song Xiuming didn't leave just after dawn, he made me breakfast, I was woken up by him and urged him to go to work, and Song Xiuming was willing to leave after reassuring that there would be no problems.

I lay blankly on the big bed until noon, then I changed my clothes, put on my artificial limbs and went to Song Xiuming's hospital.

I didn't tell Song Xiuming that I would go. I went upstairs to find Xu Meng and asked him to help me readjust my prosthesis.

When Xu Meng was working, he said, "Even if you wear artificial limbs, you can't be like those other people. You can't mess around, or it won't be good for your body."

I nodded and said, "I see."

Xu Meng glanced at me and said, "What, you're in a bad mood today?"

I froze for a moment, shook my head and said, "Nothing."

"Then why didn't Doctor Song accompany you today?"

I paused and said, "...Why do I always want him to accompany me?"

"Hey, that's true," Xu Meng said, "Their surgeon is also busy. If you want to see him, you can go to the orthopedics department on the fourth floor."

I smiled and said, "I know."

After putting on the prosthesis again, I said goodbye to Xu Meng and left.

I entered the elevator, hesitated for a moment when choosing a floor, and clicked "four".

I descended two floors to the fourth floor. As soon as the elevator door opened, I saw Song Xiuming and Lin Yan standing in front of the nurse's desk.

I was stunned.

Song Xiuming turned his back to me and leaned sideways on the nurse's desk, while Lin Yan and him were talking face to face.Both of them were wearing white coats, with a unique temperament, and they were also the focus of the little nurses' eyes.Song Xiuming gestured with his hands, he didn't know what he was talking about, and suddenly the two of them laughed together, even the nurse standing behind the nurse's desk was also smiling.

Someone came over and was stunned when they saw me standing in the elevator.

I noticed Lin Yan's eyes about to turn around, and immediately shrank back into the elevator, clumsily giving way to the people who came in.The man gave me a strange look, walked in, and the elevator doors closed again.

I leaned against the cold elevator wall, a little dazed.