you're nothing but scum

When Liang Liang came in the evening, he happily talked to me about how much money he and Lin Luo made today, and also said that Lin Luo suggested that we can start some simple tea beverage business, such as Pu’er tea, green tea and so on.As long as the price is cheap, more people still prefer to drink this kind of thing than milk tea.

I echoed him, but my thoughts wandered. I waited until Liang Liang stretched out his hand and waved it in front of me, then I came back to look at him.

Liang Liang curled his lips and said, "What do you think?"

I shook my head and asked, "Are you and Lin Luo okay?"

"What's the matter?" Liang Liang looked a little awkward, "Anyway, he can't do anything to me, that's all."

I laughed: "Then you still live next door to them now?"

Liang Liang nodded stiffly.

I sighed: "You must not be discovered by Aunt Lin and Uncle Lin."

Liang Liang immediately frowned, and shouted: "Why didn't I find out, I didn't do anything!"

Who are you telling it to? If you didn't plan to get along with Lin Luo, you wouldn't live back next door to others, and let them see that you can't eat.

Liang Liang snorted, and asked again: "What about you? How are you and Song Xiuming?"

I was taken aback: "What's going on with him?"

"Hey, isn't it the 'Nightlight' thing?" Liang Liang said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, it's all my fault. It would be nice if I drove Qi Ling and the others away earlier."

I touched his head and thought to myself, who hasn't been stupid once or twice.

It wasn't until I lay in bed for a while at night that I heard the sound of the door opening outside the house.

I turned on the night light, and my thoughts drifted a little, listening to the slight rubbing sound of people outside the door throwing clothes on the sofa, and the sound of footsteps gradually approaching here.

The door was opened, and Song Xiuming walked in lightly. He was stunned when he saw my eyes open, and said with a smile, "I haven't slept yet."

I nodded and asked, "Another operation today?"

"Yes," Song Xiuming came over and put the phone on the bedside table, then sat on the bed, leaned over and kissed my forehead, and said, "I'm going to take a shower, you go to bed first."

I replied softly: "Yes."

However, I couldn't fall asleep until Song Xiuming lay down next to me after taking a shower and heard the sound of steady breathing.

Three days later, I went to their hospital again and asked Lin Yan to do acupuncture for me.

Their floor was exceptionally quiet, and there were not many people coming and going.

I was lying on the bed, and Lin Yan was behind my back to help me stick the needle. I asked him, "When will I finish this course of treatment?"

Lin Yan's voice came from behind: "Why, you've only been doing this for two or three months, and you're impatient to continue?"

I said, "Aren't my legs better?"

"Yes, but if you stop the treatment as soon as you get better, it is easy to relapse. The course of Chinese medicine treatment is very long, and you know it."

I thought about it, and said nothing.

Lin Yan said again: "Speaking of which, are you in a bad mood these days?"

I froze and asked, "What?"

"It's nothing, but I noticed when Song Xiuming and I were talking, did something happen between you?"

I frowned, thinking about what Song Xiuming had said to this person, and replied, "It's nothing, what did he tell you?"

"He said that he saw that you were in a bad mood, and he didn't know how to comfort you... He really loves you, and he would be depressed all day even about this matter, which made the nurses think that Dr. Song had found a very sensitive doctor. Girlfriend." Lin Yan said with a smile.

I felt a little uncomfortable, and said lightly: "Then please tell him, I'm in a good mood."

Lin Yan stopped talking, and after a few seconds, he sighed softly and said, "Don't be angry, I was just joking with you. It's true that Song Xiuming loves you... If you don't take you seriously, how can you If you curl your lips and feel unhappy, you will mind for a long time. As his friend, I don't want any conflicts between you, so don't think too much about it, you know?"

I was silent for a long time, and said, "Lin Yan."

"……what?"

I opened my mouth to ask him if he likes Song Xiuming, but I didn't ask him in the end.

At the end of the treatment session, Song Xiuming came upstairs to find me.We said goodbye to Lin Yan, and Song Xiuming said, "Shall we have dinner together?"

I nodded and said, "OK."

We found a small restaurant next to the hospital, and it happened to be very crowded in the evening.Song Xiuming and I found a small seat by the window and sat down.

I stared at the traffic outside the window in a daze, and it took a long time before I heard Song Xiuming's voice calling me.Looking back, I heard him helplessly say: "Xiao Le, what happened to you these two days, are you still unhappy about what happened a few days ago?"

I watched him silently for a long time, and finally couldn't help but say what I had been holding back in my heart: "Song Xiuming, if you heard everything that man said, you wouldn't be sitting here and eating with me."

Song Xiuming was startled, and then said softly: "No."

"You will." I said firmly.

If he saw how I was insulted in front of so many people, even he would feel like being slapped in the face.I'm his man, but I've had promiscuous sex with so many people, and they're all bad, disgusting men.

When I think of such things, I even loathe myself, always feeling that I am not good enough for Song Xiuming.

Yes, in fact, I am indeed not worthy, but I have never thought about this problem.

I've been thinking about how I felt when I saw him and Lin Yan that day, and I've been thinking about why since that day I don't want to see Lin Yan, don't want to talk to him, even no matter what he said, it's in my ears with thorns.

Because I'm jealous of him.

He is a doctor like Song Xiuming, and both of them have higher education than me, so I don't know where to go.Lin Yan has appearance, temperament, and ability. From these points alone, he is much better than me.No matter in terms of knowledge, character, or past, I can't compare to him.And although he never said it all the time, he regarded himself as Song Xiuming's friend, but I could still feel the slight difference in his attitude towards Song Xiuming.It's just that he has been helping me with treatment, and he has never done anything bad, so I didn't ask, because I didn't want to embarrass Song Xiuming.

But when I saw him and Song Xiuming standing together, I suddenly had a feeling of "ah, these two people are more suitable for each other".

I have always felt that this kind of emotion can only be produced by those hypocritical protagonists in novels, and I never thought it would happen to me.Once the person next to Song Xiuming is replaced by me, a person like me who wears prosthetics, has not completely left the crutches, and can't even walk steadily, let alone a person with a dark history in the past... It's really discordant ...

I tried to shake myself off the thought.I told myself that Lin Yan, Song Xiuming and I were not from the same world.Song Xiuming knows this. I emphasized it to him many times when I resisted him at the beginning, so he should be mentally prepared when he chooses to be with me, and I shouldn't worry about it here. That.What I need to do is work hard, work hard to get my body back, and work hard to get my life back on track.

But the mood never came up.

I said, "Song Xiuming, if one day someone points to my nose in front of you and calls me an MB, you will lose face."

Song Xiuming's face darkened, and he said, "Don't say such things."

I will not say anymore.

Song Xiuming stared at me, was silent for a few seconds, and said, "Xiao Le, I don't want to hear you say such things again. I said you are not that kind of person and you are not. Don't look down on yourself so much."

I twitched the corners of my mouth and said nothing.

We finished our meal in silence and then went our separate ways.

When Song Xiuming came back at night, he didn't say a word. After taking a shower and lying on the bed for a long time, he suddenly broke my shoulder and turned over and pressed me on top of me.

I was a little surprised, before he could speak, he pressed down and kissed my lips, while reaching into my clothes.

His movements are not as gentle as before, and he always feels a little anxious.I felt a little uncomfortable and pushed him away, but he clasped my hand on top of my head, and put his other hand into my pants to knead the place where I was kneading.

I was a little sad, but he blocked my mouth and couldn't make a sound. I couldn't help but feel a little sour in my eyes.

After a few seconds, Song Xiuming let go of me.In the dark, he looked at me closely for a long time, his breathing was still hot and disordered, suddenly he lowered his head and kissed me tenderly, sighed and said: "Xiao Le, you have changed."

I looked at him blankly.

Song Xiuming let go of my hand, stroked my side lightly, buried his head in the hollow of my shoulder, and said softly: "Even if you have been on a crooked road before, you have come back now... Don't think about the past. Something happened, okay? We got here so hard, don't let the past affect our present."

I was stunned, and after a while I closed my eyes.

Yeah... the past has been so bad, it's impossible to screw up the present and the future.

For Song Xiuming's words, I cheered up.

The next day, under the worried eyes of Song Xiuming, I reassured that I was back to normal before he was willing to send me to T University.Liang Liang and I opened the shop early as usual, made egg pancakes and warmed up soy milk.

As the weather gets warmer, more and more students get up early.

After discussing with Liang Liang, I decided to buy some tea bags as Lin Luo said, to study the taste of tea drinks.At the same time, more and more people knew Liang Liang and me.

Every afternoon when we were making octopus balls, some girls stayed in front of our shop and chatted with us.

They said that many of their friends now know both of us, and people come to ask our names.Liang Liang was very surprised and asked them why.

The girls looked at each other and smiled, and said in a low voice, because it was the first time they met such two handsome guys among the people who were doing this kind of breakfast business next to their university.

Liang Liang blushed and smiled foolishly, and I couldn't help laughing too.

Probably seeing me laughing, one of the girls pointed at me and said, "Now everyone calls Mo Le the omelette boy!"

I was stunned, and when Liang Liang burst out laughing, I gave him a hard look.

In the evening, I talked to Liang Liang and left the shop early.I called and asked Song Xiuming if he could come back for dinner tonight. Song Xiuming was a little surprised, but he didn't ask why, and just whispered with a smile that he would definitely be back.

I jumped up in my heart and went to the market to buy some vegetables, planning to make dinner for Song Xiuming.

Although I have learned to cook and cook for a long time, it is the first time to prepare a dinner by myself.My level is not easy to grasp, even though Song Xiuming always praises my dishes every time I taste them, I can still tell the difference between a compliment with a smile and a painful frown.

I went home early, washed and picked vegetables, and was busy clumsily in front of the stove.

It was almost 06:30 before I made three dishes and one soup, and served them hot on the table.

I wiped my hands and sat at the table expectantly waiting for Song Xiuming to come back, but it was seven o'clock and I still hadn't waited for him to come back.

I was a little confused, so I called Song Xiuming again.

However, no one answered after a long time.

I waited and waited until eight o'clock and I still couldn't get through the phone, so I finally couldn't help worrying.

After hesitating for a while, I called Lin Yan and was quickly picked up.

Lin Yan's voice sounded very strange, as if he had just been busy and was very tired.He said: "Something happened here, Song Xiuming couldn't go back, and his mother was sent to the hospital."