memory castration

After turning into an alley with few people, Yang Wenxiong blamed himself: "It's all because I can't hide things in my heart, and I can tell you everything. If something bad happened just now...fucking my mouth is so cheap!"

"It's none of your business." I held the slightly deformed handlebar, "I already knew about it."

"How do you know?" He widened his eyes in shock.

"His cousin came to Ninghai and told me personally, but I didn't believe it."

Yang Wenxiong patted me on the shoulder, "What, life is hard to die, don't take it to heart and affect your life."

"It's okay, grandma is gone, I'm still alive and well."

"That's right, that Xiao Ziqi is not a good guy, if he bothers you in the future, just tell me."

"Thank you."

"My brother, why are you so polite! Go to my house to play when you have time, Xiaomi is about to learn to walk now."

After returning to the fast food restaurant, the boss saw that I was in a mess, asked me why and didn't ask me to pay compensation, but said happily: "It's good that people are fine, and you must be careful when you go on the road in the future. Safety comes first, you know?"

I love the city of Ninghai, the four distinct seasons, the friendly citizens, and the neighbors and friends who give me warmth and care.

It would have been nice if Li Xinlong had chosen to stay...

When I was 17 years old, I grew to 1.7 meters [-]. I was a model student in the teacher's heart, a good monitor of the students, and the best employee in the fast food restaurant owner's heart.

Yang Wenxiong often complained to me, "My mother talks about it every day, how good it is to talk about it, and how this child grows up, and my ears are about to grow calluses!"

I put the ice cream in front of him, "For you, to appease your jealous heart."

He ate contentedly, his eyes widening as he looked at the crowd passing by outside the glass.

"Who are you arresting? You have been staying here for the past few days." There were few people in the store in the afternoon, and the boss left me alone to look after the store. I sat down and chatted with him as there were no customers.

His face turned red, "Who can I catch, sit and play, you can blow the air conditioner and have someone treat you."

I drank ice water and whispered: "It's fine if you don't tell the truth. I wanted to tell the name of the girl who comes to eat red bean ice every day."

"What's your name?" He showed a hungry expression, "Don't be a fool, tell me quickly!"

"Jiang Xiaomeng, she's in the third class of fashion design at the vocational high school opposite our school."

"Fuck, why do you know so clearly?"

"Because she is a key customer of our store, she can attract a lot of boys every time she comes, and the boss said that she should be treated specially."

Yang Wenxiong grabbed my arm, "Is there anything else?"

I said: "Others? She is very low-key, but she likes to watch and play basketball. It is said that her parents are divorced and she has a fierce younger sister. And... by the way, she will go to No. [-] Middle School to see the art exhibition on Saturday. You can take the opportunity to perform."

He hummed sourly, "You even know this, don't you have any thoughts about her?"

"Don't worry, she is not my dish, your opponent is the large group of boys at noon."

"If it's not you, I don't believe anyone else would dare to rob me!" He said

His tone was harsh, and his eyes were fierce and hostile.

I was a little worried, so I persuaded him, "Don't fight all day long, you worry Uncle Yang and Aunt Yang, you don't want to hang around like this, do you?"

When he was a child, Yang Wenxiong just fought and bullied people who didn’t like it. Now he seems to have completely liked this kind of bloody life. I have seen him smashing people’s heads with bricks. If it wasn’t for being stopped by everyone, he might be killed sooner. up.

He is now so arrogant that he is well-known in the entire Ninghai High School. No matter which school he goes to, no one dares to provoke him.I am always afraid that he will go astray and go all the way to the dark.

My worries came true a few days later. Yang Wenxiong broke a boy's arm because of Jiang Xiaomeng, and he was finally dismissed by the school after he had a lot of criminal records.

On the day Yang Wenxiong left No. [-] High School, I went to see him off, and was surprised by hundreds of members at the school gate, including classmates I knew and street hooligans.

He stood in front of the crowd and delivered his speech in style. No one below dared to speak out, and everyone had a dignified face, just like the embryonic form of a mafia gang.

In the end, he put his arms around my shoulders and introduced to everyone, "This is my best buddy, Fang Yibai, who always ranks first in his grade, you must all know each other. After I leave, you all treat him as a friend. Boss, if you let me know who dares to be disrespectful to him, I will drag him out and flog his corpse even if I search Ning Hai all over... Do you hear me clearly?"

Everyone said in unison: "Listen clearly!"

Yang Wenxiong waved his hand, "Let's disband, the ones I called just now will get together with Brother Chunfenglou tonight."

After everyone left, I asked him, "You really don't study anymore?"

"Stop studying, pay the school every year, and don't let me sleep in class, it's boring."

"Where's that Jiang Xiaomeng, are you not chasing him?"

"Fuck you!" He kicked the stones on the ground and cursed, "She's just a bus, she's had two abortions, if I knew she was such a woman, I wouldn't even want it!"

I couldn't keep my mouth shut for a long time when I heard the news, that girl looked quite innocent, I didn't expect...

"Sorry, I don't know about this..."

"It's okay, I know you well, and you have no evil intentions at all. If someone troubles you in the future, you can go to the West Street Hair Salon and call Tiger. I have taken care of you, and he will help you. Uncle introduces you to me. I got a job as a security guard at an entertainment center in Jiangcheng, and we won't be able to play together in the future, and I really miss you."

The two grew up wearing the same pair of trousers, and now they are no different from brothers. It hurts me to hear what he said.

I clenched my fist and thumped his chest lightly, "Jiangcheng is different from Ninghai. You don't know the place where you live there. If you encounter problems, you can bear with it. Don't fight with others easily, you will suffer easily, understand?"

He laughed heartily, "Okay, I'll listen to you!"

Some people say that the older you get, the more lonely you become. This sentence makes sense, because there are always acquaintances who slowly disappear from life, and those positions are left empty, which can no longer be filled.

After Yang Wenxiong left, Yu Wei was still there. People often greeted me on the way after school, "Brother Fang, you are back from school."

I couldn't laugh or cry when I still used the honorific title, "Just call me Bai."

"That won't work. If he calls you like Brother Xiong, he will definitely not spare us lightly."

I smiled and left quickly on my bicycle.Although I don't discriminate against them, I really don't want to get involved with these people.

In a blink of an eye, I was already in my third year of high school, and Yang Wenxiong began to call me frequently, "Yibai, come to Jiangcheng to study in college, I will cover you."

This was a difficult choice for me, and the teacher encouraged me from time to time, praising Yanling University in Jiangcheng to the sky.But I don't know why, but I always have a strong sense of rejection towards this city.

In the end, under the wheel battle of Uncle Yang and Aunt Yang, I was finally defeated.In the hearts of the elders, Yanling University = the best university in the country = celebrities in business and politics / a lot of money / a lot of face.

Aunt Yang took my hand and said, "When I went to Jiangcheng, I still have Wenxiong to take care of me. We can't count on that child, so I hope you will be a little bit promising, and when you grow up, we will be lucky!"

After handing in the voluntary form, my heart was like a sponge that had absorbed enough water, and I couldn't relax no matter what.

I have never traveled far since I was a child, and the Jiangcheng I know are all the words I heard from TV and people around me: high-rise buildings, every inch of land and every dollar, the illusion of the poor, and the paradise of the rich.

, I started to set foot in Jiangcheng, met a man named Xu Yifei by chance, and started a different life from then on.