memory castration

How could I suddenly lose my memory?Of course it was pretending, but the current situation cannot be admitted even if killed.

After the two looked at each other for a while, Xu Yifei didn't seem to find any flaws, so I tried to bite the bullet and walk out.

"Wait, take away the notepad you forgot here." When he was about to reach the door, he suddenly reminded me.

"Where is it?" I blurted out, knowing something was wrong before I turned around, and quickly denied: "What book? I don't know what you're talking about."

I had a notepad that I exchanged from Xiao Ziqi when we were living together before, and I accidentally stuffed it in my pillow and forgot to take it away. I didn’t expect Xu Yifei to take it out today and caught me off guard.

I went ahead before my heart moved, and when I was about to run, he said coldly: "Run if you have the guts, if you can walk out of the gate, I won't be named Xu!"

Xu Yifei has always been a man who is honest but not lenient, and who resists but is strict. He hates me for lying to him the most. The kicks I kicked last time still hurt a little now.

After confronting each other for a while, I sighed and turned back, "It's up to you to kill or kill, but don't make things difficult for Jiang Xiaohu."

The years with him have already polished off the sharp edges and corners of my character and sense of justice, but Jiang Xiaohu who appeared inadvertently reminded me of two people: one is Fang Yibai who was running around for a living back then, and the other One is Li Xinlong, the first love who loves to cry.

There are 60 billion people on the earth, and it is not easy for all living beings to rub shoulders, not to mention that I have a chance to meet him.

Although Xu Yifei hates me, it won't go to the point of murdering me. Some flesh and blood injuries can exchange for a person's safety, and it's worth it.

However, I seemed to have underestimated his hostility. With a cigarette in his mouth, he sprayed all the smoke on my face, and said mockingly: "Fang Yibai, you've only been out for a few days, and you're really good at it. It's hard to guarantee, and you dare to bargain with me."

I smiled wryly, "How dare a small person like me raise conditions with Mr. Xu, please believe me this is a plea from the bottom of my heart."

"Pleading?" He snorted coldly, "Why can't I see that you are begging for help?"

He sat down on the sofa, spread his legs and said proudly: "Kneel down and kowtow to me ten times, and today's matter will be written off."

It turned out to be this condition, and I was ridiculously relieved in my heart.He said that a man has gold under his knees, but my self-esteem is worthless. He wanted to make fun of me, but he obviously miscalculated.

Xu Yifei likes dog crawling on the bed. I spent most of my sex in these years kneeling on the bed, my legs were sore and sore after work, and my knees were almost calloused.

Compared to those days of self-respect, ten bangs are really nothing, anyway, I have never had any shame in front of him.

Han Xin still has to endure the humiliation of his crotch, let alone me, a mediocre little person?

But different from the previous time, I loved him in the past, so I was willing to be humiliated, but now I am forced, and the little remnants after the breakup have long been tossed away by his willful pride.

Xu Yifei, you'd better keep in mind the pleasure of being domineering today. One day, if it falls into my hands, you must return this shame ten times and a hundred times back!

Ten clicks, really easy.

After taking a deep breath, I knelt down, and every time I bent down, I pressed my forehead heavily on the hard as ice floor.

One hit, two hits... There was a sound of hitting the ground, and every time I hit the ground, there was a buzzing sound in my head, as if a beehive had been poked open.

I hated him in my heart, but my face was full of respect. I worshiped him as my dead ancestor. I had never been so devout when I visited my grandma's grave.

I am commemorating the seven years that have passed away, remembering the love that has been lost in my memory, and starting today to make a long memory, I will never fall twice in the same place again, those proud bones that have been smashed by love, I have to learn to put them away Reassemble them one by one!

After ten beeps, I stood up while stroking my bleeding forehead, and asked politely, "Is Mr. Xu satisfied?"

He stared at me without speaking, his eyes were as deep as two pools of cold water.

I said to myself, "That's the end of the matter, thank you Mr. Xu for your generosity."

Xu Yifei still didn't say anything, his eyes were a little dazed, as if he remembered something else.

I went out and saw Jiang Xiaohu being pinned to the ground in the yard.

It must have been Xu Yifei's previous instruction. In just ten minutes, there were more wounds on his body, the light-colored jeans were completely dyed, and a large red patch under the knee made me dizzy.

"Can I go?" I asked with some concern.

He bit his lip and nodded, walked two steps but knelt down and cried again, presumably because of a broken bone and severe pain.

"Come on," I squatted down in front of him, "my car is parked outside, and I will take you to the hospital right away."

Jiang Xiaohu paused, hesitantly climbed onto my back, whimpered softly, "Brother Fang, thank you, thank you..."

I remained silent, feeling a little sad. Eleven years ago, I carried such a frail young man on my back, and his leg was also injured at that time.

I walked all the way and cried, my collar was soaked by his tears, my heart was going to be softened by his crying...

Time flies so fast, I never dreamed that I would be reduced to today, and he would sleep forever underground at the age of 17.

Things are wrong.

When I walked out the gate with him on my back, I clearly felt Xu Yifei's gaze on my back.

He likes to base his happiness on the pain of others. Seeing us in such a mess, he should be very happy, right?

I'm actually happy too, really.

When I was a child, I had a malignant sore on my leg, which was so painful that my grandmother took me to the hospital. I couldn’t bear to see the cruel methods of those doctors. I just ordered some anti-inflammatory and pain-relieving medicines, but the result became more and more serious. One leg was swollen to twice its normal size, and I couldn't even fit my pants.

I had no choice but to go to the hospital, where a few injections of anesthetic were given around the sore, and the doctor used a scalpel to forcefully gouged out the necrotic pus.

There was an extra hole in my leg, and it was horrifying to see through the thin layer of skin. In the end, the nurse filled the hole with a cotton plug soaked in disinfectant.

The anesthetic lost its effect halfway through, and that kind of pain... still makes me tremble all over thinking about it.

The doctor said that fortunately, he came in time, otherwise, if it breaks into the bone, amputation may be possible.

After only half a month, the new flesh has grown, and now there is only a very shallow scar on the surface, which cannot be discerned if you don't look carefully.

This incident taught me two profound lessons: one is to treat the disease early, and the other is not to be afraid of pain when the disease does not hurt in the future.

Xu Yifei is like that malignant sore, it is a blessing in misfortune for me to eradicate it before it dies.

The matter finally subsided before Yang Wenxiong came back, but the fire could not be contained after all, and he still got some news.

He pondered: "Is this the person Xu Yifei put on your old lover's face this time?"

I nodded solemnly, laughed at myself and said, "Yes, he gave me a lot of face."

He seemed to understand something from my expression, but he just patted me on the shoulder without saying a word.

"Nobita, I want to leave Jiangcheng." I said to him calmly, I felt sick to my stomach when I thought of meeting Xu Yifei in the future.

I will take revenge, but not now, I need time.

Yang Wenxiong was stunned, "Where do you want to go next?"

"Of course it's Ninghai. No matter how good a foreign country is, it's not your homeland."

Although Ninghai is not as prosperous as Jiangcheng, there are more opportunities in the developing city, and there is no object that I dislike.

Yang Wenxiong laughed, raised his hand and gave me a firm hug, "It's a brother who has a good heart!"

Seeing my puzzled face, he smiled more flamboyantly, "Do you know where I'm going to discuss business?"

My heart skipped a beat and I said in a trembling voice, "Are you going back to Ninghai too?"

He put his fist on my chest, "I've had enough of this place. The air pollution is serious and there are traffic jams every day. How nice is Ninghai, with beautiful mountains and rivers and people we know well. A few days ago, I talked with the local government about support projects and The policy is much better than Jiangcheng, which has been stripped of its skin. It’s hard for me not to be tempted. I have no education and I’m too lazy to socialize with others. I will have to rely on you. I’ve taken down half of Jiangcheng, let alone Ninghai, which was originally our territory? Don’t be afraid that Xu Yifei looks down on people now, we still have to play in the future!”

Back to Ninghai!My body is gradually boiling, but I think before I leave Jiangcheng, I have to see someone.

That person gave me the greatest comfort when I was the most lost in my life, although he later reneged on his original promise.

It’s fine if you forgot about him before, if you think about it today, let’s go and have a look!