Rational derailment

When he opened the envelope and saw the HIV test result sheet, Miller's hand trembled and the paper fell to the floor.

That's how it is... Sure enough.

Before taking it apart, Miller thought about all kinds of possibilities, including the worst possibility. Even when he thought of HIV, for some reason, he had an intuition that this should be it.

Judging from today's behavior, Wu Si shouldn't suddenly loathe him, at least not to the point of refusing to let him touch it. reason.

For my own good and to protect myself, I pushed myself away at all costs.

I was in the box that night, because I was afraid that I would be infected by him, so I resisted like this... Miller lay on the sofa, feeling dizzy, as if he was lying on a boat, floating on the sea , Hehe, it's really unrealistic enough.

My thoughts were messed up, my mind was messed up, my mood was even more confused, I felt terrible, but also felt a little bit of relief, and then I was ashamed of this bit of relief, why did it happen, why didn't I tell myself, why, why.

Of course, the most are still question marks.

Closing his eyes, Miller forced himself to calm down, but the dizziness became even stronger. He had to sit up and find Wu Si's cigarettes under the coffee table. While digging out the cigarettes, he also saw several bottles of medicine. He picked it up and found that it was blocking medicine, and there were still many empty bottles in the coffee table, it seemed that he had already taken a lot.

When looking through the instructions of the blocker drug, I found its side effects, and soon I thought of the scene where Wu Si almost got anorexia and passed out. At that time, the reason why he refused to go to the hospital and the reason why he asked the psychiatrist to give him an injection , everything makes sense.

However, while understanding him, there is also a touch of sadness unavoidable.He was so weak that he passed out in front of him, even so, he still pushed himself away, isolated from this secret, and he did not hesitate to call people who were so far away from him, but he was unwilling to reach out to him.In his opinion, is he that unreliable?What is he afraid of?

The more he thought about it, the more chaotic he became, and the more he couldn't calm down, Miller lit a cigarette for himself and let the nicotine numb his restless nerves.Don't worry, don't guess randomly, don't panic, let's go through it from the beginning, what is going on.

In reverse, Wu Si suspected that he was infected with HIV, so he went to check, but he didn't tell this to himself who had a relationship with him, and he didn't ask himself to check, which meant that the person who made him suspicious was not himself. And it doesn't matter whether he is infected with HIV or not.

It was something that happened after the last time he had sex with him that made him think he might have HIV because of that.

Damn it, what could it be, what could have happened to make him keep his mouth shut even if he caused such harm to the two of them!

Too many possibilities were revolving in his mind like a lantern, and every possibility made Miller startled. When the ashes fell on his pants, he frantically pressed the cigarette out in the ashtray.

Can't think of any results at all.

Can't help it anymore, Miller is eager to know the truth, if he doesn't know, he must not be able to work quietly, what city code finale, what Louis, what box office, he just wants to know what happened to Wu Si !

Did he have an affair with a carrier?It's nothing, maybe it was just a one-night stand, maybe it was a friend in China, the situation was so bad at the time, he might have been too stressed and drunk, and slept with someone else in a daze.

It's okay, I can accept it.

Even though he said so, Miller still felt his hands clenched slowly, a little suffocated, this kind of possessiveness is really... involuntary.

He took out his phone, dug out the call history, found the number that didn't even have a name on it, and called back.

Miller was disappointed by his weakness.At this moment, he is no longer a successful big director, no longer a well-bred gentleman, he is just a fool caught in a whirlpool of love.

"Sorry, I called you suddenly." The phone rang for a long time before being picked up, and Miller deeply felt that he had disturbed the other party.

"It's okay, I was the one who troubled you first." Lian Han's voice sounded calm, as if he wasn't curious about the call.

"Please tell me what happened." Miller also did not overdo it, bluntly explaining the intention of making this call. "I already know about the test."

"Then what else can I tell you, since I already know it."

"It's not what he told me." It's the test sheet I found myself.

"I'm sorry, I'm a doctor with professional ethics. I can't disclose the patient's privacy to others." Lian Han's tone was very polite, but the meaning in his words was very strong.

"..." Although he knew this would be the result, Miller still didn't give up and wanted to try to ask, and he was convinced that he knew everything on the other end of the phone, and Wu Si told him everything.

It's really... the flying vinegar that shouldn't be eaten, but I still can't help caring about it.

"Although I can't tell you what happened, but he did it for your own good. Since the result is good, let it pass." I believe Wu Si also has this hope, please leave this page alone. Turn it over.

The result of getting to the bottom of it will only hurt him again.Of course, thinking this way is from the standpoint of Wu Si's friend, and it's impossible to be fair.

"Hehe..." With an uncontrollable sneer, Miller closed his eyes, knowing that he could no longer hide his emotions, so he simply said in pain, "It's for my own good, who of you knows what is good for me?" ?Don’t wantonly think that this is the case, and make the judgment that I think is right for me. Have you ever thought that if the ending is not like this, then I have missed the opportunity to stay by his side for the rest of my life? Who told you, If he gets HIV, will I definitely leave him?"

No, the more direct words should be, this is too unfair, just because you don’t want me to suffer, so don’t let me share your pain, let other people stay by your side, this is nothing, not even a chance to work hard If you give it to me, you will be given the exit card directly!

I don't want to be so good at all!

On the other end of the phone, after a long silence, he said calmly, "I can understand your desire to know everything now, but after you know it, will you let him know that you know it?"

"Of course." The answer blurted out.Miller hadn't tried to hide anything from him at all.

"Yes, you will let him know that you know everything he wants to hide from the mouths of other people." Lian Han sighed, "Since the result is known, let him tell you by himself, this is originally There should not be a third person intervening in the problems between the two of you."

These words made Miller's dizzy head finally calm down. Too many things happened today, and he had the illusion that it had actually been a long time.I was so excited, I never thought that if Wu Si knew that he would not hesitate to dig out the truth from other people, with his character, he would definitely be very angry.

"And," added Lian Han on the other end of the phone, "I believe that you can find a way to let him tell you. If you think you must know, convey this feeling to him."