Observation Diary in Yokohama

Osamu Dazai did not say these words casually.After seeing that text message, he can probably guess what's going on.This was within his expectations, but it was also beyond his expectations.

A long time ago, he had already made his neighbor's character very clear.

Not very close to other people, although somewhat social.Will not be angry, as if there is no such nerve.Looking at many things, he is more like a bystander, and he is obviously involved in it.

Perhaps even the neighbor himself did not realize that, on certain occasions, spontaneous emotions cannot be deceived.

Gojo Satoru will leave, this choice is very normal.When he approached Hoshihara Kazuya, he felt that he came with a purpose, and even the target himself was aware of it, so it was really aboveboard.

The purpose of coming to find someone is nothing more than to find out something.

He is not a magician, and he doesn't mix in this circle, but he has heard about some things.For example, the existence of the curse.

Regarding the invisible curse, he had a guess, and today is the real confirmation.

The unknown thing that came to warn him was the same existence that Gojo Satoru wanted to figure out.

I'm afraid I also have some understanding of this through the unhappy breakup some time ago.After feeling bored, I was ready to leave.

I am afraid that it is a bit too much to say that it is boring, but I just feel that there is no solution.

Hoshihara Kazuya has a very good temper, no matter how critical someone is to evaluate him, he will not force himself to say bad words.But this in itself is flawed.This is not to say that people with mild personalities have problems, but because the master we are talking about now does have some psychological problems.

This is the point no one else can help.

They knew nothing about Hoshihara Kazuya's past, no one knew what he had experienced, and no one knew what he was thinking.Even he, who claims to be able to "read people's hearts easily", sometimes feels helpless about his brain circuits.

......

A lot of thoughts flashed through my mind, and they were all quickly suppressed, without revealing the slightest flaw.

After making a decision, Osamu Dazai will naturally run in this direction with all his strength.

The hands that were naturally hanging on the sides unconsciously pulled down the clothes, twirled them, raised his head slightly, and kept his eyes at a parallel level.Unusual, the always cynical face turned into a serious look, "Well, let's not talk about anything else. As the only friend who has been personally stamped by the official, it is my responsibility to explain to a friend who is not in a good mood, right?"

"You don't need to answer my boring question. All you have to do is say what you want to say. Don't worry about leaking any bad things. Believe me, my mouth is very strict~"

When he said the last sentence, his tone suddenly rose, with a little complacency in it, it was very appropriate, and he was in a place where he would not be hated by others.

The movement of Hoshihara Kazuya's hand became slower, and finally stopped.

With his back to the person, he can't judge the emotion of the person he is facing through subtle expressions, and he has no way to make an appropriate performance.This situation is very passive for him.

This is the first time he has experienced this situation in so many years.There was a feeling that things were out of control, but unexpectedly, he didn't intend to turn around and show politeness.

Maybe it was because that sentence [the only friend who was personally stamped by the official] touched him, or it was the unobvious concern implied in the flat tone of the person behind him.

The long-standing camouflage seems to be breaking down, as if it can't stand up anymore.

In his mind, large pieces of blood red began to play back and forth again, and the surrounding environment became noisy, screaming, pleading, despair... In a short period of time, he seemed to "see" all kinds of life .

As of today, he has to face such a reality.

He was never a brave man, just a coward who dared not look back.

Otherwise, these pictures would not be played back and forth repeatedly in his mind.So why?Is it to remind him to recognize his own essence all the time?

Ha, suddenly felt a little ridiculous.

......

This feeling of facing collapse did not last long, only a short moment.After that moment, Hoshihara Kazuya once again successfully put back his gentle mask.

However, he still didn't choose to turn around.It's like a vicious big cat putting away its sharp minions and exposing the most vulnerable part to the enemy without thinking about the consequences.

There was a long silence, only the sound of "gulu" and "gulu" sounded in the quiet kitchen.

No one spoke first, as if they were playing a game, whoever spoke first would lose.

"Mr. Dazai, the two of us are not talking now. It looks like children who quarreled in kindergarten and are holding each other's breath." Hoshihara Kazuya chuckled and did not directly answer the question.

Osamu Dazai is not a person who likes to persecute others, and the current situation is much better than he thought.I didn't encounter the madness that was punctured, and I didn't see the excessive reaction from above. Now it's the best situation.

He continued on this topic, "When you are close to vermilion, you will be red, and if you are close to ink, you will be black. Haven't you heard of this sentence, Xiao Xingyuan? When you are with a 'childish' person like me, you will naturally become Childish. Kindergarten disciplinary committee, don't you think?"

This sentence is obviously expressing the fact that Xingyuan Kazuya described him as a child in kindergarten some time ago.

Hoshihara Kazuya, who was forced to have an extra job, also laughed silently, and his tense body relaxed, and the words he spoke were much better, without the feeling that he was about to collapse.

"I was not such a naive person before. I have never had this kind of experience with other people. I have never experienced chicken-style bickering in primary school. But it is really a bit novel. It's just that the position of kindergarten discipline committee member I don’t admit it, Mr. Dazai, don’t try to drag me into the water. As the only normal person among you, I still want to be an adult.”

The quick-witted Osamu Dazai easily extracted some important information from this piece of nonsense, which was "accidentally" exposed by their owner.

If you are not a naive person, you have no chance to be naive; if you have not quarreled with other people, you have not had any friendships, or to put it more seriously, you have not made friends.The only normal person........

It should be ironic.

It's a cryptic expression.

But being able to reveal so much information surprised even him.

Thinking of this, Osamu Dazai's eyes softened a lot.Today's communication is not face-to-face, is it not an attempt?Trying to send a "help" message to the outside world, although short, is indeed the snail's first step.

"Eh? Xiao Xingyuan, do you think so? It's really a bit surprising, but it's normal. This is just like your style. As the only adult, do you want to provide some physical things for kindergarten children? gone."

"I won't forget it. If it wasn't for Mr. Dazai's ingenuity, I'm afraid we would have had a hot meal by now, right?"

"Ah, so isn't this the reason why you have been silent for too long, Xiao Xingyuan?"

"So it's still my fault?" Xing Yuanhe was also a little skeptical about life, why the blame still fell on him in the end, there must have been some mistakes in the writing.

"Hmm, what else?" Osamu Dazai snorted softly, "I won't take part in your lord's affairs. However, there are some things that others can't help, and you have to do it yourself. Everyone understands this. I'm afraid it's not a good choice to put unrealistic ideas on outsiders. For example, you don't want me to help you cook. "

It didn't matter whether the person in the kitchen heard it clearly, after leaving this sentence, he turned around and left here, giving up all the space, and no longer disturbing the actions of the person in charge of the spoon.

After the sound of footsteps behind him disappeared, Hoshihara Kazuya picked up the spoon again and began to stir the contents of the pot to prevent them from sticking.

The movement of his hand has not stopped, but his mind has long gone to nowhere.

For the words just now, he understood the deep meaning contained in it.Although it was kind, there was still a feeling of shame that the only cover was cut open in the public, and it was seen too clearly.

Now he suddenly began to feel glad that he didn't turn around, otherwise he would look like a wretched person in the eyes of another person.

Can knots be untied only by oneself?

By himself?

The scene began to repeat in my mind again, every tiny detail was magnified, and nothing would be missed.

Forget it, or don't think about it.

The grunting in the kitchen started again.

Osamu Dazai, who was lying down on the sofa again, did not feel as crisp as when he left just now.The raised hand was holding his own mobile phone, and the mobile phone was sliding aimlessly, and he didn't know what he was looking at.

Gently tap the screen and open the chat software.After staring at it for a long time, his brows were furrowed, and the expression on his face was also very tangled, as if he was making some difficult decision.

It took too long to make a decision, and he finally made up his mind, and his fingers fell on the cat whose head was wearing sunglasses.

[Human dementia: You can't do it, conjurer, I have to deal with this kind of thing.You really think of me as a spiritual teacher, are you not afraid that I will lead people astray? ]