deceased into ashes

In the rain, in the mud, this is the first time my heart has been tortured, and it has long been trampled on again and again without emotion.

Tears can't merge into a sail in the sea that can return with a full load, and can't take away the fragmented memories.

It was heavy, Zhou Qianyi seemed to have had a long, long sweet dream, Yu Qingyue in the dream, smiled and pulled her to walk in a sea of ​​flowers, pinned a small daisy on her temple, and hugged her with a smile Go around in circles by yourself.

The person in the dream seems to be gentle... In the deep dream, she suddenly waved her hand to herself, and walked to the other side of the sea of ​​flowers, which was the far coast. She wanted to chase after her, but she couldn't. Many times, it hurts.

It's so far away, so far away, I can't see it anymore...

She was getting farther and farther away from her, she was still smiling and waving to herself, but she could hardly see her on the other side of the bank.

Can I not leave, Zhou Qianyi thought in fear, she wanted to run over, but couldn't move.

In the sea of ​​flowers in the dream, she was the only one left in the end, with the little daisy she pinned for her.

Nothing was left.

When Zhou Qianyi opened her eyes, she felt heavy on her head and heavy on her body. The ceiling was white, but she felt that it was an unfamiliar environment.

The temperature all over her body seemed to be scorching hot. She tilted her head and saw a cat obediently looking at her.

The cat was white, with blue eyes, and looked chubby; seeing Zhou Qianyi woke up, it meowed lazily twice.

Then he started licking his hair again.

Someone opened the door and walked in. She removed the towel from Zhou Qianyi's forehead, touched it again, and said, "It's not that hot anymore."

It was a very familiar voice, and Zhou Qianyi called softly subconsciously: "Sister Yan..."

"Qianyi, wake up..." Yan Min helped her to sit up, took the cup next to her, blew on it, and took a sip before saying, "It's not hot anymore, take your medicine..."

Zhou Qianyi was wrapped in a small cotton blanket, her short hair was loose, and the bandage on her head made her whole face look small. She curled up obediently and held the cup to drink the medicine, and then obediently finished it.

She blinked her big eyes and looked at Yan Min, the tails of her eyes were reddish, she didn't know what she was doing for a moment, Yan Min only thought she was cute, touched her head, took a cartoon strawberry clip to clip Zhou Qianyi's bangs, This way her hair is less messy.

Zhou Qianyi didn't know what to say. She buried her head in the blanket, and from Yan Min's perspective, she could only see the cartoon strawberry clip. The fat white cat next to her was meowing in dissatisfaction, as if she was blaming her master for not rewarding her with snacks.

"Okay, Nuomi," Yan Min scratched the white cat's chin, and said softly, "I'll give you some snacks later, dear, go to the hall."

The white cat walked proudly into the hall.

Zhou Qianyi looked at the chubby figure of the cat, and asked, "Is your cat? It's so cute."

Yan Min turned around and smiled again: "My fat cat is called Nuomi, doesn't it look like a super big glutinous rice dumpling?"

That cat is white, soft, and a little fat, and it really looks like a glutinous rice dumpling.

"It's a Chinese pastoral cat that I picked up next to the store half a year ago," Yan Min picked up the cup and said, "It's a cross-breed cat, but it looks cute and has a stubborn temper."

She went to wash the cups in the hall, and the white cat was forced into the bedroom again, looking at Zhou Qianyi who was wrapped in a small blanket, it circled around her curiously.

"Your name is Nuomi." Zhou Qianyi stroked Nuomi's hair, and Nuomi lay beside her enjoying herself.

Zhou Qianyi has always liked cats since she was a child, but she never had time to take care of them. Yu Qingyue doesn't like keeping pets, and she has never had cats or dogs.

The glutinous rice must have been spoiled, its territory is everywhere, it wanted to lie in Zhou Qianyi's arms for a while, but was lured away by Yan Min who just came in with snacks.

The big cat waddled to the lobby to find its scratching post, while Yan Min handed it to Zhou Qianyi with the porridge, and said, "This is for nourishing the stomach. You haven't eaten all day, drink some. Be careful not to burn it."

It was hard for Zhou Qianyi to refuse, she was really hungry now, so the two of them sat in the quiet bedroom without talking, until Zhou Qianyi finished the porridge, Yan Min didn't ask a word about her.

"I'm going to wash the dishes. Do you want to eat anything else? It's probably a taboo these days, but it's okay. I can still make you something light."

"No, I'll just lie down for a while."

Yan Min went out again, Zhou Qianyi looked at the pink cotton pajamas on her body, then at the comfortable decoration of this home, and finally saw her things on the table in the hall.

It is estimated that Yan Min has already washed her clothes, the wound medicine has been pasted on her legs, and the stains on the small bag on the table have been wiped clean.

Yan Min is really a very warm girl.

Zhou Qianyi was already wrapping up the brown blanket, Yan Min didn't ask about her, probably because he was afraid that she would get hurt...

Do I really deserve her to treat me like this...

Then, what should I do next, go back to Yu Qingyue, or keep looking for a place to hide until I die?

Thinking of this, she couldn't help feeling a little sad.

Is this what she wants, the rest of her life...

The rain was still falling outside the window, and the soft lighting in the room made her feel more relaxed. Yan Min quickly finished washing the dishes and walked in. Seeing Zhou Qianyi staring blankly out of the window, she asked with a smile, "What are you thinking?"

"I was thinking about what I should do," Zhou Qianyi propped his chin, and said, "How should I compensate you...you are so kind to me..."

In Zhou Qianyi's subconscious mind, being kind to her must be reciprocated. Like when her father gave her money for surgery when she was a child, like when Yu Qingyue accompanied her for many years, she always gave.

Only Yan Min did not.

Yan Min treated her kindly without expecting anything in return, which made her feel very sorry.

"Do you want to repay me?"

"correct."

"Then let's be together, okay..."

"I want to take care of you for the rest of my life."

The last two sentences were spoken by Yan Min, and Zhou Qianyi heard them clearly.Yan Min knew about her condition, so he probably felt sorry for her.

"Sister Yan..." Zhou Qianyi turned around and hugged Yan Min who was close at hand: "I am very lucky to meet you."

"But I'm not that good, I don't deserve your..."

Yan Min patted her on the back lightly, smiled, and said, "Let's get better together, okay, Qianyi."

The temperature of two people is much warmer than that of one person. The lights in the dark night jump to guide the way to the future, like the dazzling light at the fireworks display, which makes people very happy.

"Okay." She tried to let go of the past and face the new, gentle person in front of her.

Before letting go, give each other a little light, a little warmth, maybe we will be better, better.

She spent the last time, unable to save her lover, so she tried to warm another, her confidant.

Hers, Yan Min.